Most Expensive Clothing Item You’ve Ever Bought

I don’t usually like to blog about fashion, but when I do I usually have a very good reason to do it. I’m usually the one who goes to Wal-Mart and picks clothes out that way, I don’t care that they’re not designer. At least they’re durable and cheap. Now when I was a teenager I was very pressured into wanting to have what everybody else had, but as I grew up I started noticing something after my mom told me that the majority of the stuff that the popular kids had, were basically knock-offs just made me realize that there wasn’t anything special about them. When I became a junior in high school, I remember going to the mall and watching my little sister practically sprint to her favorite stores: Hollister, A&F, and etc. She didn’t like shopping for things on the sale racks let’s just put it out there. Funny thing was, majority of her already designer brands she had were from yard sales, her friends and family. We never went to the stores and actually bought them before this time. My poor dad can’t go into Hollister or A&F because it’s so stinky and definitely not wheelchair accessible either. So I stood out with him.

When we first went out to get clothes for the new school year, I remember I had raised money to spend there and my mom was willing to pay for only one thing for the both of us. I am one of those people who I will show my folks something and say, “This is neat!” but I will not buy it, because well I’m stubborn that way. I’m one of those people who if it attracts me not once, but twice than I will do everything in my power to get it. Before this, this was my most expensive item I’ve ever bought–not counting my prom dresses I’ll explain those later–we went to Victoria’s Secret Pink and my sister and my mom were looking around at the smelly stuff (lotions and spray perfumes) and tees. I ventured into the pant racks and found these very loose yoga pants. This was even before I had become obsessed with leggings too! I loved these pants, I have a texture problem with my feet and fingers so just feeling it and seeing how soft and detailed they were but not so tight that they felt like they were going to cut me apart at the waist. Everything was going good until my mom saw the price tag and even before we walked in my mom told me that I had basically blown all of my money. I was having a really good shopping day at the mall! Anyways, it was $40 for one very thin pair of yoga pants. She kept asking me if I really wanted it and even though she was willing to pay for anything under $50, I was hoping to find something a little bit cheaper than that! It’s whatever though because I still caved and got them! It was very worth it as they became more of a pajama bottoms than anything else!

Now about my prom dresses. Even though it kind of feels weird to be talking about prom on this day, because if I can remember right my senior prom was today (April 16th) so this is kind of bittersweet thing for me as I miss those days, it’s the getting ready part that I’m not missing as much as some would think. Senior year I had this beautiful brown dress that was silky smooth, much like a milk chocolate bar! It was cut like a V in the front and was very open in the back as well. We had strict requirements for all dresses back in high school, I kind of figured I would get into trouble for it, but I didn’t care. For this dress, I wore it to both my Homecoming ceremony and prom. I was up for homecoming queen in my last year and I had to begin my dress shopping a month after Christmas. I had gotten an $100 gift card and I had basically used it all for this dress. However, the dress was not $100. I went looking for cheap dresses nearby and I found it on the Dillard’s website and I fell in love with it. It was on sale from $80 to $50. To some, that’s not much of a drop, well to me it was and I knew I had to get these dress. It kept calling my name! After Homecoming came and went and no, I did not win. I remember asking my mom later that night what we were going to do about prom that was three months away. She said that if I wanted to, I could get another dress, because my dad wouldn’t want me wearing the same dress for both things. Well, I felt extremely comfortable in it to the point I actually felt beautiful in it and that NEVER happens. So I kept it and used it for my prom. I never regretted my decision to this day. I just wish I had went with my gut with my other dress for junior year. I hated that dress and that was even cheaper, $30 at JCPenney. Not bad really!

If I do any shopping nowadays, clothes have to be under $35, even though I basically freak out if something is priced $29.99 and there’s nothing really there making it special. That’s one of my things, I love things that have graphics on it, but with my hands and texture problems, glitter is a no-go but rhinestones are fine! I am hooked to all kinds of leggings, but mostly love anything with skulls! I love tees and blouses that have studs and spikes on the collars and shoulders. I love anything floral and with quotes on it. My favorite stores are Vanity, Wet Seal, Hot Topic, and Buckle. On the dresses though, my favorite designers are Alyce, Jovanni, Elie Saab, and Zuhair Murad.

What is your most expensive clothing item? Not jewelry or hair accessories, clothes? I’m really curious how much you’re willing to pay for something. What are your favorite brands and designers? 

How Different A Lifestyle Can Be

Over the weekend my mom was washing my hair and I started talking to her about my blog and something cool the probably shouldn’t matter so much, but when somebody thinks, it makes you really happy inside and honestly my mom liked it too! I don’t feel like sharing it at the moment. Sorry! She asked me if I had read Gwyneth Pathrow’s blog before. I told her no, I didn’t know she had one. According to my mom she blogs about how you can get these really expensive pillows and etc, and I brought up Elsa Pataky’s blog that she does for Spain’s magazine version of Glamour and I told her that she does the basically same thing, but I love Elsa so I can’t talk bad about her stuff! Both of these ladies make a lot of movies and CAN afford to live these lifestyles, whereas most of us can’t. I like being cheap and I’m being honest here. I don’t see anything wrong with it. I think you are smarter with how you spend your money when you’re on a budget. If an unlimited credit card, you’re a goner with self-control. I’ve learned to save up my money for something that’s going to last me longer than some pillow that a dog can simply pee on. That’s just my opinion though.

Growing up in the way I did I think made me comfortable in the lifestyle I live today. Even though, it’s not the best and I sometimes it was better, but I can’t say I don’t love it. I consider my life an alternative lifestyle because it’s not as mainstream as everybody’s lives. It’s never been a normal one. I’ve always had something that could be considered “old” or “outdated” and I’ve pretty content with that, which is probably why I’ve grown to appreciate those times of things a lot more than others do. As a person with disabilities, you have to accept your body and the fact that you can’t change it as much as you’d like to. I think one of the biggest factors why I was so against embracing myself was the fact I had to have a lot of expensive things to help me out, like my custom electric wheelchair. Basically anything that I’ve gotten to help make things easier for my parents and I has brought a lot of uneasy thoughts to float around in my mind. Most have went away because they have done exactly that, make things easier. My lifestyle is a lot different from my sister’s, she is more carefree and has friends to do stuff with and just be a normal young adult. I think I’ve turned into a wiser and thoughtful person in the last few years. I know how far I’ve come in my life and I want to help others like me, but there is one little problem. I’d rather they read my blog than come to me for advice because I feel like out in the open, I’m not the best inspiration ever. I know I’m wrong all over the place, but that’s me for you!

The whole reason of why I gave you these two examples is the fact that they have money and can buy healthy things like organic food and bedding, doesn’t mean you should go out of your way and get it, just because they do! Something similar to this happened a couple of months ago, I found Teresa Palmer and Phoebe Tonkin’s blog Your Zen Life and I’ve got to say, for a person like me who tries really hard to see the positive in the negative and always looking at things in another perspective, it’s a really good getaway for you! I read how healthy they have become to enjoy their lifestyles of feeling comfortable in not only their bodies, but also their souls! I was really thinking of changing my lifestyle on how I eat. I mean, it’s not the best. I have a can of pop from the time I get up in the morning from the time I go to bed. Sometimes I do drink cold water, milk, and apple juice but it’s kind of rare anymore. Even though in the past few days I have had chocolate milk and it’s been so amazing! I’ve found those flavored-waters online and I miss smoothies so much! I might have to talk my mom into getting out the blender again! I hardly ever have snacks, and if I do have a snack I try to get my mom to get some granola bars for me at the store. If I just want chocolate, I usually have my mom get me a big dark chocolate bar. If nobody takes a bite of it, that can last me a week at least! Meals in general; I eat microwave meals and if my dad makes something I like, I eat that, but it’s usually sandwiches and the meals.

Everytime I would like to eat healthy, something’s always there keeping me from doing it. It would be different if I was the one getting what I wanted but sadly I can’t. My mom says the meals are basically my “healthy diet” but I wish I could make myself feel a little bit better, but would I be able to give up my caffeine? Oh, god no! Maybe I can go with one a day, but I’m thinking I’ll only last probably two days and want my pop again. I try to eat healthy, but I’ve been on the wrong path for years that I guess I should be happy for the healthy appetite I do have for the foods I eat now. I’m not trying to lose weight because I think that would be unhealthy on my tiny body. I would look really sick if I tried to do that. I think if you can do it, if you have the resources in reach, you should take advantage of it. I’m not saying for the ones like myself should give up what we want, but I think we should do somethings a little out of the box.

Merry Christmas Readers!

Today has been a very interesting day. First off, Happy Birthday Jesus! Sorry for listening to all this rock music on your birthday, hope you can forgive me about that. I hardly got any sleep the night before last and definitely didn’t get the sleep I thought I would get last night. I only slept a total of four hours or less, don’t really remember how much I actually got. Don’t remember the time I got my brain to turn off completely. However, I do remember waking up hoping it was around 4:48am. I checked my phone and it was that exact time. I was surprised at myself. Emily said that we were getting up at 5am to open presents and going to nana’s at 7am. It’s a tradition we do. Open our presents at butt crack of dawn and go to nana’s when it’s still dark out. We’ve always done it that way. God forbid that we don’t change it soon. Anyways, I knew a good number of my sister’s stuff. Especially the big ones. I knew about the phone and Drake poster.

My stuff ranges from the normal. I didn’t really ask for anything special besides more money to buy books. That was my only “big” thing I wanted. I got like three gift cards, so I should be taken care of in that department. The biggest thing I get though is a poster. I’ve had a cut out poster before, and a tall person length poster, but this is the exception of both. That picture at the top is my poster. It’s freaking huge! Of course, I have to read one book and I got two Slash things. A poster of him and a shirt. Which is what I’m wearing at the moment. It’s nice to actually people read who I’m wearing. Normally we’re they put the name of the artist/band my arms are covering them. His face is covered by my arm, but his name is at my chest. I’ll keep them both! While we’re on the music subject. I got the new Nickelback album, which is what I’m jamming to now. I’m also a proud owner of my first Sixx:A.M. CD! However I think both of them are going to become my dad’s since I don’t really listen to CD’s anymore. I already told him he could have the Nickelback, but I’m keeping the Sixx:A.M.

Last night, my sister came in while I was reading. I got a new book last night. Apparently, I can’t get myself out of this little rockstar biography web I’ve putten myself in. So I’m reading Duff McKagan’s book, It’s So Easy, and Other Lies. Its a good book. Anyways, Emily had came in and told me that our Uncle David was going to come down, sneak like, and visit with us on Christmas day. He put on his Facebook status that his car had broken down. Well two things, my cousin Chris knows how to fix cars, practically anything. Everybody in that family has a history of tricking us. I knew better. At the end of unwrapping all our presents and after being stepped on by a heavy dog, Christmas miracle number one showed up. It was David in a Santa hat. He couldn’t fool a couple of us. Nana cried, oh and so did mom but that was before. She is not gonna like that I said that, but whatever. He came and told his stories and made us all laugh. I miss his crazy Indy stories. Christmas miracle number two showed up right when we were going to eat breakfast. God gave Emily strength to lift me in the push wheelchair. She might actually take me off after she gets her licensees after all. I think I missed Christmas miracle number three, apparently I missed a huge, gorgeous husky walking on the sidewalk at my nana’s while we were eating. Just my luck, but I was fine though. I got my wish, even though it wasn’t snow. I was still happy with what I got anyways. Merry Christmas everybody! ❤

Highlight

Well today I got my wish, well more a part of one of my prayers answered today. My mom went and did my nana’s errands for her this morning and not only did I get my cookie dough ice cream (Shhh… nobody tell my sister!!) but I also got my money that nana owed me. I used that for my new book. I like the fact that I did not ask for my money this morning before she left. I think I was more concerned about the ice cream than the damn money. Money doesn’t last long around me. Before my mom got back from there she sent me three texts messages, one answering the text I sent her after she pulled out of the driveway the other two were “Nana gave me your money you can buy your book now” and the last one was, “Headin home” by the time I saw any of these was when she actually pulled up to the driveway. It did not take me long to sit myself up and go to Amazon and buy the freaking book.

Between the book and ice cream those were my highlights of my day, because everything else about today sucked. I was in a mood where I hated everybody and definitely didn’t want to talk to anybody, and yet I felt bad thinking that way. I’m a weird person when it comes to certain things. I’m pretty random. I can be happy one minute and then get to thinking about something that happened a week ago and just ruin every good thing I had in my head. I try to keep myself occupied by doing things that don’t really make me think. So Twitter and Tumblr become my best friends when I get in these moods. Oh, lord “Skin” just started playing on my Spotify. Goody. Besides this song makes me really sad because of the lyrics. James Michael has one ahhh-mazing voice! Even though he’s around my dad’s age he really cute. Compared to DJ Ashba though, we can’t even go into that one. That’s enough to kill me right there. Nikki Sixx should consider himself lucky to not be on my “crush” list. Just saying!

Get Ahead Of Myself

So I’m doing something new today, I’m up and in my chair and using my sister’s playlist account to listen to music we don’t have yet on iTunes. I hope she won’t mind as long as I don’t add anything on her playlist. I’m getting ahead of myself today. Actually I’m getting good at doin things ahead instead of a day before like I did in school, but hey whenever I did that in school I got it done and usually got a good grade on it.

Since I got a Kindle yesterday for my birthday I thought I’d look at some prices on Amazon, and I even moved the other chair with the smaller wheels on it and scooted it over by me and lucky me there is a notebook on this messy desk. Finding a pen was easy since there’s like a thousand of them up here. I wrote down nine books I really wanted and got on my blog to check titles and author names. Then I went on Amazon to find some books, and found eight of the nine, and they’re all cheap until you go to total them up.

My total was $56.28 and I don’t have enough money for them all. So I think tonight I am going to look them all up and see which ones I really want. I know two that I really want. Dancing Lessons: How I Found Passion and Potential on the Dance Floor of Life by Cheryl Burke. My Secret Garden by Nancy Friday. I think I should get those and start those and go from there because I really don’t want to spend all of my birthday on books. I have a different state of mind since yesterday. So we’ll see how it all goes this weekend. Wish me luck!