This is what I watched last night. This was my favorite out of the two I posted last night on my Facebook. I’ve said it before I’m getting into Sixx: A.M. like really into them. Hell, even my family is learning quick. Earlier when my mom was getting ready for work, she scoot the laptop out of the way so she can take me to the bathroom before she left. She pushed that over and unplugged my speakers from the socket. So it was back to it’s crappy sound and at that time I was listening to “Deadman’s Ballet” the Live verison of it. Anyways, she asked me what the hell I was listening, ok so apparently she isn’t very quick yet. I told her it was Sixx: A.M. and she goes “oh that’s Nikki Sixx.” I went, “yes.” My head went, “there’s two others in the band too. You even get mad at me for not listening to Guns N Roses, but Dj Ashba does not comes flying out of your mouth?” My dad said the same thing after he gave me my food. Inside I was shaking my head.
I literally went through probably three and a half hours of nothing but Sixx: A.M. and a few commericals. I did take a break in the middle of listening to “This Is Gonna Hurt” to listen to Fireflight’s new song “Stay Close” and for some odd reason I clicked on a live version of “Unbreakable” and forgot to “x” it off there. So I just let it go. It’s a Monday and apparently it’s disgusting outside. My body already knows what kind of day it is when there’s no snow outside and it looks like it could storm at any moment. I’ve only gotten a few text messages today. Not in a tweeting mood nor a Facebook mood. All I did for the last three hours was listen to Sixx: A.M. and thought about different things. It’s like 74 degrees in my room with both heaters on and I still had my blanket on. You know something’s not right when I’m like that. I swear I felt like a part of that hole I was in a year ago come back to haunt me. Even a few other thoughts popped up, but sadly those thoughts were in me yesterday.
It’s been one of those days that would be smart to just let everything loose. Except I don’t think it would be too smart to let them out listening to Sixx: A.M. I’ll just get over it. It’s just a Monday. Hopefully it’ll end by tomorrow. If it doesn’t, this winter will suck. I was thinking about how much I hated last winter because my weekends would be boring as hell. Last weekend, Saturday was my only good day and I don’t know when I’ll get another one. I hope if you watch that video, you don’t cry. Even though I got to say I was somewhat close to crying myself last night. How can they have that much self-esteem? Whenever I get some self-esteem I lose it in about half hour or so. Don’t have that much confidence in myself. Never have, and probably never will. I think Sixx: A.M. is helping though. Slowly but surely. Alright I’m done.