I’ve got to say I’ve had worse pain, and I actually know what kind of pain this is from. If it goes around my lower back to stomach I know what kind of pain it is. Back pain and cramps are my two pains were I am actually getting use to and accepting that there not going anywhere. It’s actually not as bad as what it probably could be. I had my dad gave me some Advils to calm down the pain a bit. I’d rather have Advil instead of my stronger meds. Actually sratch that I’d rather just push through the damn pain altogether. I feel like everytime I take medicine I’m not strong enough to get the pain myself. When I had my surgeries I only asked for Tylenol and that wasn’t even the strong stuff. Sometimes I didn’t even ask for anything at all. Being able to look back at that, and asking myself “why can’t I be that strong now?” It seriously bugs the crap out of me.
I have to be inspired to blog today. This was a post from about two hours ago. Just thought I’d publish it that way I can say, I’m not a burn out today. I don’t have anything too interesting inside my head today. The only thing I’ve done today is get up, listen to music, visit with my mom, I smell like Coconut, and tweet. That’s it. Not in one of those moods where I can blog all day even though I love those days. I’ve been trying to think of creative things to blog about, find pictures of Tumblr to maybe start an idea. I haven’t even read today. It’s almost 2:30pm and I still haven’t read yet. I’m sure I will soon though. Oh well, that’s it for me today.