Life Lately | 10 Years Ago

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In 2009, I created my first ever blog. Even though it was purely for school, it become one of the best platforms for me. It seemed to arrive at the perfect time and place considering I was in my last year of high school, quickly approaching college and the rest of the unknown. Unfortunately, after graduation everything pretty much went to hell. The only thing that really kept me going was blogging about life.

I have told this story before, but I give a lot of my credit for even creating a blog in the first place to a decision that my Grammar teacher made at the beginning of the school year; she knew that we would probably receive the new laptops sometime in October, which meant we would only have a short time learning about the site in itself and what kind of assignments she wanted us to do on there. The moment we were allowed to explore and change our layouts, I was hooked! You have to remember though, I was a newly senior in high school, I was thrilled about spirit week, campus visits, football, powder puff, homecoming, prom, etc so having a blog was a great way to express myself at that moment of time. Unfortunately, when we finally got the laptops I had already went on my only campus visit and didn’t even think to talk about it on there after a couple of months had passed; of course now I wish I had blogged about it anyways, but it’s okay.

After two years on my first blog, I thought I needed a change, but here’s the real reason why I went from Blogger to WordPress, I just wanted to be able to comment on Mike Shinoda of Linkin Park’s blog. Yeah, that was inspiration to switch over but honestly I really prefer WordPress than any other platforms. They claim to be easy but I’m not really convinced, but that’s my opinion on that issue. Anywho, what started as a way to do something like that turns into a big thing as far as time-consuming and being very passionate to turn it into my sanctuary.


On Saturday, it will officially be ten years since I first started blogging. It definitely doesn’t feel like it was that long ago that I was sitting at my lowered desk by the door, in complete awe on how tiny these laptops were, and learning how to create my first innocent blog post. I would like to mention thank you very much for reading my posts, leaving me sweet comments, and just inspiring me to keep going on my hard days. You are as part of my journey than the blog in general, so again I say thank you!

If you visit my blog’s Facebook page you can join to get updates to my little celebration. I will be sharing around 10 posts that I published throughout the years, You are welcome to not only read them but I would love to know some of your favorites too!

It’s still strange to think I was being graded for those little assignments honestly! What really gets me is that I never had a lot of pressure of working on them as I have in the past couple of years. I may not be graded in the sense of a school project but you can still get noticed by important people that could see you as a potential of working on something that you talk about on your blog. It’s really cool when this happens, but it also puts tons of pressure on yourself to make sure everything in perfect. As you might know, it’s been a roller coaster ride lately because I try to start a new month on a high note, but somehow in the mist of the first two weeks, it’s like I lose my energy and inspiration to do anything blog related so that part sucks, but I made a promise to myself that I wouldn’t be angry or sad about it because maybe all I need is a reset. I still have lots of ideas in my head and on notepad but getting the motivation for more than a few days is pretty difficult. I know I’ll come back but there’s no set time on when that’ll be at the moment so you’ll have to be patient with me.


Oh wait! This might be a strange question, but how are you about moodboards? I have been spending a lot of time on Pinterest, creating boards of color aesthetics, and it has been a lot of fun (and I’m pretty sure I am addicted too!). So I thought I would do my own moodboard, and shockingly it was really fun and therapeutic!

As a fun way to celebrate the weekend’s festivities, I have a challenge for you right now. Can you create one? Instead of maybe focusing on one color, which is the easiest thing to do! I chose to use my sunflower rug my mom got me several months ago as the backdrop. I went by the general colors of a bright yellow and various shades of brown because no two sunflowers are alike in the changing seasons. You can stick with my color scheme or use another prominent hue that you have in the room you’re currently in or just around the house. By the way, I’ll give you bonus points if you do it in purple! Have fun with it though! It doesn’t need a lot of objects to get the point across, but I would like to see more than four or six items together.

Here is my first attempt and now it’s your turn! Share them on my Facebook page please! Click here to be transported to the page, if you haven’t already you can “like” it and if you want to see my posts more frequently, you should also click the “follow” tab and select “see first” so you can keep up with me a lot easier!

What do you think of this idea? Should it be a monthly thing on here?

September Playlist

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I almost told myself that I could go without this playlist because I really didn’t listen to anything new, but on the actual day I went to work on the post, I mysteriously found twenty songs to fit on the list with the music I did enjoy this month.

I ended up coming down with a little cold last week, so I didn’t listen to a lot of music in the first three days because I had such a headache that any type of noise was the worst! I still have nose problems that will hopefully fade away soon! I want to get back into blogging full time again but the fact that I was able to kick out this post makes me happy!

Here are the Top 20 songs for September!

Hold Up by ddg featuring Queen Naija
Shameless by Camila Cabello
Survival by Eminem
My Type by Saweetie
Bitch Of The Year by Krewella
I Know You by Skylar Gray
Say You Love Me by Jessie Ware
The House Of Shame by Lacuna Coil
Big Bad Wolf by In This Moment
Ring The Alarm by Beyonce
Mamacita by Jason Derulo featuring Farruko
Motivation by Normani
Diva by Beyonce
Say My Name by David Guetta featuring Bebe Rexha & J Balvin
I Can’t Get Enough by Benny Blanco featuring Tainy, Selena Gomez & J Balvin
Promiscuous by Nelly Furtado featuring Timbaland
Control Myself by LL Cool J featuring Jennifer Lopez
Hustle by P!nk
Good Life by T-Pain & Kanye West
Wit Me by T.I. featuring Lil Wayne
Dark Side by Ty Dolla $ign featuring Kiiara

Before I go, I wanted to keep this post short and sweet, plus mention that I tried not to include a lot of the songs I put in my summer playlist, but a couple of them did make their way on here too because I really liked them! If you would like to check out that post, you can click here to see if any of your favorites made it on there!

What were you listening to in the month of September?

REVIEW | The Society

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This month was a good month to catch up on TV shows that I’ve been meaning to watch for a while, like The Chilling Adventures Of Sabrina, Supergirl and finally The Society. I know this one came out in May, but I kind of kept dodging it because I really didn’t think I would enjoy it, but then I caved and realized I was wrong with my initial impression of it.

Backstory

The Society is a story of 200+ teens who think they are about to go off on a camping trip as part of their final field trip together before graduating from high school an making their way to various colleges. They are dropped off at main square of their hometown of West Ham, to find themselves not with their families anymore. So, what’s their first reaction to this news? Well, to have a big party of course! Afterwards they find out the hard truth of how to be an adult and survive on their own without anyone helping them.

It is up to them to either work together or create chaos. When someone ens up killed, they have to figure out how to achieve justice an protect everyone when they no longer have a police force in their wing. Everything normal teenagers take for granted on a daily basis, is being thrown in their faces to the harshest reality that they will have to rebuild what they love an move on from their childish games.

What I Really Thought

Okay, so I will try my harest to not reveal everything, but I do have a lot of thoughts so if you want to, you can just skip this section!

There were a good balance of what I like and what I didn’t like about it. I guess in a way, I half expected it to have some supernatural effect to it, which in a way it does, but I mean like a mythology beast that haunts the town or something like that. When that never happened I was kicking myself a bit because I was so iffy about the show itself. It wasn’t until the last episode that I actually started to like it more.

The things that I did like about it were things about the characters, such as their personalities and the fact that we get elements of everyday life. I think adding both the deaf and LBGTQ+ communities were great! They never shied away from the possibility of gun violence, domestic violence, mental illness, pregnancy and inexperienced childbirth being parts of the story. It is modern story of survival and it was nice to see 17-19 year old kids telling the story for once.

It was also like a test to see how much they remembered their studies too. After everything that happened with the trail of you-know-who, I immediately went into the bowels of my brain to see if there was a way that they could serve justice is by a firing squad, which is what they demonstrated on the show and I have to say, that is a very brave thing to do for many reasons. If you don’t have a way to secure your prisoners besides locking them up in wine cellars, the death penalty could be an option. A lot of people may not agree to it, but in order to show others that if you’re stupid enough to make a choice like this, this is what happens as a consequence. I hate that fact a single person had to make that type of result, but I fully agreed with that person.

Now there were some things that I didn’t like, kind of goes with the previous paragraph as the leader demands that all guns are to be taken away. I know they needed to be tested to see if they matched the bullet that killed “C” but keeping them for safe keeping really strike a nerve with me as I think this is wrong. I don’t think anybody else what do anything like that again–then maybe besides Campbell! That’s one of our biggest arguments now, whether or not to remove all firearms, but it’s like demonizing the pit bull breeds, it’s not their fault, it is the one that yields the power and in both cases people are the heart of the issue.

Lastly, I wasn’t thrilled when it was announced that instead of continuing the role of being the leader of their establishment, they held elections. I know this is another part of being an American, but considering how the season ended, I really hated the idea. The thing about having chores or living together to save resources were smart! When “H” vowed that things should be different, people should be thinking of themselves and not of the others living next door really made me angry because that’s just somebody’s ego talking and not giving a damn about what happens in the future. By the time the new season returns, we’ll see that these new rulers of West Ham were just in over their heads and chaos will really take place.

Have you watched Netflix’s “The Society” yet? What were some of your thoughts about the plot and overall story? did you enjoy it or hate it?

 

 

Summer Playlist 2019!

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It is time for a whole new summer playlist! This is usually one of my favorite things to look forward to, because if you know me well enough I have never really liked the season. I mainly like it for the amount of really great music that comes out!

Now I say “usually” because whenever I work on these posts I always get very angry at myself because I never keep track of the music that I’ve enjoyed listening to, for some reason I’m always hoping it’ll still be in my Top 10 or 20 list in my head but it never happens! However, what does keep me in positive spirits is the fact that I continue to publish my monthly playlists on here, so if I do forget a notable song that is like at the very tip of my tongue, there’s a good chance it could be in the other posts… If it’s not, I have to go on YouTube to search the most popular summer anthems of the year, which is what I had to do with this post, so I still feel like I’m forgetting a few but I also didn’t want to go overboard the amount of songs on this list either.

Here are the songs that I liked the most over the past four months now!

Say My Name by David Guetta feat. Bebe Rexha & J Balvin
China by Anuel AA feat. Ozuna, Daddy Yankee, Karol G & J Balvin
Runaway by Sebastien Yatra feat. Jonas Brothers, Natti Natasha & Daddy Yankee
I Don’t Care by Ed Sheeran & Justin Bieber
Sucker by Jonas Brothers
The Search by NF
Me by Taylor Swift feat. Brandon Urie
Dancing With A Stranger by Sam Smith & Normani
Thinkin Bout You by Ciara
Wish Wish by DJ Khaled feat. CardI B & 21 Savage
Nightmare by Halsey
How Can I Forget by MKTO
Last Hurrah by Bebe Rexha

Medicine by Jennifer Lopez feat. French Montana
If I Can’t Have You by Shawn Mendes
Started by Iggy Azalea
Never Really Over by Katy Perry
Kill This Love by Blackpink
Only Want You by Rita Ora
Lips on’t Lie by Ally Brooke feat. A Boogie With da Hoodie
Mother’s Daughter by Miley Cyrus
Easier by 5 Seconds of Summer
Banana by Anitta feat. Becky G
Rescue Me by OneReuplic
Talk by Khalid
Glad He’s Gone by Tove Lo
Better When You’re Gone by David Guetta, Brooks & Loote
Out Of Love by Alessia Cara

Yeah, I know. This is massive but I feel like every single one of them came to me at a specific point in my life. Some were easy to spot and understand while the rest are still a mystery!

I said this in my previous playlist but I have been listening to a lot of raggaeton music lately and was pretty sure that it would cover the entire thing but it didn’t, I was actually very surprised! The only bad thing about doing this post in the middle of the month is that there could be some last minute bangers–I mean, a week after I finished last year’s post, DJ Snake’s “Taki Taki” with Ozuna, Cardi B and Selena Gomez came out and I cannot tell you how pissed off I was for not waiting a little longer, but I’ve learned to live with it.

Now it’s over to you, what do you think were the best summer anthems of 2019?

The Best Scores & Soundtracks | Part 2

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A month ago, I published the first part of my list of favorite movie scores and soundtracks. It was a shorter post compared to what this one will be..I have made the decision on only talking about 12 of them as I didn’t want to drag it on. I feel like this a great selection of soundtracks. A lot of them you have probably enjoyed growing up or as you got older. I have also arranged them in alphabetical order again just to help myself keep everything straight.

Burlesque (2010)

Have you ever seen a new movie promo and feel this immediate attraction to it? I felt it the day I saw the Burlesque trailer. I am a really big fan of Christina Aguilera and to find out she was making her debut in a movie was really exciting! The weird thing is that despite I was purely watching it for Christina, I actually love it because of the whole cast. My favorite character out of everybody is actually Stanley Tucci’s “Sean,” he can play a really good gay man! I was thoroughly surprised!

As far as talking about the soundtrack, I can literally listen to it from top to bottom. I loved the movie so much that for one Christmas, I actually asked for the soundtrack rather than the movie itself. I think the main reason for this was maybe I already had it on my DVR, but have lost it a couple of times in the course of three years. Thankfully, I have it in my main folder and if I want something to watch that I know I am going to enjoy I will turn it on. I try not to sing the songs late at night but sometimes I can’t help myself and it comes out. I have also been known to dance as well, but nobody can hear me when that happens so that’s okay!

Dreamgirls (2006)

When this one came out, I was at the start of getting really into musicals in general. It was a film that I actually watched on my own, without any other introductions from either people or the trailers on TV. Nevertheless, I genuinely loved it!

If it had came out at the peak of Beyonce’s career like now, after she’s lent her voice for the live action remake of “The Lion King” would I have enjoyed it as much is still up in the air, but my focus was never on her. I actually love it for Jennifer Hudson, like everybody else, I was stunned to find out that she was on American Idol but was later eliminated. I thought her voice was beautiful! I loved her sass towards pretty much everyone and felt horrible after the gorgeous performance of “And I Am Telling You” with those high notes! Good God, I can tell you that I can’t even hit those notes and I’ve tried to improve on my voice for the last few years, but still struggle reaching for the Earth-shattering vocals. Thankfully, I’m not bitter about it!

One thing that I was even more surprised about was Eddie Murphy. The only time I have ever heard him sing before was in Shrek and it wasn’t even as intense as what you hear on this movie! My ultimate favorite is “Patience” it has so much raw emotion in it.

Descendants 3 (2019)

Before watching this film, I had actually been pushing this post back further and further away because I knew how much time consuming it would be, but after I seen it I knew I had to basically bite the bullet and even include it onto the already long list!

It has actually been a long time since I have enjoyed watching a Disney Channel Original Movie, so I wasn’t expecting to like it very much but I had been really curious about it after the death of Cameron Boyce, and I was shocked on how much I loved it! I watched it live and recorded it for my main folder so whenever I wanted to watch it I could with ease, but I can’t seem to move past the song “Queen Of Mean” and really I still have trouble continuing because I just want to hear and sing it. After finishing it, it took me about a month to complete the other two movies, but I didn’t like it as much as this one though.

From Justin To Kelly (2002)

I know this movie wasn’t very popular when it came out, but I actually love it to pieces! If you’ve never seen it (which you probably haven’t) apparently it was a test film whether or not to see if American Idol winners could act. If this had a better outlook during the first weekend it premiered, executives would have continued to create similar films after every AI finale to jack up profits of the stars they helped make in the process. However, this was not the case but all wasn’t lost though. Kelly Clarkson still acts here an there. Hell, she even has her own talk show now!

Here’s something really interesting about the film itself. It also features another familiar face: Anika Noni Rose. No, she wasn’t on AI but she was on Dreamgirls as “Lorrell” the love interest of Jimmy Earl and “Tiana” on The Princess and The Frog. This movie was one of her firsts before making it into these huge sensations!

As far as the music goes, there is a lot of sass in the movie, and luckily the music runs right with it. I have always loved revenge songs, and there are two songs that are all about revenge and maybe even a little showoff-y too. There is “Wish Upon A Star” that is sung by our antagonist Alexa, even though she has this very high pitched voice when she sings, it still has that spunk of her personality. The other is “Madness” that is by both Kelly and Anika’s character Kaya. This is a really fun song with a lot of sass against these crazy boys in the film. My ultimate favorite is “Timeless” and it features both Kelly Clarkson and Justin Guarini. It is so beautiful and very gentle compared to the other songs on the soundtrack.

Lion King II: Simba’s Pride (1998)

I tried my hardest to not make this list all about my favorite Disney soundtracks so I have only three on here that I have truly adored for years.

Despite the fact that I have grown a better appreciation for the first Lion King film, my favorite will always be ‘Simba’s Pride’ because there wasn’t that big of a death on it. Yes, Nuka gets killed but it’s nothing compared to the killing of Mufasa, at least that’s my opinion anyways! Another reason why I have always liked this one more is because I think there are more songs included, especially after little Kiara and Kovu get taken back by their parents after meeting each other, there are two songs going on back-to-back. This doesn’t happen in the first film.

When I was younger, my favorite song was the theme song in the beginning which was “He Lives In You” which is still by Lebo B, who sung “Circle Of Life” in the first movie. I thought it was a little bit feminine as it was softer and not exactly in your face as COL was, it kind of gave you that feeling that this story was going to be totally different. My second favorite was “Not One Of Us” and I always loved to see the other animals get involved like you would in a big community. Although that whole section is really sad for both Kovu because he’s being forced out for his past and of course, the pleading Kiara makes more emotional because she loves him so much and is basically the only one to look past his heritage. Now as an adult, I really love “My Lullaby” because it is so fierce and powerful with a female vocalist and finally, there is “Love Will Find A Way” which use to make me very hopeful as a child but now I just enjoy it for the loving way of the lyrics and music in the background.

Purple Rain (1984)

My mom will be very proud of me for having this on my list. I grew up watching the film Purple Rain when I was a really young, and considering the amount of sexual things on it, I probably shouldn’t have been doing that!

I know there is the soundtrack with the songs with Prince and The Revolution, but as for this post I will be discussing all of the songs on the movie. My mom and I are still pretty obsessed with “Jungle Love” by The Time. They were the cockiest guys on that film and it wouldn’t surprise me if they were the reason why I hate people like that in general. The other song that was maybe the second track for someone at the age of 7 or 8 shouldn’t like right away was “Sex Shooter”. Personally, I thought Apollonia was gorgeous and I was never put off by the very risqué outfit she wore during that performance.

For the songs only by Prince, the list is a little bit bigger. I love “The Beautiful Ones” after watching the movie, my mom found a cover by Mariah Carey and I think Boyz II Men. I like it, I mean it isn’t Prince but I think it’s pretty good otherwise. The other favorites are “When Doves Cry,” “Computer Blue,” Purple Rain,” and “I Would Die For U.” I’m not really sure which ones my mom loves the most, so if she reads this post on my Facebook page, she’ll probably leave a comment with her answers so if you’re really curious, you’ll have to hope that this happens.

Spirit: The Stallion of the Cimarron (2002)

I literally almost forgot about this! While I was working on the one below, the sentence about how it’s my favorite Disney music of all time, I remembered my ultimate non-Disney favorite, which is Spirit! What makes it interesting is that it has something in common with the Tarzan soundtrack, as they were created by one person. For Spirit, it was Bryan Adams. Now I had never heard of him prior to this movie but I thought he was perfect as the story’s muse if you will.

This movie is a little different from the rest as it is generally like a silent film. The horses, who are the main characters, are just plain horses but in animated form. You have the humans that have voices, and Matt Damon as the narrator, but the music is basically at the forefront of the entire thing. I was nine years old when I saw this in theaters, and everything about it made me happy! And I’m pretty sure for Christmas that year, I received the soundtrack and I still listen to it every once in a while too!

Despite loving the entire soundtrack, of course I have my favorites and they are “Here I Am” which is played at the beginning when Spirit’s mom is giving birth to him, the rest of the scenes tell the story of he went from a little colt to this massive wild stallion in charge of his whole group. The next song is actually placed at a sad part because it’s where Spirit is captured by these humans who plan on taming him. It is called “You Can’t Take Me,” and at this time in my life, I wasn’t listening to country, rock, metal, anything like that, but this song is actually what made me interested in country-rock music, like Brantley Gilbert. Anyways, I think it’s pretty good but it is nothing compared to “Sound The Bugle” as it is the saddest scenes and song out of the whole thing! It’s on when Spirit gets captured again, he is taken away from Rain (his girlfriend) who is really hurt, and where he’s on the train obviously upset about everything from missing his mom and rest of the herd to possibly never seeing Rain ever again. So, it will probably make you cry as it does every time I watch it. The song itself isn’t much better; it’ll just create more tears that flow down your face!

Step Up (2006)

Recently I found this on our movie channels, so I am happy to finally hear these songs again because every time I look them on YouTube, there seems to one or two missing from the play list made by a fan. I do have the soundtrack itself but have nowhere to play it, so this is my only option right now!

This was actually the movie that made realize how great classical and hip hop go together! The opening track by Petey Pablo was amazing, the combination of violins and a heavy hip hop beat. What made it even better was during the credits, you have ballerinas and hip hop dancers in separate areas dancing to the same song. So, it gives you a nice sweet taste of what is to come for the whole thing. The best song though is “I’mma Shine” by Youngbloodz. Although the classical parts are taking a backseat, there are still very present on it but the whole thing is amazing! It plays during Ty and his friends at a party where Miles takes control of the DJ stand and Nora is forced to figure out her showcase as a soloist.

What I found cool though was that I wasn’t purely about the upbeat songs in the film. I really love Anthony Hamilton’s “Dear Life” as I think it brought out the vibe of Tyler’s life as a foster kid, and not being able to make that commitment to Nora. And of course, I have to add “U Made Me” by Gina Rene. I still think it was the perfect song for that scene between them, if you didn’t think there wasn’t any chemistry between Ty and Nora, you knew it after that little dancing scene at the docks.

Tarzan (1997)

Personally, I have never enjoyed watching Tarzan both growing up or as an adult–I don’t even like to watch it with my nephew! There are two big scenes that were always a little too much for me, but the one thing that keeps me interested are the songs. Out of all of the Disney movies and their soundtracks, this is and probably be my ultimate favorite of all time!

Even as an adult, my dad likes to tease me about the fact that I am listening to songs by Phil Collins. I cannot tell you how many times I get told to listen to Genesis every time I start singing the Tarzan songs! What really gets me is that he has yet to show Nolan any other song by Phil or Genesis. Why is it always me? Anyways, I have always loved the main theme that is on at the very start of the film. “Two Worlds” has a very upbeat sound but boy, if you watch the scenes where that baby gorilla gets chased and eventually killed by that leopard; it’ll definitely make you tear up! And then of course, I love “You’ll Be In My Heart” as it’s such a sweet, sweet song. I always like to give Nolan a kiss at the end of it.

The Hunchback Of Notre Dame (1996)

This is the final Disney soundtrack of the post! Honestly, for a while this was the only one I would admit to loving out loud. I think because it was such an underrated film that I just wanted to help grow among my friends. Disney is not really known for making movies with darker themes but they have experimented with them in the past. It didn’t matter that it was an animated film, it still talked about “getting rid” of the gypsies and anybody that didn’t fit Frollo’s version of the perfect person. This also means that he intentionally abused Quasi about his differences, and told him that he would never be welcomed among the people of Paris.

One of my ultimate favorite songs of the movie will always be “The Bells Of Notre Dame” I just loved how powerful it sounded back when I was little, but I still love it for being that way! I also have to point out that after years of hard work, I can finally hit and hold that last note of the song. It was the coolest thing for me to do that for the first time. My second favorite is “God Help The Outcasts” and I just really love how beautiful and gentle it is to the other songs in the movie. And finally, we have “Hellfire” which is the sinister song that I have heard in a Disney movie, but that never made me want to stay away from it, it just intrigued that they would even create a song like this in the first place, you know?

The Phantom Of The Opera (2004)

I remember the first time I ever watched this movie. It was during one day while I was in concert choir in eighth grade. Our teacher was getting ready for a play so he left all of us in our classroom with this film. I still don’t like the scene of when the Phantom appears behind Christine’s mirror, but I just love the whole thing!

Before watching this, I hadn’t listened to opera so this was something completely different for me. I was surprised that I would even enjoy it. I am happy to say I can hit several of those high notes in the songs “Think Of Me” and “Angel Of Music” but I really love “The Music Of The Night” but there’s nothing that freaks me out more than knowing that the Phantom is played by Gerard Butler! I know a lot of people didn’t like him for that role, but I loved it! I thought it was an interesting role for him.

Well I am finally done with this post! This took me longer than I wanted it to, but I think that was purely my fault, I had too many thoughts to include with each part and before I even got to the letter “P” I was kind of dreading to come back to it, but it’s finished and I’m happy with it!

What is your favorite movie soundtrack of all time? do we share any favorites?

A-Z Disability Challenge | M : Do You Think You Take Too Much Medication?

This is an interesting post for me because I am very self-cautious about any kind of medication, whether it’s for depression or general pain, I am always afraid that I will become dependent of it. My mom tells me all the time that I am not, but that doesn’t necessarily help my paranoia. If I could get by with taking only Advil I would probably be the happiest, but unfortunately that doesn’t help with the muscle spasms or the really intense pain that it can cause in certain places. So, I am stuck in this mental battle of knowing I am fine with my intake but my brain doesn’t allow me to believe so.

My brilliant papaw was a Pharmacist, he went to school for it and afterwards went into the Korean war, but instead of seeing any action, he was sent to Hawaii to work with the doctors on hand. We were told lots of stories about his time there like how the fresh pineapple tastes better than it does at the store and every once in a while he would tick nana off with bragging on how he had a girlfriend there. Honestly we never really trusted him with that piece of information.

My papaw was one of the smartest people I knew, but he unfortunately had issues with pain, and one of the saddest things about this was the amount of pills and empty bottles he would have stashed around the house because he went back and forth thinking that he wouldn’t have enough or people would steal them. You really feel sorry when an older man feels the need to secretly hide medicine for either reason, because if they are anything like my papaw that after discovering three to four bottles of a random amount of pills in each one, having to be monitored by not only their wife but also their daughter who is a nurse, is very heartbreaking! I know that he absolutely hated that, but he had the last laugh because after he passed away, we continued to find bottles up until the house was sold!

There has been a lot of news about doctors and manufacturers being sued for all of the opioid addicts out there, and I am not sorry for this but instead of putting the blame on the doctors, how about you put it on the addicts. It was their choice to use it to not only harm themselves but cause many issues for patients that do not abuse their medication. My dad is one of those people, he has been on a different set of medicine recently for reasons unknown by his doctor and since then he’s actually been in more pain than I think he’s ever been in his life. He has other ailments that are causing him more trouble as he gets older and it sucks to see such a person want to be in bed or on the couch with various amounts of pillows than outside doing stuff. This mess that has finally come to life has really horrible effects for both sides.

Before I end this post, I would like to say that these are my opinions. If you are an addict or have a family member/best friend that has dealt with addictions over the years, I am sorry for you, but I truly believe that most of the general blame is on the wrong people. Let’s make this clear though, there are crooked physicians out there but some of them are desperately trying to help their patients and if they know them well enough that they understand that they’d never want to jeopardize their medication for a temporary high.

So, have you ever felt like you take too much medicine just to get through? It doesn’t matter if it’s mild or intense amount of pain either. What are your thoughts of the opioid epidemic?

Vloggers That I Love #5

Howdy!

I think I am going to try to do one Vloggers That I Love post a month, because I have quite a bit still on my list. Every time I feel like I’m finally done putting new ones on it, I literally add two more, but mostly to include a third onto every post. Anyways, this week I is either going to make you very happy or depressed you’re not rich; we’ll see what happens at the end of the post?


RemiLife | luxury fashion, beauty + weight loss


I first discovered Remi’s vlogging channel last Christmas, I was looking for new Vlogmases to watch and I happened to find hers throughout the long list of channels. My first impression of Remi was that I loved her personality; she’s a fast talker, lovable woman. I knew I would be back day after day just to see what kind of craziness she’ll get into it!

Remi talks mostly about luxury fashion and beauty products, which is the reason why I said in the first paragraph that you might be a little sad while reading this post! Honestly, I love her hauls and gifted videos the most, because she gets so excited for everything! I’ve noticed that a lot of others that post similar videos, they’re not as thrilled on camera. I especially love it when her doggy Daisy gets in the middle of unboxing and wants to play at that exact moment. Poor girl!

Another thing I love about her is that she is real about her weight loss journey. Apparently that’s why she created her channel in the first place, which I thought was interesting because I figured that would be something that I would be afraid to share online, knowing all of the horrible comments a person can get on just about everything! She likes to talk about food, what she eats on a regular basis and even on her cheat days too! I actually love whenever she takes trips to Whole Foods because she’ll show you what she likes the most and goes for both healthy and junk food! She’s just me and she’ll find something and go “ooh!” for things she hasn’t seen in a while! She makes food shopping so fun!


AlishaMarie | luxury fashion, beauty, podcastor


Remi has a best friend that is featured quite a bit in her vlogs, and that is Alisha! She talks about the same things but her style is way different!

Alisha lives with her sister Ashlee, who also owns a YouTube channel! She has a puppy named Chloe, and her personality is similar to Remi’s but less bubbly. I honestly don’t watch her as much but whenever I do, I actually like to binge watch a few in one day! I love watching her makeup tutorials, I’ve been craving these videos lately and not only do I wear makeup, I don’t even own anything either. I just love watching the different ways to put it on I guess!

I left this last part to the end because it goes with both girls, they are pocastors of their own channel called Pretty Basic where they talk about everything in their lives like past relationships, insecurities, hottest trends, it’s a mixed bag and whenever my Spotify does work, it is fun to listen to their sometimes wild stories.


Inthefrow | luxury fashion & beauty


When I first found Victoria, I only knew about her blog (and her beautiful lilac hair!) but I didn’t really like her until I saw that she had a YouTube channel and I started to really get interested into her tastes! For a while, she was my only luxury blogger/vlogger, and while I was scrolling to see who follows and my original list of three turned into like eight or nine in a very short time span!

I think the main reason why I love watching her videos is that she has a gentle voice, her British accent is a little thick but I have been learning a lot about some of their terms over the years, so I’m becoming a bit of a pro now! She is into a lot of luxury items, and gets invited to a lot of events and sometimes they lead her away from London to various countries, like Paris, New York City and Tokyo. One of my favorite things is that she tries to take us along with a vlog or two of her adventures! It does nothing for my wanderlust but I am getting through it pretty well I think.

Unfortunately, I haven’t really kept up with her stuff and it sucks because she was one of the first few vloggers I started watching when I discovered the mother load of other blogs and YouTube channels in 2014. Maybe after this post is up I will get back into watching hers again? Has she gotten married yet? I would love to read that blog post or watch the vlog if it’s published already.

So, we are done with this list, but I do have like two more luxury vloggers that I tend to watch every once in a while, but I am going to keep them back for my next theme so you will have to wait for that! do you have any guesses as to the others are?

do you enjoy watching YouTubers that talk about luxury things like fashion, cars, and/or trips? Who do you love that you think I would like too?