Pain, Pain, Go Away. Come Back Say Another Day When I’m Ready.

I am in a reading state of mind. I have Bristol Palin’s memoir, “Not Afraid Of Life.” I am loving it to pieces. I love Bristol. She’s a very strong woman, apparently she’s always been that way. I am enjoying reading her early life growing up with her family in Alaska, and going through all her teenage years as Governor’s oldest daughter. I think Bristol is very inspiring! She’s moving on from Levi, and even reading the first chapters you could see he was trouble. She even pointed it out. Bristol’s also an adocvate of teen pregnanacy.

A couple of things that I have to deal with reading a book. Whether it being on the floor or on my bed. I have some sort of pain. Yesterday, when my mom gave me my book, I immediately started it and she sat me up and when I read I have to lean towards the book because that’s what I always do, it’s a habit that causes half of my pain. This position caused my left hip to act up and get stiff. I probably just ended the “Introduction” part of the book when she came in my room to put clothes away and I told her about my pain. She gave me a pill and that helped for awhile.

After reading two chapters I laid back down on my bed. After resting a bit, I kept looking down at the floor and saying to myself, “you know the floor has to be more comfortable the bed.” So I pushed the laptop off the seat cousion its on top of and put all my remotes and my phone on the floor. Thankfully my cup is somewhat propped up by the bed drawer under my bed. (If I didn’t have that I’d so be screwed!) I slid down on the floor but forgot I needed something prop my book up a little. So I used a towel that’s still on my floor. My pill was just kicking in and I thought the pain wouldn’t be so bad once I got on the floor. I was wrong.

I have strange ways of sitting up. In my wheelchair, I’m not scooted back all the way in it. I’m practically on the edge with my seatbelt on. I’ve always sat like that since I could remember. On my bed, I have to lean forward and use every part of my legs to just turn a page. Awhile ago, I was leaning sideways just to keep the left pages to stay open. I’m gonna fall off my bed just because I’m reading a book. On the floor I’m sitting on a half aired cousion, leaning forward towards the book to see, and have my feet crossed. (Mind you I use my feet to turn the pages but I still cross my feet when I read.) I’m very weird and everytime I get the chance to read a book this happens.

Right now, I’m sitting up straight (well I think I am at least!) and all my limbs are in one direction. Yet, my back is hurting once again, but not as bad as it was earlier and yesterday. Taking breaks by laying down on my bed helps but yet it doesn’t. I have boney hips and elbows. Not confortable to lay on my back or right side. If I lay on my left I’ll go to sleep and I don’t need to down that. I have a crazy body and my muscles and bones just need to shut it. Especially the pain that comes with it.

Dear Kindle, Why Do You Have To Be So Expensive?

I love to read, I’ve never been a BIG reader like some people. I actually never liked reading until I got into High School. Big shoutout to my freshman English teacher Mr. Powell for telling us on our first day of high school lives that if you didn’t like to read you were going to fail his class. So with that being said, I lived for Friday’s in his class. By the end of freshman year, I had read most of our school’s “Dear America” books. I was obsessed with those books.

That’s what I started my kind of Biography type books. Then I got into a few others, I remember reading “Confessions Of A Not “It” Girl” and another book that was about Hip Hop but I have no clue what the title was. I enjoyed both books the first one especially. I could even read it now if I could find it. I even tried to ademptting to read “Twilight” but that didn’t work out since I had watched the movie. I give in to all the hype.  

Since then I’ve read (TVD) Stefan’s Diaries Volume 1 & 2 on my own. I even read the first few characters of “Bloodlust” at Walmart while my mom and sister were getting their nails done. I had to remember the page number for three weeks until my mom (actually Emily) found it at the library. Then I finished. I was so surprised at myself. I started reading a separate series without being at school. Without having someone tell me to read a book. I’m very proud of myself on that. I have yet to find “The Craving” and I even went to Walmart yesterday and they didn’t have it. I wasn’t very happy about that.

Right now, I am reading Bristol Palin’s memoir “Not Afraid Of Life” with Nancy French. I am the only one in my family who likes the Palin family. I rooted for Bristol on Dancing With The Stars, even when everyone didn’t want her there I was still cheering and happy for her to continue with it. She’s very inspiring! I like how she says that “sermon sleep was the best sleep ever.” I use to fall asleep in the pew too, if I was in the pew I’d sit by my nana and fall right to sleep. When mom did her Bible sessions or something like that I’d bring my pillow and blanket and go in a pew and sleep. It was very peaceful just to sleep somwhere you didn’t feel paranoid.