February Playlist

Happy Monday everyone!

The best way to describe February’s playlist is chaotic. I thought it would be similar to last month, but I was wrong. It has its own style. I discovered so much music this month that I’ve been both happy and stunned at the same time because the number of genres in it is so beautiful and I cannot wait to share it with you today.

At the beginning of the month, I was being pulled into my hard rock artists and I think I’ve had my foot holding the door to that genre the whole time. As I was traveling through pop and even epic country/rock music (which is SO ahh-mazing!) worlds I would literally make a circle back to enjoy some of my beloved tracks. I would love to share one artist or band every month, but I find it really challenging because I shuffle around so much.

And yes, I have been using the same banner I use on Instagram and Twitter as the playlist’s cover. I don’t know why I’m just doing it now, but it’s been fun coming up with different lettering to symbolize each month. Unfortunately, I can’t use the ones I made above, mainly because it is too large to fit, but since I also make the others, so thankfully I have the others!

I don’t have a general idea why I made January so gloomy, but it was just wanted for that banner. I knew for February, I wanted to go all out for Valentine’s Day, and I used the one color I hate with a passion: pink. I had to put some black in there because the hot pink was a little too strong to match with any other color on the app’s selections. I will (hopefully) continue to do this for the rest of the year and maybe it’ll attract some more people that cruise around on Spotify for more styled playlists.

Here is my Top 25 for the time being. Keep an eye and hear out on my blog’s Facebook and Instagram to see if I include any more songs. If you want to take the easy route, you can look into the entire playlist on Spotify as I’m always updating there as well!

Decode by Paramore
My Universe by Kurt Hugo Schneider featuring Alex Goot & First To Eleven
Feeling Good by Nina Simone
Man On A Mission by Oh The Larceny
Liar by Britney Spears
Your Call by Gaby Grace
Where Is Your Hero Now by Sami J. Laine x Epic Music World
Stabbing In The Dark by Ice Nine Kills
Sweere by Papa Roach featuring FEVER 333 & Sueco
Dirty Talk by Wynter Gordon
Stranger by Hilary Duff
Gold Trans Am by Kesha
Daddy AF by Slayyter
Pink Pony Club by Chappell Roan
Weak by JoJo
Surface Pressure by Jessica Darrow
Back From The Dead by Halestorm
Cutting It Close by Rain City Drive
ABCDEFU by Gayle
Hallelujah by Underoath
Rest In Peace by Dorothy
Boyfriend by Dove Cameron
Tomorrow by Avril Lavigne
Can’t Take My Eyes Off You by Cary Brothers
Yours by Ella Henderson

Before I let you go, I wanted to talk about the Super Bowl halftime show.

I’m not a fan of football by any means, but I enjoy watching the commercials and the halftimes shows. I always think they can be a hit or miss, and I always have some worries about what the artist would do. I did not know who was going to host until probably late November. I feel like we knew pretty early on who was going to play for the last few years, but once I heard about Dr. Dre, Snoop Dogg and Eminem was going to be on stage, I was so pumped!

As you may know, I tend to listen to a lot of old school hip hop, and even though I wasn’t expecting to see 50 Cent there, I brought me back to my middle school days because I was a huge G Unit fan and if you didn’t know, I basically wanted to become the female, disabled version of Dr. Dre after graduating high school. So, the lineup (not so much into Kendrick Lamar, though I do respect him as an amazing record producer!) was everything to my mom and me. It was incredible to see these great artists of the 80’s through the mid 2000’s performing some of their fan’s favorites!

What were you listening to in the month of February? What did you think about the Halftime show? Who would you like to host next year?

The Wedding | Part One!

Howdy!

In my last post, I thought that I wouldn’t do the full four posts like I had wanted because of the fact we didn’t take very many pictures on Friday, but then two days later I realized Blondie did in fact take pictures of the layout of the reception area and decorations. Unfortunately, I had asked too late because she had just deleted them! I was bummed because they were literally my last resort, but she was in the process of trying to put up the decorations for sale on the barter pages. So she started sending me those pictures instead that way you all would get an idea at least!

Thursday was the day where Brandon, dad and the other groomsmen were to get their tuxes and I thought I heard a lot of complaints of women thinking their garments weren’t going to fit them correctly–myself included–until I heard my dad worry about the fact that his pants would be up to his ears! I had to exchange the word because that’s not all of what he said! Blondie went with these two and took pictures. According to her, poor dad was yelling across the stalls where they were changing to Brandon because he didn’t have a clue how to put it on! I thought it was cute and sad all at the same time! This was seriously the first time we’ve ever seen him in a tux so when mom got the pictures, I was in shock but also a bit impressed on how much he was willing to do for his youngest daughter!

Friday was the day of the rehearsal! This was the day that dad was the least looking forward to and he complained majority of the time!

We started the afternoon going to the reception room and putting up some of the decorations! The tables and chairs were already put out when we got there and there was a massive gap between the bridal party, dance floor and the guests tables. Blondie was told they were like that for in case of fire, but it was a huge amount of space! Anyways, when we first got there I was allowed to roam in my chair which I relished in I’m not going to lie. I needed to see how much movement I would be able to do if this was where we were going to party. I also had a secret agenda too, we weren’t exactly sure how tall these tables were going to be so I could feed myself  and we needed to know if I was going to need the thick book I use whenever I go into the living room! Apparently our loveseat is higher than my bed! I rolled myself over to my seat and it was a perfect fit! Blondie placed my straw inside my glass before we left too!

Jace and Dyllanne were there to help out. Sam came later once we were finishing putting the lights on the tables. Brandon’s mom bought the table decorations, they were just simple things which is what Blondie wanted so it wouldn’t be so complicated to take down after everything was over. Once I inspected my seat I began to roll myself back over to the stew of boxes and I told Jace to place the bigger candles inside an empty box so I could place them on the bridal party’s table. The bottles were at the edge of the tables and I figured I was able to put them up there or somewhere close. I was thankful that we were the ones that did this because I decided to wear the same dress I wore for the bridal shower so I had my legs up in the air a lot more than I realized but hey, I wanted to be of good use.

Every table got one candle and mason jar with a bouquet of flowers on top! We had to do some rearranging at the last because we had twice as many flowers and jars than tables so we switched out some of the original flowers in the bottles and exchanged them with the brighter pink ones.

After we were finished and we had added our fourth bridesmaid Jayde to the fun, we went to the church where we were sat and waited for at least five of the groomsmen! There were only two of them there at the church and roughly half of Brandon’s family sitting in the chairs. When we got there, we met up with Alli and her younger sister whom I haven’t seen in a really long time because she’s now in her teens! Thank you Shelby for making me feel extremely old! Ten minutes passed and the last bridesmaid Skyela had arrived but we still only had two groomsmen. Within 20 minutes later, not only did my dad fall asleep in the chair and slightly bonded with Patty and Will, I saw two gentlemen. One was really tall and that was Jordan and the other was Isek about five minutes later I saw a familiar face! Allen (best man), his brother Alex and Lance came walking through the doors. We were all there now!

We started with getting lined up by Blondie and at this point she had turned into a royal bridezilla. Since Allen and I had the good spots, we were the last ones before the flower girls and ring bearers. While we were practicing going down the aisle, Allen and I decided to have some fun and we did some pop-a-wheelies. I’m still surprised we didn’t get scolded by dad or Blondie by the second time around! It was hot as hell in that church so if we didn’t have any fun, somebody was going to pass out! And yes, that’s my excuse!

My mom and I were originally going to spend the night at Blondie’s while Brandon stayed at the frat house with the groomsmen, but once we were finished with the rehearsal it was super hot and both of my folks stomach’s were sour so we ended up going home while the stuff we had brought with us stayed at the apartment. I had to sleep with my childhood pillow which is flat as paper and two fleece blankets that weren’t long enough to reach my feet! I wasn’t exactly thrilled but it ended up being a good thing in the end! Everybody else went to the rehearsal dinner at Wings & Rings and Blondie had fun with her girls from her ISU days!

Next week you’ll finally get the details of the actual wedding day! 

Facebook | Twitter | Pinterest | Bloglovin

The Wedding | Nails, Hair, & Dresses!

Hello!

We start our adventure on Wednesday, we were supposed to have like a spa day with all of the bridesmaids but ultimately decided against that but Blondie did came to the house so dad could do her nails. He’s been doing nails since she was competing in beauty pageants! I went first and after spending about an hour on just trying to remove the old polish on my toes, he pulled out the clippers. For anybody who doesn’t know, I’m terrified of the clippers, like I break out in sweats that’s how bad my anxiety gets whenever they’re around. Anyways, I managed to tick off my dad enough that my mom had to paint both my finger and toe nails!

I hardly ever get my finger nails done, and now I know why. I had to smell nail polish for like two days straight! Every time I tried to put on my blanket at night, the smell would brush up on me! I had a stomachache every time I got a woof of it. I had mom put another shade of pink on my fingers–apparently both Blondie and I had the same baby pink polish and we didn’t even know it! I used this because I thought it would be as close to the shade of my dress and I was right! As far as my toes, Blondie brought down a silver and hot pink and I decided to do the opposite of what she was doing or vice versa. All of my toes are silver with the “ring toe” is just pink!

Poor dad had so much trouble getting the pink on her nails though. She has quite a few dents on her nails of where she’s smashed them at work! According to him, the polish was pretty thick too so he literally spent like five minutes of one hand alone! He didn’t have an issue with the silver thank god! Afterwards, he started on my mom’s nails! My nana had this light orange polish that my aunt grabbed on accident a few days before and we thought it was as close to her dress!

---

Now I have to talk about hair! Blondie and I chose a similar hairstyle. We both wanted loose curls and our hair braided! Poor Dyllanne had so much trouble trying to figure out how to do the braids, because the picture I gave her didn’t necessarily gave you instructions so she had to wing it. It took her about three tries before she finally cracked the code! Somehow I only needed four bobby pins after all of that! Once at the reception though, I had Jayde put it up in a ponytail because I figure it would all fall onto my plate if I didn’t!

I know I’ve talked about the dresses before, but as I found out through my friend Ania a couple of months ago, I never showed anyone what I looked like in the pink dress as I had to try on the ones in red and blue! Blondie bought me some fabric tape because my strap and around my right side were very loose, so we had to make sure that nothing came out. One of the bridesmaid’s Alli actually had to add another strip before we went out to do pictures because the one on my right side was coming off! The length was another thing. I was worried that if we went higher on the sizes that the length would get longer as well, because I wanted a short dress. Thankfully everything went fine and I had my “short” dress even if the ends were at my ankles! I’ve shared what Blondie’s wedding dress looked like back in January of 2016, but she had quite a few alterations done to it but the structure is still the same but it fit her a lot better than that first time!

As far as dad, Brandon and the rest of the groomsmen they had a silver tux with pink bow ties and vest and wore brown shoes, which at first nobody liked until you saw all of it on together and then it made the outfit that much better! And yes, my dad wore his gray bandana to walk her down the aisle. He honestly wanted to shave everything but Blondie said no! Hell, we all said no!

This slideshow requires JavaScript.

The next post(s) should be about the wedding itself, so keep an eye out of it! 

Facebook | Twitter | Pinterest | Bloglovin

OOTD: Spring Dress!

Howdy!

Today’s post is about what I wore to my sister’s bridal shower last weekend! As you can see, I wore a dress!

I wanted to get something nice to wear at Blondie’s bridal shower and for some odd reason I just wanted to wear a dress. I have one in my closet but I haven’t tried it on since 2015 so I was unsure if it was going to fit and I didn’t want to wait until the last minute to see, so I had mysteriously committed myself to wearing a dress! One day we were at Walmart and we were looking around and they had a small amount of casual dresses in the store, but we had found these three different colored lace-y dresses and I was kind of into them, but I was still second guessing myself.

As I’ve mentioned in the past I have a lot of insecurity issues with different areas, mainly with my stomach and arms. I’m not considered skinny around my stomach and waist, sometimes I get down about that because I know I can’t say it’s muscle like I do with my butt, so I have a hard time feeling beautiful in my skin. The one place that tends to really bother me the most are my arms. They’re just there and get in the way of my tops that have pretty designs in the front.

We were in the food department and I kept thinking about them. So I talked my mom into taking me back to where they were and she and I agreed on buying the black one although I had seriously considered the baby blue instead! It came with a nice light brown belt that I really liked! The dress reminds me of like Spanish inspired, because of the neckline and ruffles of the sleeves. I really like the lace-y texture of course! I wasn’t really into the pink throughout, but I am slowly coming around to the color in general now! It has some baby blue flowers in there too – I just really loved it!

One of our concerns was obviously the shoulders, I can never find anything that will actually stay up on my right shoulder. So my mom had the idea for placing a safety pin on the back to help it from falling down. I absolutely hate safety pins! They make me feel uneasy and I always feel like it’s going to undo and poke me, and I do not want to do that anywhere around my back. So she thought about tying the clear straps that you put on your hanger together and hoping that it would be enough to keep it up and surprisingly it worked and I was very happy about that!

I wasn’t going to mention this, but figured I probably should. Since I was going to be around a lot of people and ended up participating in the shower quite a bit, my mom put me in a pair of shorts. I mostly kept my feet somewhat leveled but it was something that I just felt I needed to do so I wasn’t worried on how much I moved around. I also wore my “M” necklace with it, because my other one wouldn’t undo for us and I would love to wear it again, not exactly sure if it would go with the dress itself but you know! You might see it in a coming up post as my dad fixed it for us! As for my hair, my mom had half of it in a small clip, she thought I looked very elegant! While my nana thought I looked like a little doll!

So what do you think of my outfit? Yay or nay? When was the last time you wore like a cute and fun dress?

Facebook | Twitter | Pinterest | Bloglovin

The Bridesmaid Dresses!

Howdy!

I am discussing everything wedding today! If you follow me on Twitter, you might’ve noticed that on February 26th, I finally got fitted for my maid of honor dress as the rest of the bridesmaids had gone in early January, since some of the girls were still on break. We were supposed to go, but my nana had been having some issues with her health and my mom didn’t want to risk leaving her alone.

It was during this trip that they got to pick the style of dress they wanted to wear, because I think Blondie was going back and forth on what exactly she wanted us to wear for the wedding, she originally didn’t want any kind of lace. She didn’t want it on her dress or ours, even though I believe if you’re going to have a Disney (and Superhero) theme wedding, lace would be a classic go-to addition. Ultimately, the rest of the camp found a dress that they liked–after trying like 8 others–and it has lace on it! So technically I was happy about it and I didn’t even express my opinions on it, because I feared I’d get yelled at, so I kept my mouth shut!

The girls that went are all wearing one shoulder strap dress, that has thick lace material all around the front that gradually goes to the left shoulder and it has a nice bodice with a thin belt just before the bottom flows out; it’s very soft and it has an airy, so you can do a lot of movement! The girls will be wearing it in the color “tickle” which is described as a lighter shade of pink. The color scheme that the couple has went with are pink and silver.

Here are Sam, Jace and Jayde modeling the longer dresses, trying to get fitted into their sizes, on the first day there!

I’d say the middle (Jace) is almost the gray/silver they’re going for, but all of the dresses will be in that pink, while Brandon, his groomsmen, and my dad–yes, he’s wearing a tux, but with a bandana–are wearing silver tuxes and I think pink ties! Oh, and brown shoes! Yeah, my mom and I are still wondering who’s idea that was because Blondie was there with them as they got fitted for theirs!

Now on that day I finally got fitted for my dress and I will be truthful when I say this, I am pale as a ghost and have awkward shoulders. I have previously explained this several times on here about the fact my shirts always fall off one of my shoulders, no matter how many times we try to fix it, it’ll find a way to slip right off! When my mom looked to see how big that strap was on the shoulder, she was really worried if it would even stay on the shoulder because it is a thick section of material and I have such small shoulders, that we were wondering how would this work on me?

Well, the day we arrived there, it was partially crowded with brides and their families and friends. Dad dropped us off while he and Brandon went to get his tux and pants fitted (he was NOT in a mood to do this at all!) and I sat quietly in my wheelchair fighting the urges to look through the dresses and wondering if I would have to find another dress because the chosen one wasn’t going to stay on my shoulders.

We were taken into a little fitting room, because I did not feel comfortable to be out in the open as she took my measurements. The lady was not exactly liked by my sister, mostly because she had measured her friend Jace wrong the first time they were there, saying she was one size when she wasn’t. We have never measured my body before, even for prom, mostly because both dresses were bought from JC Penney and Dillard’s. This had happened again when she measured only my chest and bust, but not my hips. So she started us with a size 2 and 4.

The size 4 barely went over the top of my head, we never got past my ears, and we tried to go in reverse and put my feet in first but my ass was too big for it, so I clearly wasn’t a 4. We tried a 5 and then 6, an 8, and finally found out that 10 was good, it went over my head and fit perfectly, but I could hardly breathe! So we figured that a size 12 would be better in case I did in fact gain more weight over the cross of the next few months and my mom didn’t think I would be able to eat and dance in it either.

Between my hips, ass, and the damn zipper we were having the worst time trying these dresses on! In a way, my mom and I were happy that I learned to transfer and stand up nice and strong on my own two feet, but my poor pinky wasn’t having to do it multiple times. Blondie was the one actually pulling it up to my chest and attempting to zip it up, as my mom was the one holding up my upper body. By the second or third try, my sister just situated herself behind me where I was literally sitting on her lap! I loved her for that because my feet were ready to give out a couple of times. When we got to the last dress, her poor thumb was red and slightly swollen after trying to pull it up at the back.

This was the end result of that mess!

Now as you can see how the dress is on my upper body and most importantly my shoulder, you can see our concerns of the material being so much that it actually looks like it could slip off! I refuse to go strapless though, that was my rule from the get go, was no strapless dresses for me! I don’t think it would stay up. It’s not the size of my bosom that I was concerned about it is mostly because since I can’t move my hands to lift it back up, I feel it would be a disaster! So when it comes in, we’re going to have that section altered and tighten on my shoulder and hopefully we won’t have to really worries about it afterwards!

As I’ve said above, the six bridesmaids are wearing long dresses, since I am the maid of honor, I am wearing a “short” dress. However, the more we went up in sizes, the length of the actual dress kept increasing! I wanted a shorter dress because after both of my proms and having a long dresses, I would have be careful in driving my wheelchair because I would run over myself! I cannot tell you how many times I did that during my Junior year. I think when I wore my brown dress for Homecoming, I had my mom tie a hair tie in the back to help keep everything together so I wouldn’t get stopped by my dress! I believe we did this during prom too, but I don’t necessarily remember. We’re hoping the length hasn’t changed drastically to this dress that we’d have to do the same thing, but you never know!

Unfortunately, I don’t know what the brand the dress is originally from and I’ve looked it up and still didn’t find anything about it. The price for the actual dress is $179.95, I think Blondie said she had a discount, so I think they would be a little less than that; also since it was a short dress, that also should make it cheaper, but I think it was still around $100 which is what I told myself I did not want to do was get something so expensive, but it is mine and if I run over and ruin it, I don’t have to give it back to the store like my dad and groom have to! Haha!

What do you do think of the dresses? Yay or nay!

Facebook | Twitter | Pinterest | Bloglovin