The Bulldozer and The Crane

It’s the second to last day of this month of September. Yesterday was the day where I actually got to hear “Wake Me Up When September Ends” by Green Day. I was hoping this month would go by fast and almost gave up on my vow on myself to not be so depressed this month. I almost made it another dark month. Since it won’t be over until Saturday, I have until tomorrow to keep up my happiness, even though I’m slowly dying inside.

I wasn’t as depressed as I woke up this morning, but after looking around my room. It’s reminding me of good times I had with friends here. My mind obviously misses the good times too. Everything I tried to do in here still exists and everything I don’t want to miss still floats around in my head. I’ve got a picture on my floor that needs to be in another room. I’m listening to “Nobody’s Home” by Avril Lavigne, and even singing to it. It reflects my life right now. It’s so true for me.

I need another good day or night. I thought since both Linkin Park and The Vampire Diaries were going to be on my TV screen I was going to have a good day. Not looking like it. Maybe around 5 I’ll start to perk up because of Mad About You. I just need something good. A surprise that’s good to just take everything that’s bugging me away.


No More Sorrow

Its one of those rare days when both Linkin Park and The Vampire Diaries end up playing on the same day on my TV screen. One of my favorites on the DVD is “No More Sorrow” and the one that is playing right now, “Pushing Me Away.” Both are the best of the whole show in my opinion. Even though I haven’t been to a Linkin Park concert…yet. I’m not going to dwell that their concerts are over. They could still release their new album next year and freak all of us out. Anyways, I didn’t have intentions of talking about Linkin Park but obviously my feet just couldn’t help themselves. Blame it on the toes!

Last night I went to the Powder Puff Football game. Since last Friday’s football game sucked and I was pissed off at everybody that I have ever talked to, I didn’t expect to have a good time but I was going to be happy that I was getting out of the house. Even though my mom is sick she still managed to get both my sister and I out there so we can watch the girl’s play. I was somewhat excited, because I was getting the chance to see one of my friends I haven’t seen since the summer after I graduated from high school. She played last night and despite kind of rooting between the Junior’s (because my sister’s a Junior) and the Senior’s (because of my friend) they ended playing up against each other of who won this year. It was the Junior’s that won it.

So that happened last night. I only made two rounds, one with my sister and the other to go find my sister. By the last game against the first winning teams, I talked to two girls that I graduated with. Brittany and Emily. I didn’t talk much to Brittany, but Emily and I had a WHOLE conversation. Nice relieve, especially since I don’t normally talk to her much and haven’t see her either. She’s one crazy girl, but so fun to be around. I need to watch LMFAO’s music video to “Sexy And I Know It” according to her it’s pretty hilarious. Definitely going to have to watch that later.