Goals For 2019!

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On the 31st of December, I saw a tweet that was asking for the top 5+ goals you’d like to accomplish for the new year on my sister’s account. I don’t usually post things like that, because mainly I don’t usually have a clue of what I want to do, but this time I did and I just decided to list all five of my goals for 2019!

The next day, my mom was at work, so it was just my dad and I for the day and I actually let him on these goals, because I thought he’d get a kick out of what I put down for the first two; what I didn’t know was that the next day, the second goal is getting closer to happening. I was a bit shocked by the news, but more so on the fact that my dad asked me what number that goal landed on my list. I was kind of stunned that he had remembered them in the first place, because when I originally told them to him, he was half asleep on me. And then as I was busy telling the both of them, I realized I forgot to tell my mom at all! Oops!

Move Into Our New House ✔️

We’ve been in the process of dealing with our new house for longer than we had planned. Everything was supposed to be done before Thanksgiving, but we’ve passed two holidays and we’re still not in the house yet. We’ve had a lot of issues! I don’t particular want to talk about that on this post.

Update: On January 9th, we finally moved in! It took a few more days to the rest of the stuff into the new house, but we’re here. I’m hoping to do a longer post about designing the perfect bedroom soon.

Finally Getting My New Wheelchair

I think my parents got the ball rolling on the house and my wheelchair around the same time! September was a big month for us, that lead to more question marks than anything else. However, we recently got a letter that most of the things we were wanting to be added onto the new chair were approved, so that is a good sign! I am still fairly wary about the whole thing. I’ve been waiting for a new wheelchair for almost 7 years. I’d like to gain some of my freedom back, like being able to clean my room by myself and just spend a couple of hours outside with our cats, taking pictures than being stuck up in my room the whole day.

More Cuddles With My Nephew ✔️

This had been the only goal to have been fulfilled at the start of the year! My sister brought little man over on the 2nd, and my mom let him sit on my right leg. We haven’t been able to do that before. Even though, he is really active, he really calms down whenever he sits on my lap. On this occasion though, he did something that kind of made me want to cry, because I wasn’t expecting it. He gave me a hug. He grabbed ahold of my shirt and left hand and pulled us together and I couldn’t help but put my head on the top of his; we only stayed like that for a couple of seconds but he’ll never know how much that meant to me, especially since I love giving cuddles myself too!

All The New Music

This one kind of stumped my mom, but as a music blogger, you know you can kind of devout your time into talking about Christmas music, because once it becomes the middle of November, the amount of real music coming out the next month is fairly smaller than you’d like and unfortunately, January has a slow start to releasing new music. You definitely don’t hear anything brand new right away in the new year. You usually have to wait until the second week of February to fade before you hear anything worthwhile. That’s why I’ve had to go back through the last bit of 2018 for any albums I can review on here!

New Opportunities For My Blog & I

In 2018, I decided it was time to branch out a little, away from the blog, and even separate myself from Disability Horizons for a while. I had big ambitious to start writing pieces for other people, whether they were other bloggers or bigger sites for digital magazines. Technically I have a three part series that I was planning to give away to a site that I actually like, but more importantly because they don’t have a lot of disability themed articles. I just wanted to lend my voice to them. I’ve talked to several blogger friends, Lucy and Melissa were very helpful during this time but I kind of lost my nerve at the end of spring.

One thing that I was able to do was work with The History Of Royal Women. I was writing for them at the end of 2017, but most of my work came out at the start of the year until the beginning of summer. I had done two different themes: disabled royal princesses and lives of heiresses of the eras. I’d like to end out that last one, because I still have two more ladies to talk about, but I worry that it’s been too long of a gap and they won’t let me back on to write anymore.

I would love to have more opportunities to write for other people, plus also offer up to other people to write guest posts as long as they match the topics I normally discuss on here. If you want to contact me, click here.

I do have more personal goal. The reason why I want to keep this one under a lock and key, is because I don’t want to put any pressure on anyone to make it happen right away, nor do I want to feel bad for my expectations. So, for the time being, the sixth and final goal will remain hidden away.

What do you hope to accomplish in 2019? Can you name five or more in the comments?

Looking Back & Forward

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This is last blog post of 2019! I cannot believe we are now embarking on a new journey. I know everybody (or most likely) will have different resolutions for the new year. I think with every passing year, people will make these lists and have good intentions but as time goes on, we seem to forget everything we wanted to accomplish in the beginning! I was like that for most of the year. I published a blog post at the start of 2018 talking about some of the goals I wanted to do, and only managed to do two on the actual list. However, I think this is a win because I completed two specific plans during the whole year!

The goals I was able to do this past year were:

  • Make time for other stuff

  • Write Out Ideas

Everytime I tried to plan out my blogging schedule or anything something would happen. There were a lot of different obstacles in the way and it wasn’t until the end of summer that I just gave up with planning and just let everything slide!

At the start of the year I got sick for the first time since probably 2012 and I wasn’t allowed to do anything but tightly wrap up in my fleece blankets to sleep and sweat it off. I was basically scrambling to get material written and scheduled on here and my social media accounts for you guys, but somehow in the mist of it all I just decided that I needed to stop stressing myself out so much that could wait until I was healthy enough to officially be ready to come back, thus I made time to recover and enjoyed being lazy and watched television for hours on end!

As you might remember, my sister was originally due to give birth to my nephew on the 4th of July weekend. Well, I had some ideas on what kind of content I wanted to release during the month of June and parts of July too. The only one that never changed of the first plan were the baby shower and nursery tour. Well, since little man was born kind of early, my whole schedule was basically put on hiatus; and I relished on the fact that I was now an auntie to this little human but after I took some time off to love on him, I wrote the only post that went up after his birth in the summer before my mental health took a downhill and where instead of being awake at night because of my drippy nose and uncontrollable coughs, I was in the middle of a depression spell one week after being put on antidepressants.

As I suffered every hour of those 31 days, Netflix and I began fast friends in that time period as I binge watched The Flash, Arrow, Supergirl and every nature documentaries I could find that was hosted by David Attenborough. After two months went by, I suddenly had my energy back and was able to write blog posts again. I even started to read again, and I was really enjoying reading “To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before” by Jenny Han. I really wanted to get it done before the movie premiered but I still haven’t finished it or “Miss Peregrine’s Home For Peculiar Children” by Ransom Riggs, but I’ll get to it and they can be something I can do this year!

After September, I was just me again. I had no issues, other than the increasing back and knee pains but mentally I was doing better and that was okay with me! I have had slower weeks and whenever that happens I just let myself give in and take some time off of everything and when I feel good enough, I jump back in again but now I’m at the point that I don’t try to fight it. I need to make time to create better ideas and ultimately material for you all and I like being able to scoot away from everything every once in a while. I’m never totally offline during the break, but I am out for three hours at a time so that’s a big thing for me!

Would you like for me to do a separate post of my favorite blog posts of 2018? 


For 2019, I have a few things I’d like to do but I have a new project for GMB!

I really want to challenge myself to come up with as many disability themed pieces as I could for my blog. So, I have created an A to Z Disability Challenge to get me through half of the year. I don’t know what really inspired it, I just felt like I needed to talk about these themes on here a little bit more. A lot of the articles will be things that I’ve personally went through in my life. I think it’ll give people, of various ages a totally different outlook on how one disabled person’s life should be, and it also shows the parents, grandparents, etc ideas on how they can give their disabled child or young adult a chance to be proven wrong.

I am very excited about this project. I’ve actually been thinking about it since the end of July, which is a little odd considering I did not want to think of anything blog related, but managed to come up with this anyways. I asked my Facebook friends of ideas on letter suggestions, so every letter is represented by a certain disability theme, like B is “building trust” so I’ll be discussing how a person with or without a disability should develop trust with people. Another example is the letter H and the theme is “Asking For Help” and we’ll be talking about why you should ask help and most importantly teaching others how it’s better to ask a disabled person if they need help with anything, before you go ahead and do it for them.

I’m hoping that these posts will be starting next week, but it would all depend on anything big happening in the meantime. My family is in the process of moving into our new house, and it’ll whether or not we have internet when those pieces will be published, but they will go up on a start of a new week, so hopefully everything will work out well enough (but so far nothing’s been on time) but who really knows!

Are you making any resolutions or goals for 2019? What are you most looking forward to? 

Mini Wrap-Up Of 2018

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I have thought and thought whether or not writing this post would be a good idea, considering I tried to do it three times. As much as I know it’ll help me towards the end of the year, so I don’t have to gather EVERYTHING up and it basically looks like I threw up on a blog post–that would suck–so I kind of pushed myself to figure out my words to make this work.

Originally, I was going to add a special section about what’s going on with accomplishing my 2018 goals, but I decided to leave that at the end of the year instead. This is a list of the movies I’ve watched since the beginning of the year. I’ve decided to rate them as five stars, five being “loved it” to only one star to “hated it” but there are a few that I have not finished yet and so I’m debating whether to rate them or not, but if I feel like there’s no chance of me ever finishing it, then it’s another story.

The Movies Included In My “Coming Soon” Posts – 2017!

Sleepless – Jamie Foxx, Gabrielle Union

I am still in the middle of this one, and I’m not sure if I will even continue it. It gives you real “Taken” vibes and as somebody who has NEVER seen that movie, I’m a little iffy about it. I mean, it’s good but I don’t know. So I’d give it 3 stars right now.

The Comedian – Robert De Niro, Lesley Mann, Danny DeVito

This was a good funny contemporary film. It was a little dirty, but it was still pretty good though! So I’m giving it a 4 out of 5!

Tulip Fever – Alicia Vikander, Dane DeHaan

I am not finished with this, but in my defense it is a long movie! It’s good, kind of interesting because it has some historical content as far as how much we as humans value different things–included flowers! I love it because it’s set in the medieval days of Amsterdam . No rating.

The Fate Of The Furious – Vin Diesel, Dewayne Johnson

This was one of the first movies I watched, because HBO premiered it the first or second week of January! I hadn’t seen any spoilers for it and I’m kind of wishing I had, because there were scenes I cried, and the twists and turns, I certainly did NOT see coming, but god, was it good! 5 stars all around!

Spider-Man: Homecoming – Tom Holland, Robert Downey Jr

I had every right to be iffy about this movie, but honestly I’m still feeling the same way. I thought it wasn’t the best, but keeping me entertained was successful. I’d still give it a 3 though.

The Hitman’s Bodyguard – Ryan Reynolds, Samuel L. Jackson

This is another film that I have yet to finish, but it is on my list! It’s kind of funny, not as much as I thought it would but I haven’t even made it to the middle of it yet. It’s 2 stars at the moment.

Power Rangers – Dacre Montgomery, Naomi Scott

I literally just watched this film a couple of weeks ago. We had a free weekend of Epix and I recorded like nine movies throughout the four days! After I finished it, I saw that they may not do a second which really sucks because I actually liked it a lot! I thought it was interesting to make it feel like the 90’s show, but it also had modern elements too! 5 out of 5 stars.

Films That Came Out In 2017 That Were Not Included

Before I Fall – Zoey Deutch, Halston Sage

This was a very interesting film. I remember seeing the promos for this and kind of being curious about it, but also thought I wouldn’t like it as much but honestly I thought it was really good! Really sad, but still it deserves 4 stars.

The Sense Of An Ending – Jim Broadbent, Charlotte Rampling

I found this, the same week the one above, which I thought was a little weird. I watched them both in the same day, I was a little proud of myself. I liked the story, even though the ending REALLY confused the crap out of me. So if you decide to watch it, just pay a little bit more attention to details and most importantly body language! 4 stars.

The Zookeeper’s Wife – Jessica Chastain, Johan Heldenbergh

Now I will say, I haven’t finished this, but I can honestly say I probably won’t because it was really sad and I didn’t like the fact that they had Jessica Chastain as the main role, when she’s clearly not Jewish or German!  No rating.

Going In Style – Michael Caine, Morgan Freeman

I have yet to finish this one, and I may not even go back to it, but who knows! Right now I have it as 2 stars.

Paris Can Wait – Diane Lane, Armaud Viard

I loved, loved, loved this movie! I am a sucker for travel movies of apparently any kind, as I’ve seen some weird combinations in the past! However, Diane Lane needs to do more of these types of movies because she makes them very fun and she also sells it a little more too. I just wish there were French translations down at the bottom of the screen though! 5 stars clearly.

All Eyez On Me – Demetrius Shipp Jr, Kat Graham

As I rave about one movie, I am a little disappointed with another. I absolutely hated this one, mostly because whenever they were doing the rapping scenes, it sounded like Tupac’s voice, not the actors. One star for this one.

The Book Of Henry – Naomi Watts, Jacob Tremblay

Funny story, my mom and dad recorded this for themselves but I’m the only one who’s watched it (and bawled my eyes out!) I don’t see them ever watching it, which is the reason why I deleted it on their DVR because after watching it, I told my mom that she’ll cry. However, I think it deserved 5 stars though!

Lady Macbeth – Florence Pugh, Cosmo Jarvis

This is difficult, as I’ve never read too many William Shakespeare plays, but I do know something of the “MacBeth” plot, so to see this was pretty cool! You get to see the point of view of Lady Katherine, and even though I have yet to finish it, I actually do enjoy it. So I’m giving it, 4 stars.

Girls Trip – Regina Hall, Queen Latifah

Oh my gosh, I thoroughly enjoyed this movie! It was very dirty, but I thought it was all freaking hilarious! It made me an even bigger fan of Tiffany Haddish. 5 stars.

Voice Of The Stone – Emilia Clarke, Marton Csokas

I remember seeing the preview for this when I was doing my “coming soon” for the first half of 2017, but I decided not to add it, because it was a “thriller”, but I found it on Starz and I actually loved it! However, it’s like “The Zookeeper’s Wife” they used a popular actress instead of an Italian actress for the main role. So I’m giving it 4 stars.

Coco – Anthony Gonzalez, Gael Garcia Barnal

This was such a cute, but sad movie! Ugh! I saw all of the comments/warnings of it being that way, but I did not expect to cry through the entire end of the movie! 5 stars.

The Week Of – Adam Sandler, Chris Rock

I saw the promos for this twice and I actually watched it in one day. Oh my god, I laughed my butt off and it gave me flashbacks to Blondie’s wedding last year weirdly enough! 5 stars.

What have you been watching this year? No spoilers!

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Goals for 2018!

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I feel like this week I’ve done are lists for posts! I didn’t necessarily plan on do the one I posted on Tuesday but I figured it would be an easy one to write out so I went for it!

As I mentioned back in that post, I don’t really know what I’m doing blog wise for the entire year, which in a way is okay, but I have become one of those people that I’d like to have an idea and be able to have everything to maybe a create blog post out of it. Since my nana has moved out of her house, the crafts are like a no-go right now. However I do have a few goals for the new year. Some I have actually done before, I don’t know why I ever stopped doing them because they helped me a lot! And then there like one or two that I hope to really commit myself into doing better because I think I will be more relaxed and free to do things without feeling guilty.

Do Research For Novel – So, I think my biggest goal is to do more research for my novel. I’d like to do NaNoWriMo for 2018 again, but I’m still debating whether or not to try my foot at CampNaNo in April and/or July, because I think it would be good to have some more practice beforehand!

I had a lot of missing areas while I was writing the first draft. I need to work on my descriptions of my main characters and explore different locations, I need to find a good place for all of them to live. I’ve had certain places in mind already, but I feel like I would need to learn more about war bunkers. I also need to look into on politics and ways of government (which is going to be difficult!) and weapons too!

Make Time To Do Other Stuff – I am the worst when it comes to doing other things besides blogging (and obviously NaNo). Since blogging itself is my life and I love doing it, I never give myself any free time to read or watch movies during the day. When I went to stay at my mom’s work in October, I read majority of the time I was there and only went on my laptop for an hour maybe four out of the eight days. The only day where I usually don’t do anything is Sunday, because it’s symbolic. If God can have a day off, so can I! However, on the day I wrote this post, it was literally a Sunday! Funny how that works! So I’d like give myself more chances to detox really.

Read 7 Books – I don’t know how I did it, but I ended up reading five books this year! I am happy with myself that I completed my Goodreads Challenge I made up at the start of the year though. I always go on there and look up what other people are reading and how many they’ve selected to read in 12 months. The real bookworms have put over 100 books and by the end of June, they’ve already went over their original amount and continued to get more books to read in the mean time. I admire them a lot!

Although I was very proud, I didn’t think I read majority of them for the fun of it. I think Elizabeth of York, Me Before You and The Da Vinci Code were the only ones that I literally made time to enjoy and weirdly enough I read one at the start, middle, and at the end of the new year, which is kind of cool but that means the other two weren’t as fun. I remember a time when I was a bookworm too, and I was even in high school! I don’t think I read over 10 books when I was Junior though, that year was chaotic enough!

I have decided on seven books for 2018. I’d like to finish the three that I still have on my “currently reading” right now. I was asked to do a review for an author back in August and I feel bad that I haven’t been reading that, but I lost interest in it and eventually went into a reading slump. I know I want to at least get in the middle of The Girl On The Train, before that really drives me nuts! I also want to watch the movie! And the last one is Victoria Aveyard’s second book of the Red Queen series, The Glass Sword. I was so addicted to that series, I mean it is the reason why I’m so hard on myself about my own fight scenes for my novel.  

Write Out Ideas – This is actually something that I’ve been doing lately. My nana gave me a lot of her old and unused notepads when she moved into the nursing home, and I’ve been noticed that I’ve getting close to completing one of them already! I’ve written out so many of my blog post ideas on them, and crossed them out whenever I’ve finished with it. Sadly, I may not get rid of it whenever I do finish it because I’d be too proud of myself to throw it away! Sentimental.

Last April, my mom got me a very late Christmas present as I was wanting a daily planner. She got me one the year before, but I never really used it and mostly not only was it small but heavy for me to lift but I wanted a new one that showed the entire calendar on roughly one page like the big one she uses in the kitchen, but I didn’t necessarily want one exactly like that so she found one for free at the meat market when she and dad went shopping! I actually used it off and on for most of the year. It wasn’t until October that I couldn’t get the digital calendar to pop up on WordPress whenever I wanted to schedule my posts, that I actually started using it more and more. Now it’s full of ideas and the posts I had done for those last three months of the year!

My nana and I got daily planners from my mom’s work, which was very nice! I’ve been scheduling upcoming posts on there and already have a hefty list of Blogmas topics for the end of the year too! I’m also in the early works on coming up with my summer music series, Tune Tuesday Worldwide too! So both of the notepads and planner are coming to good use for me right now.

Look For Three Things – Back in 2014 and parts of 2015, I did this thing where I looked for three good things that happened throughout the day and let that decide whether or not I had a good day.  I don’t know why I even started doing it. I feel like it was an alternative to putting the good moments in a jar. I don’t think I had a jar handy and so I ended up doing it this way and I ended up enjoying it a lot better.

Pick Your Battles – This is another one I wondered why I stopped doing because I think it’s something that I need to be constantly doing throughout the day and night. I can get pretty defensive and lash out to people without any warning. I’ve been bickering with my dad a lot more lately. He can do things to really push my buttons and since I’m of his blood, I’ve learned to continue the cycle and give it right back at him sometimes. So I need to relearn how to keep my mouth shut and move on around him. This will be hardest one to do out of the others!

Create An Affirmation Wall – Once I had a whole space behind my door of different quotes that I thought would help me be chill and mindful. The last goal was part of the affirmations that I had listed on there. I had a stack of unopened, medium, neon colored paper that I got last spring that I could use but I’m running out of space to put things and be able to see them at the same time too. So if I do eventually do this, I’d have to get creative on placement.

Do you have any goals you’d like to do for the new year? Share some with me in the comments below!

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Resolutions In Three Words

So how was everybody’s first day of the new year? Why is it everytime we begin a new year, it feels like we are back in school? I mean think about it, at the beginning of the year after summer has ended, you told everybody around you that you’d try harder this year in your classes. That sounds like an awful lot like making a resolution at the end of the year. Just hoping for a better start, because that’s what we’re all looking for when it changes like this. Plus, by the end of the first week, you know you’re going downhill on what you hoped for, but the only difference is that when students get back to school, teachers usually don’t give you anything to take home until that next Tuesday. So for everybody in junior and high school, they’re still going strong longer than you. Here’s another thing though, they always say that once you break it, you can’t get it back. Who said that? You can always keep that resolution, it doesn’t matter if you’ve broken it once or twice. It matters as long as you continue to try to keep it. I’ll give you the perfect example to what I’m saying. Last year, I made it my resolution to blog once of everyday. It didn’t matter if it was just a picture, quote, a short story, or something that happened that day. I missed four days out of 365 days, I think that’s pretty great for me. After I missed that first day I thought about giving up on the whole thing but then I thought, “why?” That one little word motivated me to keep going and even after missing three more days, I still went on. So don’t worry about breaking your resolution or after getting one or two “D” in your classes. It’s not the end of the world, keep going. Don’t lose hope for yourself. Some future advice a “D” isn’t failing, you’re still passing. It’s the “F” you gotta worry about more than anything! Thankfully, you don’t get graded in real life!

For this year, I would like to try to blog everyday like I did last year. I think it was good for some days to push myself to sit up and find an inspiring quote or random thought and publish it for everyone to read. It’s very weird still to see the time and date on the right side say “1/1/2014” because I’m still thinking it’s December. You start a new chapter of your life and you have 364 days to make it memorable. I shared something yesterday, if you could choose three words to reflect your goals in 2014, what would they be? Well, the three words I picked have a very specific meaning and they all kind of intertwine with each other. I started writing a story and if you have been reading the sections or chapters, thank you. For ones who don’t or have no clue the reason why I talk about it so much is because of this. While I was in high school, I wrote little stories, but only worked on her a month or so. Once I was done with it, that was it. I never looked back at it. When we’re writing a story on your blog, I think it motivates you to keep going with it. It’s not the views that makes you want to continue on with it, it’s just the love of the characters you have for them and you want not only see where they end up but you want to see where you end up too. I guess I’m more afraid of ending and stopping in the middle of the story and wondering if these characters–sisters–will see the light and be ready to fully accept love altogether. All three sisters are a different part of me, Brenda is my hope of a family, but scared my spouse will leave me for somebody else. Chloe is my will to love and being naive and never wanting to let go of the past. Claire is my hatred towards love and how afraid I really am to let myself love somebody else and have them want to be around me. I would like to see who has the brighter future and see where I go at the end.

So here are my resolutions that I will probably break once or twice. I will hopefully be able to bring myself back up again if I do break. As long as I don’t give in completely, I will move on with my story. Oh, and those three words were being patience with not only myself but with the characters themselves. I need to keep up with my positive thoughts. That’s mostly just me. Last word is dream. I need these characters to come to life again and the one way I know how to do that is to dream  about them and how they would feel about their solutions, decor of building and houses. I need more details and more pictures of their faces. To end this post, I say never give up hope for yourself and resolutions, wishes, goals, whatever you wanna call them. You can break them, just don’t give up on them. I wish you all good luck and hope you do the same for me. Because I’m going to need it.