What’s The Best Version Of Yourself?

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I was watching one of my favorite YouTubers Hannah Gale the other day! I had just started her new vlog of that week and I had heard her say something that sort of inspired me to kick my depression bug to the curb. She was in her car and if I remember correctly she was describing her morning and mentioned that she wasn’t the best version of yourself and somehow those four words started to echo within me. So I decided to go with my gut and write about it!

What’s the best version of yourself? It’s not an easy question is it? And if it is, you’re not looking hard enough into yourself to find who you are!

I found it hilarious that on the day I watched this video was on the same exact week I saw a “self-love” thingy on Pinterest and almost deleted my account! When you’re depressed you don’t want to hear other people motivations to get out of a slump, to you, it feels good to lounge around and be miserable all day long. At least I tend to feel like that on a suck-y week, but it doesn’t answer the question does it?

What is the best version of myself?

Well, I am usually the positive one. I am good at distractions, if there is sadness in a room I try my best to get everybody back into a good mood. I’ve grown into this role; in ways it was better to put myself there than regret ever asking to be there in the first place.

I like to talk – although at times my mouth tends to move faster than my brain and everything just jumbles together and I mess up, sometimes I even forget what I was saying! You all should be happy I only blog for the time being because I am even afraid to hear myself do that on YouTube!

I love challenges! I think I have more fun when people provoke me to do something, or think I can’t do it and they end up being wrong in the end. I love learning new things and frequently those types of challenges come from myself because I am not around a lot of people and my family has learned over the years that if they do say I can’t do something, I always end winning them over! So now they don’t say anything!

I fight for the children living with known and not discovered physical conditions. I don’t see to fix the world for my own benefits. It’s the ones that are learning about the world after they’ve heard from doctors, teachers, fellow family members and schoolmates tell them they’re not going to be able to have a decent life! They can and you’re seen it from me and the other disabled people that refuse to let the stereotype of what a handicapped person looks and acts like define them!

I am all ethnics! Well, maybe not all, but I know I am damn near close! I am Dutch, Irish, and German on my material side. We’re still unsure about my paternal side, but it’ll be a lot of interesting nations in this world. We claim a different “Miss Universe” every year when everyone is a part of the same universe in their DNA! And yet, we have wars in different countries and refugees are being banned from ever seeing freedom!

I am a kid at heart! I never grew out of Disney and I hope I never do! As much as I don’t believe love at first sight, it doesn’t mean that I don’t fall in love with the old fashion Disney princesses seeing their future love on the first day they meet! I still watch Scooby-Doo, Where Are You? I definitely believe Daphne and Fred were dating throughout the time of the show and Shaggy was high on either LSD or pot considering he had the munchies and his dog talked–maybe the entire gang did drugs! Anyways, I still watch certain shows that I shouldn’t, but then again you should have seen the other shows I watched as a teenager after hooking up cable to my TV!

I love to hate art. However, it’s not art that I really hate, I honestly like it. I hate drawing but most recently I enjoy painting! I really prefer oil paintings rather than watercolors. I want something solid that’s going to stay on the paper (good or bad) and not going to look like it could fade away after a few decades! I’ve started to seek other forms of art now as I get older and thanks to blogging too; photography has been an interesting medium to get into in the last four years!

I am a history buff. I am really bad! It started with finding that Egyptian book while in second grade! My mind has been fuzzy, but I think on the cover were the pyramids at Giza. It wasn’t until a few years later that I was told about what Ramsay did to the Hebrews. Now historians say that the people that built the monuments and pyramids were kept well and had to! You do what you want with that piece of information, but I’ll believe what I want.

So what is the best version of myself in the things I’ve just talked about? Thankfully, I think every part of them is the best. They keep me exciting and different from the average person!

I know I tend to list myself as a “disabled person” but I really am so much more! I am fairly open about everything about myself, but I do feel weird at times and feel like I should have people laughing and snaring at me, but I don’t and it makes me feel insecure that I am like everybody else, which is something that I’ve been striving to be since I was a child.  Maybe I’ll finally embrace these characteristics and truly love myself for it.

Now it’s your turn, what is the best version of yourself?

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March Playlist

Howdy!

I’m back with another monthly playlist! I remember this time last year, after my papaw’s passing I had to cancel a few blog posts that would have went up in those last two weeks. However, I did keep my “March” playlist because I didn’t want to break my cycle. It was bad enough that once I stopped doing the rest of Meggan’s March #PADChallenge on Twitter I didn’t go back into it until December! Luckily, she continued to do them for 2017 because they’re a lot of fun for my nana and I to do!

The month of March is always an interesting though. I always consider it a “green” month even without incorporating St. Patrick’s Day into it. Everytime I hear of the word “spring” I instantly go for the color green. So that’s why I always use different shades in the banners!

I also have a “problem” of listening to Celtic Woman a lot too! Last year I listened to the group because the nice, easy-going music helped with my mind and ease the sad emotions. I still use it to help calm myself but I do listen for pleasure too! That’s why I’ve decided to pick their song “Téir Abhaile Riú” (Go Home With You) because I had found their concert Emerald on PBS during the first week and this was probably my favorite (which was a REALLY hard decision!) throughout the concert. The girls make it very fun and I really love the playful atmosphere they create while singing the song! The beginning of Lisa and Chloe go into the crowd, sitting on different guests’ lap! Lisa dancing with that little girl actually makes me cry!

Another genre of music that was sort of big during this month, that if my papaw was alive right now, would totally tell me off! I have a semi love/hate relationship with rap music. So on days (or in some cases nights) I feel like listening to it I go all in and this past month was no different! Except a lot of Lil Wayne in this sucker!

What were you listening to in March? Do you like Celtic Woman? If so, what is your favorite song?

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DIY: Easter Wreath!

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The first couple of weeks of March were pretty interesting! My nana and I decided to get a head start on our DIY projects! We hardly ever do anything for Easter, which I’ve always thought was interesting because people normally do the eggs, but why is that the only thing they do for Easter?

Technically, she didn’t say anything about doing any big Easter crafts! The only thing she wanted to do was a holiday tree, which I’ll explain in another post soon! We worked on this project throughout the beginning of March. We have NEVER done a wreath before! This wreath was our trail and error. My nana wants one for herself and we’re waiting to do this one with my Aunt Laurie maybe! So this is actually for my mom at her workplace! Thankfully she didn’t mind if the whole thing looked rustic!

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What you will need for this:

  • Sheet of Cardboard
  • Ruler
  • Cake Tin
  • Xacto Knife or Scissors
  • Plastic Eggs
  • Fake Grass
  • Glue

Like I said above, this was our trail and error wreath, so I’m going to tell you a better way of doing it than how we did it. We realized a couple of times halfway that we should have done a certain part first. I am also including the original link I found on Pinterest of the craft, in case you wanted a better source!

Okay, so the first thing we did was take a 9″ cake tin on top of a fairly medium sheet of cardboard that my nana surprisingly still had after all these months! I used the cake tin as a guide and it’s better to get the middle one traced and cut as well! This was one of our first mistakes! Mostly because we were rushing and decided to get the first row of eggs on the actual circle before I had to leave for the day! Anyways, what we used was a 6″ snow globe (I’m a resourceful person – use what you got!) to trace around and then nana cut out the middle hole with a xacto knife! The first one she just used scissors!

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As you will see in the next batch of pictures, we did have to move our circle further into the middle after we glued the first row of eggs to the edge, but in general it was already like that even without having the eggs on there!

On the original directions, the person uses a hot glue gun, well we decided to go with regular glue which was a semi bad and good idea, only because we’ve had to reglue like five or six eggs and luckily it’s mostly the same eggs that have been loose on us! This is where we tried to do what the original link tells you do next and place the eggs close to the edge because you need room to put the second batch of eggs! However, since the cake tins weren’t that big we couldn’t glue the eggs how they were supposed to, so nana thought we put them on their sides like they’re forming a train! And that’s how we figured out that problem!

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We actually did all of this in three days, so they had multiple days to dry and were left alone unless a couple were loose and then nana put extra glue underneath them!

When we finally got to adding the fake grass throughout the empty spaces. I was really worried we weren’t going to be able to put much on or shall I say, I didn’t think I’d be able to put my big freaking toes in some of these teeny areas! Somehow I was wrong again but I did have nana do most because towards the end as I was getting more and more frustrated! Fake grass likes to stick to you when you’re sitting directly underneath a vent! Anyways, we finally found a way to stuff a small ball of it into the crevices and use a pen or colored pencil to shove it into the areas it all worked out pretty good after that!

Once we got as much “green” grass we could get on it, my mom put in a request to add more into the areas I couldn’t get into. So we had some yellow grass here and there to make her happy! Next time we’re going to actually glue on the glass first before even do the eggs to see if that is better! We never got to doing the back, so she would be able to hang it up somewhere. She says it is now on top of her work’s activity center’s door!

After a couple of days, my mom actually had a co-worker asking if we could make her one for her door as “it was bare” so essentially my nana and I got our very first order! We are still getting the last of the details done with it, but yeah! It seemed like a cool way to end out this post!

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The next DIY project we’re doing is actually for me! There are some similarities between the two, but you’ll have to wait to find out! If you’re following my blog’s Facebook page I will share sneak peeks so keep an eye out there too!

Hope you all have enjoyed this post!

Are you doing any Easter crafts this year? 

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Getting A New Camera!

Hello!

So recently I’ve had to get myself a new camera because my pink one decide to stop working on me one morning. It had been acting a bit strange for a while; whenever I would go to turn it on it would just stay black, it wasn’t until I would basically bang it on the ground (I don’t really recommend doing that) for it to actually start working again! I’d say after two months, it finally crapped out on me.

I can’t say I was really mad about it though. It was originally my sister’s camera from around 2008, so technically it’s pretty old! She and I got cameras roughly around the same time and I just so happened to break mine within 5 months after getting it as a birthday present.

I was trying to get a picture with a couple of school friends after the graduation ceremony was over and as it was being placed to another person to snap the picture for us, it just fell out of their hands and onto the sidewalk. It just shattered into a million pieces. It was my first camera and I was shocked and more upset that it broke then I was never getting a picture with the school friend! My parents sort of never trusted me with a camera ever again. Now you know the reason why whenever I go places and I say, “my mom took this” because she doesn’t want me to drop it and we have to replace it. However, as much as I understand her belief and as a reminder I’m not the one who dropped the other one and I don’t believe it was even on purpose either!

Blondie used her camera off and on throughout her years in school. Before she left to go to college though, she gave it to me and I didn’t use it much in 2015 mostly because I didn’t think I would be able to do anything with it because of my feet! After Facebook and Twitter changed their settings for mobile phones, my little camera on my flip phone wasn’t able to send pictures anymore. So I had to get out Blondie’s camera and try it out, somehow it worked out really well and became one of my favorite accessories!

It’s been a good little camera for me and was very much a learning experience on how much I can control as far as holding a camera in between my feet. I’m just really glad my feet are learning the definition of “teamwork” after successfully holding a camera for almost 2 years!

The day it stopped working, I was going to my nana’s so I brought along the SD card of the last roll of photos of our cats that I took in mid-February. She uploaded them for me and I began my hunt for my next camera! I didn’t want to buy anything really fancy or expensive. For one, that’s not my style and considering I do have a history of dropping cameras from my height in both wheelchairs, I need something that wouldn’t be such a hassle to fix either!

Since my future brother-in-law works in the electronic department at Wal-Mart, I asked him if there any cameras under $60 because that’s all I had in my purse. He replied back with just a brand: Polaroid. The first thing that popped into my head were those cute, vintage-like Polaroid cameras that were like the new trend! Once I went online though, I found the point and shoot cameras and they were pretty cheap and looked like like my previous camera too!

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Now I have a new camera! It’s a Polaroid iE826 in red and silver. Truth be told, I have no idea what anything means on it and I actually wanted this in white and I already found one and shown it to my mom and somehow she managed to get me through the others on the website and we found the red and silver! The reason why I was no against the red one was because my nana also has a red (and black) camera that is pretty much the same size and shape as this one! One day we’re going to leave somewhere and come home with a different camera!

First Impressions:

Well, first off it is wayyy too small! One bad thing that goes with a similar post I wrote about cell phones. The buttons are extremely tiny and very stubborn. The power button is probably the worst! Even my parents have issues with it! I do have problems with holding it, even with the wristband that is on the opposite ankle. They need to make these according to left and right dominant! I think that it would be a lot easier for some of us who prefer using these cameras so you don’t have a random ribbon in your shot. However, I’ve miscalculated where the legs of my tripod are and have a few pictures of one in the middle of my picture afterwards!

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Unfortunately, yes because of the width of the camera, I’ve had to use my little tripod, which if you think about it isn’t necessarily a “bad” thing because I felt like I’ve been neglecting it for the last few months. So the fact I’m using it full time (just to have a better grip of it in between my toes) makes my dad happy since he’s the one who found it for me! I am getting better at putting it on and off the tripod, it is easier to do it while in my wheelchair since I am higher and don’t have to strain my whole upper body when I screw it on!

One last negative is the screen. It tends to be very gritty and timid in different lighting. The flash hardly works and most of the time, the pictures are pretty dark even when it goes off. I’ve had to stop judging it after pressing the recall button because half the time they’re awful looking but then when we upload them they’re actually okay? They’re not as good and clear despite the amount of megapixels it offers!

Other than that though, it’s actually not all that bad! I know it’ll just take time to get used to everything and I’m usually good with change so the fact that I’ve had this many judgments about it is a little weird!

Here are some of my first and favorite snap shoots I took with my new camera!

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OOTD: Bossy!

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I’m back with another outfit of the day! I knew once spring decided to come around that my mom, nana and I would be able to go back to these posts again! I generally love working on them and showing off my style with all of you too!  I know I had mentioned in my previous OOTDs that I was going to start wearing more colorful outfits but you all should know about my love of black by now too! I don’t see the problem of wearing too much at one time!

This shirt is new, it was included into that fairly large shopping spree back in February, it is a regular graphic tee with “Not Bossy, Just Better” written on the front of it. When I saw it on the rack I couldn’t help myself, I had to get it. Something you may not know about me is that I have a strong personality, sometimes people confuse my attitude with being “bossy” but I feel like I am far from that. I just have strong beliefs and don’t like being told certain things, as a disabled woman seeking independence I don’t like when people assume and judge me. I think I can do the things you are able to do, but maybe even better and this is where people get carried away and automatically think I’m stuck up when I’m not. So this is probably my third shirt that I’ve worn that has a true statement about something I truly believe in some way!

This was also around $7 because it has a saying on the front of it. I’m sorry if you have trouble reading it through my hands, that’s the one negative about it, the font is fairly large and my hands take up most of the space on it.

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I feel like I’ve worn these pants in a blog post before, but I’m not for sure so I had my mom and nana take them just in case I was wrong!

These are actually pants, not leggings! I don’t have very many of them in my drawers mostly because they’re a little hard to find and fit through my thigh and butt! I’ve always loved these though because the design of the skulls (not even sorry!) have like a black and white sugar skull theme on them. The material is nice and soft, they’re definitely made of cotton because they’re so thick, considering it’s “spring” it sure as hell didn’t feel like it! I was secretly freezing when that picture was taken up top and these were the only part of my body that was nice and toasty. I’ve learned to smile through the cold and hope to God that the sun can warm me up a little, it didn’t happen but hey, we still accomplished our mission!

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Unfortunately, I purchases these a few years ago so I don’t remember where we got them nor how much they were, but I’m thinking we got them at Wal-Mart too! I rarely find any skull bottoms anywhere besides Hot Topic! It’s a “once in a blue moon” motion whenever I find something at Wal-Mart! Oh, and don’t even bother asking how many skull leggings this is because even I don’t know!

I also wanted to try out an old hairstyle I modeled as a kid, while in grade school I had really long hair and a month or so before I had my back surgeries we were forced to get it cut short because of the metal halo that would be placed around my head. This was over 14 years ago and this is the first time I’ve had my hair just as long as I did back then. After July, I am getting a hair cut–maybe not a pixie but it will be short again at the end of the summer! I’m semi happy but sad too!

So what do you think of this outfit? Yay or nay? Do you have a shirt that reflects your personality to a T? 

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The Bridesmaid Dresses!

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Howdy!

I am discussing everything wedding today! If you follow me on Twitter, you might’ve noticed that on February 26th, I finally got fitted for my maid of honor dress as the rest of the bridesmaids had gone in early January, since some of the girls were still on break. We were supposed to go, but my nana had been having some issues with her health and my mom didn’t want to risk leaving her alone.

It was during this trip that they got to pick the style of dress they wanted to wear, because I think Blondie was going back and forth on what exactly she wanted us to wear for the wedding, she originally didn’t want any kind of lace. She didn’t want it on her dress or ours, even though I believe if you’re going to have a Disney (and Superhero) theme wedding, lace would be a classic go-to addition. Ultimately, the rest of the camp found a dress that they liked–after trying like 8 others–and it has lace on it! So technically I was happy about it and I didn’t even express my opinions on it, because I feared I’d get yelled at, so I kept my mouth shut!

The girls that went are all wearing one shoulder strap dress, that has thick lace material all around the front that gradually goes to the left shoulder and it has a nice bodice with a thin belt just before the bottom flows out; it’s very soft and it has an airy, so you can do a lot of movement! The girls will be wearing it in the color “tickle” which is described as a lighter shade of pink. The color scheme that the couple has went with are pink and silver.

Here are Sam, Jace and Jayde modeling the longer dresses, trying to get fitted into their sizes, on the first day there!

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I’d say the middle (Jace) is almost the gray/silver they’re going for, but all of the dresses will be in that pink, while Brandon, his groomsmen, and my dad–yes, he’s wearing a tux, but with a bandana–are wearing silver tuxes and I think pink ties! Oh, and brown shoes! Yeah, my mom and I are still wondering who’s idea that was because Blondie was there with them as they got fitted for theirs!

Now on that day I finally got fitted for my dress and I will be truthful when I say this, I am pale as a ghost and have awkward shoulders. I have previously explained this several times on here about the fact my shirts always fall off one of my shoulders, no matter how many times we try to fix it, it’ll find a way to slip right off! When my mom looked to see how big that strap was on the shoulder, she was really worried if it would even stay on the shoulder because it is a thick section of material and I have such small shoulders, that we were wondering how would this work on me?

Well, the day we arrived there, it was partially crowded with brides and their families and friends. Dad dropped us off while he and Brandon went to get his tux and pants fitted (he was NOT in a mood to do this at all!) and I sat quietly in my wheelchair fighting the urges to look through the dresses and wondering if I would have to find another dress because the chosen one wasn’t going to stay on my shoulders.

We were taken into a little fitting room, because I did not feel comfortable to be out in the open as she took my measurements. The lady was not exactly liked by my sister, mostly because she had measured her friend Jace wrong the first time they were there, saying she was one size when she wasn’t. We have never measured my body before, even for prom, mostly because both dresses were bought from JC Penney and Dillard’s. This had happened again when she measured only my chest and bust, but not my hips. So she started us with a size 2 and 4.

The size 4 barely went over the top of my head, we never got past my ears, and we tried to go in reverse and put my feet in first but my ass was too big for it, so I clearly wasn’t a 4. We tried a 5 and then 6, an 8, and finally found out that 10 was good, it went over my head and fit perfectly, but I could hardly breathe! So we figured that a size 12 would be better in case I did in fact gain more weight over the cross of the next few months and my mom didn’t think I would be able to eat and dance in it either.

Between my hips, ass, and the damn zipper we were having the worst time trying these dresses on! In a way, my mom and I were happy that I learned to transfer and stand up nice and strong on my own two feet, but my poor pinky wasn’t having to do it multiple times. Blondie was the one actually pulling it up to my chest and attempting to zip it up, as my mom was the one holding up my upper body. By the second or third try, my sister just situated herself behind me where I was literally sitting on her lap! I loved her for that because my feet were ready to give out a couple of times. When we got to the last dress, her poor thumb was red and slightly swollen after trying to pull it up at the back.

This was the end result of that mess!

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Now as you can see how the dress is on my upper body and most importantly my shoulder, you can see our concerns of the material being so much that it actually looks like it could slip off! I refuse to go strapless though, that was my rule from the get go, was no strapless dresses for me! I don’t think it would stay up. It’s not the size of my bosom that I was concerned about it is mostly because since I can’t move my hands to lift it back up, I feel it would be a disaster! So when it comes in, we’re going to have that section altered and tighten on my shoulder and hopefully we won’t have to really worries about it afterwards!

As I’ve said above, the six bridesmaids are wearing long dresses, since I am the maid of honor, I am wearing a “short” dress. However, the more we went up in sizes, the length of the actual dress kept increasing! I wanted a shorter dress because after both of my proms and having a long dresses, I would have be careful in driving my wheelchair because I would run over myself! I cannot tell you how many times I did that during my Junior year. I think when I wore my brown dress for Homecoming, I had my mom tie a hair tie in the back to help keep everything together so I wouldn’t get stopped by my dress! I believe we did this during prom too, but I don’t necessarily remember. We’re hoping the length hasn’t changed drastically to this dress that we’d have to do the same thing, but you never know!

Unfortunately, I don’t know what the brand the dress is originally from and I’ve looked it up and still didn’t find anything about it. The price for the actual dress is $179.95, I think Blondie said she had a discount, so I think they would be a little less than that; also since it was a short dress, that also should make it cheaper, but I think it was still around $100 which is what I told myself I did not want to do was get something so expensive, but it is mine and if I run over and ruin it, I don’t have to give it back to the store like my dad and groom have to! Haha!

What do you do think of the dresses? Yay or nay!

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Dear Papaw

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I decided to write this post earlier because I figured as the day got closer I wouldn’t be able to find the right words and I also used the Butler Bulldogs game against Xavier to help keep me focused on this too! 

Dear Papaw,

Today will be the one year anniversary of your death and I am sitting on the edge of my bed watching Butler going up against Xavier right now. I’ve watched so many basketball games in these past few months that I surprised I don’t know more of what’s going on within the actual game! I don’t exactly know who to throw the blame on because something tells me if you ever tried to teach me any basketball terms, I may not had been a willing participant! So this is my own fault!

I’ve been pretty proud the team though. They’ve kicked Villanova’s ass, who is #1 in the Big East conference (is that right?), twice this season. Once in November and the other this past month. I remember because I watched both, the first game was the one I watched for the very first time since you’ve been gone, which mom and dad seemed to think was cute! However, I cannot wear my actual Butler shirts on the days they play because in the last two games, they’ve lost, so no more of that until the season is over.

I hope you don’t mind, but I’ve turned your cabinet in the kitchen into my little storage area. Nana and I are only using one section, so don’t worry! I read your Smithsonian magazines and we store them in there! Your railroad magazines go into your bookshelves. I’ve also been using your room a bit too! The next time David comes down, nana’s going to get him (or Laurie) to put the typewriter into your room by the vent for my project.

You wouldn’t want to see your room, it’s a mess! However, if you were to compare yours up against mine, I’m pretty sure we’d be even! You can still see the green carpet and walk through without having that much of a difficulty! Other than that, it has a LOT of stuff around, but everything has a reason to be in there. Nana cleaned the “organ” desk and I arranged most of your family’s books  into the bottom area. I have never felt more like Superman than at that moment! You would have grabbed every single book off of my shin and put into that section yourself if you saw how far out I was sitting on my seat!

If you think your bed got a little bit smaller, it sort of did. Emily and Brandon’s “puppy” Chipper peed on it and Emily, Brandon, and mom took the mattress outside and I think mom washed your IU blanket that evening. Everything’s good now, except for the fact you’re missing a mattress!

You would love Chipper! I think you would be kind of scared of him, but don’t worry I have daydreams of the dog running up on me and basically colliding into me on accident and I end up in the ER with a dislocated shoulder or something, because he’s not small like ChiChi. Oh, no! Chipper is a pit bull, like Chancey and I’m betting you’d treat him just like you did with both Casey and Chance! Why did we name all of our animals in a “C” by the way? That’s like a question, you can ask your relatives up there, why is there a lot of “E” and “L” names in the family?

We’re at nine minutes into the game and Xavier is kicking our butts! It’s not by much though, so we could still take this!

I wanted to tell you that I think you’ve been recraninated into a hawk or maybe a buzzard, anything that soars over my head, confuses me now! Anyways, the day you passed when we went to the hospital and drove back home, I saw over 30 hawks in different places; whether they were flying around or sitting in trees or lamp posts, they were around. As most of the family was thinking you had something to do with the weather, which makes sense since you liked to shake the mini snow globe in the kitchen on the days that mom had to go to work the next day, we drove in both sunshine and snow flurries! I went another route, I thought since you always saw a hawk on the way to the hospital and back home when I was about to be born. I thought you had turned into a hawk.

You now have a hawk like across the street, it has a nice, big nest in the tree next to the house with that fenced-in area where those dogs used to live and bark like they didn’t have a care in the world! I saw it one afternoon and I had mom take pictures of it!

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I don’t where you are, you might be up in heaven or you’ve turned into a hawk. Who knows, but you know half of your family is a comedian so you know this was coming one way or another! I can’t do nothing else, but this for you. You’d rather hear about the happy times and how well Butler is playing than anything else anyways! Oh, and the reason why I haven’t discussed any of the IU games is because, I haven’t seen a single game, except for that one but that was on accident. Mom sat on the remote and she found it and that score, if I remember correctly wasn’t pretty by any means! We’re all in agreement that you were a big party in heaven when the IU coach was fired last week!

Kelan Martin just put a three pointer in the last few seconds of the first half! Hopefully, they’ll continue to do good as the second half starts.

Okay, I’m going to end this here. I think I’ve said a lot the what, twenty minutes? You know me well enough, that in of itself is a lot, even for me! I hope you continue to watch over us, but not haunt us! You can visit in our dreams, but don’t scare the crap out of us, like you were known to do here! I don’t know if I can handle another one of those types of dreams again!

I love you lots!

Meg-HAN! Your “cool” granddaughter 😀

Written on February 26, 2017 – Butler won against Xavier (89-77)  and completed on March 19, 2017!