NaNoWriMo | Am I Finished Or Not?

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Howdy!

So we’re done with November and the question that is burning on everybody’s mind is, am I finished with my novel or not? Well, I’ll just say this, I never really expected to be finished with my first draft in 30 days. I don’t think anybody should expect these results, especially in the first year you participate.

So how did it go?

After the first week was over, I counted up both sections and I went passed the 10,000 mark! I was very proud of myself, but the third week was a bit rough for me, because I went through my lady days and I was really uncomfortable so I basically took time off and waited until after Thanksgiving was over to get back into everything. I felt incredibly guilty because I had done such a good job of not giving into my demons and for a while I was able to keep them at bay.

After the week was done, I did not finish the rest of the month. It was mostly because of the fact I still wasn’t feeling good, but I wasn’t as motivated to work on it as I had in the beginning of the month. However, I do want to tell you the exact word count of my unfinished product so far, which is 14,207 words!

What’s next for me?

The more I thought about it, I started to feel more confident in what I had done, I know I’m not a failure. I was actually happy that I decided to do it, or else it would have stayed locked up inside my mind, which majority of it is still there, but I mean at least I have a better idea of what I want done and know what to do work on, because I know I need to read up on my fight/training scenes and how to do better dialogue.

I do know that I want to finish my outline. I was never able to finish that and I think that’ll really help me with figuring out where to add my antagonist’s point of view in there. I need to find out if the big cataclysm in my story is big enough to motivate all of my characters into the world that they’re living in, because I feel I haven’t really explained that very well in what I’ve written so far. I’d also like to do more interviews to get a better understanding of my main character and his condition. So anybody that has adult ADHD, paralyzed, has a prosthetic and/or visually impaired or if you are a parent that has a child with it, will you be up for an interview?

I need to look into more information about underground bunkers, luckily for me I’ve watched several specials lately and I could use them as references. I need to do some more research on different locations either inside Washington D.C. or outside of the state of Delaware as a good placement for the setting of my story. I also need to figure out my weapons. I have a whole book about them, but I haven’t exactly read it yet, so I’m hoping in the new year I will actually look into that and so what I can come up there. I have one other idea to look into if the book doesn’t really help me.

Should you join NaNoWriMo next year? 

I think if you are a writer and have a clever idea for a book, I think you should definitely look into NaNo for 2018.

If you do decide to try it, please don’t do what I did and cram everything in one week before you actually start writing! For one thing, you will feel scattered brain because you have trained to focus on little scenes and now you have to add more details into your actual writings.

The word count of 1,667 is intimidating as hell, but if you decide early on that whatever amount of words you write that day will work out better than forcing yourself to ramble on! I always felt proud if I got passed triple digits and two pages each day, to me that was enough! Do NOT push yourself! If you don’t feel like writing that day, then you need to take a break. Read a book or watch your favorite TV show or movie. Do anything else beside writing to help you relax your brain and maybe the next day you can jump back into it.

I hope you have enjoyed these follow up posts and if I continue on my journey of writing my book, I will keep you updated I promise!

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November Playlist

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Well, if you’re an American, you’re probably in the process of still celebrating Thanksgiving and eating the leftovers of last week’s feast or taking advantage of the Black Friday deals online today. If you have a little bit of free time on your hands, I thought you could check out my November Playlist too!

This might actually be a little souped up from the previous months as I’m adding what I listened to while doing NaNoWriMo as well! Right now though, it’s all about the individual songs and the artists that I couldn’t get enough of in November.

Happy Song by Bring Me The Horizon
Express Yourself by Madonna
Bad Girlfriend by Theory Of A Deadman
Judas by Banks
Faith by George Michael
Dusk Til Dawn by ZAYN and Sia
I Like Me Better by LAUV
Better by Meghan Trainor feat. Yo Gotti
Mi Gente by J. Balvin
Meant To Be by Bebe Rexha feat. Florida Georgia Line 

Now we get on what I was listening to while working on NaNo all month long!

I find I do better with instrumentals. Over the years, I’ve noticed that if I’m not careful I can literally write out a song word-for-word on whatever I’m writing at that moment. As funny as that sounds, it can get pretty annoying too! I have two “fantasy” playlists on my Spotify profile, but I think I’m going to need a playlist devoted to piano instrumentals because I’ve consumed a bit throughout this month.

I found Luca D’Alberto and I was in the middle of a bittersweet moment between my MC and his grandmother and I felt as though I was in trance from the music because after I had finished with that chapter, I had over 1,000+ words and I had listened to seven songs in one sitting! The other sessions I listened to Nil Ciuro and Sophie Hutchings. However, for my other scenes that require fast, upbeat songs that get me in the zone, I had to find some more bass-y music, so I like to find trap music or gaming music. I’ve used the Call Of Duty, The Evil Within 2, and For Honor soundtracks. All can be found on Spotify in the browse section!

Now with that being done, I can finally give you the full playlist on Spotify, so you can really listen to what I’ve been loving this past November. Enjoy!

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Another Baby In The Family?!

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Howdy!

So I have some news…

Blondie and Brandon are pregnant! As I announced on Twitter back in October, I’m going to be an aunt to a non-fur baby! The reason why I said it like that was because the way Blondie posted it on her social media accounts was a picture of Otis, Toni, Gru, Samuel and Chipper’s front paws and the last one were the two strong lines on the pregnancy tests!

The day she did it of course was kind of weird. She texted me because she couldn’t reach mom, as she was doing laundry at the time I think, so she was distracted and for once I actually could read her message (my phone has been a bitch lately!) to have mom call her and it was so strange I kind of felt in my gut that she was calling to tell us she was pregnant. I’m not joking or saying this for the blog either! I get these strong gut feelings sometimes.  When mom finally did call her and they talked for a couple of minutes, and she came into my room to put her on speaker and I instantly knew that I was right. However, I think I was so in shock that I was correct that I didn’t necessarily know how to react or what to say to her. I actually started laughing because it was the only thing I could do.

We were told not to say anything, but um… mom made the mistake of telling our dad while he was over at our neighbors and he just automatically told all of them that he was going to be a grandpa! So any notion of keeping it between family members on both sides was kind of out of the question at that point!

It’s been a whole month but the reason why I waited was because I wasn’t exactly comfortable in coming out and stating that she was pregnant on here just yet. The only reason why I can say it now is because on the first day I wrote this post which was Nov. 8th, she went to get her blood worked on and got some tests done and they were the ones that told her that she was “very” pregnant. I know, that when a doctor says that she’s just making sure that she was right and that she is with child, but as soon as her that, I thought to myself, it almost sounds like she”s having twins. In my defense, everytime Blondie has kids in my dreams she always has two: a boy and a girl. Same goes with our cousin Kristi, I’ve always seen a boy with her, so maybe I will be right again!

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She went to her first baby appointment and the little “nugget” is doing good! Blondie was wrong at how many weeks she was, she was seven weeks at the doctor so she is nine weeks when this post goes up! Our mom figured she’d have it in early June around papaw’s birthday, which would be really sweet since she was so close to him, but now it’s been changed to July 4th, but like I keep telling myself, he/she can make an appearance on June 30th too, which is Arthrogryposis Awareness Day! I’m gonna buy a newborn onesie in blue just in case! Anyways, in this last picture I’m including above everybody thinks he/she looks like an alligator or a shark, but Blondie and I don’t see it. I think it looks like a bite size nugget if I’m being honest!

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REVIEW | Lair

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It’s been a while since I’ve actually reviewed anything besides albums or EPs, but today is different. As the rest of the US will be celebrating Thanksgiving (or Friendsgiving!) I thought I should probably have an easy going post for today. I actually had this figured out but I just needed a day to get it up and I thought this would be the perfect opportunity to do it!

WARNING: Spoilers ahead! Beware!

Liar is a series that premiered in the United Kingdom first, as it is set there in the first place. Here in the United States, we ended up getting the first episode two or three weeks after they did, because it came on before the start of October. I actually never saw the promos for it, all I kept seeing was everybody on Twitter talking about it and I just figured that I’d never be able to watch it, because I follow a lot more UKers than Americans on my social media accounts. And then one day I was searching on my guide and found it on the Sundance Channel and I became a happy camper after that!

The story is about a woman, by the name of Laura Nielsen, played by Joanne Froggatt, she is newly single and a teacher at a school somewhere in England. Laura meets one of her students’ dad, Andrew Earlham, played by Ioan Gruffold. He is a doctor that works at the same hospital as her sister Katy. Laura and Andrew go out on a date and when they get back to her flat or apartment things apparently go array.  She wakes up, feeling strange, after she thinks that Andrew has raped her. The show is about what Laura and Andrew do in their lives while the allegations linger over them.

There were a lot of things that I really enjoyed about this show.

I loved not really knowing if Laura is telling the truth in the beginning, they don’t really show you how that night really unfolds until episode four, they mostly show you flashbacks of how the date went and then they show you how he was able to do it and get away with it. Andrew drugged her with GHB, which is a clear liquid that can be poured into someone’s drink undetected and they can feel really drowsy as it takes effect on the body.

Laura is such a strong character in the show. She tries her best to do everything in her power to make sure he does not do this to another woman. However, a man of her past reappears and wants to make sure that her case doesn’t go through. When lawyers hear of this man’s testimony, the case against Andrew doesn’t go to trail. And then the female detective Harmon, goes to Andrew’s house to personally tell him that piece of news and Andrew boldly tries to ask her out, but that’s when red lights flash in her mind (they did in mine too!) and she declines his offer but not without giving him a warning. The next day, she goes home and she’s in the early stages of pregnancy and apparently a lesbian, she has a different juice drink for everyday of the week and she falls asleep. She goes to the bathroom after getting up and she goes to stand up and she notices there’s quite a bit of blood below. So she suspects something happened right away.

This isn’t the only thing that is going on with story line. Laura’s sister Katy is having or had an affair with Laura’s now ex-boyfriend Tom. They both are interested in helping Laura capture Andrew doing something wrong, but then this secret comes out and it’s really sad for both Laura and Katy, as they seemed to be there for each other and after that, the trust isn’t there and to top it all off, Katy’s husband Liam basically kicks her out of their family home with him and their children. So it’s sad all around.

I think the first, fourth and sixth episodes were my favorites. We start to see the things coming together after the fourth episode, things make more sense and then Laura gets Andrew’s phone. She goes over to the old lady’s house and is inside that shed looking inside that gym bag, that whole scene was so uneasy for me because Mia was on the phone trying to call Andrew and I kept imagining him driving over there to come get her, but he never shows up. Laura turns in the case of SD cards of the recordings of the rapes, and the baggy of GHB bottles to the police.

And then the biggest bomb drops, as the end of the last episode shows Andrew Earlham in the middle of the marshes with what looks like a slash around his throat. So the question is who the hell killed him?!?! My money is on his kid honestly! I think the pressure was too much for him. I feel a child can deny an allegation one time, so when the detective pressed charges, I think that was his breaking point. The last scene we have of Luke’s life three months later and you see the screen of what kids that he went to school with were saying about the two of them kind of gives you an insight into the pain that Luke has been feeling lately; plus he looked like pure shit too.

I honestly can’t wait for season two now!

What did you think of Liar? And who do you think honestly killed Andrew at the end?

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Catherine Vs. Jane: The Devoted Wives

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I love how I feel like I’m done with these versus posts until I think of another batch of people to compare their stories to a newer audience. This is one of two others I want to write sometime before the end of the year.  And after this post, we actually work our way out of talking about the Tudors! So if you’re annoyed over the fact that’s been my topic of choice, hopefully you’ll like those! Until then, we are going to discuss about Katherine of Aragon and Jane Seymour, King Henry VIII’s first and third wives and queens of England respectively.

I know a lot of people are freaking out that I put “Catherine” in the banner, but yet I’m still spelling it with a “K” in this post. Since Henry married three women with the same name, some people recognize her name with a “C” but since I was introduced to her as “Katherine” it’s just what I go for first, so there’s your answer to the mystery. I’m sorry if all I’ve done is confused you.

There’s a lot of speculation whether or not you can fall in love with your arranged spouse. You can find it throughout history of children being married off for different reasons, one being money. If you came from a wealthy family, there were times that the fathers or in some cases mothers would arrange a marriage with one of their daughters to be married off into another family, because they needed the dowry. This goes with Katherine of Aragon, as she was a Spanish princess, she was given to Arthur Tudor, Prince of Wales. They married but instead of her returning back to Spain when he died, she stayed because Henry VII needed her dowry, so after the death of the king, she married Henry, who was now the next in line to the throne.

We’ve heard stories of Henry’s hatred for Katherine once he fell in love with Anne, but I think they actually loved each other. I mean, he would have had to love her to make her regent when he went to France in 1512 to fight in the war. A year after they had married, the wedded bliss would start to fade as they lost their first child – a daughter in 1509. Soon afterwards she became pregnant again, this time giving birth to a baby boy that they named Henry, Duke of Cornwall, but unfortunately, the little prince would die just fifty two days after his birth. I can’t imagine losing a child, especially if one was a needed heir for the Tudor dynasty and help to save the marriage to these two people.

Let’s fast forward to when Henry married Jane Seymour.

After the the marriage and beheading to Anne Boleyn was done, Henry quickly married Jane. She was a maid of honour for both Katherine and Anne. Jane’s father was Sir John Seymour and he was a courtier to Henry VIII and majority of his children also became courtiers besides Jane. One of the differences between Henry’s previous wives, was the fact that she wasn’t as educated as they were, but she was good at needlework and keeping a household, which at the time was more of a custom to women.

The other thing that made her different from both Katherine and Anne was her promise to Henry, she actually gave him a son. Their only child together would be Edward VI. After he was born, she was really sick with some type of infection and after reading about how people took care of themselves back then, I’m surprised this didn’t happen more often! After her son’s christening, she died and left Henry a broken man despite she did what nobody else could have give him.

Henry is buried next to Jane at Westminster Abbey. I do think that before his death, she was his only love despite being married to five other women and slept around with some of the ladies in waiting that probably took care of Jane as she was labor with their child and watched her die.  Whether it was only because she was the one to give him a son or the fact that he truly loved her, we’ll never know but I find this decision very interesting. I think once Jane died, I think he was fine without marrying anyone again as there is a pretty big gap between Jane and Anne of Cleves, there’s five years in between these two women. If he wasn’t so paranoid about having a spare like he was after the death of his older brother Prince Arthur, then I think he would never had continued to search for a new wife.

I think every woman that Henry came into contact with, while or after he was married, wanted to please him. Honestly, if you’re in a room with a very high up person like an official or royal, you’ll try your best not to step on their toes. I think all of his wives wanted to be there for him in some way. However, I often wonder, like probably everybody that is obsessed with this time period, is if Jane had lived would Henry still have the same feelings for her as he did after she gave birth to Edward?

Do you believe that King Henry VIII ever loved any of his wives?

If Henry, Duke of Cornwall or any of their other male children had lived, do you think Henry would have asked for a divorce from Katherine? And if Jane had lived, do you think Henry would have loved her just as much?

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New Do!!

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When I was younger I had REALLY long hair, like I used to scoot on the floor and whenever I’d back up and I would pull on my own hair! At the time, I loved it and so did everybody else. I might be going out on a limb here and saying I only kept it was because of the compliments I’d get from the people I was around, whether it was teachers or family members, everybody was in love with my hair! And apparently I liked the attention…

In 2002, we were told that I was going to have my back surgeries to correct my scoliosis, but first I would need to have a metal halo put on me. They would screw this metallic half circular thing onto my head and eventually they’d take it off during the last hours of the third. The day we got it cut off was a spur of the moment kind of thing. We were shopping somewhere and we talked them into just braiding it one last time before doing it at a certain point. We actually cut it pretty short, I think I came home with a bob, that’s how short we got it.

I was crying the whole time!

I absolutely hated my hair that short! Honestly, I’ve never liked my hair short. I think I just kept trimming it that way because it was the easy way to take care of it. You don’t have to wash it as many times as with having long hair, despite the fact you can’t have a long braid down your back, everything about it is better.

So why the hell did I decide to grow it out again?

I don’t know, I really don’t. Maybe a part of me missed it. I mean, let’s be honest I was like the brunette Rapunzel here!

When I went to the Five Finger Death Punch concert with my friend Brittany in May 2016, I loved my hair at that length. I looked like myself and most important I thought I looked beautiful. I didn’t look like a boy, nor did I feel like it was too much to have hang down. I figured it was my comfort zone since I’m not a big fan of  spike-y hair on me. I know, shocker! I’ve had my hair spiked too many times during my teenage years that once I turned 21, I no longer wanted it like that anymore.

When Blondie and Brandon picked a date for their wedding, I told everybody that I’d get my hair cut in August. I wanted to give myself one last braid before I went and cut it all off again. One thing I didn’t count on was since I’ve been out of school, I’m not really around a lot of people and I honestly don’t post a lot of pictures of myself online anymore so when everybody saw the length of my hair, friends, family and everybody else was an awe of how long it was and it did make me feel good, but when you are in so much pain in your neck because of the weight your hair was giving off, you know it all needs to come down soon!

Since I went to the nursing home while mom was busy recovering at the hospital, she asked if I wanted to have the salon lady Debi cut it for me. Truth be told, I was actually going to suggest the same thing but figured I’d be told no. So, two days after being there, I woke up that Thursday morning a bit giddy as I knew I was going to get it done one way or another. I already had a plan of how much I was removing but I don’t think Debi or my nana were expecting so much, and since she was a bit hesitant beforehand I started to second guess myself a bit but we ultimately agreed on the same length and if I wanted it shorter then we can go shorter.

We went to the edge of my neck. So it isn’t necessarily a bob or shoulder length either. However, since my neck does drip over into the right side it is longer than the other but that can’t be fixed by her. That’s just my anatomy! She did cut my bangs, but I think I probably should have left them alone or just trimmed them so far and then stopped. One thing that I didn’t think through was that I got it done before lunch so I didn’t know of the troubles I was to have while eating my meal an hour afterwards. The way I eat is that I bend over and reach with my tongue and month and everytime I tried to take a bite my whole left side of my hair kept going into my plate. It’s not fun to eat your own hair. We ended up having one of the CNAs put half of my hair up to hopefully make eating better for me! It worked, but now that I’m home I use a headband.

One funny thing I wanted to share before I end this post was the fact that my dad was the last one to know I got my hair cut. Since mom and nana knew about it from the beginning and Debi had tagged a picture of it with nana in the background to my mom on Facebook so she saw it while at the hospital. Blondie and Brandon only knew about it because I went to stay with them the following weekend. So dad was literally the last to know about it and his reaction was priceless! He was actually speechless, later he did find the words to say that he liked it. So far he hasn’t said anything about the bangs but they’ll grow out!

Here is a before and after into seeing how much hair I actually got rid of last month! There are a few people I’ve talked to, that have said I can still get my hair braided, it just might be only french braid or dutch braid maybe. Right now I’m going to relish in not having it up in a ponytail all the time for the time being!

Have you ever cut your hair so short that you actually regretted it? What is your comfortable length? Short, medium, or long?

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NaNoWriMo | 2 Week Mark

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Today marks two weeks after I started on NaNoWriMo or NaNo as I keep calling it! I wanted to write this post as a way to give others who are considering on doing it next year. I figured by the time I was going to write it, I’d be saying “let them figure it out for themselves” but luckily for you I’m not that mean! I made a second commitment to do this post for you and that’s what I’m doing today.

I watched a couple of a NaNo related videos on YouTube throughout the first full week and I watched one by Felicity of GoWithFlick – she is also doing NaNo and even though she’s never really heard of it, but she’s decided to give it a go this past month.  In the video where she announces that she’s participating in it, she says something that really hit home for me. She read a quote for an author that described her sentences to author John Green’s “perfect” sentences and how much we wish our sentences looked liked his and we sort of feel really down about it when our stuff doesn’t look like it should basically, at least this is how I took what she was saying in this section, it made perfect sense though.

During the first day, I was pretty proud of myself on how much I went on to describe about my main character and what had been going on with him for most of his childhood, because that’s one of my issues is that I’m not good at describing things that I’m seeing in my head as I go along. Another thing is dialogue. In almost every story I’ve ever written in a notebook or on here, I’ve tried to leave it out. I’ve been somewhat content with what I’ve done so far. I’m describing what the characters are seeing; my MC has ADHD and so I’ve been told that people with this have a hard time focusing, can be easily distracted and notice almost everything around them. He’s also pretty vocal though, so this has been an interesting experience so far! I will I might’ve picked the perfect condition to test this out or I will either hate myself once the month is over.

I am in the middle of writing the sections between ACT I and ACT II right now, and I haven’t exactly started on my antagonist’s story. I do think I should add it in somewhere, because he was the real reason why I never finished my outline in the first place! I’ve been told from other people to not edit anything while working on NaNo, but right now it’s all about the main character’s story, which isn’t bad because so far his story is easy to write and I know where I want it go, but I still feel like my bad guy needs to be in there, as he has a big role in the telling of the story too. Has anybody have any tips for me do to? In a random chapter, should I just add a section about him and see how it goes with the plot itself?

Okay, now it’s time for some of my own tips that have worked for me!

One of the things I had decided about two days before I started writing my novel was I wanted to figure out a system of what part of the day I should write. I thought about what times would be good to reserve for writing and I kind of quickly realized that as long as I was fed and went to the bathroom before 1pm then I could start there and if I wasn’t able to do it at that time, I figured I needed a back up time so I picked 4pm for a later session.

The first day I put the time start into effect, I actually wrote for about two and a half hours and I was so shocked! It was after the weekend that everything kind of went to hell. I don’t usually write anything on Saturday and Sunday, and even though I did write quite a bit I am glad that I didn’t force myself to do anything on Sunday, as my sister and brother-in-law came down that afternoon. I’ve seen a lot of people say that the weekends are perfect to “double up” your word count, but self-care is important too whenever you’re doing something like this that requires a lot out of you everyday. So as I’m not entirely okay with breaking my rules for this, and if I don’t feel like writing that day, then I need to step back and wait until I am ready to write again.

So okay, the last thing I wanted to share on here was my daily word count.

In my first post, I told you that to be able to hit the 50,000 word goal at the end of November, that you needed to get to 1,667 words daily. A lot of aspiring writers actually make goals of how many words they wish to hit everyday for NaNo, but I knew early on that  I wouldn’t be able to do that so I just took whatever amount I did was good. I mean, at least this way I didn’t put so much pressure on myself and I was still feeling good what I had written so far too.

I even decided to stop writing the very beginning of my story. I got through two chapters, before I realized that I wasn’t exactly ready to explore the next section so I actually moved on to a distant chapter that I knew I was ready to work on and I’m really glad I did that because I was discouraged before this and I knew if I had continued, I would have stopped working on it entirely. So unfortunately, my word count as a whole is a bit different since I had two different sections now. I didn’t add today’s word count as I schedule my posts so early in the mornings, so I will include it in my final post at the end of the month!

Day 1: 2,615
Day 2: 1,285
Day 3: 143
Day 4: 1,525
Day 5: 0
Day 6: 346
Day 7: 933
Day 8: 483
Day 9: 1,431
Day 10: 1,344
Day 11: 1.056
Day 12: 0
Day 13: 956
Day 14: 0
Day 15: 545

If you’re on Twitter, I’ve been trying to post my word counts and I’ve been doing pretty good at not feeling too horrible whenever I look at the progress everybody has been making on theirs, but I feel pretty happy for everyone who has been working on their novels too. This is all I have to say about the last two weeks of doing NaNoWriMo, I hope you all have enjoyed this!

If you’re doing NaNo this year, how are you doing so far? What kind of tips do you give others who are thinking about doing it too? 
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