The Memory House

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Why is it about moving that is good for the soul, but it also feels like your heart being ripped into a million pieces at the same time?

In every house I’ve ever lived or much less stayed a few nights in, I usually remember maybe a couple of small details of it, it really just depends on whatever happened there. I don’t know why my mind allows me to be haunted by these things but it does. However, there was one house that has a lot of good memories attached to it, so much that it stings of the situation that bubbled up to the surface recently.

My grandparent’s house that has been in my family for decades. If you’ve read my earlier posts about “the aunts” as I’ve recently figured out they are my great-great aunts. They’re parents George and Olive lived there before them, and I think it was only Regina (Ra-kee-na), Lula, and Elsaleah that spent their entire lives there and then my grandparents moved in to help but after all of the aunts died, they were just left with the house. The only difference was instead of it having elderly people in the household, now there were grandchildren around and we began to spend our birthdays and holidays there as a family.

I’ve spent countless days there throughout my life. I’ve slept on the couches and floor, trying not to look up the dark staircase. I’m pretty sure this is where my paranoia really flourished because I remember my papaw saying that there was a ghost up there. When my sister got her first iPod, she had an app that told you whether a room was paranormal or not, well this always seemed to fire up their dog Casey and once Blondie would come into the kitchen they’d race off into the living room, a half dead iPod in head ready to find the ghosts! This did nothing for my anxiety over the years I have to say!

I would go into the living room every once in a while, I would never go in there by myself though. I always went when somebody else was in there with me. However, my papaw would like to play piano in the most random times of the day, mostly when everybody was talking the mouths off, so mostly me! I would stop the conversations sometimes because I would hear these noises and realize they were papaw upstairs probably either destroying something or like I said, playing some notes on the piano. I remember a few times that I just sat on the floor by the couch and listened to him play a few keys and then watched him leave without ever saying anything about how I got there. He knew though. Once he’d leave the room, I would debate whether or not to head back into the kitchen or not to join the rest of the hens.

As I got older the house started to represent something else entirely. Since our house was so wacky I was unable to do things for myself. I was also growing (weight wise), so my family has a difficult time getting me on and off the floor. I started to feel really restless I think, and I didn’t hit my breaking point until one Christmas. I was really wanting to create homemade gifts for my family and I thought it would be a good idea to do it with my dad but I later realized that it wasn’t… He bought everything and he ended doing it all, within four days later I asked my nana if she’d feel comfortable in helping me do the crafts next year because there was no way in heck I was allowing that to happen again. If you didn’t know the background story to the annual DIY Christmas gifts, now you do!

I think that was the same year that I was given the freedom to really do things for myself. I’m only so limited to things in my room because whenever I’m in my wheelchair, the room itself gets smaller! So when my nana was letting me do things for her, like clean and organize different areas of her office or kitchen – since that was our most popular place for our talks and had the most light and space in the entire house to work on our crafts I began to enjoy it more! And I even have memories from my days in preschool where it was time to clean up from recess and as everybody was cleaning up, I’d be cowering underneath the table! I hated cleaning as a child, but since I was allowed to do what I wanted like organize in whatever way I saw fit I began to fall in love with it. Of course, asking your parents if you could your room with no seatbelt so you could reach better does not do anything to calm their nervous, but it is fun to watch them squirm I’m not going to lie!

The last two or three years were spent on trying to decorate cakes and sugar cookies. Creating our first (and probably last) Christmas bark ever! I figured out how to put on a fairly large trash bag on the can itself and open up a pop can with my toes! Towards the last I finally figured out how to open the refrigerator and that took a lot longer than I wanted to honestly! Why do they have to make those doors so heavy is beyond me!

It’s strange one of the last memories of being in that house is of me cleaning out an area of papaw’s room that I was hoping would become my office. An act of freedom that I was given became something that I did not want to do, you know? It was only fairly small corner of the room that was full of things that would come to live in my room. It feels weird to have these pieces of furniture that belong in different places in that house that are no longer there, it’s an empty space now.

I’ll remember the large amounts of light green on the interior, from the walls to the shaggy, 70’s carpet that did not like push wheelchairs. Okay, so I won’t exactly miss the carpet itself but perhaps only the feel of it.

The pink (or peach, the exact color is debatable), white, and blue bathroom that in the beginning of time didn’t exist. George and Olive had an outhouse! It wasn’t until later that they added it in and made it the smallest room in the whole house! The closets had more room than this sucker! Sidenote: The doorways weren’t made for wheelchairs either!

Always calling the kitchen the front end of the house. Nana would say all the time to us that where the kitchen was places was really a back porch, when they put in the bathroom they redid the kitchen too and added on bigger cabinets and put in a cold linoleum floor that even in the hot summer you could sit on it and your butt would feel pretty nice. However, the winter it was just standard to wear blue jeans or just stay out of there because it was so damn cold!

One of the hardest memories that’s going to be difficult to cure is whenever we’d leave the house, they lived on a block so there was two ways you could leave (well, technically three if you could park into the driveway and go to the right line) and those paths there’s some distance but they could always hear us holler bye and they’d wave with their hands or do the symbol for “I love you” in sign language as we took off to go home.

Since this has happened I often wonder if there will be a house I will live in that will make feel these things ever again? Will I continue to collect memories from every house I enter? It’s a big possibility. You’re never fully ready to put your trust into anything or apparently leave everything behind but it’s part of life. You go on and parts of me think I will be back, back then I thought it was because I’m always coming back but then once the decision was made that the house would be sold I still had that feeling. I think it’s a form of denial but who knows, maybe God or some universal divine will take me back to the memory house.

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What My Zodiac Sign Says About Me

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I would like to say this post was inspired by Safe Haven: Anonymous Letters 30 Day Challenge they did in August! I decided to do it about my zodiac sign: SCORPIO! They’ve actually inspired me to do the summer playlist and four others I might do sometime in the future! So you’ll have to venture on the site and guess which ones I might use.

I am a lover of horoscopes! I really am, I don’t look up mine as much anymore but I do love reading it every once in a while. It’s become a bit of a tradition to look at mine on my birthday, because if anything does happen on that day, you basically live by your horoscope and trust me, it has happened before and I will admit to it!

I really love my sign. I think it goes well with me really well. Everything honestly makes sense when you look up some of the characteristics that comes with it. Of course, a normal person will think it could all be part of your DNA and I can believe that too, but there are too many things, like strengths and dislikes that feel too much of a coincidence when you put it together with your sign than your heritage.

One thing that I’ve learned about my sign is that it’s normal to for me show my emotions. I am a strong person. I can hold it in for as long as I can, before I turn into a sobbing mess. This is because my element is Water, we waver back and forth of our decisions. Since we’re passionate people, we also have anger tendencies as well. This is the reason why I’ve seen “most serial killers are born in November” pop up on Facebook. Now I’m not saying I’m one of those people, I mean I can get angry, I’m just not the type of person to yell and fight someone. I like to think I’m classier than that. Scorpios don’t like dishonesty and secrets although the fact as I get older, I don’t want to know certain things, but keeping secrets from me isn’t necessarily so easy either. I’ll find out about it anyways, and apparently that’s also part of this sign too.

I’ve found that we’re brave, resourceful, and stubborn. As a disabled person, we learn how to adapt to our surroundings in that I have definitely become very resourceful, I like figuring how I can get things to go differently. Of course, stubbornness is part of this. I don’t like doing stuff the easy way and hate quitting anything, big or small. If I know something is potentially dangerous, it only makes me want to try it out. So I clearly show all three of these strengths in my daily life!

One thing I recently learned that comes with the sign itself has to do with something hasn’t always made sense. My mom tells me I’m the hard one to shop for and I never feel like I am. And then I read on an astrology site on the bottom section called, “How To Choose A Gift For A Scorpio Woman” we like little things and surprises. I honestly love a lot of things, I just don’t think anybody really listens so when it’s time to get me something for my birthday or Christmas. What they said about jewelry pieces is true, I honestly don’t wear a lot of jewelry but I love anything with spikes and with a “M” or my name in general.

One of the funny things about my sign has a day which holds some significance of some sort, whether it’s good or bad. Tuesday is mine I guess and I find it strange in a way because whenever I was a kid and in the process of losing my baby teeth. I would literally lose my tooth on a Tuesday or Thursday. I always thought it was weird as hell! And then in 2016, they switched the day of when music would be released from Tuesdays to Fridays, which made sense afterwards but Tuesday was my favorite day of the week because I knew new music would be released that morning! I never knew why Tuesdays had so much meaning to me until reading that!

There is honestly a lot you can learn about your Zodiac sign. My favorite way is to go on Pinterest, I have a whole board of different facts, likes and even some risque things, be glad I’m giving you a warning beforehand at least. So if you’d like to dwell into the mind of a Scorpio a little bit more, you can check out my board!

What Zodiac sign are you? Are you a true believer of it or still skeptical? Let me know below!

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The New Royal Baby!

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I have to say I did not plan on having two royal posts going up this month. It just sort of happened on accident!

On the fourth of September, I was mainly excited for the fact that the public would finally be told of Sweden’s new royal baby that was born on August 31st. Prince Carl Philip (the only son of King Carl Gustaf XVI and Queen Silvia) and his wife Princess Sofia had their second child, a baby boy! They didn’t say what his name was until four days later after the King and heir apparent Crown Princess Victoria, announced that his name was Gabriel Carl Wurther, Duke of Dalarna.

All throughout the weekend, I had been trying to figure out what exactly they would name him. I looked through the previous Swedish kings (and queens) to see if there would be some good possibilities, but all three of King Gustaf’s children have used a royal name as a part of their middle names–not a first–only Crown Princess Victoria and her husband Prince Daniel’s second child Prince Oscar uses a former king’s first name.

So I had a tough time figuring out if I should stick with my first choice which was Gustav or go another route. I think my full guess was “Gustav Johan Folke”. I was happy of the choice of names for the little Prince though! I did get the “G” right! I’d like to know where they came up with both “Gabriel” and “Wurther” though, they might be the ones they liked the most or could be family names on Princess Sofia’s side. Now that we know about Princess Madeleine’s pregnant, I can start making some guesses on this upcoming Prince or Princess of Sweden!

After going on Facebook that morning, I actually spent a good five minutes trying to not to fall off my bed because the first thing I saw was that The Duke and Duchess of Cambridge are expecting their third child as well! I had actually seen an article like two weeks ago about people were betting that Buckingham Palace was going to announce something big soon. They were going back and forth between a new baby or Prince Harry and Meghan Markle’s engagement, now we know!

My friend Gail had sent me a comment after I sent my mom the announcement of Prince Gabriel’s name and she asked what I was thinking for this new baby’s name would be. She and I were going through our favorite names, like Alexandra, Henry, and Arthur. We were discussing the fact that if it is a girl and she has the name “Camilla” everybody would be pissed! Honestly, I think Camilla is a cute name but I understand the reasons why it would be a name that people wouldn’t enjoy for a royal princess. Gail already has two combinations she likes: Alexandra Victoria Mary and James Albert Philip.

I’m thankful I have over seven to eight months left to figure out my combination. I’m dead set on Catherine having another girl though, so I’ve picked Caroline or Mary, mostly because “Caroline” starts with a “C” and “Mary” is from Prince William’s great-great-grandmother Queen Mary. However, there’s a slight difference between the British and Swedish royals. The British royal family will probably name their children after a royal ancestor, Prince George is named after both King George V and King George VI (even though his real name was “Albert”) and the name Charlotte has been used for Charlotte, The Princess Royal (daughter of King George III) so there’s a good chance that they will recycle a name.

There are many, many names that could be used to name this baby. Someone has noticed that Prince William and Princess Catherine have gone with Georgian era names and I found that both of my names guesses are apart of that list. I would like to see “Cecily” come back. The name hasn’t been used since Cecily of York, the younger sister of King Henry VII’s wife Elizabeth of York. After the House of York died out, apparently so did the name in the royal family. A name for a boy that is still a favorite is “Edmund” and it’s cute and a strong British name. The last time a prince was called “Edmund” was the last boy of King Henry VII and Elizabeth of York, who named him after Henry’s father Edmund Tudor. I’d like to see another Princess Victoria though, it hasn’t been used since Victoria, The Princess Royal (Queen Victoria’s oldest daughter) and I really like it! If they hadn’t used “Elizabeth” with Princess Charlotte, I would have said Victoria Elizabeth Mary as my favorite combination. However, the one combination that has been popping up in my head the most is Mary Augusta Frances.

I honestly don’t see them using a name that somebody in the royal family already has like “James” and it is a contender among people nowadays, but since Prince William’s younger cousin (Prince Edward and Sophie, Countess of Wessex) is James, Viscount Severn. It is also Catherine’s younger brother’s name as well! I don’t really see it happening, but I kind of feel the same about Henry too, it’s only if he is called “Henry” and not “Harry” like his uncle I don’t think it wouldn’t be so bad.  If they do decide on using either one, I think it would be as a one of two middle names.

I think this will be a hard thing to figure out, because I’m honestly looking for roughly 12 names at one time! I have two separate babies from two different countries. So I’m being pulled into looking for traditional British names and nice, strong, original, Swedish names for the other. It’ll be very confusing once I get it all going, but I’m actually excited about it too!

Are you curious about what The Duke and Duchess of Cambridge will name their new baby? Did you have any guesses for Sweden’s newest royal baby’s name?

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Richard vs. Henry: Who Deserved The Crown?

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I have somehow managed to get involved in two different parties that involve two very powerful men in the British Royal Family. On Facebook, you have the Richard III Society and there’s also The Henry Tudor Society. If you’re not familiar with medieval kings, you may not know why these two sides have always been controversial. I feel like I should have published this on August 22nd since that was the date of the Battle Of Bosworth Field and this would make more sense because you could find tons of information about them, but I already had a blog post and it takes me too long to rearrange them, so I kept it for today.

Richard was never supposed to be king, but after the death of his brother King Edward IV he was given rights to protect his oldest nephew, the new King Edward V. However, when Richard locked him in a cellar with his younger brother Richard, Duke Of York at the Tower of London the two disappeared and people assumed Richard had them killed.

There was always a theory in the Tudor times that King Richard III was a hunchback. They even painted a portrait of him and basically used it as propaganda to the people of England. To many people those were rumors put in place by their historians to make him look more villainous. And then after 500 years of wondering about it, they finally found his grave site in modern day London, where they found a corpse of a man with a bent up spine just like Richard was rumored to have had as well! In 2012, DNA came up with positive results that it was indeed the lost hunchback king, Richard III.

When I heard about this I was amazed! I have read so many articles and watched two separate programs about him that I’ve sort of became a sympathizer to Richard. However, the question remains, if the Tudor were right about the fact he was disabled, what if he truly had his nephews killed?

Now we have to discuss King Henry VII, the son of Edmund Tudor and Margaret Beaufort. A woman who was betrothed to Edmund at the age of 12 and had Henry just under a year later. According to reports, it was a very traumatic experience for her but she loved her son very much!  She was the great-great-great-great granddaughter of King Edward III and great-great-great granddaughter of John of Guant, through his mistress but later became his wife Katherine Swynford. If you watch Game Of Thrones the term “bastard” should appear in your head right now.

Margaret was a loyal subject to the House of Lancaster, but when she married her fourth husband Thomas Stanley, 1st Earl Of Derby later on in life she changed sides to help support her common enemy King Edward IV and the House Of York. The reason why she didn’t like them was because after the fall of Henry VI and his wife Margaret of Anjou, her son was exiled and taken away from her to live in Wales with his uncle Jasper Tudor. So switching sides was not on her agenda by any means!

Despite this, she became one of Queen Elizabeth Woodville’s ladies-in-waiting and was even present in the births of their younger children. After the death of the king, Elizabeth and her children took up sanctuary since she did not support Richard and she began to write to Margaret Beaufort and made arrangements to marry off her oldest daughter, Elizabeth of York, who herself was considered a bastard after Richard found any means necessary to strip the rest of the clan of their titles so they could not claim the throne without it being treason, even if that making the world believe that a dead woman was contracted to marry Edward before he met Elizabeth.

However, later the older daughters (Elizabeth, Cecily, and Anne) were allowed to come to court and become their aunt Queen Anne’s ladies-in-waiting and somehow a rumor appeared to a romantic fling between the Lady Elizabeth and King Richard III. I think, this was also propaganda against Henry Tudor as they knew she was promised to him if he fought Richard. After Richard was killed at Bosworth Field, Henry finally married Elizabeth of York and she went on to bore him seven children.

Prince Arthur who was heir apparent; before his death at the age of 15, married the Spanish princess Katherine of Aragon. Princess Margaret, who went on to marry King James IV of Scotland and is the grandmother of Mary, Queen of Scots and great-grandmother of King James VI and I. Prince Henry, who went on to become King Henry VIII and married Katherine of Aragon after the death of his brother and she bore him two children Princess Mary (who became Mary I) and Prince Henry, Duke of Cornwall who died just 52 days after his birth. He renounced the Catholic faith and married Anne Boleyn. She bore him another daughter Princess Elizabeth, who later became Queen Elizabeth I. After beheading Anne, he married her lady-in-waiting Jane Seymour and she bore him a son, King Edward VI but since she died shortly after, he went on to marry three more women: Anne of Cleves, Catherine Howard and Katherine Parr.

His sister Princess Mary, became a Queen consort of Louis XII of France but it was only a brief marriage and she then returned to England and secretly married Charles Brandon, Duke Of Suffolk who was the king’s best friend and trusted adviser. She bore him two daughters Lady Eleanor and Lady Frances, who married Henry Grey, 3rd Marquess of Dorset, they had three daughters: Mary, Catherine and Jane, who was the de facto Queen of England after the death of her cousin King Edward VI. The other children of Henry and Elizabeth did not live to adulthood, but nevertheless they were Princess Elizabeth, Prince Edmund and Princess Katherine.

We know the stories of The Wars Of The Roses and what happened at the Battle of Bosworth Field, but everything in between is pretty bleak. It’s hard to choose a side to support, because I will admit I know more about the Tudor times, but after finding out the King Richard III was disabled and that he had scoliosis like myself, is kind of cool! There are many royals in history who suffered from disabilities that had lost their chances in the succession to the throne because of it. I have to fight not being mad about that, because it was a custom back then and unfortunately, that way of thinking is still ongoing in the different royal families of Europe.

What do you think of both the last Plantagenet and first Tudor king’s stories? Who do you think deserved the crown?
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Album Review: “Ritual” by In This Moment

19366082_10158910196285054_3916349050705466920_nIn 2014, the band In This Moment released their album “Black Widow” and I was really pumped for it because I enjoyed their 2012’s record “Blood” hell I even got my mom into the title track, I was so proud of myself! However when I reviewed “Black Widow” I wasn’t really into it as I figured I thought I would be. So when I found out they were releasing a new album this year I was hoping for another bad ass album but figured it would be smart to be prepared for another flop.

If you don’t know anything about In This Moment, they are a female fronted band from California and the members consist of Chris Howorth on lead guitars, Randy Weitzel on rhythm guitar, Travis Johnson plays bass, and Maria Brink is the lead vocalist. They recently replaced their drummer after he left the band early this year, but I don’t think they ever released the new guy’s name because I have yet to found who it is! So I apologize for not having that piece of information.

The album starts out with an introduction. Since “Blood” they’ve had some sort of interesting intro to the whole thing. It makes you want to sit on the edge of your seat after each one. For Ritual, the introduction is called “Salvation” and it’s like two minutes long, but it’s mostly of creepy sounds. I don’t suggest listening to it in the dark! Don’t judge me either. It has these thunder like clashes and sirens and you hear a deep male saying different chants in the background. At the end, you have Maria quote something, my guess is something from the bible but I’m not sure on that. The actual first song of the album is their first single “Oh Lord” and I will say, I didn’t like it the first time I heard it. However, later on that day my outlook of it did a 180 and I’ve loved it ever since. It has this sultry vibe and I tend to think that with previous ITM songs. Anyways, the lyrics definitely have a gospel kind of feel and surprisingly so does the music even if it’s like really dark and heavy rock.

Second track is “Black Wedding” and when I saw this, my mind went directly to Game Of Thrones and the whole “red wedding” episode. They just ended the new season and I’m still pissed at that scene because I usually see those types of things coming and I didn’t, so I’m kicking myself even today! Anyways, this has a very creepy piano beginning, almost has a feel of carnival vibe. Thankfully when the choruses start, it subsides. It features a legendary rocker by the name of Rob Helford of Judas Priest, which explains a lot because as I was listening to it at first, I didn’t think that sounded like Maria! At the end has Maria saying another quote and it is the intro to the next song “In The Air Tonight” which is a cover of Phil Collins’ song. Now I will say I have never heard the original and I’m betting my dad would make me listen to it sooner than I think. It is mellow, slow and ominous. Maria does a good job of making this song come to life.

The next one is “Joan Of Arc” and again, it has a seductive sound. At first, I was a bit worried about how this was going to go, but I actually like it. The lyrics talk about the same things that the legendary Joan of Arc was accused of in mid-1400’s. We have “River Of Fire” next and I really like this one as a whole. It has a fierce, dominating sound to it and you get a small sections with Maria’s powerful roar. I feel like she doesn’t do those as often as she used to, or is that just me? It’s also pretty catchy, so it wouldn’t take me long to learn the words to this bad boy. The seventh track is “Witching Hour” and I’ve been wanting to know how this goes, because I had fallen in love with the title without even hearing it! It has a clear witch-y vibe to it and I liked that, it was just the music that I had a hard time getting into it. It’s very tame and there’s nothing really special about it. So I was bummed about that!

After, you have “Twin Flames” which sounds like it could be like a ballad in a way, Maria’s voice is very sultry and soft, music’s about the same but the volume does increase and you hear the heavier guitars more towards the choruses. It’s not bad! This was the other one when I saw the title I was like, “please be good” and thankfully I got this one right! It’s loud and theatrical, which is something that they’re becoming more known for both on stage and in their songs! The track is called “Half God, Half Devil” now you know why I wanted it to be good! “No Me Importa” is much more softer, you have the background sound of a piano against these harsh guitars. It has a good balance of sounds with the instruments used. I like it.

These last two songs start with “Roots” and this is another badass track! Very mysterious and I love the meaning of it. The strong lyrics is what gives it life. It’ll be another I will learn, however I hear quite a few “fuck”s in this too so I won’t be singing it out loud unless a couple of people leave me alone for a bit, which won’t happen! Anyways, finally we have “Lay Your Gun Down” and this is definitely a ballad, they usually have their slower stuff at the end of their albums and it works very well because after building up the listener, you need a good ballad to kind of get them ready for the end of the cycle. It is hauntingly beautiful, that’s about all I can say! I have a few songs to check the lyrics and this will be included in the list.

I have to say, I was worried about this album, but I am glad how good it sounds! I know whenever I listen to albums I tend to compare the next record against their last and I’ve noticed I do that more whenever I’ve reviewed it on here. I don’t mean to do it, it just sort of happens. If this came out after Blood, I would have been a happy camper because I think it’s in the same category of that album than Black Widow, but like always that’s my opinion.

What do you think of In This Moment’s “Ritual” album? How are you whenever you’ve chosen a favorite album, are you very judgemental to the next or do you try to keep an open mind about it?

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Book Review: “Thirteen Reasons Why” by Jay Asher

198928_191726290863606_6633612_nI found out about this book while I was watching one of my favorite booktubers: Sasha! I put it on my Goodreads like I always do, but I didn’t actually think I’d ever read it. I mean a good chunk of the books on my profile will never be purchased but I still find and collect them to be added onto my tbr (to be read) list.

When it announced that Netflix was making it into a series, I began to see a sudden change, not in me but I found it odd to see everybody was talking about it because they were now watching it on their phones and desktops. Sadly, I don’t have Netflix so I’m not able to watch it, but honestly I kind of don’t want to, the book satisfied me. The only reason why I was able to read it was because both Blondie and Brandon binged watched it and then bought the book.

So the synopsis is about the story of a girl, by the name of Hannah Baker. She has committed suicide and without any warning, these rows of cassette tapes start arriving for different people. There’s no return address on the boxes so they have no idea who sends them, until they actually listen. We hear the story from Clay Jensen’s point of view when he gets his set of tapes and learns more about the girl that he’s had feelings for but these tapes tell you a very complicated and sort of twisted story of the reasons why she’s killed herself.

As I was reading from Hannah’s point of view because you get a very detailed section of what’s going on with her psyche throughout this process and then you have Clay’s emotions and movements too. Certain parts I felt like she was bragging in the way she was discussing each person and the things they were doing to her. There were a couple of times where I felt she wasn’t taking any responsible for her own actions until the very last. She could have stood up for herself, but she didn’t. And just so I’m clear, I am not saying she should have killed herself. In the way that the author wrote her out to be, it made her look this way!

Clay showed a lot of anxiety throughout listening to each tape, word for word. I loved hearing his thoughts and what he was doing whenever he’d listen to them; I thought it read so well. You could easily see everything in your head as he was doing them. Despite not watching the show at all, I was full of visuals whenever I’d read different scenes. Some would come in clearer than others, like the section about Tyler? I could see every part, but as far the party, that’s when I’d have the most trouble figuring out in the beginning. Thankfully, later on it gets explained and you have a more understanding of everything.

I thought the book was interesting! I originally gave it five stars, but I changed it to three on Goodreads because of my thoughts of how Hannah was portrayed. Something tells me, I’ll get some backlash from the whole paragraph and I would not be surprised if it’s my sister. This is a review, if I think an author has brought out a cocky side to a character that wants these people to understand what they did wrong than I will say something about it! There were parts where I did feel sorry for her but I stand by what I said above too!

Have you read “13 Reasons Why” yet? Did you like it? Since I haven’t seen the Netflix series, can you tell me of the differences in the show from the book?

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Book Review: “The Ring And The Crown” by Melissa de la Cruz

17200974_1190394871070094_2385203544738160469_nBack in April, I got a chance to purchase a new book! I found it at Wal-Mart for about $8 and it was called “The Ring And The Crown” by the author Melissa de la Cruz. If she sounds familiar, she’s written the Blue Bloods and Witches Of East End series. I immediately recognized her name so my exceptions were already high to begin with, but it wasn’t long before this book wasn’t hitting that mark.

The book starts with Aewlyn and shows how much power she has and how she can control it since she’s been away to Avalon. The second character is Princess Marie-Victoria who is heir apparent to the Lily Throne, while her mother Queen Eleanor and her magical adviser Merlin (and Aewlyn’s father) at her side. Marie has been plagued with sickness throughout her life so she’s still quite frail but as heir she will do her duty to the people of London. However, she does not want to, plus she doesn’t even want to marry the Prussian Prince Leopold after he opened Pandora’s box to win the war – in an act to bring peace to both sides, these two will have to marry to secure the alliance.

However, there are more characters included into the story than besides these five people. You have Prince Wolf, who is Leo’s brother, Isabelle of Orleans, who was arranged to marry Leo as a child while her father was still alive to secure the family fortune and an American named Ronan who comes to the season searching for not only a husband but a title to help her secure her family name as well! And this is where the review turns a little sour. So if you haven’t read it yet, I don’t suggest you to continue reading this next section!

There are a lot of pros and cons to the story. I liked the outline of the ball, magic and the two main characters, but there were unfortunately too many cons in the story as well! The amount of characters and their roles with each other can be extremely confusing if you’re not careful. I think Isabelle could have been just a mistress to Leo and that’s it, but instead her story line is as big as Marie. And I felt Ronan and Wolf could have been a separate story altogether.

One of the biggest things with the plot that I had trouble wrapping my brain around was the time frame. It talks about London and the Prussian Empire but there is not a direct date and I know because it’s a fictionalized story it shouldn’t matter, but if you’re going to talk about King Henry VII in certain sections, you need to be more clear on where it is at that time for all of these characters. Melissa gives you more descriptions on the fashion and magic, but the most important part of the story is missing!

Despite the fact that I have written out this book review, I have not finished the book. I still know what chapter I left off on, but I cannot continue to read it. I actually gave it a 2 on the Goodreads rating. I know my mom will think I let the reviews I read about the book itself has helped in my judgement but all they did was help me realize that not all books deserve a full 5 stars and if I don’t think a book is up to par then I need to stop.

If you’ve read the book, what were your thoughts on it? Did you ever finish it?

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