Always Left Behind…



This post was created on accident, scratch that, this entire situation was created on accident. It’s not exactly a “situation” either. It’s just something that tends to come up every now and then and finally I am ready to talk about it on here.

My sister is getting married next summer. We are getting really excited and nervous (mostly about bridesmaid dresses, the tuxes, weather, etc) about all those small details that you think wouldn’t pop into your head this early but they have and now you get to deal with them in advance!

One of the things that has been eluding my brain is about the bachelorette party. Back in July, Blondie didn’t want to do anything that would be considering a “party” well now she does, but she still has the same feelings about having an actual party part. So she began to text our mother for ideas plus ask how I would feel about it, I already get nervous enough whenever my mom wants to have a sit down talk with me because usually it’s something bad and this was no exception; because she was wanting to have all of the girls go further up the state and celebrate there since it’s the half way point for most of the ladies. However, the fact is that it’s such a long distance, my mom wasn’t really comfortable with that.  Blondie doesn’t want to do anything that excludes me, but I don’t like the fact that her bachelorette party would be basically centered around me because she was trying to get ideas on what to do.

I’ve been basically left out of a lot of different things. I say to people all the time that I don’t have any friends–I have online friends, but majority of them live across an ocean! I mean to say that I don’t have anybody that live close to me to where we could hang out every other weekend like normal friends do. The last time I hung out with a “friend” was in 2012. So yes, I am very much used to being the one that gets left behind.

I don’t know if my disability is to be blamed for this because now I have a lightweight wheelchair that everybody in my family (including myself) loves to hate. We’ve lost a wheel and I’ve fallen out of it a couple of times, but other than that it’s not bad. I wouldn’t consider it a wheelchair but that’s my problem. Anyways, I know what my problem is for this, it’s my weight. I get told frequently that I am getting heavy to lift. I always fear for the back and knees on other people because I know I’m causing more tension in those areas. I can’t change how much weight I put on though, nor can I allow the thought of it control what I put into my body either and I shouldn’t have to for the sake of hanging out with friends, you know?

This year has really been a year where I’ve gone with the flow to the best of my ability. It’s mostly because there were things that happened beyond my control and I felt like I didn’t need to have a say in whether or not I did it. I’ve felt more at peace knowing that I didn’t care about what an old friend was doing, if they haven’t talked to me or even spend a day hanging out with me than they’re not worth my time! Now you know why I deleted you…

Am I sick of always coming second? Absolutely, but am I okay with being the reason why my sister can’t do what she wants for her party, no. So where do I stand?


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How To Wrap Presents!



You’re probably wondering how I have a post about wrapping presents up this early? Well for starters, I have been blogging about my cousin’s pregnancy for the past year now and since my nana and I couldn’t make it to her baby shower back in October, she and I had come up with a plan to get some things for the baby. So my nana and I order two different sets of baby books so she and boyfriend Joe will be able to read to him at night once he’s born.

When it came time to wrap up these items, I really wanted to wrap the books that I had specificly picked out for the baby and I will mention right now that I have never wrapped a gift in my life! Somebody has always done it for me, which back then was fine because I have a slight phobia of tape. I’ve been doing pretty good at handling it recently, but I still can’t stand the sound of duct tape!

We were probably four presents in before she said “you know this would make a good blog post” and I grabbed my camera from my bag and we started taking pictures since I’ve never been properly taught how to wrap a present with my toes, we both figured it was time to learn! Of course, everybody has their own ways, they either do it all pretty or they half ass it. It’s whatever works for you I guess!

My nana gets sent small sections of festive wrapping paper every year and since we literally have a box full of paper we decided to put them into good use! If the item is small, you could cut the paper in half so you could save it for something else. So first, we unfolded a section of the paper and put the book in the middle of the paper, and then once it was in the right area we folded the sides of the paper into one another, we folded both sides inward and put tape on top to secure it in place.


After that, we moved onto the bottom and top parts of the package. We folded one side and each of the corners into the book itself, putting enough pressure to get out the creases before putting another slice of tape on top of that. We then moved onto the other side and repeated the same method.


When we finished those steps, we folded the left overs into the actual gift and taped that as well as that will secure that side completely. Once we were done, we moved onto the other side where we used the same techniques again.

All that’s left to do now is to put on your tags and bows if you so desire. My nana didn’t have her bows out yet so we only had the tags, but I thought it would be too much to have the bows on them!


I thought we did a pretty good job getting all of the gifts wrapped for when Kristi came down for Thanksgiving (yes, we did these six days before Thanksgiving!) and I tried to wrap the pacifiers and they were a disaster! I could only get one half, it was just a smaller area of wrapping paper and once I tried going for the top of it I realized why people just half ass wrapping gifts because I was really confused on how to make it look pretty like the rest!

I’m usually not that bad as a perfectionist, years ago when I was drawing in school, I was really hard on myself which is why I don’t draw now, but doing this was really testing my patience and I was really worried that I’d just give up on it! I still got through it though! I really love learning what else I can do with my toes. One thing that I was really happy about was the fact that I got both of my feet to corporate and work together nicely! Since I write with one foot and now type on my keyboard with the other, they’re finally understanding the word “teamwork” a little bit now!

How do you wrap your Christmas presents? What are your methods? Any tips?



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November Playlist!



I know I’m putting this up on a Monday instead of Tuesday, but last week I had to do a last minute 3 way switcharoo and I had no other way to get this up in the second week of December….

I have decided that there will be a double playlist for December. Of course, at the end of the year I have a few posts about how the year actually went that includes favorite blog posts and then I have to discuss film and music that I have loved throughout 2016! And then once January starts up, there will be the December monthly playlist that’ll include every Christmas based song I enjoyed in that month so I apologize in advance for that post!

I think the song of the month is “Scars To Your Beautiful” by Alessia Cara. It is so beautiful!

Waiting For The End – Linkin Park

Numb – Linkin Park

The Parting Glass – Celtic Woman

Fresh Eyes – Andy Grammer

I See Fire – Celtic Woman

Kids – OneRepublic

Mine – Taylor Swift

Booty – Jennifer Lopez ft. Iggy Azalea

Red Lips – GTA ft. Sam Bruno (Skrillex Remix)

Team – Iggy Azalea

Hard – Rihanna

Stay With Me – Thrice

Hated – Beartooth

Wait Your Turn – Rihanna

Trouble – Natalia Kills

Alone – Marshmello

Upgrade U – Beyonce

AM to PM – Christina Milian

I’m In Control – AlunaGeorge

This Is The Time – Nothing More

Square Hammer – Ghost

Gone – Afrojack feat. Ty Dolla $ign

Army – Ellie Goulding

Commanche – In This Moment

Gemini Feed – Banks

The House Of Shame – Lacuna Coil

Wild Horses – Birdy

Take My Breath Away – Alesso and Dillon Francis

Hey Baby – Dimitri Vegas & Like Mike and Diplo feat. Deb’s Daughter

Compass – Zella Day

Moving On – Asking Alexandria

Don’t Need You – Bullet For My Valentine

Ready For War (Pray For Peace) – Adelitas Way

The Worst In Me – Bad Omens

Tennessee – Kiiara

Throne – Bring Me The Horizon

She Sets The City On Fire – Gavin DeGraw

Who Am I Living For? – Katy Perry

Make Me (Cry) – Noah Cyrus ft. Labrinth

Castle (The Huntsman: Winter’s War) – Halsey

Paradise (What About Us) – Within Temptation ft. Tarja

A Prophecy To Our World’s End – Xandria

Gasoline – Halsey

Down & Dirty – Little Mix

That’s My Girl – Fifth Harmony

I Hate U I Love U – Gnash ft. Olivia O’Brien

The Weekend – Brantley Gilbert

What were you listening in November?


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Last Minute “Blogmas” Ideas!



So it is the first of December! I know a lot of people have been in the Christmas spirit since Halloween! For all of my British friends and everywhere else in the world, they don’t celebrate Thanksgiving so I’ve had to put my festive side on the back burner for some time. I finally changed my profile picture to Rudolph and switched to my “holiday name” on Twitter back to “Mistletoe Meghan” like always! I’m so excited I can finally talk about Christmas things and announce that I will be doing Blogmas for the second year in a row! And I am absolutely terrified that I’ll end up repeating too much of what I discussed last year!

I have been going through different blogs, reading up some of their ideas that they have listed during the month of November and I thought, what if there were still some bloggers or vloggers out there that are still unsure if they wanted to join the movement. So I was reminded about my little worry and thought it would do some good if I went back through my older stuff I blogged about and maybe they would be good examples for anyone who were still on the fence about the whole thing!

So here is what I talked about on here last year for my first round of Blogmas!

  1. What To Get A Blogger For Christmas – It’s a collection of different things that most bloggers normally talk about on their site! Ex: beauty products, books, new camera, etc!
  2. Christmas Advent Calendar – My nana gets a cute little advent calendar that she puts on her refrigerator and she and I put on a different sticker for whatever day it is to help countdown to Christmas!
  3. Favorite Christmas Movies – I listed a bunch of my favorite Christmas movies! From cherished childhood favorites like Home Alone and Santa Claus to National Lapoon’s Christmas Vacation! You could also do this with music too! 
  4. Christmas Lights In The Park – My mom and I went out to our park one night and drove around to pick out our favorite lights! The arches are still my favorite!
  5. Ugly Christmas Sweaters – I went on Wal-Mart website and picked out some of the most ugly ass Christmas sweaters! However, I thought most were more cute than ugly!
  6. Decorating The Christmas Tree – This post is about the day, my nana and I decided to put up the family tree by ourselves! It was a very interesting time all around!
  7. The Christmas Tag! – This was one of two Christmas tag that I’ve done on here! If you don’t want to do the standard Christmas-y posts, these are a good alternative!
  8. Christmas Cookies – It’s become a bit of a tradition to bake Christmas cookies as my nana’s! So we bake sugar cookies and decorate them to be sort of cute and festive!
  9. My Own Charlie Brown Christmas Tree – One year my mom surprised me with my very own Christmas tree for my room. It’s called a “Charlie Brown Christmas Tree” because it is very small and has a tendency of tilting to the side a bit!
  10. The “Would You Rather” Christmas Tag – This is the other tag post I have done!
  11. Christmas Tree Ornaments – I went around my family Christmas tree in 2014 and wrote about some of the unique bulbs we have on our tree!

I hope I have helped you figure out some ideas if you don’t know what to blog about this month! Honestly, it doesn’t have to be all about Christmas and a lot of people will say you need to blog every single day and you don’t! I’ll be publishing three posts a week and have a couple of posts that are far from Christmas themed, I don’t care what anybody says! I also hope you guys are excited for another month of Christmas worthy posts! You know there will be funny stories about my nana and I’s time together because you know we’ll be DIY-ing, baking, and whatever else we can get ourselves into, so hopefully you will like it!

Are you going to be doing Blogmas or Vlogmas? If not, who do you look forward to reading or watching around this time?


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This Thanksgiving



It’s weird to believe that Thanksgiving was just last week and now everybody is decorating for Christmas, which depending on where you live, some people put up their Christmas trees the day after Halloween! Thanksgiving is one of my favorite holidays because of the amount of food you get to eat in one day!

Since Blondie’s fiance Brandon worked in retail on Black Friday, we had to reschedule the whole day. We decided to eat way earlier than we normally do, which is like 2pm. I ate before 11am and had turkey, mac and cheese, green bean casserole, and two and half giant cookies that my sister made! My “normal” lunch time is like around 2pm because people in my house like to sleep in so whenever I found out what time we were going to eat I was like, okay I need to eat supper late enough but not a lot so whenever the food is done, I will be able to eat a lot of it. Now that’s some strategic planning!


Brandon and I sat on the love seat and even shared my little table so he didn’t have to put his plate on his lap like everybody else. One thing that we never do is watch the parade, like I was just happy it wasn’t the news! My favorite part of the parade are the musical numbers, but after I found out at the tender age of 19 that they were all lip-singing and not playing the instruments, I was very bummed! I still love the dancing though! After we were finished eating, I want to say like 10 minutes my dad just says “well, I think I will go back to bed now!” and he wasn’t kidding, he actually did go to bed and this prompt my mom and sister and very sleepy Brandon that we should go over to nana’s where the rest of my family was getting ready for their own feast.

Notice the ball on the right side!
Notice the ball on the right side!

We weren’t there for like an hour yet and we somehow had to go outside for family pictures, because my aunt and uncle brought down a fairly size table and extra chairs into the living room, so we didn’t have any more room to take pictures in there. My cousins brought down their camera and had trouble getting it set up on the tripod and timer. At one point, we had to use nana’s trash can to prop the camera on because it would not focus. As all of this was going on, majority of us that didn’t bring jackets (like moi) were freezing their asses off! Once we were done, we went back inside and then somebody suggested we do the manniquin challenge. I cannot tell you how many tries we did, our family is not one to shut up and hold for a minute or two so this was its own challenge, but we made it though!

Everybody mostly ate ham as the turkey took its time cooking in the oven. We also stuffed out faces of fruit and vegetables! I was honestly still full from my breakfast-lunch feat back at the house because the only things I ate over at my nana’s were grapes and vanilla ice cream later that evening!

We had some special guests come down this year, my cousin Amy who usually goes to her dad’s for the holiday came down that morning and only stayed until about 4pm after the mini food fight she and my mom had in the kitchen made her sort of late because they both had to get the hair washed by the end of it! Our second guest was a very close family friend Brittany, she was the one to film our winning manniquin challenge for us! We also had a late arrival with my cousin Kristi and her boyfriend Joe got there just in time for the turkey. Once we had our last vistors, we went back into the living room where we did one last family photo where again, we had trouble with the timer but at that point we were delirious and could not stop laughing if our lives depended on it! Trust me, I have an embarrassing picture of me with my mouth wide open to prove it!

To end the day, the kids, who are my oldest cousin’s kids, Dalas and Lynn helped me put up the tree as my mom took Blondie home. When I was working with the little ones, I started to realize how tired I was, so I didn’t fight when my mom came back to pick me up. I was actually a little bit happy to go home and lie down in my bed.

All in all, this Thanksgiving was pretty good! Lots and lots of laughter was involved and that made everything better. We all still wish that papaw could have been there, but knowing him he was probably glad he wasn’t considering how loud we were getting as the hours went on and I can’t blame him for that either! However, I still think he would have enjoyed our crazyness especially the dogs chasing after each other while everybody was standing in doorways and kitchen!


How was your Thanksgiving if you celebrated it? What is one thing you are thankful for this year?


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Christmas Wishlist


So I’ve decided to do “Blogmas” again and despite the fact that December officially starts in two days, I had to put this post up earlier for my family so if you find some mistakes within the post I apologize in advance!

I’ve actually grown to do my wishlists like this now. The whole banner part still sucks, because of the various picture sizes and all that, but I like being able to figure out what I’d like to have for Christmas and my family doesn’t have to ask my mom a hundred times on what I want for the holidays! I feel like while I was making out the banner alone, I felt like a five year old was making it out because of the amount of kid things I had included or saved on Pinterest.

I’d like to point out that some items on the banner are used as an example, like on the picture below some don’t have links because those are ideas for gifts in that category. I’ve selected a plaid shirt on the picture, doesn’t mean you should only get me plaid shirts, anything works!

1. Celtic Woman - Decade 2. Faded Glory Women's Popover Plaid Shirt 3. Beauty and the Beast DVD 4. e.l.f. Jack Of All Shades Nail Polish Set 5. Keebler's Fudge Stripe Cookies 6. Ferreo Rocher 7. Rudolph the Red Nose Reindeer Pajamas
1. Celtic Woman – Decade 2. Faded Glory Women’s Popover Plaid Shirt 3. Beauty and the Beast DVD 4. e.l.f. Jack Of All Shades Nail Polish Set 5. Keebler’s Fudge Stripe Cookies 6. Ferrero Rocher 7. Rudolph the Red Nose Reindeer Pajamas

When January comes, I’m going to be starting on my secret project and I need music that I can listen to that doesn’t require my laptop. I’m going old school, so let’s talk about CDs! I’m looking for something that’ll help me stay productive and instrumentals, new age, and soundtracks/scores are some of my favorites! This is where Celtic Woman comes in, because the “Decade” album being around $40. On the soundtrack side, I like James Horner for the films “Titanic” and “Avatar” a lot! You could also look into artists like Philip Wesley (Transend and Dark Night Of The Soul), Jennifer Thomas (Illumination), Escala (eScala), Lindsey Stirling (Lindsey Stirling and Shatter Me), The Glitch Mob (Drink The Sea), and Bassnectar (Into The Sun).

So I like for more plaid shirts, whether they’re long or short sleeves I don’t care. Right now, I have three that I can still wear but I really like wearing them in the wintertime. I’ve recently figured out that I only have one sweater in my closet right now. It is black and white and covered in skulls but I don’t have any plain sweaters. I still don’t understand how that keeps happening!

We’re moving onto the subject of movies! Now this is where things get kind of weird because I went through the Wal-Mart website and literally had a hayday looking through all of the Disney films. I have a vast amount of Disney classics on my DVR but I am still missing a few others. I’ve been worried that Beauty and the Beast will be going back into the vault soon and I won’t be able to get my copy, so this is like at the highest part of my list in my head! As far as the others, The Aristocats, Oliver & Company, Pocahontas II, and Aladdin and the King Of Theives

If you didn’t know by now, I have an un-healthy obsession with nail polishes. This ideas kind of came out with my mom, nana, aunt and uncle were doing some Black Friday shopping in our hometown, we were in Dollar General and we were in the gift/Christmas aisle and I literally looked up for a moment and saw these small bags full of different nail polishes and now I want one! I don’t care if they come in a bag or a box, as long as it’s more than one it’s good with me!

Again, this is another section that wasn’t left with a link attached with their numbers because they can be a mixture of things honestly! You know we’re getting older when you start asking Santa for snacks and chocolate! While we were out shopping, I came across two types of cookies I’ve been craving but I wasn’t sure what they were called exactly, so I was glad to finally see them at the store! I do like Fudge Stripe cookies but I also love Iced Oatmeal Cookies. They’re like the all-year round gingerbread cookies, for a good chunk of my life I thought these were gingerbread! On the candy side, I like starburst, sour gummi worms, skittles, dark chocolate, Twix, Butterfinger, and Kit Kats. Don’t ask me to choose between fruity or chocolate because it can’t be done!

And lastly to finish out the clothes area, I really love pajama sets! If you can only find fuzzy pajama bottoms that’ll work too! I love the kiddie themes, like Winnie The Pooh (I already have Eeyore!), Marvel or DC, and Mickey. I’m not really into Star Wars and I can’t wear oneises either!

I tried to keep everything relativity cheap, the only thing that was pricey was the Celtic Woman album, but that is their collection over the last ten years, not counting their newest albums “Destiny” or “Voices Of Angels”, if you feel that is too much money, just purchase “Destiny” instead as that is what I listen to the most right now!

To all of my family, if you’re interested to find out my sizes, ask my mom because Blondie won’t know it either!🙂

What’s on your Christmas list this year? 


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A Day Of Thanks



I love Thanksgiving! To me it’s the perfect holiday of absolute fun and chaos all built into one day! You have family members working on the meal itself while the kids watch TV or if it was nice outside, they played out in the yard. If you needed alcohol to get through the day, that was your business and nobody was going to try to talk you out of it because that other person might need a sip later!

My family was quite different, there was always chaos but it was mostly from the fact that it was such a small kitchen and everybody would be crammed in the amount of space left in the room. We would have tons of conversations going at once, sometimes it was just stories in general or people directing what to do next if they were in charge of a dish. Alcohol wasn’t necessarily a big thing in our times together either, which considering by the time food was in the oven, there were already enough headaches going around that I don’t think they wanted to wake up in a hangover that next morning!

This year will be our first major holiday without my papaw.

It’s still fresh in our minds that he’s not here. I am not big at talking about it out loud but while I was very excited to celebrate my birthday at the start of the month I woke up that morning, feeling very emotional because I knew my papaw wasn’t going to be there to help celebrate it. So I understand the feeling of everybody getting together for Thanksgiving and feeling sort of weird and possibly ashamed to have fun without him.

In order to make this post a happy one, I wanted to talk about the good times that we got to have with my papaw during Thanksgiving.

My papaw was very infamous at falling asleep in the middle of anything! A conversation, a game, or just simply having the family all in one room! My sister actually took video one time where she went over the entire room and everybody’s talking or making faces on camera and there’s papaw sitting in the doorway with his eyes shut and head down into his chest. It was so normal that we all thought it was hilarious mixed in with a little cute!

He and my nana were always getting their plates first, he always claimed a leg and would put it on display with a big ole smile on his face! Turkey was the main event and he loved it that my dad, his son-in-law would make for the day.

When it came down to desserts, there were basically only two pies that made their appearance at the table: pumpkin and apple. The only pie that my papaw would eat was the apple but of course a simple dollop of whipped cream wouldn’t suffice, he was very specific that you should only eat apple pie with chocolate ice cream on the side. Apparently, it was a genetic thing on his side of the family but as far as I know nobody else likes it that way! All of the grandkids would have to ask to borrow an ice cream bar because we honestly weren’t into the pies. Of course, later on nana would make a sheet cake for anybody who didn’t want pie and the icing and rest of the whipped cream would be left for the big food fight at the end of the day!

This year, it’s going to be hard to not have our head of the table sitting in silence, enjoying every bite whether it was savory or sweet. It’s going to be difficult to not see him trying to watch something on TV with everybody talking or in some cases yelling back and forth because he’d just turn up the volume. We swear he would do this to piss off nana! By that time, sometimes he’d just give up and go upstairs or go back to bed, which confused us because we were a loud bunch of goofballs when we’re together! No wonder the night of one Thanksgiving, he swore we were making so much noise that the neighbors would call the cops on us!

I don’t know what’s in store for today with my family. I just hope everybody’s positive and thankful that we can remember these memories of spending Thanksgiving as a family and laugh at all of the stupid crap we’ve all done and possibly going to do down the road. I don’t want to ever forget about those times, no matter how old I get, they’ll always live on in my mind.

Hope you are enjoying your day!🙂


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