Well rockstar book number two is done. It was another 400 page book, it was 432 pages actually. It was a very good book. Not much different from Slash. Besides the bands, members of the band, and stories. It really wasn’t much different. There were some things different between the two. For one, this was more a diary and having people interviewed about how he was and the band too during the tour and his life going back and forth between the highs and lows of Nikki Sixx at that time. It was good, but very sad.
It started on Christmas day 1986 (I think, and yes I considered waiting until Christmas day to buy it, but I couldn’t) and it was very strange for me to read his diary entries. I mean, this is what was going through his mind while he was taking all these drugs, drinking, and figuring out if he really wanted to live or not. It amazes me how a lot of people living in this kind of lifestyle even remembers their life during their rough days. Some people, would have not think to write it all down in a diary. Especially writing while he was paranoid, which confused me a little. If the drugs make you paranoid in the first place, I would not write in my diary about my feelings of it all and hope to God nobody reads it. He must’ve stashed these diaries very well for anybody to not get curious.
While I was reading Slash’s book, I laughed in certain parts. I know you shouldn’t but there were parts in there that you could not stop yourself. In this book. I caught myself wanting to cry more, because he kept going back and forth. He wanted to get clean, tried a few times, but failed. He didn’t have anybody to turn to, and that really upsets me. Everytime he had a good day entry, where he was clean I was smiling and happy for him. Then he’d go back to his demons and all I wanted to do was scream. Why do people continue to do stupid crap to themselves? That’s what I kept asking myself and as I read on. I understood why, addiction is serious stuff. You can’t escape it. Thankfully, there are lots of people out there (including Nikki) who are clean now and trying to stay away from it all for good. He got married, which is in there but he was always worried he’d never get married and have kids. He got into photography. He forgave people.