30 Lessons I Learned In My 20’s

Hello! πŸ’™

I would be lying to you if I didn’t say I have been thinking about what to talk about in my birthday post for MONTHS!

My mind went from listing thirty various facts that I thought was interesting, then it ranged from other 30th celebrations from all over the world, but I landed at giving you a list of lessons I learned while I was enjoying my 20’s.

Honestly, a part of me totally understands the episode of Friends, where Rachel wakes up, it’s her birthday and she is upset at the whole notion of turning 30 years old and basically panics because she realizes there were a lot of things she hoped to accomplish in those ten years, but she hadn’t and everyone tries to help her feel better and possibly do some of these things afterwards; unfortunately, I’ve never seen the ending result because when I watched that whole, I just pushed it out of my mind. Despite the fact my old self hoped to do some of the same things Rachel wanted, I am happy that I didn’t get it. I actually learned this lesson while in my late teens so it’s something I’ve welcomed with open arms (or legs in my case…) and this ultimately made the decision of theme for this post easier to do.

I didn’t exactly know how I wanted to write this portion of the post, I thought I’d set it up in a couple of sections but I thought it would take forever, so here’s a simple list of life lessons Honestly, this blog is a great map but I thought these would be a great little snapshot into those moments.

πŸ–€ You don’t need to go to college, living as you are can be even more educational
πŸ’œ Being a blogger isn’t a bad thing
πŸ–€ Friendships don’t last forever
πŸ’œ There’s a light at the end of those dark tunnels
πŸ–€ Acceptance is key
πŸ’œ It’s important to find your patience to deal in this fast-paced world
πŸ–€ There’s nothing wrong with wanting life to feel complete at 25, However, when it doesn’t go in the way you want, please kind to yourself
πŸ’œ Being disabled is not a burden
πŸ–€ Cats are life

πŸ’œ Art is not your enemy – find another media to explore
πŸ–€ Working with digital magazines can be fun and are a great excuse to grow as a writer
πŸ’œ NaNoWriMo is no joke
πŸ–€ It’s better to be open-minded than closed off
πŸ’œ Trees are amazing creatures
πŸ–€ It is a hidden talent to kill crickets
πŸ’œ Books are awesome ways to escape life
πŸ–€ Basketball is better than football
πŸ’œ Time heals most wounds
πŸ–€ Becoming an auntie is fascinating
πŸ’œ Put a bird feeder outside of your window

πŸ–€ Fairy lights around the window are a cozy and essential for when you can’t reach the lightswitch on your own without the possibility of hurting yourself
πŸ’œ When pain arises, nap can be necessary
πŸ–€ Having a bit of a green thumb or in this case, a green toe
πŸ’œ Being able to create long and short term goals and keeping them
πŸ–€ Spotify is a lifesaver
πŸ’œ Be a fierce queen (or king)
πŸ–€ Always trust your intuition
πŸ’œ Never stop adapting to your surroundings
πŸ–€ Stay in the moment
πŸ’œ One.

When I started on it, I really tried not to overthink any of them, which is why there are some funny ones throughout too. I wanted to be thorough but not fussy about the things I felt were important to include in this post. I think what helped me the most was listing them all out in no particular order and once you get to a certain number you’re comfortable with, that’s when you can readjust the list itself and I don’t know why, but I always have the most difficult time figuring out the last five of anything, and once I switched to focus my attention on recent discoveries that’s when I felt totally comfortable with its entirety.

If I have somehow inspired you, please understand that I am slowly accepting that term into my life, and its that I ask to comment below your favorite lessons I’ve taught you in the last 10 years or so! I will enjoy to read anything you can list, whether it’s funny or important.

Nolan’s Birthday | 10 Gift Ideas Under $100

Hello!

I am so excited to do this post, I actually wanted to do this last year but I wanted to make this more for other families who have a little boy around Nolan’s age range so what was suppose to help our families, can help everyone! You can purely look at this as a wish list for him but you could look at this as ideas for Christmas too, although most of the items are under $20–I didn’t plan on that, it just happened!–I went for stuff he would love for the summertime. Every item I talk about in this post is subject to change, but even if some of them do, it would still be under $100 on Walmart’s website!

Nolan has a lot of interests, and according to his babysitter and OT, he is very smart and has a good imagination! He is very busy but he loves to get cozy with his blankets, books, stuffed animals and watch movies. And like every other little boy in the world, he loves anything wheels… so he has over 300+ cars, tractors, trucks, and a single toy wheelchair that is affectionally dubbed “Meghan’s” everytime he finds it through the basket at our house! I tried to remember the main things I knew he would enjoy the most for when I was creating the post but I think it could work for any kid in his age range too.

Blippi: Let’s Look and Find Book – $8.08

This year, I think, the theme will be about Blippi because he is utterly obsessed with this dude! He doesn’t watch him at our house so I’m not exactly familiar with him but I knew if I didn’t add anything Blippi related I’d probably get in trouble with him, so I was very happy to find this book. To me, it looks like this generation’s “Where’s Waldo” and/or “I Spy” and I think he might like it for that because he’s always had an eye for finding things – when he was a baby, he could find holes in things like clothes you didn’t even know about at the time!

It actually looks pretty hefty which considering the rest of his boxes, he might be ready for these thicker ones now.

Pinkfong Baby Shark Ultimate Sticker and Activity Book – $5.88

Last Christmas, when he went to visit Brandon’s family, he came back with a sticker book that he thoroughly enjoyed and when I saw that they had one of Baby Shark, I thought it was too cute to ignore. Nolan enjoys singing along with the songs and even has Aunt Meg doing the hand motions with her feet (thankfully they’re very easy for me to do!) but nothing is more funnier than dad trying to dance and Nolan getting mad at him for not doing it the right way!

Marvel’s Superheroes Board Box – $10.47

Nolan is starting to fall in love with superheroes, and so far he likes Marvel characters. Although at first he was saying “Batman” but now he is obsessed with the Hulk and Spider-Man.

There is a show all about the Hulk and his mates on Disney+ and I think he started watching it with the bigger kids at the babysitters during the week because we didn’t introduce it to him. I want to show him like X-Men but I also don’t want to scare the little dude either so I’m trying to hold off on as much as possible.

So while looking through Walmart’s website I saw this box full of books about Marvel’s characters, even I became a little jealous! The site says there are 12 books included and considering how cheap the entire block is, that’s really nice! They also have Pixar, Paw Patrol and Frozen blocks as well.

Large Plush Sloth Toy – $10.00

Besides his Hot Wheels cars, he also has a large amount of stuffed animals. He has two of my Husky pups in his toy hamper at our house but he also has Mimi’s cow she use to have on the kitchen table too! So, it was only right to include another one of his favorite animals to the mix, which is a sloth. There were a lot of different sloths but this was my favorite because it looks so cuddly and cute. He really would love it to pieces!

Bubble Play 64oz – $14.99

Another one of his favorite things in the world is bubbles! He has always loved bubbles since he was itty bitty, and it is so nice to see that he loves them so much because it is something that I still love too, so I thought it would be smart to include it in the list too.

M&M Character Candy Case – $3.00

This one might be a little weird, but for the past six months, Papaw has been giving him a handful of M&Ms from his secret stash and for a while, it was the only chocolate thing he would eat, but we think because they were covered in various colors that he wouldn’t see it as chocolate because everytime we tried to give him ice cream with chocolate syrup or chocolate chip cookies, he’d stay away from them.

I was hoping to find M&M plush toys but I think I will have to go on Amazon for that but then I saw these and I was like, I think he’d enjoy having the figurines up in his room.

Melissa & Doug’s Wooden Train & Race Car Paint Kits – $13.40

One of things that Nolan has been really interested to do is paint! I have to thank his occupational therapist for this because he use to hate having his hands dirty, and considering his mommy and I use to spend most of our childhood digging along the sidewalk of our nana and papaw’s house was very odd. Thankfully, he doesn’t mind getting a little messy now!

What I really liked about these kits is that they are wooden, so they are sturdy (hopefully) enough to last through Nolan’s playing and can be packed up and stored somewhere after he has grown out of them too. I just thought they would be cute to do with him or he could do them with his parents!

Garbage Truck Toys – $30.88

I have not included a lot of cars and trucks into this post because he has his fair share of these items already but if you are looking for something that could keep your child happy with multiple toys in one present, this might be your ticket for a lot of excitement!

It has over 10 trucks included and they range of various careers like construction to farming, and I thought it was pretty impressive honestly. It definitely could be worth the $30 in the end, you never know!

Play Food – $9.97

My nephew still loves his play kitchen, unfortunately, it didn’t come with food and for some odd reason, he still doesn’t have any after two years! I feel bad for him because he still “makes” us things and will use his actual snacks in the dishes so I feel like the poor kid needs something and thankfully, they are incredibly cheap on the website so that’s why I decided to include it on this post.

Melissa & Doug’s Vehicles 4-in-1 Wooden Jigsaw Puzzles – $9.79

Another thing that he really likes are puzzles. My mom bought him this little tin of puzzles for Christmas but nothing is in English nor did it come with an actual picture of how it was suppose to look like after you finish! We’ve had to hide it from him because we still don’t know what to do with it.

Once I started searching for puzzles, I was very careful as to what I was looking for, easy for all ages and most importantly for the adults, the main language is English! And I found Melissa and Doug brand of puzzles and I thought these would be perfect as you get more than one puzzle and again, they are wooden so they will definitely last longer than any of puzzle piece I think. And of course, they are of various vehicles, so I think we have a winner here.

I really hope you find this post helpful for you, as at this moment, I will not be doing a post for toddler girls but in the future, if you would like me to do it for Christmas, please let me know and I will consider the option. For anyone who have used these products in the past or present, I would also like to hear your thoughts (both good and bad!) and will relay the information back to my family.

If you could, what is one item on this list that you would purchase for their little man?

Life | Love, Death & Sickness

WARNING: I don’t usually do this, but I felt the need to include this little warning for anyone who can be triggered by the events that have happened recently. It involves a death of a beloved pet.

Hello!

This past month has been a freaking roller coaster! There were so many random things happen that were bad and good that they’re starting to blend together. For today’s post, we are going to go back to the very beginning of the chaos and weed out the special things that happened.

We start at the last day of March. It was a bittersweet kind of day for my whole family. I was able to get on the floor early in the day to go outside and visit with the cats, and after I came back inside I decided to hang out with my mom and ChiChi The last few days, Chichi had been feeling like crap. She was having issues breathing and my dad had noticed her heart was running a lot faster than normally, to the point where my mom was having to monitor with her nursing equipment. Anyways, while I was in the living room and actually leaning up against her “step” onto the couch and as I was doing it, the little dog decided to scare the crap out of me by coming out behind me and licking half of my face until she was ready to get down on the floor again.

She was enjoying lying on her blanket basking in the sun by the front door. I had been told to not play with her because of how she’d been feeling the past couple of days, so I gave her some of her toys and we enjoyed looking at our neighborhood for a little bit. After a few minutes, she decided that it was too hot and she curled up next to mom on the couch. After a few minutes I asked my mom to help me back on top of my bed, and then all hell broke loose. Chichi had collapsed at the bottom of her step and had a seizure, which resulted in my parents taking her to the vet immediately where they made the ultimate decision to put her to sleep so she didn’t have to suffer anymore.

The best thing about this story though was what happened when they arrived at the vet’s office. He was just about to close for the day and was probably looking forward to going home, but ChiChi wanted to make sure she left this world on her own terms. She tried to bite the bastard, so they had to put her in a muzzle but I have to say, I hope when it’s my time to go, I want the same amount of spunk in my veins to do something like that!

We are still healing after her loss. The house is definitely quieter without her high-pitched barks at the poor neighbors that enter the house or yard. I’ve had the operatic J. G. Wentworth commercial eight times and I cannot tell you how many times I’ve wanted to ask my parents where ChiChi is, and I know she can’t be anywhere on the couch because my mom doesn’t keep a blanket out for her. The food bowls and pee towels are put up and her step has been fixed to match with the rest of the couch. The only thing that is still out are her toys and none of us have dared to move them yet. I actually sleep with her blanket she used to soak up the sun to cover my feet at night.

Two days later, we left home to start our road trip to visit my mom’s side up north. We hadn’t seen anybody since late September I think. The drive went pretty good, we were unable to visit our favorite Starbucks in Martinsville because they were working on the road and GPS took us on another route that really messed with us. My brother-in-law Brandon was driving and I sat in the passenger seat with limited space for my legs and feet but as we reached Indy, Brandon and I were more than uncomfortable at that point. I had to literally remind the both of us to be patient as we attempted to shift positions in our seats. Our destination couldn’t arrive fast enough for us!

Once we got there, I heard Brandon’s back pop like four times. After my sister opened my door and removed the pillows that were shoved underneath my feet for the whole ride; I was so happy to bend my legs again and they were somewhat sore for like an hour later. As we went into my aunt and uncle’s house and hugged everyone, I was busy observing my nephew have an absolute blast with my Aunt Laurie and nana. He showed them his cars and played with Myla a couple of times too. It wasn’t long before we ate pizza and had even more family come over for the evening. My cousin Amy and her wife Danielle and their kids came over. Nolan had playmates and was thoroughly enjoying himself! He was a flirt and a mooch at the same time.

However, once we began nighttime, either we were delirious after the long day with driving, playing and talking our heads off, Nolan wanted nothing to do with sleeping and he became a complete goofball. We all slept in the living room and Nolan is used to having a fan and nightlight, and as we were inching towards sleep, he wanted to argue who he wanted to sleep with and at that point, we had the lights off but one cell phone light that shone brightly on the wall and Nolan was like Peter Pan and found his shadow and we just erupted with laughter! Suddenly everything he did in those couple of minutes were hilarious and I mean, I had tears coming out of my eyes and I knew I wasn’t the only one! Thankfully, he figured out the best position was in between his mom and dad and we all drifted off to sleep.

The next morning, Laurie and Mike made breakfast of both cinnamon and orange rolls! It has become a great traditional and is the only time I get to have my favorite orange rolls because neither one of my parents like them!

On the agenda for that Saturday, once Uncle Rick came over the younger kids were going to hunt eggs all along the front yard and it was so precious to watch all three of them search for the eggs. Amy and Danielle had made Nolan special eggs and they were full of different goodies like candy (he likes gummies the most!) and little toys, but the most popular were the confetti eggs! He had so much fun and was sweet enough to share his treasures with his mommy, mimi, and his favorite bestie: Danielle.

After the eggs, we went back inside to have some lunch and I wasn’t able to eat very much but I figured it was because of the rolls I had a few hours ago. Now there was something very different about this visit, because Easter finally landed on my nana’s birthday. So, once most of the guests were finishing with their plates, the cake was brought out and it was so good! My Aunt Laurie made array of cupcakes in both carrot cake and vanilla batters. I had a vanilla cupcake and it was really good, but my eyes were still glued to my nana’s as it much larger than anyone else’s and I knew she would make it last for a while as she has her own freezer for this exact purpose! She’s smart like that but really, she just has a bad sweet tooth!

The next thing we did was make our way into the garage to paint Easter and spring-y scenes. My nana and I each had a different thing, she had this beautiful bumblebee windmill that she did very well on and I got this beautiful sign that is of a mason jar of flowers with the words “Hello Spring” at the bottom. I took my time on it, because I was working with something I don’t usually do and I am still shocked how good I was able to do the lettering, because I was going to have my sister do that part because she can do various things with this sort of thing but Danielle and I were the last ones to finish our masterpieces. I was thoroughly impressed with what I was able to do with it!

Unfortunately, I don’t remember a lot that happened after that. My uncle David made a late appearance and I remember seeing him and enjoying his voice and laughter again, and then I wanted to go on the couch and Nolan also went to lay down on the lounge chair on the opposite side of the living room, and we both passed out. I’ve been known to crash early but usually I show symptoms of it like crankiness or just being uncomfortable and since I was just painting and having a great time like not even 15 minutes before this, it was a bit of a shock for everyone. The next day I felt fine again but I just thought it was from the pain I had and took medicine for while in the garage that afternoon. We didn’t leave Sunday until probably noon but we hugged everyone and I made sure I had enough for any movement in my seat because I refused to be stuck in the same place for a 4 hour drive back home!

Sunday night, I felt pretty good overall. I allowed myself to relax and watch some TV, but honestly all I did was binge watch Criminal Minds on Netflix and had a good sleep that night. As far Monday, it was absolutely beautiful! I was able to go outside with my current Harry Potter book, journal, and camera to hang out with the cats on the deck. We have found out that sitting on a rug helps my bottom a lot especially for multiple hours! It has been somewhat odd to sit like on the wood without being in my wheelchair mainly because I am up close with our cats again and they are clearly loving this just as much as I am and really hope I get to continue to do this as we go into summertime!

And then, everything changed and time seemed to go faster than any other time, including the three day visit I just did basically, because the same day I have a steady knowledge of was the 7th of April 2021, after that, everything is a blur. In the matter of two days, I came down with the stomach flu. I hadn’t had it since possibly late 2008 or early 2009. In the thick of it though was probably the worst because I was so depressed as I was sick. I despise being sick in any form but stomach flu has to be the worst in my opinion because I was basically attached to my commode for 72 hours at best. I wouldn’t eat anything other than applesauce, popsicles, and ice cubes. I drank Gatorade and water like they were nothing and tried so many pills to make everything stop flowing out of my body. I was having to call my mom every 20 minutes or less and would have to call her in the middle of the night for the same reasons. It was so much and I just wanted out of there emotionally and mentally, and then as suddenly as it came into our house, it went away.

I have been extremely lucky at avoiding different sicknesses, except for what happened at the start of 2020. Other than that, I have not experienced anything else and I do not understand how it came about because we only had two other members come down with similar things but nothing was hardcore as mine. The first three days I started getting better, I was so hungry and would literally ask my mom if she was going to the store to look for this , this, and that. I would wake up in the middle of the night wanting food but as my body began to center again, the cravings subsided and I am not as worried about how much movement I do that could produce bad consequences for everyone!

Okay, I think I am finally done talking about everything. I hope everyone else was able to enjoy their Easter weekend and to anyone who has the stomach bug or who had it recently, I really hope you start to feel better sooner rather than later.

28 Things That Make Me Happy!

Howdy!

Today is a very special day, it is my birthday!

I don’t know about you, but I still love birthdays, especially my own. As much as I really hate being the center the attention for anything, I can make an exception for this occasion. One day of the year for me is a great thing, as long as I don’t let it go to my head too much!

So, for this post I thought I would talk about the things that make me happy. However, I feel I bit off more than I can chew because figuring 28 things at once is a lot when you only have two days to basically get this blog post finished! Originally, I was going to make this longer with pictures for certain things but I figured a link of a post that goes along with it will work even better!

Here are 28 things that make me very happy!

I love spending time with my family! Everybody thinks they’re a comedian and the sole purpose in life is to make you laugh to the point where you have tears coming out of your tears and you feel like you could pee in your pants at the same time, The funny part is that my nephew doesn’t even know he is one yet!

Children are a real weakness for me, but Nolan has become my little buddy. He has a gentle soul and love in his eyes, but has a devilish side too!

Everybody already knows this but I am really into baby names! I have so many notebooks–both digital and coiled wire with paper–of hundreds of names from different countries and spellings! If you’re in need of suggestions for any reason, just let me know!

Something else you might know is that I enjoy blogging a lot. I was never successful at keeping a diary or journal when I was younger because I thought somebody was going to read it… Yeah, this doesn’t make sense to me either!

I love comedy. but I am very strict with it. I really don’t get this generation’s humor. I am just starting to enjoy puns after not understanding it for years! I will talk about my favorite male comedians soon, but you can go ahead and read my top female comediennes though!

Movies are a big thing to me. I like all kinds of different genres, but after some time of basically denying myself of watching romantic films, I am getting back into the groove. My list has increased in the past couple of years.

You know how much I love music! I am actually using the shuffle on Spotify, even though there’s no need for it because I enjoy almost every sort of genre out there. I have been really reliving my childhood days with the tunes I loved listening to back then. So, lately there’s been tons of rap music ranging from the early 1990’s to now!

As much as I hate overthinking, it does have its good points like being able to spot things that most people wouldn’t; the sort of connect the dots concept! This can translate to many different things for me, between the lines of family trees, letters of my family names, and music. I always find that watching Xenia: Warrior Princess and Evanescence’s first album “Fallen” were able to be my starting points into my love of both cinematic and instrumental music. I put them in separate parts because I like the pop-rock cinematic releases like what Tommee Profitt, Hidden Citizens, and Unsecret do, but of course I love Hans Zimmer and James Horner as sometimes I just want something with no words to distract me.

On Tuesday, it was National Cat day so you know I have to squeeze a little spot for our kitties! Even though we have nine cats, I only claim Stormy, Felix and Tavis as my babies. I love them all, but these guys really show me that they love me by staying around if the others are ignoring me!

A second thing that makes me happy about our cats is that I love when they make biscuits and purr against you. It is one thing I miss the most about not being able to sit on the porch with them, because they like to either lay out beside me or right in between my legs and drift off to sleep while I take numerous pictures of them!

Animals in general make me extremely happy! I think watching the Animal Vet shows like Dr. K’s Exotic Animal ER and Dr. Oakley Yukon Vet have helped me see that my fear in snakes and even some spiders is dumb. My sister was interested in sharks when she was younger and she saw through the stereotype of the Great Whites, she even made me see them in a different way! Although I on’t see this working on all creatures, more importantly, did you see I said “some” spiders above? There is no way in hell that I will be okay with all of insects but I can never say never though!

There are two things that I enjoy watching at Thanksgiving, one is Gone With The Wind and the other is Westminster dog Show. My parents and I have become a little obsessed with it in the past three years! We all enjoy seeing if our favorite breeds will win their group or the whole thing.

If you were curious which breeds were my favorites, they are: Pit Bulls, Siberian Huskies, Cocker Spaniel, King Charles’ Cavalier Spaniel, and Bernese Mountain.

I am hoping this is the final “animal” section but you never know! Birds actually make very happy. I think they’re all amazing, but I have always been into hawks and Eagles the most. When I was younger, I use to think that parrots and other tropical raptors were annoying, even though they were beautiful. Thankfully, I have changed my outlook on them. Besides watching funny cat videos on YouTube, my second favorite is bird videos!

Let’s talk about something else. Oh, it must be the girly girl in me but I love having flowers in my room. Personally, I have always enjoyed having them but I would be happy with fake ones than real. In the past few months, my mom and I have been displaying lots of roses, sunflowers and daisies. Hopefully by the time spring comes around, I’ll talk her into getting me some cherry blossoms and tulips because those are I love them too! My flower aesthetic board is below for you to check out afterwards!

Despite not liking drawing anymore, I really love painting! Whenever I paint, I feel like I can relax and go at my own pace. I still have the perfectionist mentality sometimes but I am not as bad as I use to be, so I’ll take that!

One thing I think people will probably freak out about, is my love of game shows! I definitely share it among my parents, but I feel like I took it to a whole nother level though because right now I have close to 20 episodes of Jeopardy on the “FUN GAMES” folder that I created several weeks ago! I have thought about talking about this on a future post, would you be interested in it?

Speaking of games, I am watching basketball again. The first Butler game to be televised will be on next Wednesday, which I am so excited but when I saw which NBA team was playing at almost the same time, I felt a bit crushed! This is my third year of watching professional basketball and I have cracked down on the amount of teams this season. I followed Ingram, Ball, and Hart to the New Orleans Pelicans, but I kept the Houston Rockets (even though I’m still unsure of the Harden/Westbrook tag team), Los Angeles Lakers, Philadelphia 76ers, Milwaukee Bucks and Boston Celtics.

This might scare you a little, but stuffed animals make me happy! I have a stack of “doggies” as Nolan likes to call them, by my window and I still want to get some shelves in my room so I can proud displaying them but more importantly get them out of the boxes in the closet!

On the day I wrote this post, it was the day before Halloween, so I think it’s only right to discuss my love of chocolate! I wouldn’t say I am a chocoholic but I can get some very strong cravings! Are you taking full advantage of the discounted candy at the stores? If you are curious about what kind I enjoy, click here.

I feel like I should have put this when I talked about music, but dancing is a favorite of mine! I must have been a dancer in my past life because I can definitely get down when I want to. After Blondie’s wedding, my dad and I could totally do it again if it wasn’t for our hurting bodies! 😦

There is something that might sound a bit strange coming from me, but I have been loving HGTV like crazy! It started after the announcement was made about the Brady Bunch house transformation. The date I was originally told that special series was to air was wrong but I got interested with Property Brothers: Forever Home and Christina On The Coast at first, but now I have switched to Good Bones as my main favorite! I actually use to make fun of my parents watching countless episodes of Fixer Upper so the fact that I have like four shows that I watch is karma smacking me in the face really hard!

Something that goes along with this is that I love making this, any idea that comes to me is very clear in my head, my only issue is how do I explain it to my parents, especially my dad because he is the one that apparently gave me this trait but the majority of the stuff I want to accomplish are all disability related. I am still trying to figure out how I can get an semi-large office desk either in my room or probably in Nolan’s playroom since he doesn’t really use it as much.

I have grown to appreciate organization and tidiness I guess as I’ve gotten older, but being able to decorate makes me extremely happy because it gets my creative juices flowing, and the more I plan and set things out, I can also turn those things into future blog posts. So everything kind of works together like that sometimes.

Photography is another love, but I think what makes me unique is that I enjoy coming up the set ups for my blog materials than anything else! I have heard of other bloggers and their frustrations over blog photography, you know I can agree with them on some things but for the most part whenever I am in the zone, I am usually very calm with myself. I think this came with the fact that I have to be in this trance so I can keep myself balanced in my wheelchair, because any frustrations I act out, could lead to disaster! I could fall out of my chair because I’m not focusing on my lower half of my body or worse I can get stuck in a weird position and would need help fixing myself. It might seem like a small thing, but I don’t want either one of my parents watching over me or taking the pictures for me so I don’t end up like that again!

Besides my foot writing and disability in general, there is a weird quirk that makes me happy and that is my love of leggings! I have become known for all of my different colors and patterns! I still love my skulls and there is a pair that is my favorite but unfortunately like everything in my closet they’re starting to be tight around my waist which SUCKS because I’ve had them since probably 2010 and I am not ready to part with them! It will seriously be a sad, sad day when it happens! I’m not promising I won’t cry but you never know!

Since we’re talking about fashion, I didn’t think I would say getting clothes for birthdays or Christmas would be something I would look forward to, but I do! The reason for it is, thanks to the fact of doing those outfit of the day (OOTD) posts on here, really changed my outlook on how I see myself. What was suppose to find a way to fall in love with my arms became something bigger for me, and now I actually look forward to dressing up–whether it’s casual or night out, I know I feel comfortable with my body. If you would like to read more about my journey of doing OOTD posts, you can click here.

I have talked about traits that I was given by my dad but I feel like I should mention one I got from my momma. She has ALWAYS loved books! When I was younger, she would hang out in the living room with her feet up while reading silently to herself with the TV blaring in the same room. This was never a favorite thing of mine when I was little, but at the age of 14, I really became interested in it for the first time and after a long break, I am back to enjoying it again! I like both physical and ebooks, but I have realized I read a lot faster because I’m not too worried about the pages flipping on me or not being able to lift it because it’s so heavy! So for my final thing that makes me happy is finding a good book to get lost in, and the one I’ve been reading lately is Wicked Beat by Olivia Cunning! You can follow me my progress and check out my other books on my Goodreads profile at the tab bar on the right!

Whew! We are done! So, I actually did it in the way I said I wasn’t going to, because I had no time! Technically, this wasn’t too bad to come up with and I think that was what freaked me out in a way. I love doing lists, but this was a long one, plus I included lots of information because I can never go the easy route apparently! I hope you enjoyed the post! Thank you for the birthday wishes too!

Do you still enjoy your birthday? If not, when did it change for you? Can you name all of the things that make you happy with whatever you’re age is? Here’s some advice before you answer, I think it’s all mind over matter!

Depression | One Year On

Howdy!

It’s crazy to think that it’s been a WHOLE year already, for not only the presence of my nephew but asking for help to deal with my depression! I almost had forgotten about it, but something on Pinterest one afternoon, made me realize that it could be a good idea if I talked about my mental health and give you an update on all of that.

Do not let the shadows of your past darken the doorstep of your future. Forgive and let go.

Overall, I think I’ve been doing really good. I am always going to have my ups and downs in my life but for the most part I am feeling great! However, I feel like I would be lying to you if I didn’t mention that I am afraid of going into July and August. Since I have so many negative memories of getting through both of those months that I automatically feel panic at the thought of them coming soon. I am trying to really keep positive though, but sometimes I just can’t help it, those visions are on a loop at the end of summer.Β 

This year has a lot of different meanings, between my blog’s 8th birthday, Nolan’s first birthday,Β  and celebrating 10 years as a blogger in October. I have had a lot of plans this year and the fact that I’ve had quite a few months with little as two posts in roughly 31 days has been somewhat frightening. I have been trying to let it go and so far that’s been working out great because I’m not putting too much pressure on myself to get things finished. I’ve been feeling somewhat zen ever since I accepted it. I’ve also been enjoying telling myself that you don’t have to set things up if you don’t want to right now.Β 

That’s one thing that I think my antidepressants have been helping me out with the most, keeping everything straight without branching off into a million different directions. I’ve always wanted to adopt a healthier state of mind, because my brain goes a hundred miles away with different things and it gets to the point where I get really angry with myself over being lazy but I think it is a good thing to slow down, watch a little TV and just chill out for a while.

My anxiety has taken a hint, and calmed down a lot in some unexpected ways, like for example, we weren’t expecting it to help out was my fear over the nail clippers. I have always been afraid of these damn things since I was little, but I haven’t been sweating like crazy or attempting to pull my fingers away of my mother’s grip as much so that has been probably the biggest surprise of all! I have surprised myself with how much I trust myself and others when it comes to certain things, like feeling I am going to fall because again I have had a serious fear of heights all of my life, but now I am so chill. It’s nuts!

I am better than I was yesterday, but not as good as I will be tomorrow.

Despite the fact that things are going really good lately, unfortunately, these pills are not a cure-all. I wish they were, because I have a couple more issues that I wish would go away in less than a year. I’ve been trying to find some ways to distract myself along the way so that IΒ don’t give in so easily and sometimes that works, but then again it doesn’t. Thankfully I am a patient person and I love to learn to work things out better for me, so hopefully I’ll be able to get through some of these other things on my own.Β 

So, yeah this is my life one year on after accepting the help that I needed for my mental health and maybe come back to blogging full time again, because honestly I really miss it a lot! 

Have you ever decided to take anything for your mental heath, whether it be anxiety, depression, OCD, etc? How long  did it take for you to see some results?