When It Works and When It Doesn’t.

I just heard a very good remix. Remember when I said in Country you can only do so much before people will catorgize it in a different genre? Well I heard one today and this one actually worked. Country is somewhat rock music. They work well together. Other genres though can just be weird. Taylor Swift took country and pop together. She’s one of the luckiest who can do that. Most country singers don’t usually do remixes, but I just heard a very interesting one just awhile ago.

Jason Aldean has a song called, “Dirt Road Anthem.” I don’t really like it when country singers try to rap. They just can’t do it. It’s just horrible sometimes. Which is reason why I didn’t give Mr. Aldean half a chance when I first heard the song. While I was Twitter, I saw Ludacris tweet, “Jason Aldean feat Ludacris Dirt Road Anthem is almost Gold on iTunes! Wow! This shows the power of music & stretching the limits!!” I instantly looked it up on Spotify and found it. I thought it was better than the original. Knowing that there’s an actual rapper in the song actually makes it better. My friend Mandy is going to kill me for saying that now.

Something that doesn’t right though. I noticed my “Recently Added” playlist on my iPod was filled to 15 songs than just 12. I bought 12 songs earlier this week and when I had my sister update my iPod two days after, so I can my songs on “Recently Played” playlist. I looked at these other songs. The last song was “T.H.E. (The Hardest Ever)” by will.i.am featuring Jennifer Lopez (which I was fine with) and Mick Jagger. My instant reaction was “what the hell?!” I don’t like rockstars teaming up with pop stars, especially when a lot of rockstars have their songs played on pop stations and they have to tell everybody that their songs aren’t pop in anyway. You get a guy like Mick Jagger who probably went in his head, “Oh, since Maroon 5 is writing a song about me I might as well make a comeback.” Ok, he got half of that right. Apparently he’s making a comeback into a genre where other rockstars defead themselves on the regular basis.

I liked how the song sounds and anything that will.i.am and Jennifer Lopez does is amazing good, but knowing that Mick Jagger is in the song bugs the crap out of me! Not everybody can make everything go right. They can always try, but some are going to fail one way or another. If Mick Jagger does decide to come back and make an album, I hope he doesn’t make a fool out of himself or anybody else for that matter. Just saying. That’s it, I’m done.

Once I’m Hooked, I’m Gone.

I have a weird thing with music. I can’t say I don’t like this song or that one. Because I’m going to end up liking it later. I’m picky in a way. Sometimes I like them right away, and then there’s some that take awhile for me to get into. I like different, unique music. Things that you wouldn’t expect to hear from certain artists or bands. In some genres, like country you can’t get too creative or people will consider it another type of music. I like when two genres of music are blended together. You can blame Step Up for that. It’s always been about how it sounds, if it doesn’t sound good to me then I won’t listen to it.

I like a lot of bass in my music. Which is why I have never been able to get away from hip hop for too long. If I can’t feel my room shake from my speakers on my stereo I won’t listen to it. So before I buy anything most of the time I’m testing it with my headphones. If my ears don’t get annoyed with it or if they’re not vibrating then it doesn’t have enough bass. I have to have a lot of bass, and if you’re wondering how I got this just blame it on my cousin Chris. He started it. About half of all the songs I’ve ever liked before I’ve had them on repeat because it wasn’t long enough. I hate it when they end when they shouldn’t. It bugs me! So I go back and annoy the crap out of my family.

Besides bass and putting it on repeat, I like songs that you can actually hear different instruments. I love hip hop songs with classical sounds. The only way I can explain is “Remember The Name” by Fort Minor. It’s my ideal hip hop song. I’m weird, I don’t really like guys with tattoos and look creepy, sorry but I don’t. Never will and probably never will unless they all look like Travis Barker. I can make an exception for him. Anyways, even though I’m like this I do however creepy songs. Well some at least. I don’t like any from Marilyn Manson and Rob Zombie, sorry not going to cut it. I love long intros that are mysterious and kind of made for Halloween. That’s what I like. I love rock music, we know this already. About 80% of the stuff I have is like that. I’m also into message songs from rockstars. I’ve been listening to Sixx:A.M. for awhile and I listened to “The Heroin Diaries” yesterday was completely taken over. It had everything I like, even though a little more than I thought.

Now I’m only telling you this, because life can do terrible things..

This is written by my sister Emily.

I’m the girl that’s willing to brighten your day, even if I can’t brighten my own. I’m your typical teenage girl in a lot of ways, but if I could put into words what I’ve been through in my life, you would know that I’m most definitely not. All I do is think. I actually overthink, and that’s what hurts me the most. I have about, 4 or 5 people total that I actually trust. And those 4 people, are the most amazing people I’ve ever met in my whole life. They’re the people that I would do anything for, because I actually know they’d do the same for me. I have a really hard time opening up, and meeting new people, although I probably seem like a loud, outgoing person. So because of that, I just choose not to open up. I think it’s something that I’ll never be able to get over. I don’t believe that not being able to open up to people and such is a good thing, whatsoever. (For some reason, people tell me this is a good thing..) It’s done way more bad things to me, then good. I’ve missed out on a lot of opportunities because of it. In my life, almost anyone that has ever REALLY meant something to me, has always left. Because of that, I’ve learned to just rely on myself. As depressing as that sounds, it’s true. I think what messes us up the most, is we all have a perfect picture in our minds of how things are supposed to be. I’ve been through Hell and back this year, that’s for sure. I may come across as being strong, but I’m the farthest thing from it. In all honesty, I’m a hypocrite. I tell you not to do something, not to let things get to you, not to care about what other people think, to stay strong, do whatever you want to do, follow your heart, etc.. But I do the complete opposite. My decisions are based on what other people would want from me. I care about what people think about me, too much. Caring about what people think about me, pretty much takes over my life. I know I can’t impress everyone, and that bothers me. Up until about a year and a half ago, I truly never cared what people thought about me. But for some reason, I do now. Words can really make or break a person. I may come across as being confident, but I have a non-existent self-esteem. I don’t take compliments well, at all. I could give you the best advice in the world, but I would never take my own advice into consideration. I don’t get over things, even though I say I do. I just learn to accept things, and deal with the pain that follows. You can’t always change the situation you’re in, but you can change the way you handle yourself. I hope for the best, but expect the worst. It’s better to be surprised about things, than to be left disappointed. If I could change the way I think, I would. I don’t expect everyone to want to be there for me through anything I could possibly be going through, but I’ll tell you one thing. I’m here for ANYONE that ever needs a shoulder to cry on, or just anyone that wants to talk about anything. I know what it’s like to feel like you have no one, or to feel like you’re all alone. Well, you’re not. A little kindness can go a long way. Just being there for someone can mean a lot to one person. I know one day I’ll find out the meaning for my life that I live, but until then, I’m just taking life as it comes. I’m not wanting to make anyone depressed by reading this, haha. I just want people to know that looks can be deceiving. I’m sure by just looking at me, you’d never expect that I really think all of this. I’ll probably be looked at differently, but I guess that’s how you truly find out who is in your life for good, or not. Stay strong. Things really do get better, promise. ♥