Red & Gold

It’s Monday and it has been one heck of a day. It wasn’t technically good, but it also wasn’t bad either. I think the people in Oklahoma have been having the worst two days of the season. All those tornadoes coming  around and that one that went through Moore, OK that went on for 2 1/2 miles. Damn! That’s crazy! Someone has done pissed off mother nature big time! I have heard practically all weekend long that we’re supposed to get some of these storms. After hearing about Moore when I got home from work, I am hoping they calm down a bit. I hate when serve storms come through at night. Because you know there’s no sleeping of any kind especially if takes out the power. My body has been hurting practically the last four days, and we’ve already establish this, I only get pain unless the weather changes. I haven’t been feeling much pain today, but that’s mostly because I’ve tried to block it out of my mind. It actually worked too until my mom came an hour earlier to get me. Everything came back after that. Please pray for the families in Oklahoma.

Today, while at work, I got my nails done. It was nails day for the lady residents. It kind of felt like I was in a salon and we were all getting our nails done there. Even though only two residents got their nails done, they were still pretty. One chose the color teal (which was very pretty!) and the other chose purple. Before the ladies came in though, the director asked if she wanted her to do my nails. I was a bit hesitated, because it’s not that I don’t allow people touching my hands and fingers. Usually people are too rough or too soft. I allowed her to do them, but it was very weird to have somebody do my nails. Most of the time, it’s usually, my mom, nana, sister or dad doing my nails for me. I’ve had different people do my nails before, like my friends and I remember having my nurses doing my nails when I had my surgeries. People generally think they’re going to break me. All I’ve got to say about that is, if I haven’t broken any of my bones yet, there’s a pretty big chance nobody’s going to break them either. Anyways, I chose both a red, and I mean like Dorothy’s ruby slippers (but without the glitter!) kind of polish. I also wanted to use the gold polish as well. Even though at first I didn’t think it was going to be a very noticeable gold. It was. I’ve been about using one shade on one nail then the other on the next. I wanted to change things up though.

I’ve been seeing on Pinterest about four nails in one design/color and one random finger is a totally different color. I knew she knew what I was talking about, so we decided on doing that to my nails. On both hands, the fourth finger is the red color and the other fingers are in gold. Now on my toes, we went about a different way, both of my pinkies are red and the other toes are gold. Kind of looks like they’re a long match. I think my nails look very classy and since I love the whole 1920′s flashy style, using the gold polish gives it that old fashion look. I am my mother’s child and I gotta love The Wizard Of Oz. However, I think I should keep my Wizard Of Oz references to myself since we’re supposed to get some of these infamous storms. I really don’t feel like going to Munckinland or much less deal with the Wicked Witch Of East right now.

The 18th Stands For Something, I Think.

I don’t know why, but I feel like today means something and I have no clue what it means. It’s one thing to know that I keep forgetting little things every now and then, but from the time I got up this morning and looked up at my clock and saw the date, something has been telling me today is supposed to mean something important apparently. I’ve pretty much just given up. I think it’s the number that is important, because for some reason this morning I said it was “February 18th” instead of “May 18th.” That’s the first thing that literally came out of my mouth this morning. I’m still stunned at myself. It’s just one of those days. I haven’t done much today. After my mom woke me up at 4am, and took me to the bathroom like normally. I went back to sleep after she left and I woke back up at 10:30am and it took my dad two hours to figure out I was awake. I am sneaky after all! The only thing I’ve done productive wise, beside sit myself up, was read two of my books.

I changed my original space on where I usually read my books. There’s not that many positions I can do when it comes to reading. I don’t have the pleasure of reading a book/e-reader while I’m lying on my bed and it’s on my chest. I can’t lay on my stomach and hold it that way either. When I read, for some reason I have to sit on the edge of my bed and proper it on my TV remote just so my light doesn’t glare on it. A few weeks ago, I was on my bed with Ivan laying on my legs and I couldn’t move much, so I sat back towards the wall and I got bored so I had my mom grab my Kindle and remote and started reading. Ivan was passed out so I knew I had some time to kill and there was nothing on. This time around, I didn’t have a kitten on my lap, but I was uncomfortable with my seating arrangement. So I came up with my first brilliant idea. I put my phone in one of my fuzzy socks. So it would be easier to carry around. I backed up towards the wall, got situated and realized that I was sitting directly underneath the air vent. So I thought I knew I wasn’t going to be able to put my blanket over my arms, so my second idea was to grab my pillow and set it against my arms.

So I had to lay down on my bed sideways, and grip the top of the pillow with my teeth and I had to sit up sideways. Thank god I know to do that. Once I sat up, I had to rearrange myself again and once I was fine I let go of the pillow gently I sat back up against the wall for probably an hour or so, in my room alone with the fan on. I must have some noise going on. I don’t like having music on, because I think I get more concerned what song is going to come on next instead of my book. Since I was sitting there for a while. I actually read two books. I read I think four chapters of the first book, which I started reading yesterday. After I started getting bored with that book. I switched over to my other book and read a few pages of that one. I’ve done that today and I haven’t even made it a month and I’ve already watched three different videos on YouTube that involved the cast of TVD. One was an hour-long and I still watched it. I took two breaks in between, but I still had to watch it. Now I’m going to go lay down and hope these mini back spasms go away soon.

The Dark Room Of Light, The Heavy Heart In A Weightless Body.

So it is finally Friday! For a lot of you, it’s probably payday and last day of classes. Or if you’re in my sister’s place for next the next couple of days, your finals have just started. When I was in school, finals were held in the middle of the second to last month of both semesters. Everybody would leave a few days early to start their vacation with their families. Well, my poor sister has her finals in her final week of high school. I haven’t really decided if this is such a good idea or not. Here is the reason why I don’t quite agree with this. During those last couple of weeks of school everybody usually skips and there’s no hope for the teachers to assign homework because their minds are more focused on other things than what they had learned all semester long. I can say all these things, because I went through this during second semester of my senior year. Also, every senior wants those few days of high school to go as smoothly as possible. They know its going to be sad leaving their everything behind, so they’d rather “party” with their classmates one last time like they did so many years ago. Now I am starting to sound older than I actually am. I’m sorry!

Today, it was errands and lunch with my grandparents’ day. When my mom got me up at 7:30am, my original plan was to go back to sleep, but after my mom left my room I started feeling more awake than I had planned on feeling. So I decided to stay up. I watched TV and spent most of my time on Pinterest this morning. I actually haven’t been on there since 4pm. New record for me. While I was sitting up, I kept getting little pains in my hips and back. It was kind of cloudy outside so I knew it was from the weather changing outside. I read one of my other books in my Kindle, so now I am reading three books. I think the two books I have in my Kindle are so alike in ways that I am getting a little bit overwhelmed with their stories. So I’m taking a break from both stories until I finish the one I’m reading now. After I read three chapters, I lie down on my bed and began to watch last night’s episode of Hannibal, am I the only one who was afraid that, that Tobias guy was going to kill Dr. Lecter? I did not think I’d get so into the show since I hate horror movies. Like I tell my mom, if you can get past the blood and gruesome parts the storyline’s not that bad. Actually interesting sometimes on how Will thinks about the killers and I am a little sad that he is getting more unstable by each episode.

My mom told me after she got up the second time that she wanted to sleep all day, but she knew she couldn’t. She got me dressed and put me in my wheelchair. As she was getting ready, I went into the kitchen to check on the kittens who were by Bootsie and when mom was watching them they were laying up against her and if I hadn’t run into the damn fridge I probably have gotten to see it myself, but nope. When my controller ran into the fridge, they all ran like a bunch rockets off the porch. The only ones I got to see were Winnie, Stef, and Ivan. When my mom was done getting ready, we went out the door and as I was on the front porch, I felt something wet on my nose and I thought that it was either bird poop or it was sprinkling. After I got off the ramp, I felt it again and so did my mom. So she put me in the truck and she drove my wheelchair back up the ramp and into the house. When we got nana’s, mom got us lunch and while we were eating, she went and did their errands. My nana had a lovely conversation and I got some things off my chest. I think after I had my ice cream, everything afterwards went downhill. I kept going blank through the last bit of our conversation. The weather was definitely getting to me.

When we got home, my mom fed two of our cats and I literally heard the words “I am a cat lady” come out of her mouth. When she was done with them, she put me in my room and laid down in there and relaxed a little bit. I listened to my iPod on my stereo and watched my shows. While I was watching the last bit of my show, my mom brought in my little buddy Ivan. She told me when she grabbed him he was asleep up against his brother and sisters. So when she put up against me, he instantly went back to sleep. After my mom put him back outside I ate a snack and went back to watching TV. I’ve spent most of my day talking and watching TV. I don’t know which ones of those is a bad thing. So now I’m sitting on my bed, listening to rock/metal playlist on Spotify. I don’t have anything on tonight. Did anybody watch The Vampire Diaries? Last season’s finale made more sense than that one did. I’m still confused. That picture quote was written by me. I wrote it last night in 20 minutes and I edited a few lines when I was making that. I hope to do another Picture It & Write sometime this weekend too!

Trying To Let It Go

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Apparently I had too much of a good day yesterday, because today is totally the opposite of it. I’ve been trying to be very positive about it and laugh it off, but I’ve had three strikes since 5am and I’m just about ready to give on everything. I do have a lot of negatives, but I do have two positive things that have happened. I finally finished Silver Linings Playbook and surprisingly once I started watching it I thought it was a little bit weird, but as I kept watching it, it started to get better and better. I loved and now understand why Jennifer Lawrence won Best Actress from an Academy Awards. It was new and such a perfect role for her. I’m used to her being in what I like to consider “teen” roles and everything. She was more mature and I actually bought it all. Honestly though, I didn’t like Bradley Cooper in the role of Pat. I don’t know why, but he was the only one I didn’t like out of all the characters in the movie. Overall though, I liked it. I didn’t exactly love it, but it was good.

While I was watching it this morning, I hadn’t gotten one of those “restart to update” pop ups like I usually do after a few weeks. Well I noticed my DVD messing up a little bit, but I thought that was caused by the storms we are having. I just let it go and then after when they were at the dancing scene, my DVD player gives me one of those pop ups and I hit postpone like I always do. After that it still continued to mess up and then it decided to stop altogether and restart itself. Apparently, I didn’t hit the damn button. So when it went to update itself I took the DVD out because I didn’t want to start itself off the bat when it comes back on. When it decided to come back on, the screen turned black and it started it was checking files. It’s never done that before (at least with me, it hasn’t) and I instantly start freaking out because I thought I did something wrong when I took out the DVD. My parents were also asleep so I thought I had broken to freaking thing. So I texted my aunt and told her about it and told her I was freaking out. She told me everything was normal and it would take a while to update. It took a while, but I kept myself talking to her on my phone for most of the morning just to calm myself down. When it came on the main page, not only did my Spotify automatically start-up but so did my DVD player even thought it didn’t have the movie inside.

Surprising that was my third negative thing to go wrong this morning. The first two things happened while I was trying to sleep. I was literally trying to sleep in this morning, but I failed miserably. At 5am, I was rolling around in my bed trying to get comfortable and when I finally got comfortable I kept hearing noises and they sounded near. I knew I had a fly or two in my room, but it was way too early for one of them to be buzzing around my room. At first I thought it was another bee trying to find a way out of my room and then my mind thought it was mouse and for some reason I kept wondering, can mice climb? I thought if it was a mouse, it better get brave and climb up to my bed. While I was thinking about all that stuff a bug was moving on my desk by my TV. I do have some light from the TV and it looked bigger than when I had my dad come in and kill it. After he got it, he took me to the bathroom and thought I was up half the night. I was wide awake and you would be wide awake too if you heard weird noises coming from different areas of your bedroom. I went back to bed, but got woken up at 9:30am by all these damn storms. I don’t normally like storms and I did have my TV on to drown out the sounds, but I kept freaking out a little bit. I am a wuss.

Back to the positive thing. After my laptop refresh its brain. When my Spotify came up, I thought since Five Finger Death Punch’s song was the only one I still waiting on to come on their band’s profile. I went to see that maybe I should have refreshed the damn page two days ago or not. What do you now, I checked and it was there. So I’ve listened to it three times this morning. I’m not ashamed about it at all. Now it’s 30 minutes until Dr. Phil comes on and I haven’t watched it all this week. I need my Dr. Phil fix this afternoon. Oh, and I’m sorry about the mix up. I swore last night was going to be the season finale of SVU, but it’s next week instead. Tonight, is the season finale (I know this one for sure) of The Vampire Diaries and I also have Hannibal too. I’m also going to try to remember about Slash being on Anger Management tonight. I haven’t watched very many episodes of this season and I don’t know why.