The Last Day

Today is Friday, it’s also the last day of September. It would be a nice day to hear “Wake Me Up When September Ends” by Green Day right about now. Instead I’m listening to “Been To Hell” by Hollywood Undead. I’ve been up since around 9 or 9:30am. Dad came in my room to take me to the bathroom before he went into town this morning. I probably got around five hours of sleep last night. My mom got less than me, but that’s understandable. After dad left, I got up and went on Twitter and Facebook. Realized that I forgot to grab a few things from my first Facebook before I deleted it last weekend. Including my drawing my friend did for me. Definitely need to keep that for sure. I reactivated that sucker again, and saved that picture and a few others. However, now that it’s windy here our internet wants to be a jerk and not work. So now I have both accounts open and I hope people don’t get confused.

I’ve been at my grandparent’s house most of the morning. Had lunch with them and my mom. My mom did some errands for them, but waiting to do the rest tomorrow when she’s got Emily with her to help. Mom went to the library earlier and got books for all three of us. She got four, and my sister and I got two. I have two by the same author and I don’t see myself getting through either one in a week like I did with Bristol’s book. I have Patricia McCormick’s books “Cut” and “Sold.” I was on Barnes & Nobles last month and found “Sold” and wanted to read it. “Cut” wasn’t on my list at first, mom found it and ordered it. What the hell though? I started reading that one first, just to see if it’s worth it.

Tonight is the Homecoming game for Football. I don’t know why I’m so excited for tonight. It’s just another game with a meaning. To me it’s another lonely night watching a sport game that I don’t understand. I should shut up because at least I’m getting out of the house. If it’s boring, then I’ll make my rounds but I’ll probably be disappointed by all the people who don’t want to talk to me and ignoring me the whole time. Hell, even smiling won’t work on these people anymore. Last weekend was funny though, the cheerleaders had Cheer Clinic for the little girls. This little girl at the game was at her mom’s leg not wanting to cheer and I went to smile and she gave me the most serious, frown I’ve ever seen in my life. It was priceless!

I’ll Help You Out, Even Before I Help Myself.

I’ve been a type of person that tries to make everybody happy. I will do anything in my power to get something to smile or laugh when they have a bad day. I’d rather do an all-nighter to save someone’s life or make it better than their day was. That’s just who I am. I’m a very understanding person. I care for everybody and try to help in anyway I can.

I’m also the type of person who forgives people. I’ve been pretty good about not holding guarges for too long. Some I just can’t seem to get over and then they’re some that are not worthy to keep anymore. I’ve been told to forgive people, by adults who haven’t even forgiven people who changed a part in their life. If you did something or they did to change your views on something, then that can teach you something. You learn from it, and then you move on. Simple as that.

I tend to give out more chances than two. Sometimes I give out three and I play it out like Baseball. There a lot of people in my life that I have given out more chances than anybody else. If you don’t give yourself or other people more chances than you lose a lot more than you gain. You lose a part of you whenever you give up on somerthing or someone. It could be good or bad. If it’s something you know or anybody else knows that’s not right than give them a chance to prove you wrong.

I give out advice a lot. Sometimes I don’t pay attention. believe, or do anything that I tell other people because of one known common fact. I’m stubborn. To one of my Twitter friends made me realize that what I did in high school to like me or notice me, was dumb. However now I can tell somebody who is going through that stage of wanting a guy to notice her to just relax and not over-think and make sure they don’t do what I did. It’s like their my kids. This is what I’d probably tell my kids. Just be yourself, stay confident, and DO NOT let anybody tell you different.

All you need in life is faith, some courage, and a way to get you out of misery when you’ve messed up something. Music was always my form of treatment. Nowadays, I use anything funny. Mostly Blue Collar Comedy Tour and Jeff Dunham. They work, trust me. If you’re in a jam and want to find ways to relieve it. I’m sure your family and friends will help you. If you don’t have anybody, click on my little “t” or “f”  for my Twitter and Facebook. Tell me what’s going on, and I’ll go from there. Three things before I go and leave this post. Relax. Breathe. Go For It.

The Bulldozer and The Crane

It’s the second to last day of this month of September. Yesterday was the day where I actually got to hear “Wake Me Up When September Ends” by Green Day. I was hoping this month would go by fast and almost gave up on my vow on myself to not be so depressed this month. I almost made it another dark month. Since it won’t be over until Saturday, I have until tomorrow to keep up my happiness, even though I’m slowly dying inside.

I wasn’t as depressed as I woke up this morning, but after looking around my room. It’s reminding me of good times I had with friends here. My mind obviously misses the good times too. Everything I tried to do in here still exists and everything I don’t want to miss still floats around in my head. I’ve got a picture on my floor that needs to be in another room. I’m listening to “Nobody’s Home” by Avril Lavigne, and even singing to it. It reflects my life right now. It’s so true for me.

I need another good day or night. I thought since both Linkin Park and The Vampire Diaries were going to be on my TV screen I was going to have a good day. Not looking like it. Maybe around 5 I’ll start to perk up because of Mad About You. I just need something good. A surprise that’s good to just take everything that’s bugging me away.


No More Sorrow

Its one of those rare days when both Linkin Park and The Vampire Diaries end up playing on the same day on my TV screen. One of my favorites on the DVD is “No More Sorrow” and the one that is playing right now, “Pushing Me Away.” Both are the best of the whole show in my opinion. Even though I haven’t been to a Linkin Park concert…yet. I’m not going to dwell that their concerts are over. They could still release their new album next year and freak all of us out. Anyways, I didn’t have intentions of talking about Linkin Park but obviously my feet just couldn’t help themselves. Blame it on the toes!

Last night I went to the Powder Puff Football game. Since last Friday’s football game sucked and I was pissed off at everybody that I have ever talked to, I didn’t expect to have a good time but I was going to be happy that I was getting out of the house. Even though my mom is sick she still managed to get both my sister and I out there so we can watch the girl’s play. I was somewhat excited, because I was getting the chance to see one of my friends I haven’t seen since the summer after I graduated from high school. She played last night and despite kind of rooting between the Junior’s (because my sister’s a Junior) and the Senior’s (because of my friend) they ended playing up against each other of who won this year. It was the Junior’s that won it.

So that happened last night. I only made two rounds, one with my sister and the other to go find my sister. By the last game against the first winning teams, I talked to two girls that I graduated with. Brittany and Emily. I didn’t talk much to Brittany, but Emily and I had a WHOLE conversation. Nice relieve, especially since I don’t normally talk to her much and haven’t see her either. She’s one crazy girl, but so fun to be around. I need to watch LMFAO’s music video to “Sexy And I Know It” according to her it’s pretty hilarious. Definitely going to have to watch that later.

Would you rather have one free trip or free international travel for life?

This is a wonderful question. I am loving having all these amazing friends all over the world. They are sweet and very bold people. So after thinking for an hour, even though it was an easy answer but I’d rather free international travel for life. I want to travel and that would make my life just a little easier. Because I wouldn’t actually have to worry about purchasing a plane ticket all the time. I’d just have to worry about my wheelchair, rods, bags, and wherever I’m going and hoping they are handicapped accesible. I don’t think I could do the “one free trip” because that would drive me crazy, and not cool.