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Muzy

Muzy

So this is it, the one day probably everybody in my family is dreading. Except for my sister. Today is the day she graduates from high school. Twelve years of school is finally coming to a close. I still remember her going to preschool, carrying around her Pikachu backpack everywhere she went. The little blondie peepsquek walking around on her tippy toes like she owned the place. At the end of every year, we would always wonder if teachers she’d get because something about us sharing the same teacher was so neat. Weird, but neat. My sister ended up having three teachers I had when I was in Elementary school. When she started middle school, for the first two years, she was on the other side. There were two sides in each grade in middle school. I think we only shared one teacher and it was when she was in seventh grade. Her last year, she had almost every teacher I had. She took harder classes than I did.

When I became a senior, I wasn’t necessary excited about being in my last year of high school. I was excited to share my last high school experience with my sister. She was the freshman and for her first semester I had to see her before she left for third period and we actually had the same lunch. I would chat and check on how her day was. Since she’s always had to check on me growing up, it was interesting to become that big sister I really wanted to be. Even though I am older than her, she’s had to grow up a lot faster than she probably should have. When second semester started I hardly ever saw her after campus. Classes switched around and I had B lunch instead of A. I do remember hating that big change. Anyways, if I ever saw her it was on accident or she was cheering with the cheerleaders for the pep rallies. My mom had double duty, she had a senior and a freshman in high school. Two different grades, while I had graduation stuff I had to do, my sister had cheerleading stuff to do. I’m pretty sure my parents heads were spinning by the time I graduated. After that, they got somewhat of a break.

My sister didn’t want to take Driver’s Ed, but my mom and dad were kind of fed up with taking her everywhere and hearing her beg about hanging out with her friends. When my mom started giving her lessons, they would drive around the old Elementary school parking lot. One of the funniest memories of my sister’s mind while driving. She had to learn how to drive a stick, and my mom had asked her what does the letters mean, and when my mom asked “what was R?” Emily gave her probably the craziest answer ever. She said, “rotate.” That was the BIG joke in the family before she got her license. Even after that, certain family members would get her back for it. It was priceless! When she passed her driving test, everything my parents hated for driving her back and forth, they certainly wanted that back. As much as she drove them nuts, dad especially wanted tiny little Emily back. I’ve ridden in her car about twice and the first time I was a little nervous because she had to get me in and out of the car twice. Everytime she picked me up, I held my breath. Now I only hold my breath when we pull up to my nana’s house. She can lift me, but it’s a kind of difficult since she’s hardly done it.

Now everything is getting slower. Graduation day is one of the longest days ever! If you think getting through senior year is a long wait, that actual day is a bitch to get through. Because you’re so happy for it to happen, but once you put the cap and gown on, you immediately want to go back. Both grandparents are supposed to come, my mom and dad, and myself are all going. I’m not sitting with anybody. I like my seat on the edge of the bleachers. This is my eighth graduation I’ve been to so far. My last graduation will be next year because after next year I won’t know anybody graduating from high school. I’ve only caught myself crying twice earlier in the week. I haven’t done it since. I’m really hoping my dad gets so good gum before we leave for it. I need something to distract me from possibly making a fool out of me. It’s scary to think it’s been three years since I was in my sister’s place. Getting to the school and looking at everybody in their cap and gowns, it makes you sad. Once as graduation started though, it felt like it was never going to end. If you sit on the sides, it goes a little bit faster, but when you’re sitting in the actual ceremony, it takes FOREVER! When it’s at the end, everybody stands and everybody starts shaking their silly string cans to get them ready for the final fun they get to have together. After that, it turns into a magical moment. It’s the week after that makes you realize you graduated.

Heaven Bend To Take My Hand…

Today has been a good day. Despite the pain in my lower back and stomach, it went pretty good! I finally got to sleep in this morning. I went to bed at midnight, slept for most of the night, and remember waking up to turn over to my other side and falling back asleep. I got up at 10:30am. I was a freaking happy camper! I probably won’t be able to sleep in tomorrow morning, because we are doing things differently this week. My mom is doing my nana’s errands a day earlier and we’re having lunch too. Hopefully, we’ll be able to get Subway. I am in need of a Chicken Bacon Ranch wrap. I haven’t had one in a while. I have been having a slow but relaxing day. It’s even a Wednesday, and it’s just been a calming day. I like days like these. It gives my brain full of doubts a break from life. I wasn’t even going to do a proper post for today and just do a quote instead, but I did have two good things that happened today. So I have to share this.

My mom went out to do her errands a day early too. When she got back, she literally put bags in the kitchen. I heard her break up ice on our front porch and come back in. When she went out again, she came back into the house with little Wren. Thankfully, I know which of the gray kittens are which. Winnie and Wren are both gray with some white, but Winnie has some orange around her face. Wren only has white around her face. My mom and sister still get confused but I go by their first pictures. Anyways, she put her on my bed and the kitten wanted to explore. Luckily this one didn’t take a dive off my bed like Winnie did the day before. Winnie is a very curious kitten. She literally left my room. It was kind of cute to see something so tiny just escape my room. Wren wanted to go off the bed but my mom caught her just in time. When she took her back outside, she brought my kitty Ivan. He is my buddy. My mom said he probably won’t fall asleep so fast since when she grabbed him, he was wrestling with Oreo. When she put him on my bed, he started walking around and staring at me. I must have had one hell of a hair do since he kept looking at me and even tried climbing up my hands to get closer to my face. I love when he does that!

He stayed in my room, slept for more than three hours. He actually slept on the bed this around. I couldn’t lay down because he tends to run off when I do that. So that whole time I fought through the pain in my back just for this kitten. After my mom put him back outside. I laid down for a bit and decided to sit back up. I “played” on the laptop and listened to music. Finally, I got up and decided to take a break from the music and laptop altogether. I grabbed my Kindle and sat back against my wall and read almost three chapters. I am almost finished with one of the books. I can’t read three books at once. I can’t get my brain to store all the information from all three books. So I am sticking to my guns and keep reading the book I am reading, finish it, do a book review, and move on to the next one!

In about two hours, the season finale of Law & Order: Specials Victims Unit will be on. It’s another cliffhanger episode too. I hate those for season finales. Last night Dancing With The Stars crowned a new champion. It was probably the only time my mom and I were actually agreeing with each other. As much I loved Aly and Mark. Kellie and Derek deserved that trophy especially after that amazing freestyle. I couldn’t believe Aly and Mark got fourth place, because (and my mom agreed on this too!) Jacoby and Karina’s freestyle wasn’t as awesome as Aly and Mark’s. My mom and I really think Derek should come back next season! My mom and I’s tv shows are all ending, but we have Major Crimes coming back this summer!! I’ve got my first summer series starting up on the third, it is Push Girls. I haven’t been able to watch it. I have watched three episodes, but I haven’t watched the first season as a whole. So I’m hoping as June comes closer that maybe Sundance Channel will be doing reruns. I have been seeing WEtv has been showing some episodes too! They would come on the same time as DWTS. That sucked I gotta say! So far I have three or four summer shows. Another favorite will start-up again, Breaking Pointe on the CW. I have a new show on ABC (I think) called The Mistresses that I may watch too. The only show I know that doesn’t end this week is Hannibal. Thank God!

I Am The Voice

I have had another day where being productive isn’t in works either. I have to say though, I haven’t thought today meant something important like I did yesterday. I never figured out why I thought that yesterday meant something. Anyways, I spent most of my day with my sister and ChiChi. I also got reading done in one of my books. I think I like sitting up against the wall by my window and reading in peace. This time around though, I sat in my room with my fan on with the door wide open and there was nobody in the house. It was nice, until my sister came home. I forgot to grab my pillow beforehand but she did what I thought she would. I asked her if she could grab my pillow for me, when she did I had to stop her quick because she was going to put it behind my head but that’s not where I wanted it. I told her to put the top of the pillow by my mouth so I could rearrange it the way I wanted to. I sat with a pillow on my lap covering up my arms from the air. I have been sitting up instead of leaning back. I like putting my chin on the pillow too. Even though my hips kill afterwards, my head is comfortable.

I found this song last night on Spotify and I’m already trying to learn the lyrics. I love everything about this song. It’s so different and beautiful!

The Dark Room Of Light, The Heavy Heart In A Weightless Body.

poemSo it is finally Friday! For a lot of you, it’s probably payday and last day of classes. Or if you’re in my sister’s place for next the next couple of days, your finals have just started. When I was in school, finals were held in the middle of the second to last month of both semesters. Everybody would leave a few days early to start their vacation with their families. Well, my poor sister has her finals in her final week of high school. I haven’t really decided if this is such a good idea or not. Here is the reason why I don’t quite agree with this. During those last couple of weeks of school everybody usually skips and there’s no hope for the teachers to assign homework because their minds are more focused on other things than what they had learned all semester long. I can say all these things, because I went through this during second semester of my senior year. Also, every senior wants those few days of high school to go as smoothly as possible. They know its going to be sad leaving their everything behind, so they’d rather “party” with their classmates one last time like they did so many years ago. Now I am starting to sound older than I actually am. I’m sorry!

Today, it was errands and lunch with my grandparents’ day. When my mom got me up at 7:30am, my original plan was to go back to sleep, but after my mom left my room I started feeling more awake than I had planned on feeling. So I decided to stay up. I watched TV and spent most of my time on Pinterest this morning. I actually haven’t been on there since 4pm. New record for me. While I was sitting up, I kept getting little pains in my hips and back. It was kind of cloudy outside so I knew it was from the weather changing outside. I read one of my other books in my Kindle, so now I am reading three books. I think the two books I have in my Kindle are so alike in ways that I am getting a little bit overwhelmed with their stories. So I’m taking a break from both stories until I finish the one I’m reading now. After I read three chapters, I lie down on my bed and began to watch last night’s episode of Hannibal, am I the only one who was afraid that, that Tobias guy was going to kill Dr. Lecter? I did not think I’d get so into the show since I hate horror movies. Like I tell my mom, if you can get past the blood and gruesome parts the storyline’s not that bad. Actually interesting sometimes on how Will thinks about the killers and I am a little sad that he is getting more unstable by each episode.

My mom told me after she got up the second time that she wanted to sleep all day, but she knew she couldn’t. She got me dressed and put me in my wheelchair. As she was getting ready, I went into the kitchen to check on the kittens who were by Bootsie and when mom was watching them they were laying up against her and if I hadn’t run into the damn fridge I probably have gotten to see it myself, but nope. When my controller ran into the fridge, they all ran like a bunch rockets off the porch. The only ones I got to see were Winnie, Stef, and Ivan. When my mom was done getting ready, we went out the door and as I was on the front porch, I felt something wet on my nose and I thought that it was either bird poop or it was sprinkling. After I got off the ramp, I felt it again and so did my mom. So she put me in the truck and she drove my wheelchair back up the ramp and into the house. When we got nana’s, mom got us lunch and while we were eating, she went and did their errands. My nana had a lovely conversation and I got some things off my chest. I think after I had my ice cream, everything afterwards went downhill. I kept going blank through the last bit of our conversation. The weather was definitely getting to me.

When we got home, my mom fed two of our cats and I literally heard the words “I am a cat lady” come out of her mouth. When she was done with them, she put me in my room and laid down in there and relaxed a little bit. I listened to my iPod on my stereo and watched my shows. While I was watching the last bit of my show, my mom brought in my little buddy Ivan. She told me when she grabbed him he was asleep up against his brother and sisters. So when she put up against me, he instantly went back to sleep. After my mom put him back outside I ate a snack and went back to watching TV. I’ve spent most of my day talking and watching TV. I don’t know which ones of those is a bad thing. So now I’m sitting on my bed, listening to rock/metal playlist on Spotify. I don’t have anything on tonight. Did anybody watch The Vampire Diaries? Last season’s finale made more sense than that one did. I’m still confused. That picture quote was written by me. I wrote it last night in 20 minutes and I edited a few lines when I was making that. I hope to do another Picture It & Write sometime this weekend too!