How Different A Lifestyle Can Be

writingOver the weekend my mom was washing my hair and I started talking to her about my blog and something cool the probably shouldn’t matter so much, but when somebody thinks, it makes you really happy inside and honestly my mom liked it too! I don’t feel like sharing it at the moment. Sorry! She asked me if I had read Gwyneth Pathrow’s blog before. I told her no, I didn’t know she had one. According to my mom she blogs about how you can get these really expensive pillows and etc, and I brought up Elsa Pataky’s blog that she does for Spain’s magazine version of Glamour and I told her that she does the basically same thing, but I love Elsa so I can’t talk bad about her stuff! Both of these ladies make a lot of movies and CAN afford to live these lifestyles, whereas most of us can’t. I like being cheap and I’m being honest here. I don’t see anything wrong with it. I think you are smarter with how you spend your money when you’re on a budget. If an unlimited credit card, you’re a goner with self-control. I’ve learned to save up my money for something that’s going to last me longer than some pillow that a dog can simply pee on. That’s just my opinion though.

Growing up in the way I did I think made me comfortable in the lifestyle I live today. Even though, it’s not the best and I sometimes it was better, but I can’t say I don’t love it. I consider my life an alternative lifestyle because it’s not as mainstream as everybody’s lives. It’s never been a normal one. I’ve always had something that could be considered “old” or “outdated” and I’ve pretty content with that, which is probably why I’ve grown to appreciate those times of things a lot more than others do. As a person with disabilities, you have to accept your body and the fact that you can’t change it as much as you’d like to. I think one of the biggest factors why I was so against embracing myself was the fact I had to have a lot of expensive things to help me out, like my custom electric wheelchair. Basically anything that I’ve gotten to help make things easier for my parents and I has brought a lot of uneasy thoughts to float around in my mind. Most have went away because they have done exactly that, make things easier. My lifestyle is a lot different from my sister’s, she is more carefree and has friends to do stuff with and just be a normal young adult. I think I’ve turned into a wiser and thoughtful person in the last few years. I know how far I’ve come in my life and I want to help others like me, but there is one little problem. I’d rather they read my blog than come to me for advice because I feel like out in the open, I’m not the best inspiration ever. I know I’m wrong all over the place, but that’s me for you!

The whole reason of why I gave you these two examples is the fact that they have money and can buy healthy things like organic food and bedding, doesn’t mean you should go out of your way and get it, just because they do! Something similar to this happened a couple of months ago, I found Teresa Palmer and Phoebe Tonkin’s blog Your Zen Life and I’ve got to say, for a person like me who tries really hard to see the positive in the negative and always looking at things in another perspective, it’s a really good getaway for you! I read how healthy they have become to enjoy their lifestyles of feeling comfortable in not only their bodies, but also their souls! I was really thinking of changing my lifestyle on how I eat. I mean, it’s not the best. I have a can of pop from the time I get up in the morning from the time I go to bed. Sometimes I do drink cold water, milk, and apple juice but it’s kind of rare anymore. Even though in the past few days I have had chocolate milk and it’s been so amazing! I’ve found those flavored-waters online and I miss smoothies so much! I might have to talk my mom into getting out the blender again! I hardly ever have snacks, and if I do have a snack I try to get my mom to get some granola bars for me at the store. If I just want chocolate, I usually have my mom get me a big dark chocolate bar. If nobody takes a bite of it, that can last me a week at least! Meals in general; I eat microwave meals and if my dad makes something I like, I eat that, but it’s usually sandwiches and the meals.

Everytime I would like to eat healthy, something’s always there keeping me from doing it. It would be different if I was the one getting what I wanted but sadly I can’t. My mom says the meals are basically my “healthy diet” but I wish I could make myself feel a little bit better, but would I be able to give up my caffeine? Oh, god no! Maybe I can go with one a day, but I’m thinking I’ll only last probably two days and want my pop again. I try to eat healthy, but I’ve been on the wrong path for years that I guess I should be happy for the healthy appetite I do have for the foods I eat now. I’m not trying to lose weight because I think that would be unhealthy on my tiny body. I would look really sick if I tried to do that. I think if you can do it, if you have the resources in reach, you should take advantage of it. I’m not saying for the ones like myself should give up what we want, but I think we should do somethings a little out of the box.

This One Time At Band Camp…

writingThis one time at band camp…is it sad that I never went to band camp? Or any kind of camp? I mean, literally! The one time I could have spent the night in a tent was with my Girl Scout troop. The only reason why my sister and I never slept in it was because of the fact we hated bugs. We were NOT the best kids in the world when it came to summer weather. Summer brought out our immature sides loud and clear. If a wasp or bee or basically anything that could fly by us was the worst possible thing to ever happen. Our parents didn’t like it much either and so camping was out of the question. Unless we were indoors and so were are beds, that was the only way it could happen. Slumber parties was practically the same way. We could hold them, but I had to be the scardy cat in the family. My first one I ever went to, I had to come home at midnight.

Honestly, I was never jealous of my sister when she’d go to her camp for cheer. She went to sleepovers and camp and rock them! I always felt like something could go wrong and I’d get into trouble somehow, it would never happen like that, but in my head it looked like a disaster waiting to happen. One party I remember going to was a Halloween party when I was still in middle school. It was our last year in middle school before we went with the older kids. It was also the time when I didn’t have any black shirts or pants for that matter! I only had one black shirt and it was a church shirt. I knew my friends drank and smoked things, at that time I actually wanted to try it and my mom knew this too. She always told me that I didn’t have to do things if I wanted to. We spent most of our time down in the basement but some of them wanted to watch a horror movie and there was no way in hell I was watching that, so my friend and I went upstairs and I think we got halfway through our movie when we started noticing that they weren’t watching another movie. So we went back downstairs and I remember passing out before anybody else did and the first one to get up that morning. That’s what I always did and I still do that! That’s mainly the only sleepover I remember going to the most because everything that was supposed to happen, never did.

Did you go to any sort of camp while you were in school? What were your experiences like? Do you remember any of your sleepovers you had as a kid or remember going to any of your friends? What happened?