Who You Are


I am in love with history and my family genealogy that lately I have been really thinking about getting tested about what is really running through my body. How much history runs through my family and I might get a better picture of the places I really come from. I’m an American woman, but after looking through old things like maps, books, etc there’s more than the American status. All my life I’ve known about being half German and Native American, but my nana and I have discovered that on my Papaw’s side he is half Dutch, but I’m talking WAY back in life, like 1700’s here. It’s all very interesting to see where you’re really about and that you’re a part of something even bigger than you thought you were. I mean, we did searches of our ancestry in school. In my case, it was pretty hilarious because my cousin and I were in the same history class and we both decided to choose our Papaw’s last name. Now when we looked it up, I only remember it saying “English” but now I’ve found more websites saying that it’s both English and Scottish. The name’s origin is from Scotland, England, Ireland, and Germany. On my dad’s side of the family, I’m really unsure about, all I know is that I’m half Native American on my dad’s side. I don’t know what else is there, that’s kind of the reason why I would like to get my DNA tested.

I like a lot of different things that I’m not sure why I like them so much. I mean, the celtic music is a big wonder to me because I don’t have a clue of how that started and I’ve been wondering if my ancestry has anything to do with that. I just want to know what percentage I am in each of these ethnics. I talked yesterday about the places I would like to travel to, I think if I ever find out where my ancestry is from, it would be interesting to study the history and culture of each place and I’ll definitely want to visit there one day. Do you think you’d ever get tested for something like this? If you were truly curious about your family came from and want to learn about the cultures, languages, and etc. Would you really do this? I’m getting about tired of wondering about who I am, maybe this is the road I need to be on. 

Heels Of Steel


For certain songs, I love lyrics to be sassy and sometimes in your face. Most of the time, it’s the men ruling that kind of attitude, but women are bringing out their own sets of rules and accepting the challenge to outdo the boys. Sometimes, the guys think it’s hot. I got into this one band by accident, but I think I get into them all by accident. This band is an all female band from Sweden and they are called Hysterica. They’re the modern-day version of The Runaways, and I think I was searching for other female fronted bands and somehow found their song “Heels” in the process. I love this song so much that I have found it to be empowering for me.

It’s empowering in a way to think you’re not going to let anybody get in your way, because you’re a female. I have been thinking that it’s just not about high heel shoes either, I think it’s any kind of shoe that makes you feel comfortable and that brings out that side of you that surprises the crap out of everybody else. The heels are a symbol to make you feel comfortable in your own skin no matter what and you can be as sassy as you want to be as well. Since I don’t wear shoes at all and being empowered by socks is a little weird. I’ve always been the one to scare a person away by my wheelchair. So my heels are my wheels. I mean, I am hell on wheels! I don’t mean to scare people away, it’s just a lot more funnier to run over a person’s foot when they’ve pissed you off. Or at least you used to be fun. I haven’t done it in a long time. I ran over a grandpa at a football game a while back and I haven’t forgiven myself yet.

I think women need more things to feel like they can take on the world. If you need a full closet of shoes to feel like you can conquer the world, I’m happy for you. If you need to wear your prized cowboy boots around when it’s about 100 degrees outside, I bow down to you. If you can’t walk on your own two feet and have a wheelchair, use crutches, or plastics, I am very proud of you. A lot of people think that woman aren’t smart enough or tough enough, I think we are. We just have different tolerances and ways to defend ourselves. We are not worthless or useless, as long as we keep the confidence up, nothing will get us down. That last line of the song, “get down on the ground and kneel/kiss my heels of steel” sounds a little kinky, but it’s not it’s saying something meaningful that you should kneel and kiss my feet because a female is not going to put up with your shit. That can be a certain individual or the world in general. We should raise up against the negatively and fight for ourselves. Nothing can stand in our way.