Summary Of Yesterday

I’ve got some good news to share. Yesterday, I got a double of goodness. Not only did I get to buy a book on my Kindle yesterday afternoon, but last night I wrote a small message on her Facebook page, and didn’t think she’d actually write back. I never think they’ll write back. It’s back to think that way, than the other way around. Anyways, when I got up this morning, I had one little notification on my Facebook and it was her reply on my message. Can I start dancing now? That completely made my day. You can so tell I haven’t had a book in a while. When I first woke up, I went on my laptop and not read first. Oh well, I’ve got all day to read.

While I was at my nana’s yesterday morning, one of our topic conversations was about the “book list” I had to remake three times. I’ve got several more days, so I’m sure it’s not my last list. I started off with 8 books and now my “final” list has 19 books. I have to add one more to the list and put a star on two of original books that I really want to read. My nana wants to read rapper Ice-T’s book, The Milestone Tapes by Ashley Mackler-Paternostro and The Stone Girl by Alyssa B. Sheinmal. I gave a summary of what The Milestone Tapes was about and it was awful to explain what it’s about when your mind and mouth is going too fast. I originally gave her a list of five or six books for her to look up and see if she’d like to read any of them. These were the only ones she picked out. I’m sure, once I come home and read some of them, and talk about them, she’ll want to read them too.

Two of the newer books on my list, were found on my small visit to Barnes and Nobles website. Yeah, that’s all I need is another site that shows book covers and the description. It’s sad enough I was already using two sites beforehand. The two books that were added to my “looking” list are High On Arrival: A Memoir by Mackenzie Phillips and Don’t You Dare Read This, Mrs. Dunphrey by Margaret Peterson-Haddix. They both sounded interesting, so I just went and added them. When my mom first saw my list of books, she literally freaked out a little. She thought that’s all the books I was going to buy. Nope, that would be too overwhelming for me. Plus, I don’t have a big enough bag to put them all in. So that’s a bummer too. I just started looking around my room, wondering where in the world, I’m going to put these books. My actual book shelf has stuffed animals and old notebooks occupying it, so that’s out. I wonder if it’s too much to ask my dad to make me a small shelf by my bed so I can stack everything around me.

This Has Nothing To Do With Love

I’ve been watching Friends a lot more lately and the more I watch it, the more I think about the “friend” I am and if I ever want a guy that acts like Ross, Joey or Chandler. Two things though, every guy I seem to meet already act like their the next Ross or Joey. Cheating on their girlfriends and making excuses about how they really feel. Some just want a one night stand and want to become actors. There are not very many Chandler Bing’s out there. There are not very many sensitive, hilarious, and caring guys out there. If there are, they don’t have all three characteristics. The more I watch that show, the more I want my own Chandler Bing. Too bad, he ain’t real though.

I don’t believe in fairy tales. So no Prince Charming for me! I’m not a “love at first sight” kind of person either. My sister has it made, she’s beautiful and has a nice boyfriend. They’re practically around each other 24/7 and to me, that’s a little much. I know, I shouldn’t really say anything, because I’ve never been in “love” before. Trust me, that’s not real love, that’s puppy love. If it’s that really love, I’m doomed. I don’t think I could really love a person. Spend almost every day with each other. Making time for one another. I’ve lived this life as a single young lady, and as much as I hate it sometimes. I’m kind of happy about being alone. It’s not all that bad, but something inside wants to find a guy like Chandler Bing to change my mind about life. Someone who understands and balances me. We’ve had this conversation before, but it’s still floating around in my mind and I can’t get it out.