Book Review: “Twilight” by Stephenie Meyer

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Since I upped my reading challenge to 30 books, I was making that decision mainly to explore all kinds of stories. If I could, I would make room to read books that have made me curious in the past but fought against it at the time or lost interest either in the beginning or halfway through, and oddly enough Twilight is one of those books. As you might know, one of my favorites: The Vampire Diaries came on the air in 2009, which was less than a year after the first Twilight film came out. I do remember taking a chance and trying to read the book at my school’s library in that time frame but I just couldn’t shake it and ended up shoving it all away.

Mentally, I had Twilight on my to be read list, but it wasn’t until all of the films appeared in order on Showtime that I was like, “okay, I’m doing this! I am reading the books.” and within a few days, I had ordered it right along with my other books on my Kindle. It was the only print book I bought myself for a late Christmas gift and the sheer size intimidated me once again, even my dad thought it was a lot at the time, and was very proud to know that I had finished it too. These 300-400+ paged books have nothing on me anymore!


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About three things I was absolutely positive.

First, Edward was a vampire.

Second, there was a part of him—and I didn’t know how dominant that part might be—that thirsted for my blood.

And third, I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him.

Deeply seductive and extraordinarily suspenseful, Twilight is a love story with bite.

taken from Goodreads.

The funny part about this whole thing, was my thought after I finished working on the banner above, it was simply, “would anyone be interested in another reading a review of Twilight?” I thought it was hilarious at first, but then it was, like I think I could make this different from others, to make it look like a brand new book. Eh, we’ll see what happens after this post publishes.

There is one more thing I need to point out; I have maybe seen each movie possibly once since they were all out on DVD. So, I was actually able to create what all of the characters, setting and what I was reading in general looked like, and it was so freeing! I’ve never been so proud of myself for doing this, because even though I kept seeing Billy Burk for Charlie, Anna Kendrick for Jessica, and Robert Pattinson for Edward, everyone else was very much of a blur at first but as I got towards the middle of the book, I could see different features for everything and it was interesting to say the least!

I want to say that I was pretty interested at the start, when we are introduced to Bella. It was sort of odd how Edward isn’t able to read her mind but yet we, as the reader, know everything she is thinking when she’s with and without Edward around, and as we continued in the story, I began to see this character in a new light, because I just thought she was too stoic, but learning more about her and how she thinks, was enlightening to me.

“How ghastly it would be, I thought, shuddering, if Charlie had, even the slightest inkling exactly what I did like.”

There are not very many times I will pick out favorite chapters, but I thought Chapters 13 to 16, were some of the most thrilling stories. It also answered a lot of things I remember weren’t really shared in the films. I absolutely loved learning more about Edward, how he became a vampire and what kind of circumstances were present when Carlisle gave him new life. My respect for Carlisle went over the roof as Bella was introduced to the story of how he was created and why he became a doctor in the first place. As I was reading these four chapters, I was allowing myself to slow my pace, because I have always been curious to learn more about the rest of the Cullens.

Once I got to Chapter 17, which is called “The Hunt” everything kind of changed and there was really no stopping in between because the events taking place are quick and you are automatically reading it as fast you can or at least, that’s what to me. Unfortunately, I had to stop just before I hit the epilogue, because my mom wanted to go to bed and it irked me so much to stop that I couldn’t get her out of my room fast enough; once she left though, I resumed my position and finished the book all in about four hours!

Now that I am done reading, I kind of want to restrain myself from actually watching the films and finishing the book series, in case, there is information featured that I might want to know beforehand. Of course, I’ve been waiting to watch the fist one for like two months and I don’t know when I’ll be able to receive the next book yet.

Have you read the Twilight series or maybe just one of the books by Stephenie Meyer? Do you remember if you had a favorite chapter(s) in that first book? Which couple do you ship?

Life | Struggling With My Heritage

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If I am a having a great reading month, I can bang out two reviews at the most, but if I’m not, figuring out what I want to blog about can be somewhat difficult for me. I do believe the book and music posts are the heart of this site but I think what I miss about are personal stories. It could be what I eat in a day or a life lately update, as long as it is like you’re talking to your best friend, I love them! And that’s what I want to bring back to the blogging community for 2021.

So, let’s start this year off with a brand new series, called “Life”. I sort of felt like Sir David Attenborough at the beginning of those nature documentaries you see on BBC America a little as I was writing that sentence!


At the end of 2019, my mom and I were finally to get dad something he’s always wanted for the last two or years, and it was the AncestryDNA kit. The year before, I was relaying things about my nana’s results, because she was given the kit for Christmas the year before. The biggest difference between the two of them is that, we sort of knew where she was from as we have a detailed family tree and information for her, whereas with my dad, it has been a case of “maybe” since I was really young, so he was genuinely very happy to receive this, even though he has been worried that these companies will keep the DNA in case you are wanted by the CIA or FBI. I understand why he had this fear, and I feel like it’s not one that a lot of people make easily, but again, he was very excited to finally get some answers!

Honestly, he wasn’t the only one who was curious. I am interested in genealogy, as I watch almost every TV show about other people’s discoveries. I find them really neat, especially when people are introduced to certain ancestors that may not have been the best people in their lives. It is also cool to feel proud of these people being apart of important moments in history too! However, if you are only wanting to see the percentage of where your family came from, that’s fine! This tool gives a better insight of general areas you came from through your heritage.

When my nana had told all of us was stuff we already knew, well, what I knew at least. She has strong ties to the British isles, mainly Irish, but there was an even bigger number for the western part of Europe: Germany. For my nana, who was given up for adaption at the age of 2. After she was given to her parents, they were afraid that her older siblings would be able to find her and basically steal her back to her biological family, so she moved around a lot growing up and lived on the West Coast for the majority of her life before coming back to the Midwest where she met her husband, my papaw in the the early 60’s.

It wasn’t until the late 80’s that someone came and knocked on her door to ask her name and was told that she had been adopted. Now, it took a little bit for this news to sink in but in the next two years, she found out that she was one of 13 children to a German father, who was a traveling salesman (he used to make furniture) and a Irish stay at home mother. She was able to meet some of her siblings and their families as they held a reunion a year before I was born. So, as I grew up, I heard every stage of her life and it’s been permanently engraved into my brain. It wasn’t until I was out of high school did I become obsessed with learning more about my own ancestry.

As we were able to find loads of information on my mom’s parents, and how exciting it was to learn more about both sides, I figured going into my dad’s side would be the same, even though it was full of questions more than answers. He has always said that we were of Scottish and Welsh descent but then there was some folklore in there too. We could have been connected to Native Americans. I was very much into that side of the story, and wanted to learn so much about it, but nobody was sure on what tribe we came from or how it came about either. Every year in school, we would learn more about these people and I would be ecstatic about it! When I was in fourth grade, our class created a teepee on one side of the room and we were divided up into a group of four and had to come up with names that resembled something they would have been called in their tribe. I chose Sunflower and was thankful that nobody else picked it out for themselves!

While my dad kept track of the arrival of his results at the end of February, they answered things we knew but my heart shattered on the no mention of being related to Native Americans.

It was one thing to know that I wasn’t a descendent of these amazing people, but it was even a harder pill to swallow to know that I was a full on brute.

The start of 2020 was very difficult on my self-worth because I would literally torture myself as I silently retraced the steps of history’s most horrible people like, Adolf Hitler’s hatred towards the Jewish community and becoming a dictator and was able to convince all of Germany to be mean. They were beaten, forced to work in camps, starved, and murdered because of their difference in religion. Unfortunately, after all these years of Germany becoming liberated of the Nazi regime, many people are still weary of the country.

And the last, the English coming to the West Indies and creating colonies on lands that were already occupied by indigenous people. Instead of the reason being about their religion, it was because they were not like them. Everything about Native Americans scared them, so they took everything that belonged to them and massacred and gave no mercy to anyone, even mothers and children. The English also brought with them the cruelty of keeping black people in slavery to the already cursed country. This would prove a problem that lasted well after Abraham Lincoln read the Emancipation Proclamation and allowed them to become “free” and able to do things that their masters had long been doing since they came to the United States.

It is a blessing to know many parts of history, but it is so hard to digest everything that your distant relatives could have done, which was the main reason why I didn’t say anything to anybody until now. I often wonder what would they think of me. Would they be embarrassed or proud of the way I hold myself, think about certain things and most importantly my disability? Unfortunately, I will never be able to gain anything by keeping this thought around, because it’ll never be answered.

As frightening to know that I could have some very bad people connected to my DNA but I started to feel bad for only looking at that side of things. These events are unsettling; we still struggle with our past, but we must move on and make sure to change our ways so it doesn’t happen ever again. We don’t learn anything by forgetting these sometimes gruesome and upsetting tales, so I will let them live in a large chest that is already full to rim of things that I have experienced in my life already, and continue blossoming into this journey.

Have you had your DNA tested? If you have, did you find out anything that was unexpected? For those who haven’t done it yet, can you tell me one reason you haven’t done it yet?

Meghan’s Halloween Playlist!

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October makes a lot of people extremely happy, and I am definitely one of those people! I don’t really remember ever being not sad for summer to be over or wonder why the main reason all of the leaves turn various colors in the fall is because they’re dying, instead I become everyone’s worst nightmare! I do not apologize for it because there are some weirdos that do the same thing during Valentine’s Day, which is literally my worst nightmare. So karma knows its way around with me!

Here’s the thing, I don’t have a lot of traditions for Halloween. Yes, the pumpkins are very important to me but we didn’t do them in the last two years because of how small Nolan was and honestly, he doesn’t need to be around paint in general. I feel like anybody that is around a lot of toddlers would understand this statement perfectly. The one thing I tend to do a lot on the day itself is watch the full music video of Michael Jackson’s “Thriller” and I totally forgot to do it last year, so I’m not consistent by any means but you know, at least I try to be!

What is absolutely hilarious though is that after seeing many, many other bloggers post about their Halloween playlist in 2019, I literally missed my opportunity to talk about mine… which hadn’t even been created yet. You see, I didn’t build it until like the second of November because I am technically picky with Halloween inspired music.

So, this year I told myself I was going to get this post up one way or another. If you want to, you can just check out the whole playlist right here, but below I decided to put together my Top 25 of some of my favorite spooky tunes!

Poltergist by BANKS
The House Of Shame by Lacuna Coil
Monster Mash by Bobby “Boris” Pickett and The Crypt-Kickers
Throne by Bring Me The Horizon
Black Magic by Little Mix
Jekyll and Hyde by Five Finger Death Punch
Desire by Meg Myers
Black Out Days by Phantogram
Men In Black by Will Smith
Moon Trance by Lindsey Stirling
Down by The Birthday Massacre
Bad Dream by Ruelle
Diminuendo by Lawless featuring Britt Warner
Killing Strangers by Marilyn Manson
Everywhere Ghosts Hide by Erin McCarley x UNSECRET
Lacrimosa by Apashe
Skeletons by New Years Day

Haunted by Evanscence
Darkness by XVI
Dark Paradise by Lana del Rey
Speak To Me by Amy Lee
Wolves by Marshmello x Selena Gomez
Lilith by Butcher Babies
Bite Marks by The White Noise
Change (In The House Of Flies) by Deftones

I think there is a bigger amount of songs that can be released for Halloween than compared to Christmas, because most people would rather listen to the classics that they grew up with but the bad part about that is, everything becomes so boring and can sometimes lose their luster after its been remade every year. However, with the coming of Halloween, music in general can take on many different elements with various genres and use spooky themes from books, movies, and TV.

One thing you will notice throughout the entire playlist is the fact that I went through my heavy metal and rock selection on Spotify to see if there were any other “creepy” songs that could work in the playlist. The point of this was, if I added more songs like Deftones “Change (In The House Of Flies” and “Skeletons” by New Years Day, you could be able to listen to the list basically all year round, compared to Christmas where you basically get made fun of if you listen to your favorite songs too early or way after the holiday is over. Technically I will continue to listen to this playlist until the third of November after the complication of “Dia de los Muertos” or the Day Of The Dead festivities in Mexico.

What do you like to listen to during the months leading into Halloween?

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Music Monday | Tommee Profitt

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For my last post for this series, I will be talking about Tommee Profitt. A music producer, composer and songwriter that I’ve been keeping up with since probably the end of 2017. I still don’t really know how I found him in the first place; I do remember I was on Spotify, but the connection between the two is still a little foggy. Anyways, it happened and it’s been incredible journey so far!

What a lot of people don’t understand is that, everything is connected in some form or another. Everything happens for a reason.

To me, there really isn’t a big jump between symphonic metal and cinematic/trailer music. I think there are a lot of similiarities between the two of them, epesically when it comes to writing the concept. The lyrics are easy to read and can be filled of different emotions. They both encourage the use of choir and big orchestra elements depending on the mood of the song itself.

Now as I say “trailer” music, I don’t necessarily mean Hans Zimmer, Alan Silverstri, etc. Nowadays, composers like Tommee and vocalists you have probably never heard of yet somehow they are (mostly) all located in Nashville are creating these gorgeous songs for various promos and they are becoming the new generation of what is cinematic music. Lately, the world has started to see the genius of Tommee’s work, which is really awesome! Two years ago, Tommee teamed up with a long time contributor Fleurie to do a tribute album for the final season of “Game Of Thrones”. I previously listened to the soundtrack that was put together Travis Scott, Ellie Goulding, Hallie x Chloe, etc. However, this one was worthy to be part of the score I thought because it was so beautiful with Fleurie’s dreamy vocals and fierce compositions behind her in the music.

You may not know this, but last year he worked with Christian rapper NF on his album The Search. I think the two of them have worked together before this release, but I’m not too sure about it. I feel like I can judge what feels and sounds like something Tommee would create, but in the last two cinematic compilations, he is starting to expeiment with other genres like country and a little bit of rock, which is great but sometimes I have issues with figuring out what Tommee has produced for him or not. There are other artists he tends to work with a lot, and they are Sam Tinnesz, Ruelle and Jung Youth. If you haven’t heard of anybody featured in this post, you should definitely give everybody a listen, trust me, you’ll end up loving something among the people I’ve included in here.

Have you heard of Tommee Profitt’s work? If you have, list that person or any others below in the comments for me! Do you have a favorite track too?

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Book Review: “City Of Bones” by Cassandra Clare

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I have been wanting to read this book for a long time. I remember when it first came out because I would visit the book section at Wal-Mart all the time and I was curious but not enough to consider reading it in the beginning, possibly for the fact that it is a massive book! It wasn’t until the film came out in 2013 that I found myself wanting to see what all the fuss was about, because there wasn’t a lot of happy people when it came out in theaters. I ended up loving it more than I thought, but I don’t usually watch the film version and then read the book afterwards, so I would watch it all the time until we had to get our DVRs updated and it was deleted in the aftermath.

I had hoped that it would appear on our movie channels in the last seven years but it hasn’t but I feel in my own bones that it might in the future now that I’ve finally read the book.

When I started doing my reading challenge, I had hoped that the book would be apart of Prime Reading because they usually have a wide range of fantasy books in their catalog but it wasn’t until we got KU that I found it and took full advantage of the opportunity.


055c57b555c80ebe15494ad70ad84e24When fifteen-year-old Clary Fray heads out to the Pandemonium Club in New York City, she hardly expects to witness a murder – much less a murder committed by three teenagers covered with strange tattoos and brandishing bizarre weapons. Then the body disappears into thin air.

It’s hard to call the police when the murderers are invisible to everyone else and when there is nothing – not even a smear of blood – to show that a boy has died. Or was he a boy?

This is Clary’s first meeting with the Shadowhunters, warriors dedicated to ridding the earth of demons. It’s also her first encounter with Jace, a Shadowhunter who looks a little like an angel and acts a lot like a jerk.

Within twenty-four hours Clary is pulled into Jace’s world with a vengeance, when her mother disappears and Clary herself is attacked by a demon. But why would demons be interested in ordinary mundanes like Clary and her mother? And how did Clary suddenly get the Sight? The Shadowhunters would like to know…

taken from Goodreads.

For someone who hasn’t watched the film in seven years and only seen a few episode trailers of the Shadowhunters show on Freeform, I had a very vivid images of all of the characters floating around in my mind as I read the book. It was a tad bit difficult to stop comparing them all together but I think it happened me lots on building everything else that was talked about in the story.

Once I began my journey I quickly realized why the book itself looked so large on BookTube, because the author made sure to describe everything for her readers to both see the amount of detail she created for her readers and understand how important it is to basically look beyond the lines, whether that meant a story itself, a person or building. I, myself, have never been good at creating lots of things within various scenes. This has always been my downfall, even in school, we had a standardized test every year and the section where it allows you to write long answers, I wouldn’t give anything to describe what is going on and I would fail that part every year. I had never seen so many words to help visualize the surroundings of what was going on with the characters.

As I was seeing the various structures in my mind, I was also enjoying the banter and bickering among the characters too. I really loved Clary and Simon’s friendship and the scene where they go to Magnus Bane’s house and the poor guy is turned into a rat, cracked me up! I feel like that was perfect because only a mundane would grab a random cup to drink at a warlock’s party! I think the perfect way to sum up how much Clary cared for Simon is shown when she discovers him missing from her backpack and they get ambushed at the vampire lair. Again, it was perfect and I ended up enjoying that whole scene the most I think.

Another character I loved more in the book than anywhere else was Hodge. He gave me serious mentor vibes, and every scene he was talking to Clary about the past or general information about a Shadowhunter’s life was so interesting. I felt as though I was Clary in those scenes and just absorbing as much information as possible, but I wasn’t planning on feeling betrayed when he stabs them in the back. I was genuine upset by it! And the entry of Valentine scared me as much as it had Clary. It probably didn’t help that I was seeing Jonathan Rhys Meyers in my head as I think he has the intimidating factor well-generated into himself. So, anytime he was in the same room with Clary, I was feeling nervous for her.

I really hope I am able to start on “City Of Ashes” soon because I want to know what happens next between Clary and Jace, especially after that big reveal at the end. I’m still fairly confused by that but I’m choosing to keep it to myself as I feel like anyone who reads this will think I just ruined the ending for them, so I’m stopping here.

Have you read “City Of Bones” by Cassandra Clare yet? If you have watched the film and show first and then starting reading the series, what were your initial thoughts about this story?

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