As A Fan…

 Been feeling aggravated at the fact about the rumors I’ve been hearing. Sometime ago, I was listening to Siruis XM The Pulse on my TV. I think it was Jim Ryan doing the music news report that there was NOT going to be a Guns N Roses reunion at Rock N Roll Hall Of Fame. Jim stated both Slash and Axl’s statements about the rumors. A couple weeks ago, I was listening to SXM Octane (my top favorite radio station) and Kayla Riley had said that Slash just wants to move on from everything. I understand that and I don’t blame him. However, knowing the fact that the original Gn’R might not be at the induction breaks me in half. I’m not a BIG fan like some people are around this world, but I can say I listen to a few songs here and there I’d still like for them ALL to be there. It’s an honor, I mean, why waste it?

Found something interesting today. This was just the first thing that caught my eye. And the reason why it’s taken me to do this is because I follow some hardcore Gn’R fans on both Twitter and Tumblr. I’ve been afraid that since I don’t really listen to them that much and haven’t been alive that long that they would rip me apart. Right now, I don’t care so I’m going for it. I was on Nikki Sixx’s twitter and reading his tweets. And something just made me get all excited! A certain tweet made all these feelings come alive again. Here was the tweet:

“If the original Guns n Roses dont play the RRHOF i think it will really be a bummer to the fans that put them there…THoughts?”
I finally found somebody that agreed. Before finding this, I talked to pretty much everybody in my family about it and they agreed too, but I think they just nodded and smiled to get me to shut up. Oh well, they still said yes. I am a fan of the original Gn’R. It might be from reading both Slash and Duff’s books but the old Gn’R just make me happy like hearing a band whose been in retirement for years and come back for a surprise tour. I mean, there’s nothing better than the original. Having everybody but the singer replaced in a 80’s band is just weird. I know Axl’s got the name of Gn’R but really? It’s like taking ideas from somebody and putting your name on it and only that person gets the credit for it. That’s how I see it. Have I crossed the line? Yes, good! Now we’re getting somewhere.
 
Discovering new music, or in this case old music for me takes me awhile to accept. We’ve been through this before. If a band that I loved for some years didn’t go to an awards ceremony for the band to win something I’d be really crushed. We, as fans are the reason why any one of these bands get so big. We buy the records, we fall in love with their image, lyrics, stories, and life. We love everything about them. We make fan sites and armies for these people on different social networks. Different fans from all over the world are talking to others from other places in the world, some even learning to speak the language of their favorite bands. That’s big. Bands and artists save different fans with their music and lyrics. I’ve talked to a lot of people who say, they’ve saved me in the darkest part of my life. For one, you can not feel like you’ve done something good after hearing somebody say that. Just think if some of their fans saying it in front of them. They inspire us.
 
So with that being said, I think every Guns N Roses fan whose loved them from old to new, would be crushed if they didn’t see them there together for ONE freaking night! You’re all adults. Just make nice for ALL your fans for one night. All your fans who loved your songs, shows, music videos, clothes, and your attitude! There will never be another band like you! You still inspire the younger generation because they’re parents didn’t let them down from driving them crazy about the music today. Music then was real and raw, and now it’s sugar-coated. Bands and artists are being made up to act like somebody else. It shouldn’t be like that. Thank god rock music is still in style. It’s the only genre of music where you can be as free as you can be. As a fan can be. As an artist can be. This is what I think, but what do I know. I know as a fan, I’d love to be surprised by a miracle.

Step Four: The Pictures

So today is Friday, I’ve actually been looking forward to today for two reasons: basketball game tonight and finding my pictures for my drawings. After finishing Duff’s book last night, I decided to take a break from reading, but in my case I’ll take a two day break and want another book to keep me occupied while sitting on my bed in the mornings while everybody is still asleep. I can read on my bed, but not draw. My hips hurt and fall asleep enough that I don’t need anything else up there. Just searched for head shots of the original members of Guns N Roses, which was a bust. I’m trying not to find anything too detailed that causes stress on my behalf. I was also trying to find only black and white pictures. Which was going good until the only picture of Axl I liked was too small. So I will the same picture just in color. Once I print it out, it’ll be in black and white anyways so we’re good. I’m actually getting excited to do this, and I never thought I’d say that again. Hopefully, I will be printing off this pictures and getting started on them. Here’s the pictures I’ve selected:

Book Review: It’s So Easy (and other lies)

My third book in the spider web I’ve put myself in between two bands. Before I even wanted to read Slash and Nikki Sixx’s books, the only book I was concerned with was Duff’s book. In November, I went online to see how much it was and it was $32.99 but it had just came out so that was kind of the reason why it was so much. So I had to look around and that’s how I found and read Slash’s book first. When I was reading Slash’s book, there were some things in there that made go, oh god, did he really just say that? I thought that throughout the whole damn book. In Nikki’s book, I was more scared about the events he wrote about and the drug abuse. Both had a lot of stories of drug abuse. It freaked me out!

When I decided to get another book after I finished Nikki’s book. At first, I didn’t want to read Duff’s book. I thought it was going to the same stories in Slash’s book just in different text and perspectives. I knew drugs and alcohol were going to be in this book, and that was my reason of not wanting to go ahead and reading it. I had already read about two recovering drug addicts, I didn’t think I could get through reading about another one. Well, after some looking around at other books. I caved in and bought it. And I do not regret it. Out of all three books this one was my favorite. It was the reason why I love biographies of different people.

In the beginning, I was reading about how he had panic attacks, he was offered to become a pastry chef (which I’ve got to say, through me for a loop), how much he cared for everybody, surviving after his pancreatitis, getting clean from everything, just different things like that. Things you would not expect for a person in his shoes would do. Really? It’s crazy, but that’s what made reading his story that much better! I like to be surprised by certain things by different people. You know that quote don’t judge a book by its cover? Yeah, everybody needs to keep that in mind, especially while reading this book. Because everything you think a person is, it could totally be the opposite. I definitely recommend this book to anyone. It’s worth the read, trust me!

Step One: Thinking Process

Well last night I had a good talk with my mom. Apparently “My Love/Hate Relationship With Art” is coming back for round two. I’ve been thinking a lot. Thinking of quitting drawing altogether was a bad idea. Everybody thinks so, but I’ve got so many thoughts bouncing back and forth going, “you can’t do it so why even try?” To the one everybody wishes I’d believe, “you can do it.” It’s a lot easier to say than actually doing it. Something my mom told me last night was, “how can you not look at your drawings and not see something to be proud of?” I think that’s how she said it. This was around midnight and I had my headphones on (not playing anything) but it’s a little hard to hear after you’ve had to stopped suddenly when you’re listening to something very loudly. I do look at the two drawings that are on the walls in front of me. After a while though, sometimes you look at your own artwork and think, oh, this should have been bigger or darker. It really sucks after a while. I’d love to draw again, but like I said it’s so much easier said than done.

After talking to mom, I actually went on Bing and searched for pictures. Everything I felt at the beginning of doing my portraits in school came flooding back. That same feeling of ok, let’s do this! Since I’ve put myself in this little web between Guns N Roses and Motley Crue, I started thinking, ok, I listen to Motley Crue, but why am I still obsessing over Gn’R? I don’t understand. I only like one song by them. That’s it, but I do like Slash, Duff McKagan, and DJ Ashba. So I then I talked to my nana about it. I told her I’m not really into the “new” Gn’R, and I think I know why. Since I’ve read both Slash’s book and reading now Duff’s book, I kind of fallen for what use to be. Not the drug and alcohol part, but the original members. Since Nikki is in Motley and DJ is in Gn’R I started thinking, I do a lot of this. Especially at night. Well LP has 6 members, Motley has 4 and Gn’R has 5, and Sixx:A.M. has 3. That’s 12 people altogether. It’s not too bad, with the right mindset at least. Give or take, 12 people. 12 portraits. Well my mom did say, “draw big.” I don’t think she saw this one coming though.

Could I draw 12 people? Technically, it’s just their head. I could never draw hands, but I could draw shoulders though. I have ideas of how I want to do a few portraits. Kind of like a before and after picture. Something like that. Which would be interesting to somebody whose face hasn’t changed throughout the years. I only have three people so far as pictures go. So I have to search for 9 more. I hope I find some good head shots, if I don’t I might need to ask for some from my new Twitter friends, who most of them are Gn’R and Motley fans. Thank god! Speaking of Motley, for some reason I’m thinking of leaving them last. Even though I should do them first, they seem to be getting pushed farther back in my mind. I guess I must really want to do this or I wouldn’t be pushing others back from my mind. This is just step one.

Merry Christmas Readers!


Today has been a very interesting day. First off, Happy Birthday Jesus! Sorry for listening to all this rock music on your birthday, hope you can forgive me about that. I hardly got any sleep the night before last and definitely didn’t get the sleep I thought I would get last night. I only slept a total of four hours or less, don’t really remember how much I actually got. Don’t remember the time I got my brain to turn off completely. However, I do remember waking up hoping it was around 4:48am. I checked my phone and it was that exact time. I was surprised at myself. Emily said that we were getting up at 5am to open presents and going to nana’s at 7am. It’s a tradition we do. Open our presents at butt crack of dawn and go to nana’s when it’s still dark out. We’ve always done it that way. God forbid that we don’t change it soon. Anyways, I knew a good number of my sister’s stuff. Especially the big ones. I knew about the phone and Drake poster.

My stuff ranges from the normal. I didn’t really ask for anything special besides more money to buy books. That was my only “big” thing I wanted. I got like three gift cards, so I should be taken care of in that department. The biggest thing I get though is a poster. I’ve had a cut out poster before, and a tall person length poster, but this is the exception of both. That picture at the top is my poster. It’s freaking huge! Of course, I have to read one book and I got two Slash things. A poster of him and a shirt. Which is what I’m wearing at the moment. It’s nice to actually people read who I’m wearing. Normally we’re they put the name of the artist/band my arms are covering them. His face is covered by my arm, but his name is at my chest. I’ll keep them both! While we’re on the music subject. I got the new Nickelback album, which is what I’m jamming to now. I’m also a proud owner of my first Sixx:A.M. CD! However I think both of them are going to become my dad’s since I don’t really listen to CD’s anymore. I already told him he could have the Nickelback, but I’m keeping the Sixx:A.M.

Last night, my sister came in while I was reading. I got a new book last night. Apparently, I can’t get myself out of this little rockstar biography web I’ve putten myself in. So I’m reading Duff McKagan’s book, It’s So Easy, and Other Lies. Its a good book. Anyways, Emily had came in and told me that our Uncle David was going to come down, sneak like, and visit with us on Christmas day. He put on his Facebook status that his car had broken down. Well two things, my cousin Chris knows how to fix cars, practically anything. Everybody in that family has a history of tricking us. I knew better. At the end of unwrapping all our presents and after being stepped on by a heavy dog, Christmas miracle number one showed up. It was David in a Santa hat. He couldn’t fool a couple of us. Nana cried, oh and so did mom but that was before. She is not gonna like that I said that, but whatever. He came and told his stories and made us all laugh. I miss his crazy Indy stories. Christmas miracle number two showed up right when we were going to eat breakfast. God gave Emily strength to lift me in the push wheelchair. She might actually take me off after she gets her licensees after all. I think I missed Christmas miracle number three, apparently I missed a huge, gorgeous husky walking on the sidewalk at my nana’s while we were eating. Just my luck, but I was fine though. I got my wish, even though it wasn’t snow. I was still happy with what I got anyways. Merry Christmas everybody! ❤