Blessings In Disguise.

Erasing The Iris.

I’m on my third drawing and I’m feeling like it could be my last. I’m not even kidding. I’m just starting on it and I think I was getting too cocky yesterday. The entire head and nose were the only things that are starting to take shape and hopefully I don’t have to erase any part of the nose because I know if I do, I’m not going to be able to make it as good as when I first started. I’m actually kind of happy about his skull and the size of it, even though I think his mouth is really going to be the hardest part to figure out. I am at my third picture and my past two pictures only had the right eye in the drawings, this one has both and I can’t take one out because the dude has a mohawk. That would probably be the easiest part to draw and it isn’t in the picture I have.

I’m really worried about his eyes. I have to draw both eyes on him. I’ve attempted to about put both of them on four or five times. I was just starting it and thought to myself, “how in the world did I do that?” I got the nose and the outline of the eyes on the face. Then once I started shading the iris and everything that’s when it all went downhill. I even took a picture and send it to Facebook and I had erased that draft as well. I realized by the third round that I was too low from the boxes on my graphic that helps me figure out where everything is on each picture. I erased for the last time yesterday and raised them up and hoped for the best. The iris looks like crap and the shading of the eyes is going to be tricky.

Patience

Well I’m excited to announce that I am in fact drawing again. I am so excited too! I finally told myself to print off one picture and do it. I figured I won’t start on my big project until later because I still have pictures I need find. In all I want to do I got 15 people on my list. It seems like a lot. It is a lot. I’m not used to doing that amount, but I know I can do it with some strength and patience with others. I also have to be patient with myself too. Even though, I’m not the most patient person in the world I have to be patient with certain things. I have to remember what I learned in art in school. Shadows and shades of the pencil. I’m not using charcoal on any of these because I don’t know where to get them. I have to use a regular pencil instead of what I normally use. And most importantly go slow. Haha! That probably won’t happen.

You know how when you see something whether on TV or in a magazine or book, and you think oh, that’s cool! Yeah, in my mind whenever I find something “cool” to draw. It usually is somebody in the music industry. I have not drawn anyone in movies or TV yet. I also haven’t drawn anybody that’s a female either. I know, and I’m all for girl power and I still haven’t drawn Christina Aguilera yet?!?! What’s wrong with me, right? Well, it’s kind of easier for me to draw men, because most of the time they’re less detailed. I’ll probably regret saying this out loud later. Mark my words, I probably will. Because later on I will be drawing Slash. I’m so screwed! Anyways, the picture I have is in black and white. All my pictures will be that way, one is because we don’t have color ink and I’m just use to black and white from school.

I found this picture by a music video I have been watching for the past two weeks. I’ve watched the music video about 100 times now. The guy I’m drawing is very easily to point out and I love the looks he gives the camera so I fell head first and went looking for these looks on Google and Bing. Surprisingly, I couldn’t find them at all. The last place where I thought it would be was Twitter. I went looking for the guys in the band, and the last one I couldn’t find and when I did finally find him, he had the look he gave the camera in the music video as his default picture. I was so happy! Now it was time to find the other members pictures which was interesting. I had to go on Tumblr for theirs. The band has five members and if I don’t like how this one turns out I’m not moving on to the next one or next band. I’m going to make these look good whether it takes 400 times to do it. It will look good.

My Love/Hate Relationship With Art

In grade school my favorite class wasn’t lunch or recess, instead it was Art. My friend Ashlyn gave me a suggestion on my Twitter earlier. She gets very creative with these ideas, they’re definitely making me think. Today she told me to talk about my favorite thing to do as a kid and now and then compare each of them. Art, either it was drawing or painting I always loved it. Not necessary doing it myself, but I loved everybody’s else pictures. When I was in school besides writing, drawing was my second gift God blessed me with. Everybody was always amazed with me whenever I’d do both, but drawing was everybody’s favorite I think. My Art teacher in Elementary was Mrs. Hays. She was my favorite teacher out of like seven teachers I had. She always encouraged me on my artwork. She made me feel better after everybody watching me all the time while we worked on our projects.

When I got into middle school, we got into the 3-D type of projects. I noticed after my first attempt of making a cat in clay and it ended up looking like the Great Sphinx of Giza in Egypt. Except mine wasn’t suppose to end up like that and ironically enough the nose actually fell off when our teacher Mr. Ross welded them. We still have it somewhere, I actually hate it but everybody seems to still love it. It made realize that the 3-D projects were not for me. And I didn’t just do that one to make me realize it either. I made a box and cup and both of those were made by my aide. During my Junior year, I tried painting after five years of not painting at all. I did the ingredients of Salsa. We finally have those up after three years. I didn’t think I did well with those either so I never continued with painting.

Drawing, doodling for me is fun. It’s always been interesting what I’ll find and want to draw. When Senior year came I didn’t have art until second semester and I was worried that I’d never be able to have it then either with my ISTEP classes I had to have and others as well. When second semester came, I had ideas of what I wanted to draw and already had the pictures picked out. I was prepared. The only thing I was worried about was my teacher’s approval of the pictures. I had six guys I wanted to draw and only one picture out of the six was the original picture I picked out at first. Everybody’s would go back and forth. I got six portraits done in four months. Three of them were started a day after the other. My fourth was my shortest time, I did that one for three days. The longest amount of time was my last portrait and it took me two weeks. After I finished those drawings, I could have just stopped right there, but we had to have 9 to 11 projects.

Now I know you’re thinking, I only did six drawings, but however I did put two medias in one drawing. So it shortened my projects down a bit. When May came, my teacher didn’t want me to not do anything in his class so I had to find something else to draw. So I started searching for my best and favorite feature on a person: Eyes. I love eyes! With or without make up. I found hundreds of pictures but chose this picture of baby blue eyes. I already went into about this drawing a month ago, so I’m not going to talk about it again. After graduation, I vowed I was done was art. After years of people watching me and admiring my artwork I just stopped. I didn’t see the point of going on. The reason why is because when I was in class, even though everybody was admiring my artwork I was admiring their’s. I loved watching everybody else draw. It was more like envy, because they hated everytime I’d watch them. Thankfully, they never said anything about it, but I know the feeling of being watched and it sucks. Especially when you’re doing average things like writing and drawing.

So going back to Ashlyn’s topic. I have not gotten back into drawing. After two years, I’d like to start drawing again but I liked the fact that when I was in the class I had the teacher there to watch me and help me if I needed it. Which was often. I don’t think I can do it now. I already have pictures lined up in my head of who I want to draw. Everytime I look at different photography of people, I think “oh, that would be cool as a drawing.” Since I have a history of drawing celebrities like, my first was Justin Timberlake (Junior year) and Linkin Park (Senior year) they’re the first thing I want to do. I’ve been thinking of trying to go small, but that never happens in my case. There is one picture I’d just like to try to it’s a picture of James Michael. The lead singer of Sixx:A.M. I saw this picture and I literally went “I want to draw this” and then I start to get worried. Because all my doubts start flooding me and making me think twice about doing it on my own. This is what the picture looks like, it looks too detailed for me and my other drawings didn’t have that much detailed on them. See, all my doubts are coming in and making me think twice about it.