Blogmas | Christmas Tree Ornaments

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Howdy!

Before I start on this, I am leaving my previous Blogmas post about my Christmas tree because if you haven’t read it yet or this is your first time on here, you can get caught up on why I have adopted a very interesting way to do my tree this year.

For today though, I am discussing my process of both the ornaments and the way I took the pictures, because that in itself was a big production that some people might find enjoyable! Fun fact: I am one of those people! 

  The Ornaments  

I feel the need to mention that the day I finished writing my previous post about my tree, my whole original theme of white lights, purple bulbs, and a star on top, kind of went out the window since my mom could not find anything to match that scheme. However, my dad did say something about going to Dollar General and getting things there. So, one morning I went on the DG website and looked over their very limited holiday decorations and found two that I actually loved, and they were: a pair of angel wings that came in two colors on the site, gold and red. I really fell in love with the red ones. The other one I just couldn’t get over was the crown. If you know me well, you know I need anything royalty and I thought for this reason would be no different!

Later that day, my mom went to the store and came home with an interesting sort of things for me. She got me a box of array silver ornaments. There are the normal shiny ones but my favorites are really the glittery and matte bulbs the most. Unfortunately, they didn’t have their hooks on them already so that was a bummer, but I managed to put two of them on the tree myself before letting mom take over! Now, you’re probably wondering about the two I found online. Did we have any luck in that department? Well, I’m happy to say, she found both of them! There was a setback though, she found the wings only in silver.

This wasn’t what freaked us out though. When I saw them online, they looked pretty smell, almost the same size of the other ones she got me. No… The wings and crown are huge! We couldn’t believe it! Honestly the crown is the perfect size but the wings just look obnoxious! This wasn’t the funny thing though, because both of my parents thought it would look great as the topper, but every time I look at it, I think it looks like a vagina! I literally thought of the episode of Everybody Loves Raymond, when Marie takes an art class and the sculpture she presents to her family, looks just like a vagina. The wings are basically in the same shape but with a bigger opening in the middle, so when my mom placed it at the top of my tree, it just looked very wrong. I mean, I’m all for my Christmas tree being non-traditional, but I have to draw the line somewhere!

I managed to talk my mom into putting the wings lower on the tree, but as much as I had my heart on a star on the top, I kind of thought the crown would look better there instead. It took some convincing on my part because my mom was very adamant about the vagina–I mean, the wings on top–but it does fit on there nicely. As far as decorations on my tree, this is about it. My mom did find me some lights too, but the cord was white and since the tree isn’t as full like others, it looked a bit chaotic but all is not lost, because my mom came up with another idea for them. I don’t even know what prompt this, but she just started wrapping them around my curtain rod on both sides and it actually looks amazing with my sunflower curtain! Thankfully, the lights don’t generate too much heat that I can actually leave them on all day and night. They make my room look really cozy!

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  The Process Of The Pictures  

Now that we have that part out of the way, I can talk to you about how I managed to take the photos for this blog post. I will say, it was not easy, but honestly any post that requires a lot of pictures is usually pretty difficult anyways! Between the fact that I am always adjusting myself to get the ‘perfect’ shot and basically trying not to pop out of my wheelchair and land butt (or worse, back) first on the hardwood floor, isn’t the best thing in the world. Thankfully, I can say I did not hurt myself too awful that day – I did sleep like a baby that night so I took that as a good sign!

For the first round of photos, I used my Kodak digital camera I got last Christmas. I thought the pictures turned out really good the last time so I tried it out for this part, but since I was working with higher angles, I was having a lot of difficulty keeping the camera steady enough. I was able to get a few of the ornaments in their places, so that was nice, but for the rest I switched to my tablet.

Now, I will say that I would only use this as a last resort, because they weren’t in the best quality. I think the culprit for this was because it was too dark in my room. I have become dependent on the flash and since I didn’t have enough lighting, they might not look the greatest but I honestly loved how they turned out for some odd reason. Besides this, I used something else to help make everything easier for me. My nana and papaw had this foot stool that they inherited from the aunts, and I use this to prop up my tablet to color and read. However, I hadn’t thought about using it as a tripod until that day. It took me a good hour and a half to arrange it in certain ways to get the shots I wanted, because when it comes to blog photography, I am incredibly picky! We were successful though, or at least I’ll found out if any of you send me comments about them after reading this post.

The last thing I would like to do, is find this large bag of classic Christmas heirlooms my nana gave me a couple of years ago. I think they would look awesome surrounding the tree. It would complete the whole thing I think. If we find them, I’ll update you about it on Instagram and Facebook!

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What was the meaning for your Christmas tree theme? Do you have any funny ornament stories you would like to share with me? For anybody with a disability, does it normally take you a while to get everything just right? What do you use to make things easier?

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A-Z Disability Challenge | W : Wheelchairs

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It is extremely difficult for me to talk about wheelchairs. Last year, the big contervesory was about the death of Stephan Hawking was announced, an artist made this beautiful drawing of him coming out of his wheelchair and basically walking up to heaven. As a disabled woman, I was very conflicted with this, but it wasn’t for the picture per se. It was because I felt like I had to choose between what I’ve always been taught and agreeing with the rest of the disability community.

The big deal wasn’t necessarily about the drawing itself, it was more about how a disabled person relies on their wheelchair to do things, like simple tasks around the house and/or getting out and having drinks with friends. However, everything just exploded into this chaotic thing that I really did not want to be part of at that time. Honestly, I still didn’t want to talk about it again on here, but I am on the letter “W” and there wasn’t anything else I could talk about other than this.

So, I’ll just say that my wheelchair doesn’t give me freedom. There it’s out and I can separate myself from the crap I’ve been feeling all this time.

I do think it allows me to do tasks better but I still feel stuck whenever I am in it. I really feel I am limited in both varieties of wheelchairs, as I’m either too short or too bulky! I have yet to find the perfect fit. Maybe this is what regular woman deal with picking out new heels! The second point I would like to get across is, it’s also all about your state of mind. I think after so long, you adapt to every different setting, and wheelchairs are a part of this too. You might get to do new or lose some beloved challenges while figuring out your surroundings.

Again, I have conflicting feelings about my freedom. I know I can never get away from my limitations. I say this not a sad note though, I like being able to test them anyways. I think this is really healthy! My family might not always agree with that statement, but you know. Honestly I would lastly like to say, I will believe what I want to. I have been doing pretty good on several other subjects throughout the years, I can add this onto the never ending list too! Even if that means keeping it in for a year and a half until I can find a clean way to discuss it on here, that’s what I’ll do.

If you’re in a wheelchair, whether that is full or part time, what are your thoughts on your freedom to be able do all the things you want to do? 

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Book Review: "Inside Out" by Demi Moore

I want to say about three days after my review for “The Handmaid’s Tale” published, I finished with my second book of the season which was Demi Moore’s memoir “Inside Out”. I was pretty proud of myself but not for the reasons you might assume. My mom and I are the readers in the family, and she is fast and can focus all of her attention into the books she reads, whereas I am very easily distracted. So, the fact that I got done with it before her, made me happy as a clown!

Before we got it though, I happened to read some of the articles of when she talks about her relationship with Ashton Kruchter, but thankfully nothing I read online diverted me away or towards it, I actually wanted to read it and see what kind of life she has lead to this point.


45167624Famed American actress Demi Moore at last tells her own story in a surprisingly intimate and emotionally charged memoir.

For decades, Demi Moore has been synonymous with celebrity. From iconic film roles to high-profile relationships, Moore has never been far from the spotlight—or the headlines.

Even as Demi was becoming the highest paid actress in Hollywood, however, she was always outrunning her past, just one step ahead of the doubts and insecurities that defined her childhood. Throughout her rise to fame and during some of the most pivotal moments of her life, Demi battled addiction, body image issues, and childhood trauma that would follow her for years—all while juggling a skyrocketing career and at times negative public perception. As her success grew, Demi found herself questioning if she belonged in Hollywood, if she was a good mother, a good actress—and, always, if she was simply good enough.

As much as her story is about adversity, it is also about tremendous resilience. In this deeply candid and reflective memoir, Demi pulls back the curtain and opens up about her career and personal life—laying bare her tumultuous relationship with her mother, her marriages, her struggles balancing stardom with raising a family, and her journey toward open heartedness. Inside Out is a story of survival, success, and surrender—a wrenchingly honest portrayal of one woman’s at once ordinary and iconic life.

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Personally, I have never been a really big fan of Demi’s. I’ve only seen maybe two or three movies and for a good chunk of my life, I didn’t know that she was the actress who voiced Esmeralda on The Hunchback of Notre Dame! Other than that, I just read the book because A) biographies and memoirs are one of my favorite genres and B) I was really curious to hear her story.

In the beginning, as she was describing her early life with her parents, the dysfunction of it all with their fighting and moving around, made me remember the earliest parts of my life. My parents were young when they had my sister and I, and they had a lot of fights in front of us that I think has always made me second guess anything about love and marriage. Thankfully, as the years go by, the fights die down a little and you start to see more love come out of the result of all those hardships.

Since I have never been that interested in celebrities’ private lives growing up and even now–and trust me I try not to read any of the tabloids mentioned in People magazine–but the fact that she let us into her life was in a way bittersweet. I think my favorite parts were when she was talking about her time with Bruce and living in Hailey. You can tell that she loved it, not only because she became a mother during this time but she also portrayed herself as happy, despite dealing with her issues she discusses in the book.

If you’re like me and you’re movie crazy, you will enjoy her talking about the process of doing some of her notable roles over the years. She gives you little nice details about each film, whether they were enjoyable or not. But if you are just looking for a nice biography, this is also up your alley too! She really makes you think about everything. There was one word that I thought worked well with the entire thing and that was: perspective. When you decide to read it, I think you should keep this in mind because it will help you out as you get towards the end.

Have you read Demi’s book yet? If you have, what were things you liked or maybe disliked about it? Do you have a favorite section like I did?

A-Z Disability Challenge | V : Voiceless

I am dedicating this week’s post to all of the disabled people who cannot speak, both physically and mentally.

My aunt was born deaf and she has been successful at getting through life, she has had some issues over the years, like right now, one of them is that she is loosing her sight, and I can’t imagine how scary that is! She relies on a lot of things, especially her eyes to be able to do sign language with other people, including her family. So, I really hope this post doesn’t offend her or any other person who is deaf out there.

One of the biggest misconceptions about disabled people, is that we can’t speak for ourselves. It’s crazy how many stories I’ve heard from various family members of people coming up to them in stores when I was younger, and they were absolutely amazed that I could talk. Sadly this is a reality to a lot of people out there. They can’t say anything, and I’m not just talking about people who are deaf. My focus are on those who could be scared, unable because of their condition, etc There are lots of reasons for a person to become silent.

People think this only happens to elderly people, after they’ve had a heart attack or stroke. They lose the ability to do things for themselves, to the point where they have to relearn how to do things again. Sometimes, one of those things is speaking. Unfortunately, there are people, who never get the chance to go back to who they use to be and they’re stuck like this. It’s always sad to see an older person in this state, but I often think about the ones who were born without ever having anything like this happen to them, and yet they are going through the same things and it messes with me emotionally; I feel grateful that I am of sound, mind and body, but I also feel awful at the same time because I don’t really know what to do to help them.

This is when you understand why some opt for assisted-suicide, because they believe it is the best choice for them.

November Playlist

Howdy!

This month has been pretty good. I am definitely feeling the shift in the season where there are less and less new music coming out, but what is totally different from years past is that I am still hopeful that I’ll find really great stuff in the next few weeks!

For the November playlist, I think I will shrink it down to only the Top 10 tracks because a lot of the music I listened to this month was a repeat of the previous blog posts. So, with that being said, I really hope you enjoy the songs below!

Nice To Meet Ya by Niall Horan
Don’t Call Me Angel by Ariana Grande. Miley Cryus & Lana Del Rey
I Warned Myself by Charlie Puth
Contaminated by BANKS
Into The Unknown by Idina Menzel & Aurora
Bom Bidi Bom by Nick Jonas featuring Nicki Minaj
Pray For Me by G-Eazy
I Believe by Blessed Union of Souls
Me Necessita by CNCO & PRETTYMUCH
Control Myself by LL Cool J featuring Jennifer Lopez
Fuck, I’m Lonely by Lauv featuring Anne-Marie

Higher Love by Kygo with Whitney Houston
Born To Rule by Vo Williams & UNSECRET
The Chain by Evanescence
Con Altura by ROSALIA featuring J Balvin
Someone You Loved by Lewis Capaldi
Dear Society by Madison Beer
Hate Me by Ellie Goulding featuring Juicy WRLD
Stroke by BANKS
Who’s That Boy by Demi Lovato featuring DEV

I have been thinking about whether or not I will be doing my annual Christmas reviews this year. I really enjoy finding different ones and ultimately talking about them on here too, but it can be really time consuming! The plus sign though is since I have switched up my weekly schedule for my posts, I think I can create a little theme of holiday albums in the middle of the week? I actually wrote out a list of various Blogmas ideas last year so I think I will have a look at that to see what else I can put on here next month.

Honestly, I think December will be a slightly hectic month as far as blog posts on here! I am really excited but feel like I might end up with a big headache at the start of the year too!

What were you listening to this November?

A-Z Disability Challenge | U : Unconditional Love + Support

One thing that is equally important to a disabled person’s life is having unconditional love and support from their family and friends. I have always had a large group of people in my corner and as blessed as I am with all of this love, I also know that there are others like me who don’t have anybody there for them.

I have been very lucky to have loving parents that believed in me, even as a baby! They are the ones that stopped the doctors at Riley’s, when I was a few months old, to operate on me to make me look ‘normal’ when there was a small chance it wouldn’t help me. They just let me figure things out on my own. Even if that meant, I used my feet for everything and was a wheelchair bound for the rest of my life. I have never given my parents much credit to this decision because it was a risk not knowing how this little girl would be able to do things for herself. Thankfully, I did learn things on my own or with some help from other family members/physical therapists.

I wasn’t aware of how other young teens or adults with various disabilities lived without this kind of love, until I was a senior in high school.

I wish the emotions I was experiencing had sunk in as I feel like it would have helped me understand loads what everyone in my family was trying to relay to me about their worries of me living on a college campus. Now I get why they were so concerned and agree that I was not ready for that kind of commitment. However, when my mom started working at a nursing home that had residents with various levels of mental disabilities, and the stories of some of them being left at the door with trash bags full of clothes and other stuff, really broke my heart!

I do understand that some people cannot handle some traits that certain people produce but you don’t give up on your family like that. A friend of mine has a daughter who is autistic. I have never met her, but have been around other children with autism in the past. So, I am familiar with their quirks and I give kudos to the parents out there dealing with a child like this, but I’ve heard of autistic kids being left behind or being killed because the families just cannot deal with them anymore. Those are always the worst to see online, but when you feel like you’re at your wits end, what is really your next step?

So, I have a questions to my fellow disabled readers out there, did you have a good support behind you growing up? Or were you basically left to be your own hero? If you said “yes” to that, how do begin to trust others that they’re not going to abandon you at the end?

Book Review: “The Handmaid’s Tale” by Margaret Atwood

I have been reading like crazy lately, thanks to my Fire tablet I got for my birthday. I really didn’t think that I would even enjoy it this way, because for a while I hated going this route, but honestly it is ten times easier for me to go about it this way! I have a nice fabric cover–it has sunflowers with a blue sky–that I can grip with my toes and since it’s lightweight, being able to carry it from one part of my bed to the other is really helpful!

Originally, I was reading another book, but my mom bought Demi Moore’s book, in which she got a $3.96 credit back so I took that and bought Julie Andrews book, but as I was on the Kindle book section, I discovered Prime Reading; I knew we had it because my mom told me to end the membership, but since you get 30 days with it anyways, I kind of took advantage of this, several days later! Actually, by the time I used it, I only had about 10 days to complete it. It took me nine. The book I ultimately decided to go for, was The Handmaid’s Tale by Margaret Atwood.


Normally, I do not like to follow trends when it comes to books. I like to pick through what I want, but every once in a blue moon this will happen. What really gets me is that, I haven’t even been remotely interested into the series on Hulu. I just saw it on there, and thought, “why not?”

Before I start this, I feel like I should come out and say this, but I am not a feminist in any way shape or form. I knew this novel was big in the movement, and I guess that was convinced me to give it a go in the first place, but that also means my way of thinking is entirely different compared to the way of a feminist. You will have to keep this in consideration with the things that I have to say about the story of Offred.


For this of you, who have not read or maybe haven’t been interested in it yet, the tale is of this young woman, who is striving to remember who she was and how the world worked before Gilead was created. Before she became a pawn into creating a family for someone else, to the point where she is forced to give up everything, her marriage, daughter, and freedom.

She lives in a house of a wealthy Commander, and his wife Serena Joy, with two other ladies–who are called ‘Marathas’’ as they keep up with the housework but that‘s all–but Offred has a big role in the home as she is the couple’s Handmaid. She’s the one who creates the babies for them. This is her role now, as well as the other Handmaids in the community.

I was asked by someone on Instagram whether or not, if it was a drag or was I really enjoying it, in which I wrote back that it was really in the middle throughout the whole thing! For certain areas, it was really boring but the majority of it was kind of interesting! I think the main reason was, that sometimes I could see parts of our past, our history, coming through this very dystopian story. Of course, the feminist movement was most known about whenever Offred would discuss her mother and Moira. The scenes that she and Ofglen, go towards the Wall, seeing the dead people hanging on the hooks, reminded me of when the popular way to be killed in England, was to be hung, drawn and quartered. A part of me, felt like this, could be an alternative of that cruel display to the general public.

It wasn’t just historical elements used in the book, it also had some notable religious beliefs as well. You definitely get this while Offred talks about her time at the Center, as she basically describes it as a nunnery, but instead of taking a vow of celibacy, you are learning to fulfill your promise of a woman, that you live to create and give life to the family you live with at the time. Everything about being a woman that you have come to know, is being stripped away. You’re no longer to wear cute clothes, work a normal job nor earn your own money. The status of a woman of a “boss” is gone. This part was frightening to me! Although, I already live somewhat of a nun’s life right now, the thought of taking away everything that made me, me, was something that I quickly realized I take for granted.

Now I have the overwhelming question to answer, whether or not, I want to ask my mom if I can purchase the next book. I have looked into it already but when I saw that it mainly talks about Aunt Lydia and now what really happens to Offred, kind of turned me off of it for now. The other thought I have, is that since we have Hulu, I could check out season one of the show, just to see if I would enjoy it. However, I feel like the same way I did after I finished “Thirteen Reasons Why” where I still wasn’t interested what happens on the series. So, time will only tell what I ultimate decide to do next.

Have you read The Handmaid’s Tale yet? Did you enjoy, absolutely hated, or were unsure about it?