Just A Thing Of The Past


Today has been a good day, but yet I’ve been feeling a little bit sad too, even though nobody knew I was. It’s been good because it’s my dad’s birthday but also I got to enjoy this beautiful day. I got to go outside and feel the slight breeze of the spring like wind and according to my papaw just before I left my nana’s house this afternoon the temperature was 52 degrees. Perfectly explains when my mom took me outside to go back home I go outside and my arms instantly get goosebumps because of the cold wind that just happened to pass by us. Of course, my mom thought it felt amazing because of the fact she was moving stuff around for a bit so she felt fine about it. I wasn’t expecting like summer weather, but I was hoping for something a little warmer though!

While I was at my nana’s I finally got to talk my mouth off. When my nana and I don’t see each other for a while, we tend to keep everything bottled up inside and when we’re around each other we just kind of explode! Poor Papaw gets right in the firestorm too. Sometimes, I include him the conversations and nana just ignores him. Well, after my parents left my nana got my soup ready. I wanted to have chicken noodle soup the last time I was there but we were kind of rushing, so I couldn’t have it then. In the mist of all that, my papaw turned on the TV and found men’s college gymnastics and he kept saying, “oh, I used to be able to do that!” The funny part is, I have no clue if he has or not. We were actually talking at the beginning and after I got done eating. My nana painted my toe nails in a teal and purple polishes. When she was doing my nails, I started hearing the music in the background and I knew the sound but I couldn’t figure out what it really was, until it hit me and I basically had a fangirl moment right there and then. They were playing “New Divide” by Linkin Park so just imagine my reaction and my nana’s too.

Once we were done and they were drying. I finally got to finish the rest of my cookies n cream ice cream. I’ve had it for a long time it seems like. When my mom went to the store today, this time I hope she got the cookie dough. I miss my cookie dough! Anyways, after I finished it and I actually everything today and I am freaking hungry now. Hmm. After I finished, we went into the living room because she needed some help with putting old VCR tapes into boxes. In the 90’s and early 00’s my papaw’s VCR still worked and he liked taping practically every basketball game that IU and Butler went up against but some weren’t old tapes like that. He’s got some train and airplane tapes as well. Including a certain tape that I find the most interesting, since I’m part of the whole age of DVD’s seeing a movie I know as a VCR tape format is a little weird. They had Apollo 13 as a VCR tape. They are just a thing of the past until you go to grab one off a shelf. I love to clean but being in my grandparents’ living room gives me the creeps. I cannot be in there by myself or I’ll just drive myself paranoid. It has always done that, while everybody in my family loved that eerie feeling you’d get like somebody was watching you up the stairs, I was basically stuck in the kitchen. Christmas mornings were always difficult for me because if everybody would one by one go into the other rooms, that feeling would find its way to you and just make you run right out of there. I did okay though, my nana knows NOT to leave my side while we’re in there. It doesn’t matter how busy I got, that feeling was still there.

I just went and checked my Facebook…in other words I am being distracted. I saw that someone had shared a picture of a weather map of the Midwest for tomorrow. It doesn’t matter how much we want a week of good spring weather, mother nature has to give us the middle finger and says, “no can do suckers!” If I didn’t know any better, I’d say she acted a little bit like Miley Cyrus. Anyways, my nana had said that tomorrow we’re supposed to get some pretty bad storms, and might produce tornadoes too. Well, I just got a glance at the picture and I saw the orange, red, and a dark blue. The blue means “violent tornadoes” and it is heading our way. So I’m hoping these storms will be nice and let me do my Five Sentence Fiction post before it decides to let loose. So if you pray tonight, please pray for everybody in the Midwest and if you don’t pray, just send some positive vibes our way! Enjoy your night and Thursday!


Despite what the weather is doing outside my window at the moment. It keeps going back and forth between being calm to raging with high winds and thunder clashes around the entire house. The weather might be going crazy, but it’s not going to stop me from having a great day. I say that we a lot of confidence even if my mood starts to shut down on me. It will be a great day all day long. Days like these, feels like God’s little presents. Such a blessing to have a day like this, feel good inside and out (even though, I’m having pain in my hips) and things seem to be going right for me. I’m not thinking twice today, and I’m loving it! Something that makes this day that much better is the obvious, I got my book in the mail and from there it’s been nonstop smiles. Well, and a few laughs too. I thought I’d get it around noon, but God had other plans. It came around 11:30am. Dad surprised me with that and took it out of the package and made me wait until he was done looking at it to begin reading it. Yes, I started reading it as soon as he left the room.

About four pages in, I updated everybody on my Twitter that my book had come in and I tweeted my friend Jess, she had told me earlier that it is a lot bigger compared to the other books on her bookshelf. I thought it was going to be thick, but I didn’t expect HUGE! My other friend Fabi, I’ve been talking to her a lot lately, she’s one of my newer friends and a very big fan of Nikki Sixx. It makes things that much nicer! Anyways, she retweeted my tweet about my book and we had a mini conversation about the book and she realized after I said, “it’s freaking HUGE” sounded a bit dirty, at this point I laughed and went, “lol it does oops.” I didn’t notice at first but it’s fine. We talked a little bit more about how I was going to get my family reading it after I get done reading it. Which is going to be interesting, dad doesn’t really read anything but the newspapers and some cookbooks. Mom doesn’t usually have time to read it. It’s not in Emily’s range of books, but I think it could be something she’d like since she always wants to be less judgemental to others.

I’m already at page 29 and I got online to my Twitter (because before I was tweeting from my phone) and tweeted another one of my friends from a chat we had a while ago. Five minutes after ending that conversation, a certain tweet pops up and I instantly got all happy again. Not that I wasn’t happy talking to my friends, it was just an added bonus when this tweet showed up. It was from Nikki Sixx saying, “31 years ago Motley Crue was born. Horns and all.” How ironic is it, that my book comes in on same day as Motley was born? I mean, come on! That’s like the best thing ever! And I thought hearing our dog ChiChi singing at 5am this morning was the best thing ever! I was wrong, that is better! ChiChi is always good at singing and she always sings. But this was different. I’m a newly Motley Crue fan and this was the coolest thing ever to be apart of. Getting Nikki Sixx’s second book on a day like this is amazing!

Two more things that makes today better. Dad went to get more movies. He usually gets his scary movies that him and Emily enjoy. Even though Em doesn’t really like horror movies anymore because of “The Devil Inside.” I don’t really blame her there. He usually gets around, what looks like 10 movies altogether. He got me Blue Collar Comedy Tour, Jeff Dunham, and Friends With Benefits. Having Justin Timberlake in this amazing mix of goodness is awesome! Especially when I think he has his shirt off in this movie. I’m so excited! That sounds a bit dirty there too. Sorry about that, it’s going to be one of those days! Another good thing about today, well I found out about today. My favorite show Happily Divorced is going to be coming back on my TV screen in March! That’s the same month Dancing With The Stars come back on too! Yay! Okay, I’m done!

The Bulldozer and The Crane

It’s the second to last day of this month of September. Yesterday was the day where I actually got to hear “Wake Me Up When September Ends” by Green Day. I was hoping this month would go by fast and almost gave up on my vow on myself to not be so depressed this month. I almost made it another dark month. Since it won’t be over until Saturday, I have until tomorrow to keep up my happiness, even though I’m slowly dying inside.

I wasn’t as depressed as I woke up this morning, but after looking around my room. It’s reminding me of good times I had with friends here. My mind obviously misses the good times too. Everything I tried to do in here still exists and everything I don’t want to miss still floats around in my head. I’ve got a picture on my floor that needs to be in another room. I’m listening to “Nobody’s Home” by Avril Lavigne, and even singing to it. It reflects my life right now. It’s so true for me.

I need another good day or night. I thought since both Linkin Park and The Vampire Diaries were going to be on my TV screen I was going to have a good day. Not looking like it. Maybe around 5 I’ll start to perk up because of Mad About You. I just need something good. A surprise that’s good to just take everything that’s bugging me away.