June Playlist


I am posting this a week earlier than I originally planned on because I am going to be writing about Nolan’s birthday party. It is going to be a fairly large post with lots of things, and I didn’t want to force myself to write it up in three days so this is your gift for the end of the blogging week instead!

Honestly I wanted to work on this like four days after the May playlist published but I told myself to chill and wait until I actually create a fairly good size list for this month. Unfortunately, I don’t think I will be giving you a 20 song playlist this time around but I think you’ll still appericate it anyways, right?

Dancing With A Stranger by Sam Smith featuring Normani
The World We Made by Ruelle
Flexible by Jordan McGraw
Wait For Me by Jake Miller
Brand New by Ben Rector
The Outside by Taylor Swift
Here With Me by Marshmello featuring CHVCHES
Out Of Love by Alessia Cara
Playwitme by Kyle featuring Kehlani
Tip Toe by Jason Durelo featuring French Montana
Thinking Bout You by Ciara
365 by Zedd featuring Katy Perry
Wish Wish by dJ Khale featuring Cari B & 21 Savage
Sound Of War by Tommee Profitt x Fleurie
Back It Up by Prince Royce featuring Jennifer Lopez & Pitbull
So Am I by Ava Max
Chances by Backstreet Boys
Started by Iggy Azalea
Unforgettable by French Montana
My Prerogative by Britney Spears

Okay, so maybe I was wrong and I have listened to over 20 songs already this month! It took me about an hour just to get that list together, because I kept coming up with songs and trying to add on to the previous list was a pain in the ass, but I got it done so I’m a happy camper now!

Two songs that I have been loving like crazy are “Flexible” and “Wait For You,” they are so good! I was hooked the moment they each started playing. They both have very catchy lyrics and melodies, I am really bad at keeping still whenever they come on so I know that’s a good sign! I am still shocked that Jordan McGraw is actually the youngest son of Dr. Phil! I thought he was a rocker? Oh well, the song’s great.

The one female track that I want to talk about is Alessia’s song “Out Of Love.” Like the other two above, I only had to hear it once and I was gone. It’s such a bittersweet type of song, but it’s also very beautiful too! What gets me though, is that it reminds me of a song that was on the film, Look Who’s Talking with Kirstie Alley, John Travolta, and Bruce Willis. The song that I’m talking about is called “You Need Hands” by Dan Lennon. The reason why Alessia Cara’s song makes me think of this song is when she gets to the chorus and how slow she says each word, the music too helps bring back that similar sound of this track specifically at the chorus. I can’t to find out how many of you actually attempt to listen to the songs and see if I have actually lost my mind or not.

I think the Ben Rector song will always be on my June playlist, mainly because it was literally the first song that I heard on the radio when we got home from Nolan’s birth. I actually didn’t go to sleep right away like my parents, so that is how I managed to hear it. And what was really interesting, is that I heard it on the day of the party! So, it has a very special place in my heart and deserves to be on here every year!

What were you listening to this month? How are you about hearing songs play on days that hold special meanings, whether it’s good or bad?

REVIEW | Fifty Shades Of Grey

Before I go and start this post, this is about both the book and film. There are some spoilers inside… This is just a review, that’s all. Don’t kill the messager if you disagree. Also, there will not be a Seen & Heard post for this month or December. 

In 2012, I went looking on Amazon website in their Kindle book section and found the Fifty Shades Of Grey books. This was way before the movie announcement was even made, but when I read the description of it I wasn’t interested in it. A couple of months later, my friend Mandy suggested it and this time I kind of went and bought it after thinking about it for like a day or two. I remember reading it and I was NOT comfortable reading it in the daytime or much less anywhere near my parents. At this time, I was 21 years old. I’m allowed to read and watch whatever I want, but I only got that permission by one of my parents. My poor dad actually knows what the movie is about and I wish I knew that before I watched it!

Anyways after a month or two, I finally finished it. Of course I did a book review about it. My review is here if you would like to check it out, but  I finally watched the film when HBO finally aired it last weekend. I was a little bit more excited than I thought I would be considering how much I hated the book. Let’s be clear though, I hated Christian Grey entirely. This was my first dominant/submissive novel so I wasn’t feeling a lot of the stuff in the book. Anyways, watching the movie I hated Jamie Dornan as Christian Grey. He only “became” him in certain scenes and I’m talking like maybe three scenes. Dakota Johnson as Ana Steele was probably one of the best choices ever!  She was funny, shy, and curious all at the same time! She was my Anastasia, the one I had imagined in my head while reading the book.

As for the scenes in the book, I remember the helicopter ride, visit to Ana’s mother place in Georgia and lunch with Christian’s family. The only one I didn’t hate was the helicopter ride. I think I liked it for a different reason though, I liked the placement of Ellie Goulding’s “Love Me Like You Do” there but was that scene that quiet as it is in the movie? That’s another thing that I sort of missed was the narrator/Ana’s inner thoughts throughout the whole thing. I felt the whole thing was pretty plain without it. I’ve been trying to rack my brain for other scenes that I felt that I needed to voice my opinion about and the only thing that’s left is the butt plugs. We only hear her ask about them when they go through the contract, but they don’t make it into the film – probably couldn’t show them.

You know what’s really bad though, I actually liked the movie a lot more than I did with the book. I think if I had read it after I read other books about dominant/submissive roles, I don’t know maybe I would have liked it more. I doubt it though. Now that I know the next two movies will be released back to back, I’m going have to read the other two books. No, I haven’t read the other two. My mom and Blondie have, but I haven’t. That’s how much I hated Christian Grey! I recorded it at like 2am, I didn’t start watching it until like 4am. The volume on my TV never got off 11 and I had to read the closed captions quickly. I also had my toe on the “recall” button just in case I had any surprises come bursting through my door!

What did you think of the film? 



If I would have seen this last year, I wouldn’t be able to believe it. It’s really hard for me to believe a lot of things actually. I made a mistake this morning. I woke up this morning and not wanting to watch any of my normal food shows and watched Dirty Dancing: Havana Nights. I only watched about half of it. I’m more of a fan of the original movie, and watching it just made me sad for two reasons. I miss Patrick Swayze. And I began to feel all sad again. Feeling sorry for myself again and hating my legs for not being to balance my body weight. I was doing so good too! I even made it my New Year’s Resoluation. I only made one and I couldn’t even make it through January, but I got to say at least I can I did get through the first week of January. I hate watching something and it makes me feel like shit afterwards. Not smart on my part, especially when I think I can get through it without feeling bad when I know better.

This banner is true. I made two weeks liking my body fully. Got through the pain on my own. And also go through the bad thoughts with one positive thought. That’s something new for me. I’ve been laughing and smiling more. Trying to keep up with everybody else and talk to them. Make them feel better about themselves and try and help with the small problems they have. Comparing myself to others is such a waste of time. I wish I had that mindset in school. Something about the “pretty girls” made me cringe because they had everything. All the guys wanted them. However, now I don’t really give two shits. Those girls had a problem with making people like me, who had insecurity problems feel bad about themselves both mentally and physically. The guys messed with our minds everytime they would reject us. Oh well though, Karma’s a bitch. We seriously need to stop comparing ourselves and start living our lives our way.