Book Review: My Appetite for Destruction

After what feels like a lifetime, I finally finished this book. This is the end of my zig-zag line of musician biographies. I think this one drained the crap out of me. Reading Slash and Duff McKagan’s books gave me somewhat of a warning to who Steven Adler was, and even my mom told me a bit in the beginning of Slash’s book. I didn’t think it was going to be that bad, but I was so totally wrong. All of the books I read before were bad with experiences of what they faced in their pasts, but I think this one topped them all. I’m still pretty shocked by what all this book had in it, but it was all I was looking for into reading these types of books.

Steven Adler has had one tough life, and I am surprised with everything I’ve read about he is still here. I’m glad he was so open to tell his story from start to finish, or in this case now. Talking about his past with his family, Gn’R, drugs, and women. Good god! In every book I read about anybody in the music industry, I have to take breaks. I usually take five-minute breaks to relax my leg since it likes to go to sleep on me, but apparently I needed one long break in between these chapters. Certain places were funny, and then there were places were you could cry. I had to stop myself a few times. I think I was in the middle of the book, and he hadn’t talked about drugs a lot and I had developed a thought, “when did you start the drugs during Guns N Roses?” Three pages later, I got my answer.

I can’t tell you how much it hurts to read somebody talking about the highs and the lows of this stuff does to you. I’ve told people in my family, when I was in school, all I was told if you smoked crack, heroin, or meth you would start to see things. Our health teacher said, little spiders would crawl on you. That was enough for me. I hate spiders and I definitely didn’t want to be seeing it while being high. I was smart by then, that’s all it took to scare me. Nowadays, kids don’t care. I think this should be one of the books kids need to read beforehand. It would scare the living hell out of them, but in a good way. I’m glad Steven has gotten cleaned up and enjoying life. I hope it stays that way for him. He needs things to stay good. I always have a problem with feeling sorry for people who do stuff that know they’re just going to get hurt from it, but with reading this book I couldn’t help myself. He might’ve pissed me off a few times, but he certainly got to me. It’s always the drummers!

Back Into Routine

I’m really hoping tomorrow is a good day for me. I’m suppose to be getting my book in the mail, I’ve been waiting for this book for a while now. We had to redo the order after waiting four days, my mom went on her email Friday morning while I was still asleep and found out she had to redo everything because the order or card didn’t go through. Nice! I woke up that morning like every morning hoping my book would come in that day so I wasn’t on the internet all day long. When mom told me I was pissed! But yet my gut was telling me something was wrong about that anyways, I just didn’t bother listening to it. So she came in my room after I got done eating my lunch and showed me how they track where it is at each day. Which I thought was pretty cool! She told me I could still buy a Kindle book, but after Thursday afternoon of finding certain ones but only thinking the book I ordered, I just said to myself I’ll wing it for a few days. If my book doesn’t come in tomorrow I’ll be very angry.

After I read Duff’s book, I had all this confidence that I could really do these drawings, and get them all done. Well then after a few days I went from really good self-confidence to back to all these bad thoughts. The doubts came swinging back. Between the withdrawal of not reading anything for a few days and the doubts, it wasn’t a good combination. So I decided to ask mom about ordering an actual book with my Amazon gift card I got for Christmas. It was one of the last cards that lasted a lot longer than any card I’ve ever gotten. Anyways, my original plan was to order This Is Gonna Hurt and get on Kindle edition Steven Adler’s book. That was my actual plan, but apparently my mom only heard of one book come out of my mouth. The card I had was a $15 gift card. Between both books I’d need about two cards just to get these books. We ordered Nikki’s book and I didn’t bother asking for the Kindle book because I didn’t think it would take this long to come in.

I know I’m not done with this little web of “musician” biographies yet. Everytime I go on Amazon, I automatically end up there. After this book, I got to get Steven Adler and Tommy Lee’s books on my Kindle. Then afterwards go to a book store or order The Dirt, the confession book by the members of Motley Crue. After that book I’ll be done. It’s like a series, you know the characters (members) from the other books, different stories and struggles, and different beginnings. I still can’t get a good answer to explain why I’m only reading books by the members of both Gn’R and Motley Crue. I definitely couldn’t answer that question, I still stumble on my words when somebody asks me. I wish I had an answer, I can say they’re very good! I can’t wait to get back into routine. Cross your fingers and toes for me!

New Round Of Friends

I’m a fan of so many things it’s crazy sometimes, however I don’t react the same way like everybody else does. When it comes to like the smaller things that I like, I tend to be a little bit more excited about. The bigger things, it just depends on my mood for that day. About 95% of the time, when it comes to celebrities of any kind. I don’t fangirl a lot. And you can ask some of the Linkin Park fans that I follow, they’ll tell you I rarely go crazy about anything that has to do with celebrities, mostly musicians. When I do go crazy, it’s usually gone within an hour or so. I don’t like to fangirl as much. I think its overrated. People talking about their favorite celebrities is one thing, but going absolutely nuts over them is dumb! I must admit though, when I do let go of my little wall I put up to guard myself from even going too insane, it’s building itself back up.

Now telling you, I have to tell you this. Last night was pretty interesting. Since getting into Sixx:A.M., Motley Crue, and kind of Guns N Roses, I’ve been trying to follow more fans from each band. Luckily, a bunch love all three so I tend to get lucky. My first social network site I started finding a bunch was on Tumblr. Weird part is, my Tumblr likes to be a jerk everytime I try to get on it. It wants to freeze up and I have to exit out that tab and start a new one. Anyways, I like talking to them, and I also love their pictures they either post themselves or reblog, I’ve noticed that I’ve been reblogging lots of just DJ Ashba stuff. Not really complaining since in every picture I’ve blogged he’s drop dead gorgeous! Sorry, but true! Anyways, they’re a lot of fun!

Something I’ve noticed over the past month is that there is a different age pool between these three bands. I think most are my age and up. Which is nice, because being a fan of Linkin Park on Twitter, there’s like four or six of us who are not in our teens anymore and the rest of us are around 15-17 years of age. Not a big gap. With these three bands so far, I’ve met around three teenagers and the rest are my age and probably about their 30s, depending on who will tell their age. They’re an interesting bunch of people and again, like with Tumblr most of my new Twitter friends are Ashba fans. So they tend to be very nutty, and that can go either way. They’re fun to talk to. You definitely won’t regret it that’s for sure!

Top 20 Songs I Can’t Stop Listening To

I haven’t blogged about music, in general for a while. So let’s break that and talk about these amazing songs I have been obsessed with over the past few days. I was thinking of doing a Top 5, but it might turn into a Top 10 instead. I don’t think I’ve listened to that many songs recently, but I could be wrong. For Christmas, I got both Sixx:A.M. “This Is Gonna Hurt” and Nickelback’s “Here And Now” and I’m not going to lie, I’ve had both of them on repeat on my iPod since. So some of the songs from both albums are on this list as well. The rest I found at random, because I get curious when I’m bored and usually around those times I’m liable to listen to anything. So here we go! (These are in random order!)

  1. My Heart Is Broken – Evanescence
  2. The Pride – Five Finger Death Punch
  3. Kiss It Goodbye – Nickelback
  4. Never Again – Kelly Clarkson
  5. Iris – Leona Lewis
  6. Sweet Child O’ Mine – Guns N Roses
  7. Drive By – Train
  8. Kickstart My Heart – Motley Crue
  9. Hurt – Leona Lewis
  10. I Want My Tears Back – Nightwish
  11. Look In My Eyes – Rains
  12. Bullet In My Hand – Redlight King
  13. Shout It Out – 10 Years
  14. Gotten – Slash featuring Adam Levine
  15. Everything I Wanna Do – Nickelback
  16. Dr. Feelgood – Motley Crue
  17. Goodbye My Friends – Sixx:A.M.
  18. Ghost River – Nightwish
  19. November Rain – Guns N Roses
  20. Live Forever – Sixx:A.M.

You Have To Be Mental To Accept Metal

Last night I watched something different from I’m use to. I watched a documentary on the music genre: Metal. It was called, Metal: A Headbanger’s Journey, and it was really good. I didn’t get to watch the beginning of it because I didn’t know it was on and if I had known I probably wouldn’t watch it if it was on the same time as my other shows, but the parts I did get to watch was pretty interesting. I’m a new Metal fan. I can listen to several bands, not all because some actually freak me out. Such as Slipknot. I can’t listen to them, but I do like Corey Taylor in Stone Sour, but I think it’s the masks that really freak me out. But what is interesting is that I like Hollywood Undead. They wear masks too, so what’s the difference right? I think I might know to explain this.

When I was younger, my friend Haley and I were always together, but one thing that kept us separate at times was our music choices. She liked the hardcore heavy metal bands. Even going into middle school, you could really tell our music tastes were different. She was into horror movies, goth clothing, and Slipknot. I liked the clothing, well some of it. I have an old fashioned mind. So I didn’t like odd things like that back then. Everything else freaked me out. It wasn’t until we both got into Avril Lavigne that I could see myself change. I started listening to Good Charlotte, Simple Plan and Evanescence around this time. This was around 2003-04. The people she hung around with were people my parents wouldn’t like in the future. Some they liked and the rest were just screwed from the get go. My judgement wasn’t always the best either unfortunately. However, over the years I have been getting better at keeping those thoughts away.

Since then, my music tastes have gotten bigger. I listen to everything, pretty much. The first rock I got into after a few years of staying away from it. I listened to a lot of Screamo. Like, Brokencyde, Drowning Pool, and Hollywood Undead. Around 2009, I got into Drowning Pool’s song, Bodies I was hooked to that song. The screams were amazing! Before long I wanted more music that sounded just like that. Then entered Linkin Park and that took over my musical tastes for one hell of a ride. They may not be at the top of my list right now, but they’re still there. I’ve been into more metal bands, one especially is Five Finger Death Punch. I got into them a little after I got into Linkin Park, my sister’s boyfriend at the time liked both bands and he was my bud so I respected his judgement on music so I listened to them and haven’t looked back since. After accepting FFDP, I started getting interested in other bands that if I listened to them earlier I would have looked the other way. I love Symphonic Rock music, Within Temptation, Evanescence, Nightwish, Xandria, and Lacuna Coil. I love these bands, and the women who sing these songs are excellent at what they do!

So after watching the documentary, I think I try to understand what these other heavy metal bands and when I do I try not to judge but I always have somebody doing that for me. It’s payback for things I’ve said about their music tastes, especially if it’s my parents doing the judging. I haven’t been the biggest supporter of their music back then. My mom was lucky she got me into Prince when she did because everything else that had to deal with rock was shit of luck with me back then. Now that I have this wide range of music flowing around me, I can listen to music I necessary hated back then. My mom has actually supported me with it, dad is another story. He has tried to get me to listen to music from the 80’s a long time ago, but since they judged everything I would listen to back then I thought I had every right to judge their’s. It sucks now that I have grinned everytime he makes of what I listen to now. I can listen to Motley Crue and some Guns N Roses now, but I think that’s as far as I’ll go. Mom’s tried Metallica on me, and it didn’t work. Apparently I have to open and ready for it. I was ready to accept Motley, because I was curious after listening to Sixx:A.M. I will always be surprised in what I will actually listen to.