Already A Crazy Friday.

So today is Friday! Thank god right? If you’re like me though, sometimes getting excited for Friday’s is kind of stupid. Everyday feels like a Friday to me considering I don’t hardly go anywhere during the week and I’m usually keeping busy by listening to music and reading. So everyday is like a weekend for me. If I have plans for the weekends then all I want is that week to fly by just like it does when I’m doing my usual, but whenever I have plans the week goes by so slow. I hate it.

For my mom and sister, Friday’s are the best days ever considering they get two days off. Since I have these shows on during the weekday, it doesn’t seem so bad. All week-long is a different night of something to watch except for Monday and Tuesday, they are my two days of Dancing With The Stars. One is a good day, the other is liable to be a sad day of your favorites going home. But as soon as it’s over you can retreat to your next favorite spot that makes you happy after a long day. Your bed.

When I woke up this morning, my left eye was bugging me. It might be because of my hair going all crazy in front of my face or my crazy eye lashes falling off like leafs during the last months of fall. Except mine are getting caught on their neighbors and bugging the crap out of me. I’m getting over it because I don’t feel like getting back to my bad mood I woke up with this morning. That’s what I hate the most. You wake up on a Friday morning in a bad mood for no reason. I sat up and got online and didn’t even want to read my book. Which is odd since I couldn’t keep myself away from it yesterday. I wasn’t in the mood this morning. I wasn’t in the mood for anything really. My internet was being slow today and my patience isn’t here today. So I gave up on that for 30 minutes then I got back on to better results.

I was on my Twitter and Facebook. Doing my usual. Reading everybody’s problems and funny posts like a crazy person. Right before I got offline I was on Facebook of what was supposed to be for the last for an hour. Dj Ashba had updated his status (which also sends to your Twitter) and he had said that he hasn’t had a cigarette in 10 days, and that is very good. I posted a reply on his Facebook first then went on Twitter and posted “very happy you’re quitting smoking. Hope you have a good day.” My phone was already blowing up with all the people I was talking to, but something inside went about two minutes after I sent that reply, that it might’ve been him. I love unexpected surprises that are good. I had tweets from my friends then a reply back from Dj. Whatever bad mood I was in this morning isn’t here anymore. I was very happy, probably too happy. Thank god I’ve come back to Earth about ten minutes afterwards.

After that my friend Kate and I were talking about Nikki Sixx, and I told her about Mike and Chester from Linkin Park being on SixxSense tonight. So we’ve been trying to figure out how to listen to this, considering neither one of us have listened in before. Nikki Sixx + Mike Shinoda + Chester Bennington = Awesome combination. I had to look on SixxSense’s website to see how to listen in. Thank god I saw the “Listen Live” at the top before going off the site altogether. That was like two hours ago, I’m still on I Heart Radio listening to different radio stations. Just killing time until four, since Dr. Phil comes on at that time. So hopefully somebody posts on their Twitter’s what time it comes on because we both live on opposite sides of the planet and I got Blue Bloods on tonight. Which I won’t mind missing it for these guys I mean, come on.  Well hope everybody has a great day.

Whispers In My Head

On Wednesday, I started work on my second drawing. I went out-of-order a little. When I was working on my Reid drawing, I was getting frustrated with myself and got very discouraged early on in the process of it. I thought the two-year break was the biggest mistake ever and I didn’t think it was going to turn out all that well. Everybody’s biggest critic is themselves, sadly I get too into worrying about it. Sometimes you worry about things will never happen. That’s what happened. I over thought about the details it needed and just the overall picture was enough to show, I had done a good job on it. It is now in a frame and it is a lot darker than it was when I took the picture that’s on here. Everything I had worried about on it, wasn’t as bad as I thought. I love how it turned out.

Like I said at the top, I went out-of-order. I wanted to do a drawing that was going to put some of the pressure I had when I was drawing Mike Shinoda’s in school. When I started drawing his portrait, I was very worried (like always) because out of the six members of Linkin Park. Mike’s was the only one that really mattered to me. I kind of blame doing Mike’s fourth to the reason why Chester and Rob’s look awful. After I did Mike’s I probably could have stopped and sometimes I wish I did. I hope I don’t regret drawing Nikki Sixx second because he is a big inspiration to me. So I’m a little worried it will jeopardize my other drawings. I’m more talking about the Guns N Roses, Motley Crue, and Sixx:A.M. drawings I have planned up in my head.

Since I had Nikki’s drawing done. I have decided to go back to my original plan of just only drawing the guys of My Darkest Days for right now. I have my next picture lined up and the next dude I will drawing is Sal Costa. What is really interesting about these pictures is that both Reid and Sal’s picturing I’m going off of are from the “Move Your Body” music video. I’ve watched that music video too many times to not want to find stills of the guys I couldn’t keep my eyes off of (even it was difficult to do with all the women in the video) and so far they’re the only two I want to draw from that music video. I want to find pictures of Matt and Brendan from the “Casual Sex” music video. Which is going to be difficult from the obvious. I already have a great picture of Doug, so he is good.

I don’t want to over do it or think too far ahead, but I kind of have ideas swirling around of other bands to draw after I get done with all four bands. I am thinking of drawing the guys of Nickelback. Love them a lot, so I think I can find great pictures of them. Hopefully I’ll find some fans sometime and get some individual pictures of the guys from them. Because that’s how I found good individual pictures of Dj Ashba and Mick Mars. Even though I hate asking for help, sometimes when you say, you’re drawing so and so, they give you the best. Thank you for that by the way. I was thinking about drawing Adam Levine and Blake Shelton, just because I think they’re adorable and since I can’t watch The Voice I can look at these drawings all the time. No, I was kidding!

Book Review: This Is Gonna Hurt

So here we are again, my fourth book in this little web. This book was probably my favorite and most exciting book to get. Before I even bought this book I was pumped! I had listen to “This Is Gonna Hurt” by Sixx:A.M. and already read Nikki’s first book, The Heroin Diaries, kind of already knowing what I’d be getting myself into. I had watched the music videos but “Lies Of The Beautiful People” was the first, I will say I’m not the biggest fan of the real creepy stuff. Watching the music video at first, flipped me upside down and over again.

Then once as I finally got the book, I started reading about why he takes pictures of people who are physically different and of things that people normally think  are strange. His pictures are all over the book, and as a so-called “hater” of creepy stuff, I’m fine with this. I think he corrupted me. Because before, I hated myself, didn’t think I was beautiful because of everybody else around me who had rejected all these years. Feeling kind of bitter. Almost like of hating all men, and I started reading about Nikki and my heart got all happy. Finally, a man who was different. There really is a God. Everybody should read this book.

I feel like I’m at school doing a paper about somebody that a teacher assigned to me and getting completely shell-shocked about somebody I assumed would be like every other male in the world. Man, was I wrong? His first book scared the living out of me. I don’t know if I was scared of how he used to be, or something else, but it worked. Afterwards, I knew I had to read his second book. And surprisingly enough, I just wanted the book for the photography. The journal part was the second part I was anxious about. By the day it came in, I was all giddy and probably looked like a crazy person to my dad. Getting all excited over a book. Well, there’s always a first. Knowing that a few hours after giving me the book he told me he might read it after me. Here you go dad!

Nikki is very bold. I couldn’t believe half the things he said in the book. I remember reading some pages and being stunned with his words. As I started reading it, I could feel myself building up the tears inside. All the pain I’ve felt about myself started to feel like it was going to come out on full blast. Somehow I managed to keep it together even though it was really hard to keep them in. I’ve cried too much in my life to let a book get to me. My favorite page was 85, well actually it starts on page 84. Those two pages practically killed me inside. Nikki talks about his life, both bands, and past. I think Nikki talking about Mick Mars was probably the one of the most sweetest but yet saddest things I’ve ever read in my life. I’ve read a lot of books, but these two pages were my favorites. I don’t want give out much just in case some that are reading haven’t read it yet. I don’t want to spoil it, but you might want tissues.

As A Fan…

 Been feeling aggravated at the fact about the rumors I’ve been hearing. Sometime ago, I was listening to Siruis XM The Pulse on my TV. I think it was Jim Ryan doing the music news report that there was NOT going to be a Guns N Roses reunion at Rock N Roll Hall Of Fame. Jim stated both Slash and Axl’s statements about the rumors. A couple weeks ago, I was listening to SXM Octane (my top favorite radio station) and Kayla Riley had said that Slash just wants to move on from everything. I understand that and I don’t blame him. However, knowing the fact that the original Gn’R might not be at the induction breaks me in half. I’m not a BIG fan like some people are around this world, but I can say I listen to a few songs here and there I’d still like for them ALL to be there. It’s an honor, I mean, why waste it?

Found something interesting today. This was just the first thing that caught my eye. And the reason why it’s taken me to do this is because I follow some hardcore Gn’R fans on both Twitter and Tumblr. I’ve been afraid that since I don’t really listen to them that much and haven’t been alive that long that they would rip me apart. Right now, I don’t care so I’m going for it. I was on Nikki Sixx’s twitter and reading his tweets. And something just made me get all excited! A certain tweet made all these feelings come alive again. Here was the tweet:

“If the original Guns n Roses dont play the RRHOF i think it will really be a bummer to the fans that put them there…THoughts?”
I finally found somebody that agreed. Before finding this, I talked to pretty much everybody in my family about it and they agreed too, but I think they just nodded and smiled to get me to shut up. Oh well, they still said yes. I am a fan of the original Gn’R. It might be from reading both Slash and Duff’s books but the old Gn’R just make me happy like hearing a band whose been in retirement for years and come back for a surprise tour. I mean, there’s nothing better than the original. Having everybody but the singer replaced in a 80’s band is just weird. I know Axl’s got the name of Gn’R but really? It’s like taking ideas from somebody and putting your name on it and only that person gets the credit for it. That’s how I see it. Have I crossed the line? Yes, good! Now we’re getting somewhere.
Discovering new music, or in this case old music for me takes me awhile to accept. We’ve been through this before. If a band that I loved for some years didn’t go to an awards ceremony for the band to win something I’d be really crushed. We, as fans are the reason why any one of these bands get so big. We buy the records, we fall in love with their image, lyrics, stories, and life. We love everything about them. We make fan sites and armies for these people on different social networks. Different fans from all over the world are talking to others from other places in the world, some even learning to speak the language of their favorite bands. That’s big. Bands and artists save different fans with their music and lyrics. I’ve talked to a lot of people who say, they’ve saved me in the darkest part of my life. For one, you can not feel like you’ve done something good after hearing somebody say that. Just think if some of their fans saying it in front of them. They inspire us.
So with that being said, I think every Guns N Roses fan whose loved them from old to new, would be crushed if they didn’t see them there together for ONE freaking night! You’re all adults. Just make nice for ALL your fans for one night. All your fans who loved your songs, shows, music videos, clothes, and your attitude! There will never be another band like you! You still inspire the younger generation because they’re parents didn’t let them down from driving them crazy about the music today. Music then was real and raw, and now it’s sugar-coated. Bands and artists are being made up to act like somebody else. It shouldn’t be like that. Thank god rock music is still in style. It’s the only genre of music where you can be as free as you can be. As a fan can be. As an artist can be. This is what I think, but what do I know. I know as a fan, I’d love to be surprised by a miracle.


Despite what the weather is doing outside my window at the moment. It keeps going back and forth between being calm to raging with high winds and thunder clashes around the entire house. The weather might be going crazy, but it’s not going to stop me from having a great day. I say that we a lot of confidence even if my mood starts to shut down on me. It will be a great day all day long. Days like these, feels like God’s little presents. Such a blessing to have a day like this, feel good inside and out (even though, I’m having pain in my hips) and things seem to be going right for me. I’m not thinking twice today, and I’m loving it! Something that makes this day that much better is the obvious, I got my book in the mail and from there it’s been nonstop smiles. Well, and a few laughs too. I thought I’d get it around noon, but God had other plans. It came around 11:30am. Dad surprised me with that and took it out of the package and made me wait until he was done looking at it to begin reading it. Yes, I started reading it as soon as he left the room.

About four pages in, I updated everybody on my Twitter that my book had come in and I tweeted my friend Jess, she had told me earlier that it is a lot bigger compared to the other books on her bookshelf. I thought it was going to be thick, but I didn’t expect HUGE! My other friend Fabi, I’ve been talking to her a lot lately, she’s one of my newer friends and a very big fan of Nikki Sixx. It makes things that much nicer! Anyways, she retweeted my tweet about my book and we had a mini conversation about the book and she realized after I said, “it’s freaking HUGE” sounded a bit dirty, at this point I laughed and went, “lol it does oops.” I didn’t notice at first but it’s fine. We talked a little bit more about how I was going to get my family reading it after I get done reading it. Which is going to be interesting, dad doesn’t really read anything but the newspapers and some cookbooks. Mom doesn’t usually have time to read it. It’s not in Emily’s range of books, but I think it could be something she’d like since she always wants to be less judgemental to others.

I’m already at page 29 and I got online to my Twitter (because before I was tweeting from my phone) and tweeted another one of my friends from a chat we had a while ago. Five minutes after ending that conversation, a certain tweet pops up and I instantly got all happy again. Not that I wasn’t happy talking to my friends, it was just an added bonus when this tweet showed up. It was from Nikki Sixx saying, “31 years ago Motley Crue was born. Horns and all.” How ironic is it, that my book comes in on same day as Motley was born? I mean, come on! That’s like the best thing ever! And I thought hearing our dog ChiChi singing at 5am this morning was the best thing ever! I was wrong, that is better! ChiChi is always good at singing and she always sings. But this was different. I’m a newly Motley Crue fan and this was the coolest thing ever to be apart of. Getting Nikki Sixx’s second book on a day like this is amazing!

Two more things that makes today better. Dad went to get more movies. He usually gets his scary movies that him and Emily enjoy. Even though Em doesn’t really like horror movies anymore because of “The Devil Inside.” I don’t really blame her there. He usually gets around, what looks like 10 movies altogether. He got me Blue Collar Comedy Tour, Jeff Dunham, and Friends With Benefits. Having Justin Timberlake in this amazing mix of goodness is awesome! Especially when I think he has his shirt off in this movie. I’m so excited! That sounds a bit dirty there too. Sorry about that, it’s going to be one of those days! Another good thing about today, well I found out about today. My favorite show Happily Divorced is going to be coming back on my TV screen in March! That’s the same month Dancing With The Stars come back on too! Yay! Okay, I’m done!