I’m getting my feet wet again with creating this little drawing last week on paint. It’s not perfect by any means, but I do think it’s adorable! I just wanted something simple but yet appealing to others, because let’s be honest where do we mostly watch vlogs? On our computers and laptops. I’m still not familiar of a layout of a tablet so that’s why I didn’t draw one. I’ve recently gotten myself into watching different vlogs. It started back in early December. From there it has kind of grew into more and more vlogs that I liked to watch and so I thought I’d go back and forth each month and share a couple of my favorite vloggers. I think I’m only going to focus on two people a month, so I don’t overwhelm myself with different videos. So I hope you enjoy these other vloggers too!
- Zoella – I am a new fan of Miss Zoe! I’ve only visited her blog twice, but she’s a beauty, fashion, and lifestyle blogger! She’s had her blog and vlogs since 2009! When I saw that she had written a book about a girl who has another life writing a blog, I thought it was awesome because people still don’t know what to think of both bloggers and vloggers. There are a lot of stereotyping with other non-bloggers but that’s life right! Anyways, every single vlog she’d put up, I’d watch! She’s bubbly and sounds so genuine! I actually love her vlogs on “MoreZoella” instead of the others. it’s kind of like writing up a lifestyle blog post but the only difference is that you’re actually seeing it for yourself what she’s doing and talking about, so it’s more personal really!
- Polka Dots And Cups Of Tea – I thought it would be really special if I featured this post with the Queen of YouTube with a new vlogger to me. Tanya is a new friend of mine. I found her blog by accident, I had just gotten on the 1D bandwagon and somehow I saw her post about taking her daughters to one of their concerts. I read it, followed her on Twitter, and haven’t been the same since! I love talking to her about life and even though she is a mum, she is extremely fun and honest! I recently started watching her vlogs. It’s so nice to know what her voice sounds like! That’s the one thing that being online and writing blog posts doesn’t have, a way to know how they sound like. Anyways, I love watching her vlogs, she goes about her day with and without her kids, does OOTDs and what make up products she uses!
I’ve always been the person, that I liked what the person’s face and body, but I even liked their music. That’s what I went through with pop music and sometimes rap too. Now that I’ve been into both dance and metal music throughout the last few years, I’ve realized that its better to listen to everything with your eyes, than paying more attention on the look of the person. I’m always been about wanting a person to look at myself than just a person in a wheelchair, I should treat musicians the same way. That’s why I’ve been against backstage passes and stuff. I don’t want to make myself just another sob story to them. I’m a strong person. Yes, I’ve obviously got some physical problems, but there’s more to me than just that. Everytime my mom jokes with me about going backstage or sneaking backstage, it literally makes my stomach cringe. She recently brought it up because my sister wants to see her idol Demi Lovato. Honestly, for her I would throw away my pride and do it for her, just so she could meet her. I would be happy solely for her. Back to the main subject, I’ve been pride of never been stuck on one genre of music. I’m literally everywhere.
I’ve talked about my music preferences before and the reason why I do, is because I try to highlight a part of me that has changed me in some way. Recently I’ve been listening to Leaves’ Eyes and they are a symphonic metal band from Norway. Liv Kristine has actually made it on my “Influences” list. I love her operatic voice and it’s soft too. I’ve recently listened to some of their songs and they have this celtic vibe, like “Spirit’s Masquerade” and I just love that! It makes the song just bright and fun, but it also makes it so mellow too. I have blogged about my love for the ladies of Celtic Woman. Well, ever since I’ve been listening to Leaves’ Eyes, I’ve missed their music. So tonight I’m listening and watching live clips of their songs. I love “Awakening,” “Nocturne,” and “Black Is The Colour” and I just think they sound so beautiful. I’m not necessarily paying attention to their voices, more focused on the sounds throughout the songs. That’s what truly makes them beautiful.
I’ve had one of those days where I can’t explain how I am feeling and it’s starting to make worry. Since I’ve been depressed before, I’m a little worried that I could go back into that hole again since I stopped therapy last week. I’ve been feeling like I’m not in the mood to do anything and you can only blame the weather for so long. Sorry, but it’s true! I don’t think if I talk about it with my mom that she would really understand. Honestly I don’t think anybody understand, nobody did the last three times. I think I’d rather keep it inside than talk about it with my family. Yet I’m letting you guys know about it. Sometimes just letting it out on here, helps more than talking about it out loud. My body just feels drained and my sleep is out of it too. That might be it too. At least I’m eating like a freaking pig again. That’s a plus I guess! The only bit of happiness I have right now are my TV shows. Isn’t that weird? Last night nobody went home from Dancing With The Stars, because of technical issues from last week. Tonight I watched The Originals and loved it! I taped Agents of S.H.i.E.L.D. for tomorrow. However I have like two movies that I am almost finished with them. Oh, and my aunt told me that it’s been snowing off and on up north. It’s kind of weird to ask my sister if it’s snowing when over the weekend she was here. That was weird for me too! Luckily, I haven’t confused myself…yet.
Well, I’m “feeling” kind of tired so I’m going to lie down and watch some Frasier or Mad About You recordings. I listened to Katy Perry’s new album and it was pretty good. I didn’t finish it, but for the ones I heard were great! I love the sound of “Legendary Lovers” and I think my favorite is right now is “This Is How We Do” and it kind of has a hip-hop vibe to it. I’ll probably finish listening to the rest tomorrow. I’m trying to remember if I’m forgetting anything and I don’t think I am. Okay, thanks for letting me vent and thank you for ignoring my first paragraph. I’ll leave you with this.
I don’t know what it is about the late night blog posts, but I think it has something to do with being inspired and then having the time to really think about it throughout the day and then talk about it in on here.
If you were lucky enough to see that I finally posted my ninth week post of therapy last night, then you know how low I was feeling yesterday. I had been depressed all day long and I just wasn’t in the mood to do pretty much anything. I also took an hour nap after I got home from my nana’s that afternoon as well. When it came to go to sleep, I decided to finally spell my guts on that post and went as honest as possible, about how I felt about everything I’ve been working on in therapy. I even talked about it with my sister, because she was kind of concerned about me too. Since we’ve been doing the transfering from the floor to the mat, I haven’t been able to do it at night. I want to work on it at home and I want to learn how to do it by myself again. I’m a perfectionist at almost everything I do. I also have a pretty good level of patience but my patience for this is weighting me down. I’m not figuring out how to do it and it’s just so frustrating for me to get through. I’m a fighter inside too, but I feel like I have nothing left to give for it anymore.
That was how I felt the whole day and night. I’ve basically been offline for majority of the day. Mostly because my sleep schedule is messed up and I slept all morning long. That’s my own fault. I’ve been feeling better since yesterday’s madness. I don’t know if it was just because it was a Monday morning or what, but this afternoon was totally different. I think after talking about four times yesterday, that I kind of feel a little bit better now. I’m allowed to have bad days and that was definitely a bad day for me. I hate those days because I’m used to being upbeat and happy and I was far from that. I posted a quote on my Facebook earlier today, and the caption I wrote for it was, “After yesterday, I wonder if I should take this as a hint?” And the quote was,
“Failure and setbacks are ingredients for a great success story.”
I wasn’t that inspired, but I had seen at least three quotes yesterday morning that I should have stuck in my head so I would continue to be strong, but I didn’t do it. It’s been three hours since I’ve posted that quote and quite a few people liked it. Since then, my mom came into my room and showed me this clip of a kid run a touchdown in a wheelchair, with full equipment and helmet. My mom had only taped the short clip before Fox & Friends went on commercial. I don’t why, but they didn’t tape the whole thing. They tape weirder things during the mornings, but that they don’t tape. Oh boy! Within an hour later and after my mom searching on their website, Google, and YouTube. She gives up, but as soon as she goes to sleep I find it, because my patience is back to normal. Thank you god! It’s a cute little story that will make you cry and I’ve got to say, I miss Powder Puff Football and I have been inspired to continue to try to find a way to do the transfers by myself again.
Here is the site I found the article and videos: click here.
I promise I’ll do a real post tomorrow. I’ve been hanging out with my family for most of the day. Tomorrow they go back home, so hopefully I’ll have enough energy to do a real blog post, but until then enjoy these lovely, awesome songs! Good night (:
I’m not a fan of BVB, but I think I’m falling in love with this song. It has everything I love, so you can’t blame me.
and the last video of the night is from a band that I got into very quickly. To make things even better, I think because of this band I even started listening to the original band, does Disturbed ring a bell? This band is pretty bad ass I gotta say! I can’t wait until April 9th and I’m not kidding. I got an iTunes card today and I am seriously waiting until the 9th to buy anything.