I Can’t Get Enough

This is what I watched last night. This was my favorite out of the two I posted last night on my Facebook. I’ve said it before I’m getting into Sixx: A.M. like really into them. Hell, even my family is learning quick. Earlier when my mom was getting ready for work, she scoot the laptop out of the way so she can take me to the bathroom before she left. She pushed that over and unplugged my speakers from the socket. So it was back to it’s crappy sound and at that time I was listening to “Deadman’s Ballet” the Live verison of it. Anyways, she asked me what the hell I was listening, ok so apparently she isn’t very quick yet. I told her it was Sixx: A.M. and she goes “oh that’s Nikki Sixx.” I went, “yes.” My head went, “there’s two others in the band too. You even get mad at me for not listening to Guns N Roses, but Dj Ashba does not comes flying out of your mouth?” My dad said the same thing after he gave me my food. Inside I was shaking my head.

I literally went through probably three and a half hours of nothing but Sixx: A.M. and a few commericals. I did take a break in the middle of listening to “This Is Gonna Hurt” to listen to Fireflight’s new song “Stay Close” and for some odd reason I clicked on a live version of “Unbreakable” and forgot to “x” it off there. So I just let it go. It’s a Monday and apparently it’s disgusting outside. My body already knows what kind of day it is when there’s no snow outside and it looks like it could storm at any moment. I’ve only gotten a few text messages today. Not in a tweeting mood nor a Facebook mood. All I did for the last three hours was listen to Sixx: A.M. and thought about different things. It’s like 74 degrees in my room with both heaters on and I still had my blanket on. You know something’s not right when I’m like that. I swear I felt like a part of that hole I was in a year ago come back to haunt me. Even a few other thoughts popped up, but sadly those thoughts were in me yesterday.

It’s been one of those days that would be smart to just let everything loose. Except I don’t think it would be too smart to let them out listening to Sixx: A.M. I’ll just get over it. It’s just a Monday. Hopefully it’ll end by tomorrow. If it doesn’t, this winter will suck. I was thinking about how much I hated last winter because my weekends would be boring as hell. Last weekend, Saturday was my only good day and I don’t know when I’ll get another one. I hope if you watch that video, you don’t cry. Even though I got to say I was somewhat close to crying myself last night. How can they have that much self-esteem? Whenever I get some self-esteem I lose it in about half hour or so. Don’t have that much confidence in myself. Never have, and probably never will. I think Sixx: A.M. is helping though. Slowly but surely. Alright I’m done.

Stay Close

This was posted on Fireflight’s Facebook page today. It was on my News Feed earlier and I’m listening to it for the second time today. It is so good. I like new music from bands that I’m into. I didn’t know about Fireflight about I think about a year ago, my sister told me about this song she wanted to sing for when she auditions for American Idol, that hasn’t happened by the way. She made me listen to her sing along to “Unbreakable” and that was it for me. I loved that song and it is a very good song for my sister to sing. Since then I have bought more Fireflight songs than her. I still have three songs I love that I need to get but I keep forgetting them everytime I have an iTunes card. By the way the time I get a card, I’ve usually found other songs and they end up being pushed back even more than before. One of these days I’ll get them though, but I think I killed “Unbreakable” for my sister. I play that song more than she does now.

Better Day.

Sorry, for not blogging all day. Usually I do 3 blog posts a day, but today just seems a little off for me. Beginning with my elbow pains I have at night. Especially last night, between I couldn’t get comfortable and the pain I was so frustrated with everything. I woke up twice at 2am and 5am. When I was up at 2am, so was my mom and she gave me medicine to hopefully calm my elbow pain and knock me out at the same time. However, the meds kicked in but I didn’t go to sleep til around 4-4:30am. Then I got up at 5am with the same problem. Went back to sleep then got up at 7am when my sister was getting ready for school. When I went back to bed it was around 8:30am and I didn’t get back up til 1pm.

Yesterday wasn’t really bad. That night was the part that sucked. Hopefully this time will be different. My heart would like to believe that but I already know the truth. So to be sure I didn’t have the same night filled with heartache and depressed all night long. My friend Stacie was my helper to help me stay happy. One of her friends, Mark was going to Livestream Brad’s LPU chat for whoever, and had this preshow. I’ve been to one of these Livestream/Ustreams before but like asking the questions and talking to everybody on there is a little weird. Mark played music videoes, concerts, and LPUTV episodes for us. I finally figured out what the whole “Iridescent American Girl” was about on Tumblr.

Anyways, around 4pm Brad came on there. Had some trouble with the Audio but it got better. Brad’s chat was pretty much 20 minutes long. Everybody was chatting on there and putting funny things that we’re making me laugh my ass off! Then afterwards, I left to lay down. I only did that for 10 minutes until I got back up again to listen to Fireflight. Got back on Twitter to find out that Mike’s doing an LPU chat as well at 7pm my time. Two things, it was interesting and I never want to hear the word, “Kinky” to come out of his mouth again. That was hilarious and weird at the same time. It would be a little hard for me to explain what it was about that made say it in the first place.

So after my screen froze and my audio kicked off. Everybody else was still chatting on the box. I didn’t want to restart the whole thing so I gave out my Tumblr URL and got off of there. My left knee is slightly killing me with all this bending. I don’t really feel tired right now, but I feel better that I got to witness both chats in one day without having to use YouTube. That is a plus! Well I think that pretty much covers my whole day.

Modern Christian Music.

I’m in a unique state of mind today. I’ve been listening to lots of different Christian bands/artists. I’ve been watching Live videos of Skillet. I love Skillet. My sister Emily got pretty much everyone in my family into them. We practically have every song from the “Comatose” and “Awake And Alive” albums. My favorites are “Rebirthing” from the “Comatose” album. I am addicted to “Hero” and title track “Awake And Alive.” My sister and I love the remixes too! Before I was looking up Skillet songs, I was watching and listening to Toby Mac. I don’t really like Christian rap and I don’t have any idea why.  Emily got me into “Tonight” like always, and she was right again. John Cooper is hot! But my favorite will always be Jen Ledger! I found some songs from the “Tonight” album. I liked “Captured” and “Changed Forever.” Another band my sister got me into is Fireflight. I’m listening to right now, the song is “Desperate” and I love it deary! I love “Unbreakable,” “Stand Up,” “You Decide,” and “Those Who Wait.” 

There’s a Christian band that my sister didn’t have to get into and that is Flyleaf. I love Flyleaf! I got into Flyleaf in 2008 after they released their song “All Around Me” and I was hooked ever since. Lacey is such a good singer! I actually like a good number of their songs! I’m that addicted. I was tempted to buy a whole album of their’s when it came out but I had only known 2 songs and I didn’t want to rish buying something that I wouldn’t like later. Apparently, I like it now! My cousin Kristi got me into Pillar. That was interesting I heard a good song from Pillar after we listened to Hollywood Undead. Nice combination! I’m trying to think of more Christian bands that I listen to, but I have no idea who else I listen to. I listen to Krystal Meyers, and Philmont too.