Whispers In My Head

On Wednesday, I started work on my second drawing. I went out-of-order a little. When I was working on my Reid drawing, I was getting frustrated with myself and got very discouraged early on in the process of it. I thought the two-year break was the biggest mistake ever and I didn’t think it was going to turn out all that well. Everybody’s biggest critic is themselves, sadly I get too into worrying about it. Sometimes you worry about things will never happen. That’s what happened. I over thought about the details it needed and just the overall picture was enough to show, I had done a good job on it. It is now in a frame and it is a lot darker than it was when I took the picture that’s on here. Everything I had worried about on it, wasn’t as bad as I thought. I love how it turned out.

Like I said at the top, I went out-of-order. I wanted to do a drawing that was going to put some of the pressure I had when I was drawing Mike Shinoda’s in school. When I started drawing his portrait, I was very worried (like always) because out of the six members of Linkin Park. Mike’s was the only one that really mattered to me. I kind of blame doing Mike’s fourth to the reason why Chester and Rob’s look awful. After I did Mike’s I probably could have stopped and sometimes I wish I did. I hope I don’t regret drawing Nikki Sixx second because he is a big inspiration to me. So I’m a little worried it will jeopardize my other drawings. I’m more talking about the Guns N Roses, Motley Crue, and Sixx:A.M. drawings I have planned up in my head.

Since I had Nikki’s drawing done. I have decided to go back to my original plan of just only drawing the guys of My Darkest Days for right now. I have my next picture lined up and the next dude I will drawing is Sal Costa. What is really interesting about these pictures is that both Reid and Sal’s picturing I’m going off of are from the “Move Your Body” music video. I’ve watched that music video too many times to not want to find stills of the guys I couldn’t keep my eyes off of (even it was difficult to do with all the women in the video) and so far they’re the only two I want to draw from that music video. I want to find pictures of Matt and Brendan from the “Casual Sex” music video. Which is going to be difficult from the obvious. I already have a great picture of Doug, so he is good.

I don’t want to over do it or think too far ahead, but I kind of have ideas swirling around of other bands to draw after I get done with all four bands. I am thinking of drawing the guys of Nickelback. Love them a lot, so I think I can find great pictures of them. Hopefully I’ll find some fans sometime and get some individual pictures of the guys from them. Because that’s how I found good individual pictures of Dj Ashba and Mick Mars. Even though I hate asking for help, sometimes when you say, you’re drawing so and so, they give you the best. Thank you for that by the way. I was thinking about drawing Adam Levine and Blake Shelton, just because I think they’re adorable and since I can’t watch The Voice I can look at these drawings all the time. No, I was kidding!

Changing The Subject of Books

So several days ago, I got a new book. Haven’t read anything since Steven Adler’s book, and I read that for probably three weeks. It was pretty lengthy but good too. I didn’t want to really read another biography. Since I had read about three biographies and two I guess you can say, “a day in the life of” category. After almost the same stories of tragedy, drugs and alcohol. I couldn’t read another one. I had plans to read both Motley Crue’s confession book, The Dirt. I had also wanted to read Tommy Lee’s boo, Tommy Land. After I read Steven’s I needed a good break before going back and continuing on that road. I also have to buy the books too, especially The Dirt since you can’t buy it on Kindle edition. I like reading old school so that’s ok. I just got to go to a bookstore and pray to God they have it.

The book I’m reading now is different. Different from what others would expect. Also, different from what my mom reads. She likes to read mystery books. I think the woman has read every book in every series. One time we went to the library in town and the lady at the desk as she was checking our books, said that mom was actually running out of books to read. I could never get myself to read about mysteries, but I loved reading about history and truth. So I’m really into fiction books. I’m also into teen books, I tried reading Stefan Diaries series by L.J. Smith. but that didn’t last long. I’m not good at finishing a series. Especially when there’s six book out and I’ve read only three and a half. I’ve said before I’m not very much into supernatural books, even though I love The Vampire Diaries and Harry Potter. Apparently I can read one or two books of the series and the rest I’m screwed with. Which sucks, but when there are movies or TV shows of these books, then I’ll be comparing the two together and then it all gets even more complicated.

I am reading this new book called, The Darkest Seduction by Gena Showalter. I had actually went to Wal-Mart with my mom and sister and I was bored and wanted to read something. Not knowing how long it would take them to get their nails done so I grabbed a book and ademptted to read it. Funny part is, it wasn’t this book. I saw this cover and was intrigued but not so much. I didn’t really want to read the one I grabbed. I just wanted to read something to keep me occupied for the time being. I think I got to page two before my mom and sister came into the book section and got me out of there. I never forgot the book cover or title. I found it on Amazon a few days later and was at crosswords between three other books. I also got interested with Tempting The Beast by Lora Leigh, Fifty Shades Of Grey by E.J. James (this was before the hype), and Pleasure Unbound by Larissa Ione. I wouldn’t be at a crosswords if all these books were free.

I actually don’t have a clue of which book I want to read after I get done with TDS but I’m thinking it’s going to be Fifty Shades of Grey, my friend said it was good and that’s all I’ve heard about is how good it is. So I really think it could be my second book. However I’m not even 50% of the way through the book I got now so I still have plenty of time to search around again and figure out what I really want to read and if or not I want to go into a new subject. Even though, I think it’s very unlikely, but I’m always up for something new. Maybe another biography or maybe by then I’ve went to a bookstore and found The Dirt. Maybe I’ll go back to reading the third installment into the Stefan’s Diaries and finally finish it. Who knows.

For The First Time.

Well I’m officially out of guy friends, and it sucks. I can’t actually say anything since I do have two have very great guys on my Twitter page that have been awesome to me. I’m just so sick and tired of being sick and tired. Wondering when people will wake up to see me gone from their lives. Last night I got on Facebook with the intention of deleting people. I think I deleted about four or five people. It needed to be done. I gave up on wishing for them to just talk to me. I’m sick of hoping for a change when I should know better. What makes me even more nutty is that I told myself last night, “no more adding people” and I got a friend request this morning and I added them. I will never follow my own advice.

On to better news, or somewhat at least. I got to watch Transformers: Dark Of The Moon on my TV last night. It was on one of our movie channels. I don’t normally watch movies, especially new movies on my TV. I don’t have a working DVD player, so thankfully for my laptop because it’s got an amazing screen and it’s closer. I watched both Beastly and the third Transformers movie on my TV yesterday. It was a good Easter. It was kind of boring but pretty good. I even got to watch The Prince Of Egypt, which I haven’t seen in years. I had parts of that movie in my head the whole night. Even the last song was stuck in my head, it’s still circling in the back part of my brain.

Tonight is The Voice and Dancing With The Stars, and I’m again not watching The Voice. I can’t choose between them whatsoever. So I’m going to be watching Dancing With The Stars instead. This week is rock week and KISS will be on. Both nights. Somebody shoot me now. I would much rather it be Motley Crue, but I don’t see them doing that ever. I want to watch somebody I like doing rock week. However, I can never really see anybody I like doing that. I don’t even think I’m on a team. I love Gavin, Maria, and Katherine though. Donald a little, and Roshen is like last place sharing it with Gladys Knight. I don’t know what shall happen tonight but I hope it’s awesome.

Finding What You Lost

I don’t think there’s not anything more fun than cleaning, or in some cases trying to clean your room and finding different things that bring back old and interesting memories of your past. Monday afternoon, my dad cleaned up my room because I’m suppose to be getting my new bed today and he took basically everything on the right side as you walk in out of my room. My bed frame is now a “dresser” and table for my TV and stereo. All the wires aren’t on the floor anymore. The two shelves I had are cleaned and back in my corner and he put all my stuffed animals and stuff like that on them.

Here I am explaining how my room looks like, when that wasn’t what I wanted to talk about. So rewind a little. My dad as he took my stereo system out of my room we found our old VCRs and CD covers. Dad had to go through them all, because there were two that actually had something in them. Dad found his fishing game to PlayStation 2. He found the Bad Boys soundtrack, which I’ve been looking for that for years. He also found the second CD to Britney Spears Greatest Hits collection. Remember when I said, my parents might just had cassettes for their Motley Crue music? Yeah, I was wrong.

He found the “Dr. Feelgood” CD. I don’t know who was more excited him or me. I think I could have screamed when he opened up that sucker up. I’m putting these CDs on our iTunes and listening to “Same Ol’ Situation” at the moment. That’s going on my main playlist I listen to. I found something interesting the last song on the Bad Boys Soundtrack is an instrumental. I’ve always loved it, but I’ve been wondering along with everybody else in my family why I love instrumentals so much. I think that’s because of that song on Bad Boys.

To Hell With The Sore Throat

Yesterday I got out of the house and went to my nana’s. I spent time with both my nana and papaw. We were suppose to go over today for lunch but my mom still feels awful. Now it seems like both of my parents are getting worse again. Mom did do her errands today and yesterday nana and I just talked our jaws off. Wait, I take that back. I talked my jaw off. There was two different times within the three hours I was there that my mind went blank and just kept on talking. Since I didn’t go last weekend, because I was sick and I don’t really “chat” with my nana on Facebook, I had certain things I needed to discuss with her. Poor papaw. At the end of the three hours he did decide to leave the kitchen and go play the piano. Their dog Casey, actually followed him because she loves it when he plays the piano. So do I. I don’t think there is a person in our family who doesn’t like when he plays the piano. Anyways, nana did our usual conversation of nothing but music, life, my Twitter friends, and my past blog posts. Sometimes we repeat ourselves because one conversation will turn into another and it’s just awesome.

I have trouble with different subjects. If it’s a subject that needs to come out or if it’s just something stupid. My mouth WILL go faster than my brain. I have to take breaks in between these times to regroup and take a breath before going on. If I get confused, which is most of the time if she asks something about Facebook, Twitter, or her laptop in general. I get confused easily to those types of things. My brain is slow and I can’t help it. I talked to her about my troubles with my “friends” and tell her about my new friends and how I met them. She’s going through this 80’s rock music thing with me. She’s been listening to a lot of rock music actually. Some from the 80’s and modern rock. I sent her three songs the other day. I sent her “What Have You Done” by Within Temptation, it was the live verison I sent her. The other two were “Alive” by Adelitas Way and “I Want My Tears Back” by Nightwish. I thought she would enjoy them and how they sounded. She’s been listening to a lot of Motley Crue lately too. The other day I saw on my Facebook news feed that she was listening to “Kickstart My Heart” and I was laughing but in a good way.

I didn’t get to finish my last sentence at the end of the three hours I was there. But we never really finish a conversation, sometimes they make it to next weekends conversation when mom and Em are at the store. I say, sometimes because there are certain things that I can’t really discuss with my papaw in the room. It gets awkward and I don’t want to make him uncomfortable. Even though I don’t think he really pays attention to half of the conversations we have in the first place. He just picks and choose which ones he wants to listen in. Just like every other male in the world. Oh, and I was very happy that I got to have ice cream yesterday. I’ve had wanting ice cream for at least two weeks now and almost didn’t get to have any yesterday. They only get two flavors: Strawberry and Chocolate. Papaw likes both, but he likes the chocolate more. Papaw went looking in the freezer and kept pulling out strawberry ones. Then after the fourth strawberry, there was a chocolate. He let me have it because he knows I don’t like strawberry. I was a very happy camper after that, but it still help shut my mouth very long.