Last Post of 2013

It still doesn’t seem like it’ll be 2014 tomorrow. I remember thinking in both March and August that it still felt like the beginning of the year. This year went by fast, as in the beginning it could have sped up a little bit. There have been a few months that I wanted to slow down a little and there were a few months that didn’t need to exist anymore. There were a lot of good and bad things that happened this year, but as I think to myself there has to be sadness in every year of a person’s life. It doesn’t matter what it is, if you get it twice every six months or the entire year was awful for you. You kind of have to continue to hope for a better year. It’s a lot easier said than done I know, but I think once you accepted that you have to get through whatever is causing you so much pain in order to find happiness. Two days ago, I was on Pinterest and I found this “new year” post saying something like, “What if 2014 turns out to be the year you meet the person that changes your life?” I actually said to myself, “I doubt it, but we’ll see.” I usually just laugh and ignore it. This time I had some hope inside that maybe there will be somebody who will change my life for the better.

There were a lot of things that happened this year that I liked a lot. I finally got to do Physical Therapy and did that for three months. I kept up with a book series. Speaking of books, I got a few authors to follow me on Twitter and got replies from a few of them. I have 25 or 26 celebrities/bands following me on Twitter. I even got a reply back from Anette Olzon, Chris Kael, and Zoltan Bathory. My mom redid my room for me. I got a new poster and my closet continues to grow from overwhelming pile of band shirts. I got to enjoy my time with family. I got to see my little sister walk down grand march for her last prom in high school. I also got to see her graduate high school and yes, I did cry. I got nominated for two blog awards. I got my shower chair and a bedside commode as it’s getting more difficult for my family to carry me around. My nana gave me a nice little table with wheels on it that my papaw had made, and I’ve been sitting up and eating by myself. My nana and I did a lot of do-it-yourself crafts with pumpkins. I got to finally Push Girls and I ended up falling in love with it a little more than I thought I would. I got to meet some new people and got to Skype with a couple of them too. I have become a cat lover after the two liters that Bootsie had this year.

There were some bad things that happened, as I said, we all have to go some bad times too. I was only in PT for three months and I wished I could do it forever. I wasn’t happy with the fact that I had something in my sights on something that actually made me happy and look forward to, I know I’m a weirdo. I got to see my worst nightmare come to live twice. I had two friends of mine pass away. I was depressed a couple of times this year, but I always found myself out of it. People still irritate me. I still over think everything. That’s honestly all I could think on the bad things. All of the good overweighted the bad every single time. Don’t ask how, it just does. I don’t know what the new year has in store for me. All I keep thinking is all of the new music and movies that are supposed to come out next year. Is that a bad thing to have your focus on that? I don’t think so, as long as it keeps you happy and excited that’s all that matters. I hope the new year treats you well. Hopefully the new year will bring more sections of Chloe, Brenda, and Chloe’s personal lives.

The ladies that host Ketchup With Us, Mel and Michele shared a post on both of their blogs. What would be three words that reflect your goals for 2014? Mine would be: Patience, Positive, and Dream. I have become very patient in the past year. It seems like that I might be the only one who has accepted being patient of both little things and big things at times. I’d like think positive at everything and not try to over think or assume everything at once. It just clutters my mind and I hate cleaning up the mess afterwards. I want to keep dreaming. I like my dreams, but I hate my nightmares. However, those nightmares are probably made up from all of the negative thoughts that I had earlier in the day. What would be the three words you would chose to reflect your goals for the 2014?

Books I Read In 2013

So this year has been filled with so many things. Family gatherings, tons of laughter, and many more stories created this year. Some of them I still remember and there are some I don’t, but I’m thinking that’s probably good thing. This year was my second year going to Barnes and Noble for my birthday. Except this time we went to the Barnes and Noble at my sister’s school. I had been there before during Parents weekend and it was very crowded because everybody was there too. It looked massive from the loads of people around, but when we went back in November. I was stunned to find the place looked smaller from going to the one where we live. This year we actually remembered to bring a list. I kept a short list of books in my phone. I spent like a half hour looking around trying to find at least one of the books on my list. They didn’t have any of them. I did find two books that I did consider buying instead. I found the awesome cover that I saw in the crowds last September. I was sad that the summary wasn’t as interesting as the cover made it out to be. I definitely regret not being The Tudors book like I should have.

I have read a little bit less than I wanted to this year. This list of books I’m about share with you, seems like a medium size list, but every book wasn’t back to back like the ones a year ago. I think we can say that I have a favorite author since she’s had more than one book come up on there. Olivia Cunning is the author of the Sinners On Tour series. I first read the first book of the series Backstage Pass at the end of last year and loved it so much that I literally took advantage of the sale yesterday and bought Hot Ticket which actually came out this year! If I complete this book I’ll only have to read Wicked Beat and Sinners At The Atlar. If I can complete this series I will feel accomplished. I’ve been thinking of doing something a little different in the new year. I saw somebody talk about being apart of a to z book challenge and I’ve been thinking of taking part in a similar challenge too. I probably won’t do it, but for the books I wanted to read that I already had selected in the challenge I really want to read, so I might through those separately.

The Books I Read In 2013:

1. Nobody’s Angel (Rescue Me #2) by Kallypso Masters
2. Afflicted (Battlescars II) by Sophie Monroe
3. Diary Of A Wanted Woman by Donnee Patrese
4. Rock My Bed by Michelle A. Valentine (Michelle followed me on Twitter)
5. Maelyn (The Nine Princesses Novellas) by Anita Valle
6. Her Mad Matter by Marie Hall
7. Try Me by Olivia Cunning
8. Battlescars: A Rock & Roll Romance by Sophie Monroe (I got two replies from Sophie on Facebook this year!)
9. The Secret Diary Of A Princess: A Novel of Marie Antoinette by Melanie Clegg
10. Music Of The Heart by Katie Ashley (Katie replied to me on a tweet)
11. Releasing Kate (Power and Pain) Book One by Cyna Kade
12. Double Time by Olivia Cunning
13. Rock Hard by Olivia Cunning

You See Through Your Eyes, Listen Through Your Ears, And Love Through Your Heart

I’ve been wondering about all I’ve watched on TV and listened through my headphones this year since the beginning of last month. Something tells me I should’ve made my list at the beginning of the year and put down everything as the year continued on. I’m saying this, because my list of music is unbelievable huge! I did not think I had listened to so much music in one year. Considering my movie list was so short I decided to add the TV Shows I started watching in 2013. It didn’t make any longer, but it works. What did you watch and/or listen to in 2013?

Movies/TV Shows I watched in 2013:

1. Beautiful Creatures
2. Safe Haven
3. Oz: The Great And Powerful
4. G.I. Joe: Retaliation
5. The Originals
6. Witches Of East End
7. Total Divas
8. Ink Master
9. Push Girls
10. Mistresses
11. Hannibal
12. Ke$ha: My Crazy Beautiful Life
13. Breaking Amish: Brave New World
14. Marvel’s Agents Of S.H.I.E.L.D
15. Wild ‘n Out
16. Whose Line Is It Anyway?
17. The Wolverine
18. Fast & Furious 6

Albums I listened to in 2013:

1. Release The Panic by RED
2. Need You Now by Plumb
3. Girl Who Got Away by Dido
4. The 20/20 Experience by Justin Timberlake
5. Native by OneRepublic
6. Pioneer by The Band Perry
7. 10 by New Kids On The Block
8. Device by Device
9. Paramore by Paramore
10. Save Rock and Roll by Fall Out Boy
11. Golden by Lady Antebellum
12. Annie Up by Pistol Annies
13. Demi by Demi Lovato
14. Love, Lust, Faith + Dreams by Thirty Seconds To Mars
15. Rise by Skillet
16. Connect by Sick Puppies
17. Stars Dance by Selena Gomez
18. In A World Like This by Backstreet Boys
19. The Wrong Side Of Heaven And The Righteous Side Of Hell, Volume 1 by Five Finger Death Punch
20. The Civil Wars by The Civil Wars
21. Crash My Party by Luke Bryan
22. Halcyon Days by Ellie Goulding
23. Get Wet by Krewella
24. The 20/20 Experience: 2 of 2 by Justin Timberlake
25. The Paradigm Shift by Korn
26. Bitter Rivals by Sleigh Bells
27. High Rise by Stone Temple Pilots
28. PRISM by Katy Perry
29. Recharged by Linkin Park
30. Loved Me Back To Life by Celine Dion
31. Avril Lavigne by Avril Lavigne
32. Baptized by Daughtry
33. The Wrong Side Of Heaven And The Righteous Side Of Hell, Volume 2 by Five Finger Death Punch
34. Britney Jean by Britney Spears
35. Goliath by Butcher Babies
36. War Of Ages by Serenity
37. The Nexus by Amaranthe
38. Interlude by Delain
39. Perils Of The Deep Blue by Sirenia
40. Wild Card by ReVamp
41. Colours In The Dark by Tarja
42. Masks by Eyes Set To Kill
43. Retrospect by Epica
44. Symphonies Of The Night by Leaves’ Eyes
45. Vita Nova by Vita Nova
46. Icon For Hire by Icon For Hire
47. Rebuild by The Letter Black
48. Welcome To The Freakshow by Hinder
49. We As Human by We As Human
50. Raise Your Fist by Doro
51. Heaven In This Hell by Orianthi
52. Electric Air by Eklipse

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I thought yesterday was never going to end. It seriously drove me crazy. In the past year, I’ve tried thinking of the three good things that happened that day to make sure I think of them before I think of all the bad things that happened instead. It makes you think of positive things instead of the negative. This was my last picture of 2012. It was a pain in the butt to try to do, but after three chances, I finally took it and it turned out better than I thought. By the way, this is the edited picture. This is one of the shirts I got for Christmas and I wear it with pride. I had a lot on my plate yesterday, but after thinking of the positive things it brought along with it. It wasn’t as bad as I thought it was. My mom got movies for me and made sugar cookies. Plus, one good thing for me, it was my first New Years without any alcohol. I wasn’t offered anything, but I never wanted it. Although I did think of it twice, but I never acted on it.

I spent most of my day, staying in my room. My parents went to my neighbors and had their fun. My sister got her boyfriend to come over last night. I was all alone. Again. I think staying in my room all night long was the smartest choice I ever made. I was a big bitch yesterday and I didn’t want to scare the living crap out of my sister’s boyfriend. I spent most of the afternoon watching the fifth installment of Resident Evil and loved it! Afterwards, I took a break from watching movies and listened to music for at least half an hour. I started watching Total Recall around 5pm and that took me a while to get through. It was a long movie, and it was confusing in places. It probably wouldn’t have been so bad if my mind wasn’t ready to explode after my morning. Anyways, I got through it and totally regretted saying it sucked to my mom. It wasn’t so bad at the ending. It just didn’t seem it wanted to end. There were like four perfect places where movie could’ve ended, but nope. It had to keep going on and on. After that was over, I put in the one movie I was excited for than the others. My mom finally got me, National Lampoon’s Christmas Vacation. I wasn’t into the middle of it before I gave up on it. It wasn’t getting me into a good mood like I wanted it to.

Around 11:30pm, I decided I couldn’t force myself to stay up any longer and I didn’t care if the new year was going to start without me, I was tired and just not in a good mood. I did my prayers and was ready to drift off to dreamland. Then my mom and ChiChi decided to ruin my chance of ever getting to dreamland before midnight. My mom grabbed my remote and changed my channel to Dick Clark’s Rockin’ Eve. It just wasn’t the same without Dick Clark. I had to roll around from my comfortable spot and ChiChi decided it was time to give me kisses. Before I was ready to go to bed, one of the thoughts that came to me was “you’re not going to get kissed tonight so why bother staying up?” Apparently ChiChi can read minds now. As everybody was counting down to the New Year, I was pushed up against the wall because ChiChi was trying to give me doggy kisses. My mom was even holding her back and she was still squirming around in her arms, trying to reach for me. After my mom said “Happy New Year!” She released the hound and she practically pounced on my face to lick my face. I don’t know if it’s sad that a dog has to get me into a better mood. After fighting her off, I had every energy I wanted earlier and I stayed up for a bit.

I slept for an hour. One freaking hour people! I was ticked, but I kind of figured. For the next five hours I spent trying to get comfortable in a unconfortable bed, where it felt like I was sleeping on a pile of rocks and on top of a volcano. It was hot too. I don’t know about you but I like sleeping out of both of my nostrils and with my mouth closed. What was worse though, I was paranoid throughout the entire night and couldn’t get my mind to shut up. Maybe watching Resident Evil was a bad idea after all. When it finally turned 6am, my mom’s alarmed blared from the other room to tell her it was time to get up. I guess that was my time to finally calm down and fall asleep, because that’s what I did, but five minutes later my mom gets up to take me to the bathroom. I had a nice nap that’s for sure. After she left my room, I had to fight my mind and bed again, but not as long this time around. I only stayed up an hour and then somehow managed to fall asleep again. Guess what time my dad gets me up though? 2:30pm. He wakes me up and says to me, “you better wake up so you could at least get some sleep tonight.” Like that’s going to happen, but sure let’s go with that. That’s how I spent the last day of 2012 and my first day of 2013. Hopefully tomorrow is better. =)

Here’s To Us

Hello to all my readers, it is finally a new year. It is finally 2013! I don’t know about you all, but I am so glad it’s a new year, because I am looking forward to moving on from what I learned in 2012 and keep going on the good things that it brought along with that. I wanted to talk about something I saw on Facebook last night before we even talk about what I have in store for this blog in 2013. I had read on somebody’s Facebook that they thought everybody making resolutions and thinking they can make it better the year before is just a waste of time, pretty much. Well, since I was in a wonderful mood yesterday, they were lucky I didn’t post anything on a comment. I think you can make resolutions and stick with them. At the beginning of 2012, I made mine and kept mine for almost three months. I mean, I kept mine longer than most people do. I do think you could have a better life at the beginning of a new year, if that’s what you want. Nothing wrong with it. How my mind is, at the moment, they had a right to say that, but I don’t know I think you could do all those things, if you put your mind to it.

Now back to what I have planned for the new year for this blog. I think I have blogged about every memory I could think of, so I thought while I was trying to get some sleep last night about instead of blogging about memories, I am going to blog every day about what I am doing at the moment. I’m going to give you, as a reader, a better chance to understand my life. I am going to try to blog every day about my ups and downs. I know its going to be difficult for me to be doing on my difficult days but that’s my plan. It wasn’t part of my resolution, because I think it’s just safer for me to have one resolution to keep track of for one year. So I’m going to leave this post the way it is, and start the first page in chapter 2013. Here’s To Us!