What’s The Best Version Of Yourself?

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Hi 🙂

I was watching one of my favorite YouTubers Hannah Gale the other day! I had just started her new vlog of that week and I had heard her say something that sort of inspired me to kick my depression bug to the curb. She was in her car and if I remember correctly she was describing her morning and mentioned that she wasn’t the best version of yourself and somehow those four words started to echo within me. So I decided to go with my gut and write about it!

What’s the best version of yourself? It’s not an easy question is it? And if it is, you’re not looking hard enough into yourself to find who you are!

I found it hilarious that on the day I watched this video was on the same exact week I saw a “self-love” thingy on Pinterest and almost deleted my account! When you’re depressed you don’t want to hear other people motivations to get out of a slump, to you, it feels good to lounge around and be miserable all day long. At least I tend to feel like that on a suck-y week, but it doesn’t answer the question does it?

What is the best version of myself?

Well, I am usually the positive one. I am good at distractions, if there is sadness in a room I try my best to get everybody back into a good mood. I’ve grown into this role; in ways it was better to put myself there than regret ever asking to be there in the first place.

I like to talk – although at times my mouth tends to move faster than my brain and everything just jumbles together and I mess up, sometimes I even forget what I was saying! You all should be happy I only blog for the time being because I am even afraid to hear myself do that on YouTube!

I love challenges! I think I have more fun when people provoke me to do something, or think I can’t do it and they end up being wrong in the end. I love learning new things and frequently those types of challenges come from myself because I am not around a lot of people and my family has learned over the years that if they do say I can’t do something, I always end winning them over! So now they don’t say anything!

I fight for the children living with known and not discovered physical conditions. I don’t see to fix the world for my own benefits. It’s the ones that are learning about the world after they’ve heard from doctors, teachers, fellow family members and schoolmates tell them they’re not going to be able to have a decent life! They can and you’re seen it from me and the other disabled people that refuse to let the stereotype of what a handicapped person looks and acts like define them!

I am all ethnics! Well, maybe not all, but I know I am damn near close! I am Dutch, Irish, and German on my material side. We’re still unsure about my paternal side, but it’ll be a lot of interesting nations in this world. We claim a different “Miss Universe” every year when everyone is a part of the same universe in their DNA! And yet, we have wars in different countries and refugees are being banned from ever seeing freedom!

I am a kid at heart! I never grew out of Disney and I hope I never do! As much as I don’t believe love at first sight, it doesn’t mean that I don’t fall in love with the old fashion Disney princesses seeing their future love on the first day they meet! I still watch Scooby-Doo, Where Are You? I definitely believe Daphne and Fred were dating throughout the time of the show and Shaggy was high on either LSD or pot considering he had the munchies and his dog talked–maybe the entire gang did drugs! Anyways, I still watch certain shows that I shouldn’t, but then again you should have seen the other shows I watched as a teenager after hooking up cable to my TV!

I love to hate art. However, it’s not art that I really hate, I honestly like it. I hate drawing but most recently I enjoy painting! I really prefer oil paintings rather than watercolors. I want something solid that’s going to stay on the paper (good or bad) and not going to look like it could fade away after a few decades! I’ve started to seek other forms of art now as I get older and thanks to blogging too; photography has been an interesting medium to get into in the last four years!

I am a history buff. I am really bad! It started with finding that Egyptian book while in second grade! My mind has been fuzzy, but I think on the cover were the pyramids at Giza. It wasn’t until a few years later that I was told about what Ramsay did to the Hebrews. Now historians say that the people that built the monuments and pyramids were kept well and had to! You do what you want with that piece of information, but I’ll believe what I want.

So what is the best version of myself in the things I’ve just talked about? Thankfully, I think every part of them is the best. They keep me exciting and different from the average person!

I know I tend to list myself as a “disabled person” but I really am so much more! I am fairly open about everything about myself, but I do feel weird at times and feel like I should have people laughing and snaring at me, but I don’t and it makes me feel insecure that I am like everybody else, which is something that I’ve been striving to be since I was a child.  Maybe I’ll finally embrace these characteristics and truly love myself for it.

Now it’s your turn, what is the best version of yourself?

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March Playlist

Howdy!

I’m back with another monthly playlist! I remember this time last year, after my papaw’s passing I had to cancel a few blog posts that would have went up in those last two weeks. However, I did keep my “March” playlist because I didn’t want to break my cycle. It was bad enough that once I stopped doing the rest of Meggan’s March #PADChallenge on Twitter I didn’t go back into it until December! Luckily, she continued to do them for 2017 because they’re a lot of fun for my nana and I to do!

The month of March is always an interesting though. I always consider it a “green” month even without incorporating St. Patrick’s Day into it. Everytime I hear of the word “spring” I instantly go for the color green. So that’s why I always use different shades in the banners!

I also have a “problem” of listening to Celtic Woman a lot too! Last year I listened to the group because the nice, easy-going music helped with my mind and ease the sad emotions. I still use it to help calm myself but I do listen for pleasure too! That’s why I’ve decided to pick their song “Téir Abhaile Riú” (Go Home With You) because I had found their concert Emerald on PBS during the first week and this was probably my favorite (which was a REALLY hard decision!) throughout the concert. The girls make it very fun and I really love the playful atmosphere they create while singing the song! The beginning of Lisa and Chloe go into the crowd, sitting on different guests’ lap! Lisa dancing with that little girl actually makes me cry!

Another genre of music that was sort of big during this month, that if my papaw was alive right now, would totally tell me off! I have a semi love/hate relationship with rap music. So on days (or in some cases nights) I feel like listening to it I go all in and this past month was no different! Except a lot of Lil Wayne in this sucker!

What were you listening to in March? Do you like Celtic Woman? If so, what is your favorite song?

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DIY: Easter Wreath!

Howdy!

The first couple of weeks of March were pretty interesting! My nana and I decided to get a head start on our DIY projects! We hardly ever do anything for Easter, which I’ve always thought was interesting because people normally do the eggs, but why is that the only thing they do for Easter?

Technically, she didn’t say anything about doing any big Easter crafts! The only thing she wanted to do was a holiday tree, which I’ll explain in another post soon! We worked on this project throughout the beginning of March. We have NEVER done a wreath before! This wreath was our trail and error. My nana wants one for herself and we’re waiting to do this one with my Aunt Laurie maybe! So this is actually for my mom at her workplace! Thankfully she didn’t mind if the whole thing looked rustic!

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What you will need for this:

  • Sheet of Cardboard
  • Ruler
  • Cake Tin
  • Xacto Knife or Scissors
  • Plastic Eggs
  • Fake Grass
  • Glue

Like I said above, this was our trail and error wreath, so I’m going to tell you a better way of doing it than how we did it. We realized a couple of times halfway that we should have done a certain part first. I am also including the original link I found on Pinterest of the craft, in case you wanted a better source!

Okay, so the first thing we did was take a 9″ cake tin on top of a fairly medium sheet of cardboard that my nana surprisingly still had after all these months! I used the cake tin as a guide and it’s better to get the middle one traced and cut as well! This was one of our first mistakes! Mostly because we were rushing and decided to get the first row of eggs on the actual circle before I had to leave for the day! Anyways, what we used was a 6″ snow globe (I’m a resourceful person – use what you got!) to trace around and then nana cut out the middle hole with a xacto knife! The first one she just used scissors!

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As you will see in the next batch of pictures, we did have to move our circle further into the middle after we glued the first row of eggs to the edge, but in general it was already like that even without having the eggs on there!

On the original directions, the person uses a hot glue gun, well we decided to go with regular glue which was a semi bad and good idea, only because we’ve had to reglue like five or six eggs and luckily it’s mostly the same eggs that have been loose on us! This is where we tried to do what the original link tells you do next and place the eggs close to the edge because you need room to put the second batch of eggs! However, since the cake tins weren’t that big we couldn’t glue the eggs how they were supposed to, so nana thought we put them on their sides like they’re forming a train! And that’s how we figured out that problem!

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We actually did all of this in three days, so they had multiple days to dry and were left alone unless a couple were loose and then nana put extra glue underneath them!

When we finally got to adding the fake grass throughout the empty spaces. I was really worried we weren’t going to be able to put much on or shall I say, I didn’t think I’d be able to put my big freaking toes in some of these teeny areas! Somehow I was wrong again but I did have nana do most because towards the end as I was getting more and more frustrated! Fake grass likes to stick to you when you’re sitting directly underneath a vent! Anyways, we finally found a way to stuff a small ball of it into the crevices and use a pen or colored pencil to shove it into the areas it all worked out pretty good after that!

Once we got as much “green” grass we could get on it, my mom put in a request to add more into the areas I couldn’t get into. So we had some yellow grass here and there to make her happy! Next time we’re going to actually glue on the glass first before even do the eggs to see if that is better! We never got to doing the back, so she would be able to hang it up somewhere. She says it is now on top of her work’s activity center’s door!

After a couple of days, my mom actually had a co-worker asking if we could make her one for her door as “it was bare” so essentially my nana and I got our very first order! We are still getting the last of the details done with it, but yeah! It seemed like a cool way to end out this post!

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The next DIY project we’re doing is actually for me! There are some similarities between the two, but you’ll have to wait to find out! If you’re following my blog’s Facebook page I will share sneak peeks so keep an eye out there too!

Hope you all have enjoyed this post!

Are you doing any Easter crafts this year? 

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Getting A New Camera!

Hello!

So recently I’ve had to get myself a new camera because my pink one decide to stop working on me one morning. It had been acting a bit strange for a while; whenever I would go to turn it on it would just stay black, it wasn’t until I would basically bang it on the ground (I don’t really recommend doing that) for it to actually start working again! I’d say after two months, it finally crapped out on me.

I can’t say I was really mad about it though. It was originally my sister’s camera from around 2008, so technically it’s pretty old! She and I got cameras roughly around the same time and I just so happened to break mine within 5 months after getting it as a birthday present.

I was trying to get a picture with a couple of school friends after the graduation ceremony was over and as it was being placed to another person to snap the picture for us, it just fell out of their hands and onto the sidewalk. It just shattered into a million pieces. It was my first camera and I was shocked and more upset that it broke then I was never getting a picture with the school friend! My parents sort of never trusted me with a camera ever again. Now you know the reason why whenever I go places and I say, “my mom took this” because she doesn’t want me to drop it and we have to replace it. However, as much as I understand her belief and as a reminder I’m not the one who dropped the other one and I don’t believe it was even on purpose either!

Blondie used her camera off and on throughout her years in school. Before she left to go to college though, she gave it to me and I didn’t use it much in 2015 mostly because I didn’t think I would be able to do anything with it because of my feet! After Facebook and Twitter changed their settings for mobile phones, my little camera on my flip phone wasn’t able to send pictures anymore. So I had to get out Blondie’s camera and try it out, somehow it worked out really well and became one of my favorite accessories!

It’s been a good little camera for me and was very much a learning experience on how much I can control as far as holding a camera in between my feet. I’m just really glad my feet are learning the definition of “teamwork” after successfully holding a camera for almost 2 years!

The day it stopped working, I was going to my nana’s so I brought along the SD card of the last roll of photos of our cats that I took in mid-February. She uploaded them for me and I began my hunt for my next camera! I didn’t want to buy anything really fancy or expensive. For one, that’s not my style and considering I do have a history of dropping cameras from my height in both wheelchairs, I need something that wouldn’t be such a hassle to fix either!

Since my future brother-in-law works in the electronic department at Wal-Mart, I asked him if there any cameras under $60 because that’s all I had in my purse. He replied back with just a brand: Polaroid. The first thing that popped into my head were those cute, vintage-like Polaroid cameras that were like the new trend! Once I went online though, I found the point and shoot cameras and they were pretty cheap and looked like like my previous camera too!

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Now I have a new camera! It’s a Polaroid iE826 in red and silver. Truth be told, I have no idea what anything means on it and I actually wanted this in white and I already found one and shown it to my mom and somehow she managed to get me through the others on the website and we found the red and silver! The reason why I was no against the red one was because my nana also has a red (and black) camera that is pretty much the same size and shape as this one! One day we’re going to leave somewhere and come home with a different camera!

First Impressions:

Well, first off it is wayyy too small! One bad thing that goes with a similar post I wrote about cell phones. The buttons are extremely tiny and very stubborn. The power button is probably the worst! Even my parents have issues with it! I do have problems with holding it, even with the wristband that is on the opposite ankle. They need to make these according to left and right dominant! I think that it would be a lot easier for some of us who prefer using these cameras so you don’t have a random ribbon in your shot. However, I’ve miscalculated where the legs of my tripod are and have a few pictures of one in the middle of my picture afterwards!

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Unfortunately, yes because of the width of the camera, I’ve had to use my little tripod, which if you think about it isn’t necessarily a “bad” thing because I felt like I’ve been neglecting it for the last few months. So the fact I’m using it full time (just to have a better grip of it in between my toes) makes my dad happy since he’s the one who found it for me! I am getting better at putting it on and off the tripod, it is easier to do it while in my wheelchair since I am higher and don’t have to strain my whole upper body when I screw it on!

One last negative is the screen. It tends to be very gritty and timid in different lighting. The flash hardly works and most of the time, the pictures are pretty dark even when it goes off. I’ve had to stop judging it after pressing the recall button because half the time they’re awful looking but then when we upload them they’re actually okay? They’re not as good and clear despite the amount of megapixels it offers!

Other than that though, it’s actually not all that bad! I know it’ll just take time to get used to everything and I’m usually good with change so the fact that I’ve had this many judgments about it is a little weird!

Here are some of my first and favorite snap shoots I took with my new camera!

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