Inside & Out.

Every girl looks at herself in the mirror. Once or twice a day. Sometimes even more. They take pictures of themselves throwing up a peace sign, showing off pregnant bellies, or two crazy best friends taking pictures of random things in the bathroo. These are what girls do on a regular basis.

Sometimes a mirror can represent something else. A mirror can represent the enemy to a girl’s body. A mirror shows them what they don’t want to see. Since our eyes are attached to our heads we can’t take them out to check ourselves. A mirror shows us what we hate. Lots of skinny girls think when they look in the mirror that they are fat. The scale will say 80-90 lbs but our minds say 125 lbs.

We are beautiful inside and out. This is a handicapped girl saying this too. I’ve never had the chance of looking at myself standing up and wondering how many pounds I should loose. I look at my feet and wonder how they would look like normal. I know weird right? I have a club foot thats why I said it. Both of my feet are deformed. So what?! I can write, draw, text and pick up things with my feet. Just like Bruno Mars said, “we are beautiful the way we are.” This mirror doesn’t have to be the enemy. Show that the mirror shows you that you’re beautiful. You are ugly, no your not!

You’re beautiful inside and out.

Mr. Playboy & His Tramp Wife-to-be.

Well I tried to come up with a good title. Everybody has heard about Hugh Hefner and Crystal Harris’ breakup just days before their wedding day. Did you see it coming? Oh, I did. I’ve got to see Crystal is a cheap whore. Fake blonde. With no morals. Why would someone break an old guy’s heart. I wonder if he saw it coming? I kind of want to know what the hell happened. I’m sure I’m not the only one, but I also have a feeling I’m not the only one thinking, Holly should date Hef again. They were just cute together.

The first time I watched “Girls Next Door” I actually didn’t understand Holly’s role in Hef’s life against Bridget and Kendra. I thought since they were dating all three should have the same attention, but then as I started watching it more I realized that their relationship was more solid than his relationship with Bridget and Kendra. Not to say he didn’t love them the same. Holly was just his number one and everybody was fine with that.

I remember my sister who was 12 at the time, getting me into “Girls Next Door.” We both liked Kendra but right when I was actually getting into it, our dad banned us from watching it. Just one thing, you can’t ban two girls from watching something when you have no control over the remote. Yes, of course he could have changed the protection locks, but I’ve found how to unlock it. I’m very quick at certain things so people shouldn’t underestimate me. I never liked after Holly, Bridget and Kendra left. The other three girls were ugly. Crystal just though she ran things. Honey, you’re not Holly, so you’ll never get to that point.

Ain’t it weird how I’m handicapped and I’m defending Hugh Hefner. I still think he should have a handicapped girl in “Playboy” but don’t look at me. I not as pretty as some of these girls. I’d do it if I knew it would help build more confidence in handicapped girls and women. My dad might have a cow, but oh well. It’s not like, I haven’t actually put any thought to this when I have. So there!

Awake But Not Alive.

I’m awake on the forth night. It started on Monday and worked all through the week. Today is Friday and it will be a boring one at that. My sleep schedule is so f*cked up right now. No need to text anybody because they won’t text you back. Can’t watch TV because the colors glare from the walls and everywhere else in the room. I almost can’t go on the laptop for that reason but I can turn the lights down just a bit. This is the time where I need a book or something. Because this getting nuts!

Now I first got up it just because I was trying to roll from one side of my bed without breaking one of my arms off. Then I had to fix my blanket and after that my left leg got really weak and afterwards I tried to use one of my I like to call them my “special dreams” and go from there, but hell, even that didn’t work either. So this is my last resort. Blogging about my sleeping habits. They’re not that interesting to talk about let’s just say that. Maybe I’ll come up with some good topics and titles like I named this one. I’m awake but I shouldn’t be counted as alive when I’ve been getting about four hours of sleep total tonight. Who knows if I’ll go back to sleep later.

So You Think You Can Dance: Results Show!

Melanie & Marko: Saved
Missy & Wadi: Saved
Iveta & Nick: Saved
Ashley & Chris: Saved
Jordan & Tadd: Bottom Three:
Caitlynn: Saved
(Mitchell) automatically in the bottom 3.
Clarice & Jess: Bottom Three:
Ryan & Ricky: Saved
Miranda & Robert: Bottom Three:
Sacha & Alexander: Saved

Mitchell & Robert: Dance again.

Eliminated But All Saved:


Since nobody went home this week two couples will leave next week.