Yup, I’m using an OneRepublic song as my last post title of 2014. Jeez! How did we get here so fast? I still remember the last day of 2013 and sitting in the barn, watching my dad make bets with his buddies that he could beat them at cornhole. Of course, he lost because he kept getting cocky in both of the games. It just doesn’t seem like 2014 should be ending right now. I’ve had some pretty memorable years, both good and bad that I’d like to forget sometimes. I thought this year was the best though. Everything I’ve ever wanted for myself happened this year and that’s no joke! I know everybody is used to my big post of different flash fiction posts I’ve done throughout the year and it’s usually the only part of these “Best Of” posts but unfortunately I haven’t done very many of those and decided I’d do a big post of things I’m glad I got to accomplish and hopes for the new year.
At the start of the year, I made some very conscious decisions about how I wanted the first few months to go. I basically made some resolutions, but since I figured I’d break a few of them I only gave myself a couple of months to complete them and if I broke them, I did all over again. At least I was attempting to actually do something and keep at it. I’m not a real believer of love, but from the beginning of January to mid-March I was okay with it. I didn’t go looking for it and I was pretty content without having anybody as my Valentine. I’m like this during the other holidays too. This Christmas I was okay with being single and not looking for love. I felt proud, because I didn’t feel lousy about it all and loved my life being a single lady at that moment. I think that’s another reason why I was so happy this past year too. I wasn’t really thinking about things and driving myself crazy like I usually do. I just did it. Of course, I did have my days were my thoughts were going in overdrive, but I didn’t go into a dark hole. You continue to get better with it, the more you pray and be more optimistic about things not only you, but everybody around you as well!
Every year I know I complain a little more than I need to. I’ve been trying to keep things in perspective as much as possible. Let’s face it, things could be a lot worse! Besides living in the moment, I’ve been using this little blog as my launcher in a way. I’ve shared some very cool achievements this year, from the pop can to the trash can surprises, going to Plummer, seeing a real band live, met ONE and Bag Lady Sue. I got to do a blog post for Models Of Diversity earlier this year that was pretty cool! I mean there are just too many things to really list! I have been taking pictures more than I ever have with my little phone. I’ve gotten to love nature a little more. Bootsie had more kittens and my small hatred of cats in general has officially went away, now if only it can happen for the small dog category, I think we might be complete! I saw this year as a new beginning, which is what you should always see ahead in a year. I wasn’t always looking back and feeling bad about things I can’t change. When my sister and I decorated up the back of my bedroom door with different positive quotes. I think my thinking became even clearer for what I truly want in life and for my mind, body, and soul.
I’ve been more adventurous this year than anytime in my life. I’ve been secretly trying to break the barrier of insecurities, looking at my flaws and being perfectly okay with them. This has been a great year as far as not letting myself think of an ugly duckling. I accepted myself in my wheelchair. I’m starting to feel comfortable when people say I’m an inspiration, which I thought I’d ever see the day that would happen honestly. For years, I always the things I did with my feet weren’t even close to be worth admiring about, they were just things I used because I have nothing left. I also feel like I’m keeping my ego in check. She hasn’t run out of her cage in a while, so you all can be happy about that! Since I’ve gotten to be more adventurous this year, I’ve been able to speak with some pretty awesome people! I’ve been trying to push myself more in the blogging world, I didn’t know it was this big. We all have our flaws and crazy stories we want to share with the rest of the world too! And you thought it was just my crazy ass? Haha! There are far too many people to mention in this post to really say what I need to them and how much they mean to me. It’s nice to finally be accepted in a community for being myself.
Everybody’s been writing out their goals for 2015 and I’ve decided to keep mine kind of hush-hush for now. I’ve always been that way, keeping things a secret until the moment is finally there. I’ve got a couple of things I’ve like to do on here in the new year, one is doing my own verison of “Motivational Mondays” starting next week. They may be every other week, so they don’t become a chore on here. To finally end this, I’m ready for more adventures and keep up all the hard work I’ve done this year. I’m ready for anything. I know God has got some big plans for me, he always has! I’d like to complete more things off my bucket list.. the simple stuff and maybe some of the bigger things too! I want to go to more biker rallies. I want to meet more interesting people. And I’ll be blogging throughout the whole thing, at least I hope so. Thank you to everybody that has made this year extra special for me. When one door closes, another one opens…