Almost There. Slowly But Surely.

Day 8: Lose Yourself

I feel really good today. I got lots of sleep last night and getting through my pain on my way, just the way I like it. I went to bed at 11:30pm because I watched Bristol Palin’s new show at 10pm and I had to watch one episode of Friends before passing out. I got woken up this morning around 6:30am by my mom. She took me to the bathroom before going to work this morning. Then afterwards I thought I went back to bed but dad didn’t think so. So I’ve been up since 8am. I don’t care what he thinks. I remember actually going back to sleep so yeah.  I’ve been keeping myself distracted from falling into the traps around me. I really want to listen to Linkin Park’s new album, Living Things, sooooo bad! I’m trying so hard to keep myself away from YouTube but failing. I haven’t listened to anything but “Powerless” and I’ve been proud of myself for keeping me away It’s only a couple of more days to go.

Yesterday I had an interesting conversation with my nana and finally got something off my chest to my mom and I felt a lot better about it. It was also kind of interesting to talk to them about the same thing. Anyways, later on that afternoon I finally got one of my wishes. I got to Skype to my twin yesterday afternoon. It was so surreal seeing her face-to-face. I’ve only seen pictures of her and been texting her for a year. So when I got a text Monday night at midnight from her saying, “hey, you want to Skype?” I texted her back saying, “yes, can we do it tomorrow?” The whole day yesterday I was anxious and excited because I didn’t know what would happen if we couldn’t start a conversation. That ended up not being a problem. She looked so pretty! I was way off on her voice though. She sounds so much older than I thought she would but with my record everybody I talk to acts or talks more mature than their age. I enjoyed talking to her. I can’t wait to Skype again because I told her that I might sing to her.

Bristol Palin: Life’s A Tripp

Last night was the premiere of Bristol Palin: Life’s A Tripp on Lifetime. Never thought Lifetime would ever give in to reality shows but after hating the Dance Moms shows, I find this show lots better! Now before we go into this, I would just like to say I’m NOT into politics and I don’t care if you are. My family watches enough news about it all that I don’t think I’ll ever care about it. I love Bristol Palin, but I have a lot of love for single moms. They’re the strongest women in the world. Even though it’s not fair for their kids to grow up without the other parent around, that’s what other family members are for.

Watching the first episode last night, was good. I have been looking forward to this for almost a month. I’ve been a fan of Bristol and her family since I read her book last year. I was one of the people praying that she’d get through the next round of Dancing With The Stars. Bristol’s a strong young woman. She gets criticized by every hater in the book because they don’t agree with her or her mom. Watching the scene where Bristol goes out with friends and gets told off by a guy in the place. I remember reading about this on Twitter the night after it happened. I didn’t quite understand why she did it until I watched that scene. She was standing up for herself and her mother. Everytime she asked him a real reason why he didn’t like her mom, all he said was that she was the devil. That’s it. Dude, that’s an answer. Anyways, after Bristol and her friends went outside and she called up one of her friends from Alaska, I just felt so bad for her. Everybody has the right to have an opinion, but there is a time when you should hold it in. I’ve actually mastered this so it’s not impossible to do.

Something else I thought was very interesting. When Bristol and Willow went shopping in Los Angeles and they were walking around this store. Bristol said, “I’m not a size zero. I don’t want to be a size zero.” How many girls and women always strife for to be one digit size for clothes? Pretty much every single female does. They were walking around the store kind of making fun of the store in a sense but it’s the image they were making fun of. Willow pointed out the image in Alaska is so much different. They don’t care about they look like. I mean, yeah they probably like make-up and to look pretty but on a daily basis there’s such a difference. I literally told myself, “well they were raised right.” Image in this day and age is everybody trying to be in the latest trends. Nobody wants to original. My sister and I have different styles and what we like to show ourselves in. I really don’t care about my image. My wheelchair does enough to my image that I dress in whatever I want. My sister is the opposite. Everything has to be a certain way. She has to tan, she has to have new clothes for different seasons, and she can’t buy any jeans from Wal-Mart. Image has taken over. I give props to Bristol for not caring about what she looks like.