Covered In Music

Searching for posters is hell. Especially when you’re very picky like me. I’m ready for a change. I’ve already started it. I had a big thing for 50 Cent and Eminem, generally every rapper. Then in 2009, my love for rap was gone. I had three rap posters in my room. My G-Unit poster was on the back of my door, and was the first to go. It was replaced my poster of Paul Wesley and Ian Somerhalder of The Vampire Diaries. My second new poster came in my new NKOTBSB (New Kids On The Block-Backstreet Boys) CD, it was a mini poster and we put it underneath my TVD poster on my door.

Last summer my friend’s mom and sister were going to see NKOTBSB in concert and she said if I gave her money she’d bring back something. She brought back a giant version of the mini poster that came in the CD packet. It’s now in place where my Figure Skating and expensive car was at, above my bed. In October, I had a big weekend. I ordered my first Linkin Park poster. Which was very excited about! That next day, we went to Walmart and I came with a Transformers (Autobots) poster. Both are my right wall as you walk in. My Linkin Park poster is covering up my Jump5 poster I had gotten years before at my first concert. Christmas morning, I got a huge Slash poster and it might take Britney Spears cutout and old puppy poster is. It seems like the only place I have left with enough room. At least, we’re hoping there’s enough room.

There’s two more posters that need to go. I have two separate posters of 50 Cent and Eminem, one has Dr. Dre on it. I’ve been looking thinking of everybody I like and would want on my walls. I’ve had lots of bands/artists on my walls since I was younger. From Backstreet Boys to 50 Cent. I’ve had a big range of musical acts make it on my bedroom walls over the years. It never seems to get old either. Searching through online and every trip to Walmart, makes me excited. Especially in finding the right one. The other day I was on Amazon, and the only bands I wanted was Guns N Roses and Motley Crue. I could sense my inner teenage mother kicking in. I found the right Gn’R poster I wanted, but finding the right Motley poster was rough. I don’t want an old Motley Crue poster. I want a “newer” poster instead. The Gn’R poster I found was a “Sweet Child” promote and I didn’t have to think twice. I wanted that poster. Even though I couldn’t find a Motley poster, I thought of looking for Sixx:A.M. posters and apparently those don’t exist. I don’t know if I could handle Dj Ashba on my wall. Hell I don’t know if I could even handle Nikki Sixx on my wall.

Besides the posters, something I’ve been wanting too is more band/artists shirts. You would think I have enough, rightNope! You can never have enough T-Shirts of your favorites. It’s like a mobile poster you can wear on your body and less painful than a tattoo. I have three Linkin Park, two Paramore, Five Finger Death Punch, Slash, and Sixx:A.M. shirts. So in all, I have eight shirts. If you added up my G-Unit shit I had, it would 11 in all. I had two shirts, one jacket, and pair of jeans that I’m sure I only wore once. I saw Hot Topic online  of a “I ♥ BSB” shirt, a Gn’R, and Motley shirt. Not including the Carrie Underwood, Ke$ha, and T.I shirts that seemed amazing to get too, but they were on my “most wanted” list along with the Paramore and Five Finger Death Punch shirts. I came home with those two shirts, and coming home with two shirts is an amazing feeling! I’ll get those Gn’R and Motley shirts one of these days, and when I do. I’m going to get the red ASHBA SWAG pants. I have an awesome idea of making a “bad ass” outfit of taking the Gn’R shirt and Slash shirt and putting them together. Slash in front and Gn’R in back. I have a pair of red pants, but having those Ashba Swag pants would finish it off.

When TRL Ruled My Life

Growing up, coming home and watching TV was a given. Nobody as a kid or a teenager wants to do their homework as soon they come home. Favorite shows would come on an hour after you get home. I remember coming home from school a lot and watch Full House and  Family Matters on ABC Family or one of those channels. I think around when I turned nine years old I started to watch this show on MTV, it was called TRL (Total Request Live) and I remember watching every once in a while. I would watch for Britney Spears, Backstreet Boys, Christina Aguilera, and N’Sync. For me at that time, everything revolved around them. After I came home from Shriner’s I remember watching it more often. I started getting into rap music again and discovered Good Charlotte and Simple Plan and just exploded my musicial tastes from there.

I was just watching VH1’s doctumentary of “The TRL Decade” and was seriously holding back tears because I miss that part of my usual routine and it was my childhood to watch music videos all day long when I was sick and around 4pm it would be TRL time. That was my day. No wonder I’m crazy about my music. I still watch music videos all day long sometimes. I remember watching Backstreet Boys on there. Practically kissing the TV as well. Then when I got into 50 Cent and Eminem, it was a bomb went off. I would get excited about watching their interviews and wish I was there watching them perform to all the people there. I remember the first time I heard and watched Fort Minor’s “Petrified” it was on the countdown and I instantly loved it. I don’t remember seeing any Linkin Park on the countdown unfortunately. MTV will never be as good as it was back then. Maybe that’s why they’ve been playing all these reality shows now.

Sweet Tooth Is Mean This Morning

Earlier this morning, like real early. It was like around 8:30 or 9am and I was, of course, watching Cooking and/or Food Network and starving and craving different food that I may or may not have tried yet and was just in a state where if I wasn’t fed soon I’d probably kill someone. I’m good now, definitely not feeling that well now. Well, actually there is a picture of Reese’s Peanut Butter cups in front of me, and my sweet tooth is screaming at me. Uh oh, great! I know for a fact we have nothing chocolate here at the house. I’m screwed!

I was watching Cooking Network and they were advertising something. It should have clicked instantly as it came on but it didn’t. February starts this week, right? So Valentine’s Day is coming. Valentine’s Day might be a “lovers” holiday but to us singles, it’s our second Halloween. Candy and chocolates don’t go in a bag, they go in our mouths as soon as we get them. It’s the one holiday that involves sweets and you don’t have to dress up to receive them. Anyways, Cooking Network is going to have a “Chocolate Covered Week” all next week. I wanted it to be this week, but no. They should put out the ads around Thursday’s, but I will say that made my Monday morning that much better. Excuse my crazy mood, but this picture is making me hungry again. So you might want to hide from me, and keep your candy, chocolates, and ice cream as far away from me as you can.

What A Princess Bedroom Should Look Like

You know about my love of having a bedroom with a bunch of Christmas lights around the ceiling and pictures covering the walls. I also have two other choices I’d like to have my room look like. I love this picture and the day I find a picture of a bedroom that has nothing but boomboxes around one side of a wall I’d be a happy person. I’d like to have a room with three of these things. But I think I’d be asking for too much if that actually happened.

I do love how this picture is, however the one thing that I’m just noticing is the world outside of that window. That picture looks like it’s up in the attic. I’m deadly scared of heights, so I’m reconsidering that one big time. I love how the shades are though and the actual window. It looks like what a princess would want her room to be. Having your bed in that little space is interesting. I would love to sleep like that, it would be so peaceful to me, the window there so you can look at the stars at night and watch the sunset or sunrise and get mad and think this was a horrible idea when you get blinded in the mornings by the sun. I’d still want my room like this even with all these flaws. It just looks comfortable, sweet, and peaceful. That’s what a bedroom should be since you are supposed to be sleeping in it.

What Happened To Music Videos?

VH1 has been advertising their new documentary about the TRL (Total Request Live) days on MTV. I might watch it, but I don’t know. I’m worried it’ll make me cry. Not even joking either. Ever since they’ve been playing nothing but reality TV shows and crap on there, it doesn’t seem like MTV anymore. When I was growing up, MTV was the go-to channel to watch music videos all day long. I do have to say, both MTV and MTV2 still play music videos, you just have to get up very early in the mornings to watch any of them. It’s like old cartoons that use to be on Nickelodeon, they came back but you have to stay up from midnight to 4am on the weekdays. Where’s the fun in that? Play it on the weekends like it use to be! I know every person that was born in the late 80s and early (maybe late) 90s would LOVE to watch some shows of their childhood. Everything is getting pushed back and that’s not right.

I remember when I was 9 or 10 years old, there was an award show that night before and mom taped it for us. So we watched parts of it that morning. We watched Britney Spears perform “Hit Me Baby One More Time” and what I remember of this performance was the fact that in the beginning of it, sounds a part from Wizard of Oz. Think back to the scene where Dorothy was  trapped inside the witches castle and her little knights or whatever the hell they were called were chanting something, and me knowing the Wizard of Oz really well, when Britney Spears performance had the exact same chant I was amazed and it has never left. Besides her performance, mom had gotten the Backstreet Boys performance. They sang “Show Me The Reason Of Being Lonely” and I was in a trance. Rock music hadn’t been around me yet, so I was still in love with pop music.

I also remember when I was little, we were getting ready for school. I was going into the living room to watch TV and I remember watch music videos, I definitely still see the play-by-play of Dream’s “He Loves U Not” and that was such a bad ass song back then! My parents would say MTV was better back in the 80’s. Well, from what I’ve read I don’t think that’s true. Back then, they had to censored a lot of the videos and lyrics of the song. Now, it’s just the lyrics it seems like. Sometimes the lyrics aren’t blocked well enough. Maybe it is a good thing they play music videos in the early mornings considering what they do play. YouTube and VEVO have become the way the go to way to watch music videos. It’s sad that it’s like that since the whole reality shows have taken over. I do have to say VH1 has been the last (I don’t know how much FUSE and BET plays music videos) that still plays them from 6am until 10am. Which is like the best thing ever for somebody like me, who still loves her music videos.

Influenced By Reality

I actually don’t know how to really start this post. So I’m going to go like this. People always think I’m inspiring, which I don’t know why. I don’t think I’ll ever understand it fully of why people think that, and since I love mysterious. I kind of want to keep that one a mystery. I don’t want an answer because half the time, I probably will ignore it or not believe a word you say. Even though I don’t believe I’m inspiration, I think there are different people in this world who are. I get influenced by people easily. It takes the littlest things you do that will get my attention and I will never be the same. However, not all of that is a good thing. The bad influences I’ve found throughout the years have been lessons learned. So who influence me? It’s all over the place actually. I’ve lived a long time now and met a lot of people. Some years have been better than others, but that’s the part of life.

Here’s a list of people who have influenced me throughout my life, and some are in groups. I’m not really big with singling people out unless they really deserve it, not saying some people don’t deserve it. For something like this, keeping everybody in a group is much easier on me to keep everybody straight in my head.

  1. God – This was a given. God has always been there for me, and will always be there for me. He made me this way, has me going through this life with all of its hardships, and his guiding me through it. He’s the one bringing and taking out the people around me for reasons I can’t explain sometimes. And he’s got a good sense of humor too.
  2. Family – My mom, dad, and my sister Emily. As much as they drive me nuts. I love them dearly. I always think about what if my parents thought they couldn’t raise me, and they had to give me up. I’d be a completely different person I think. Emily, she’s had to deal with my stupid rants when we were little. Always had to watch over me, but I still thought she was the prettier girl. You don’t want to mess with her. Both sides of my grandparents and families. Lots of people, and lots of love. Even if you don’t think it’s there, it’s just hidden way back in the back.
  3. Friends – All the friends I’ve had have been a big influence on me. Most recently actually. Some have influenced to not care anymore. They’ve pushed me away, so I might as well face the facts and stop fighting for somebody whose not there anymore. I’ve had lots of friends, lots of memories, and stories I could tell for days. (I’m actually getting ideas as we speak.) To the ones that I do keep up with on Facebook, I am amazed you still bother to talk to me. To all my Twitter friends, they have been inspiring to talk to for the past two years. I’ve learned to not always be afraid to talk to different people. I want to visit their countries one day, and meet them.
  4. Teachers – I haven’t been in college in a year. I’ve been a graduate for almost two years. That’s a scary thought! I remember most of all the teachers that were always around me on a daily basis. From first grade and on, man! It’s a lot of people to remember over the years. Besides the teachers, I have to include the aides who have been around me when I was school. Even though I was probably trouble in school sometimes, I was still good. In a sense at least. For some odd reason, they knew how to handle me well. The stories that I have in my head of our high school lunch table. Oh my god! We had fun! Lots of laughs that’s for sure!

To Hell With The Sore Throat

Yesterday I got out of the house and went to my nana’s. I spent time with both my nana and papaw. We were suppose to go over today for lunch but my mom still feels awful. Now it seems like both of my parents are getting worse again. Mom did do her errands today and yesterday nana and I just talked our jaws off. Wait, I take that back. I talked my jaw off. There was two different times within the three hours I was there that my mind went blank and just kept on talking. Since I didn’t go last weekend, because I was sick and I don’t really “chat” with my nana on Facebook, I had certain things I needed to discuss with her. Poor papaw. At the end of the three hours he did decide to leave the kitchen and go play the piano. Their dog Casey, actually followed him because she loves it when he plays the piano. So do I. I don’t think there is a person in our family who doesn’t like when he plays the piano. Anyways, nana did our usual conversation of nothing but music, life, my Twitter friends, and my past blog posts. Sometimes we repeat ourselves because one conversation will turn into another and it’s just awesome.

I have trouble with different subjects. If it’s a subject that needs to come out or if it’s just something stupid. My mouth WILL go faster than my brain. I have to take breaks in between these times to regroup and take a breath before going on. If I get confused, which is most of the time if she asks something about Facebook, Twitter, or her laptop in general. I get confused easily to those types of things. My brain is slow and I can’t help it. I talked to her about my troubles with my “friends” and tell her about my new friends and how I met them. She’s going through this 80’s rock music thing with me. She’s been listening to a lot of rock music actually. Some from the 80’s and modern rock. I sent her three songs the other day. I sent her “What Have You Done” by Within Temptation, it was the live verison I sent her. The other two were “Alive” by Adelitas Way and “I Want My Tears Back” by Nightwish. I thought she would enjoy them and how they sounded. She’s been listening to a lot of Motley Crue lately too. The other day I saw on my Facebook news feed that she was listening to “Kickstart My Heart” and I was laughing but in a good way.

I didn’t get to finish my last sentence at the end of the three hours I was there. But we never really finish a conversation, sometimes they make it to next weekends conversation when mom and Em are at the store. I say, sometimes because there are certain things that I can’t really discuss with my papaw in the room. It gets awkward and I don’t want to make him uncomfortable. Even though I don’t think he really pays attention to half of the conversations we have in the first place. He just picks and choose which ones he wants to listen in. Just like every other male in the world. Oh, and I was very happy that I got to have ice cream yesterday. I’ve had wanting ice cream for at least two weeks now and almost didn’t get to have any yesterday. They only get two flavors: Strawberry and Chocolate. Papaw likes both, but he likes the chocolate more. Papaw went looking in the freezer and kept pulling out strawberry ones. Then after the fourth strawberry, there was a chocolate. He let me have it because he knows I don’t like strawberry. I was a very happy camper after that, but it still help shut my mouth very long.