Something I’ve done a long time ago, well wasn’t that long ago. More like four years ago and apparently I’ll never be able to forget about it because certain people in my family won’t let me down from the other choices I made concerning my situation. So anyways, hopefully somebody will take a note of this and learn from my stupid mistake.
When I was a freshman in high school. I had a crush, and not a small crush like I wanted. I had a big crush on this guy. I pretty muchh at the time liked everything about him. Including the fact he had the same P.E. class and lunch as me. I sat with my aide to eat but afterwards I sat with my friends and I’d ask them for advice to how to talk to him. I’m naturally a shy person at first. Face to face at least.
They helped somewhat. I wanted some more advice and decided to ask my mom and nana about what I should do. Well they wanted to know everything about this kid. At this point I couldn’t do anything but think about this kid or smile because everybody would know the reason of my smile. Anyways, I told them everything I knew about him. They told me to talk to him at lunch. Well I did and it was awful! I was so nervous and didn’t really get a chance to even talk to him. It was just bad.
So afterwards I thought about other ways to get him to talk to me. Since we didn’t have any classes together then it was even harder to talk to him. There was no way to talk to him in gym. That would be awkwards even though both teachers in there knew I had a crush on him. So I thought about writing him a note and giving it to him at lunch. I wrote this thing in like an hour and even had my mom proofread it for me. I gave it to him at lunch one day when I actually felt brave enough to do it.
After first semester was over, I got changed into this other resource room and I was excited to see him later on. Didn’t think the guy was going to be in a class where I had to do homework in. He walked in and sat down and my heart dropped. I remember coming home and telling my mom that he was in my class where I actually have homework in. When April came, I finally had the chance to talk to him and I succeed. Except to find out he already had a girlfriend. That tore me up. I was kicking myself for waiting so long and ruined my chances. I still talked to him and even got his cell phone number and called him every once and awhile. Screamed after he’d hung up. I made sure he hung up before I did it.