Love is just not me. I think we’ve went through this about a hundred times already. Anytime I love something it either doesn’t love me back or I can’t do it. Sounds weird right? Let me explain it like this, I love music, dance, and food. I would love to go around the world listening to different music of different cultures and learn the history about it. There’s the history nerd coming out of me. I love dance! I have always wanted to dance, the right way. Food is third in line. I’ve actually been wanting to cook for awhile, but it’s a little difficult.

So I’m kind of hooked to this guy…again. I don’t know why I get myself so caught up in this crap. It’s always going to be somebody else. Never me, and yet I fall even more for him. Damn! I’m such a loser. In my friends and families words though, he’s the loser because he’s the one whose not giving me the chance. They never do. One of these days though. I refuse to love now, but soon I’ll find the right love for me.


I’m a rare chemical. I don’t mix well with other chemicals like me. Hate can trigger an explodation. Yet so can love. It’s an element to some people. Not to me. As much as I dream about falling for somebody I know, my heart doesn’t let it last long before it tells my mind to change the channel. I’m in a tug-a-war with my heart and mind. I can’t get myself to love or make someone love me. No matter how much I try.

Sometimes I think every person in the world should wear Goggles to keep them as far from me as they posibily can. Sometimes I like being alone. I’m away of all the people who have hurt me and the ones who could be next. It’s crazy to think I give everybody relationship advice and I’ve never been in one. I’ve refused to let someone love me. Or have they refused to let go of everybody’s thoughts?

So you say, there’s not any “good girls” left in on this world. Are you sure about that? I think you should change your standards. Sometimes all you need is to open up your mind and find somebody new. Somebody you’re not use to, and maybe you’ll start seeing the changes. However nobody wants to do that because no guy on this planet likes change.