Talks With God

I’m the last person that wants to get all religious on my blog. I know everybody has their own ways to believe in him. Different religions, someĀ I think are really cool and some I think are just weird, but I’m not going to get into that. For the ones who don’t necessary believe in God, I have nothing against you. So with all this out-of-the-way. Let’s get into it.

Every night around 10 or 11pm I pray. I have this routine at night, I can’t pray when I have music on because I have a pretty big list of people and I get lost with music on. I feel bad everytime I forget somebody and there have been times in the middle of the night where I will remember who I forgot and will just pray for them right there and then. In my prayer list, everybody in a category. I’m not even kidding. I only did it that way so my brain wouldn’t get lost and would remember everybody that way. I pray for countries that are not doing well, soldiers and their families, homeless people and their families, animals everywhere (meaning in dangerous situations), people and children being abused, raped, trackiffied, and abducted. That’s on the top right corner of my brain and so on.

I’m debating into talking about my whole prayer list because I’d not like for God to be mad at me for posting my list onto the world. I mostly pray for anybody who needs him. Something I do at night is I leave myself for last. I don’t like asking God to necessarily take care of me. I know there are more people out in the world that need him more than I do. As much as different people might disagree with that, I’m always thinking of others before myself. I hate making people guilty about themselves and anytime I do something stupid to people, I pray for them and not for me. I’m the stupid idiot who started it, why do I need to be prayed for? I don’t really want others praying for me either. There are more people out in the world who have worst things going on in their lives than me. So why bother?

I put everybody first. I hate everytime I do something stupid we all do. I pray to God that I hope he watches over them. That’s it. I don’t pray for forgiveness, because sometimes I don’t think I deserve it. In my conversations with God, I tend to ask questions. Like, why does this happen to that family? The little girl from Indiana, she went missing on Christmas Eve, I believe. They found her dismembered body in a family “friends” house. Why would anybody do that to a little girl, especially so close to holidays? It makes me angry and sad at the same time. Because you can’t change it, she’s with God now and watching over her family and friends. Not going to lie, since I heard about her, I’ve thought about my own funeral. If I was to die, I wouldn’t want people crying for me. I’d rather it be a funny gathering. I would rather it be a happy thing than anything else. I would feel horrible if they were grieving for me. I’ve lived an interesting life of ups and downs. For the most part, it’s been fun. I’m learning my way around certain things. I also think there should be a Just Dance party afterwards, but that’s me for you! I think people should enjoy themselves. Celebrating the life I had. Did I just summon death? God, if you’re reading this, I just kidding!

Describe Your Ideal Saturday Night.

Ahhh! My ideal Saturday night. I just want to let loose. I’ve had girls nights out before. I’ve just never had a night where I go out and actually party like everyone else. This actually goes with my situation I’m in, a few girls from Oxgyen’s Bad Girls Club are coming to Evansville, IN next month and I’d really like to go. Just two problems: wheelchair and somebody to take me. I can’t necessarily go to a nightclub in a push wheelchair. That would not be the smartest thing I’ve ever done. The other problem of somebody to take me, hardly nobody around my age watches BGC so that would be a diseaster, not to be mean or anything. I would be embrassed if I brought someone with me that didn’t watch their seasons.

So describe my ideal Saturday night, would be to meet Lauren, Sydney, and Judi of BGC next month. If that doesn’t happen I’d be okay too. But how many times do famous people come to Evansville? Yes, I did call them “famous” they are famous. They were the real ones on their seasons. If you disagree or think I’m crazy, well I wouldn’t give two shits what you think. Nothing against Judi, but I’ll always be Team Tucky & Red. That’s my ideal Saturday night for you!